I HATE THA FRIGGIN BITCH !

NUMPY BEAR . why are you ignoring / avoiding ME ? herhs . FINE be that way see if i care . to think of all those sick days we had together . and all the times you 'married' and 'divorced' me . it was so great . too bad we won't be in the same class anymore . im going to 2c . bwahwahwahhs . NOT FAIR . and you know what i found out . my bro DESTRYED my drawing . he erase something out of it . actually i didnt even know . but then the ass of him let it out . he is so bad at lying . so very bad . he should learn from me . my grannys maid taught me how to lie since i could talk . had lots and lots of experiance . yep . certainly did . x)) . its finally chirstmas . BUT . whats with you guys . my presents are so UNDER my expectations . i recieved like only what ? two presents so far . cmon . you guys cant be THAT hurting for that thang i call money . a nice ten bucks would have been enough . anyways . i already got your prezzie aileenie . so i got one for aileenie one for weixinie . which is left for the byjeie . no idea how you would pronounce it . but well im on a 'ie'ing streak . so heck . oyeah . you now something me and my bro did that was totally crasy . we bought a can of pink hair spray . and sprayed our whole head pink . ok it wasnt exactly whole head . but it was close . so if on christmas eve you see some freaks with pink hair (plus it was hot pink) (my bro was nuts) that be us . x)) . but it was fun to see peoples reactions . and those reactions were pretty BIG . especially from our relatives . hahas . you should have seen their faces . you could frame it up forever . muahahahaa . im suck an evil freak . yes . i am . cant deny it anymore . x)) . sheesh . im so sickly happy you could puke . dont even ask me why im happy . i have no idea either . sighs . gotta go wash the dishes . there goes my happy mood down the drain with the rest of the left over food .

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!

if only loving someone could be as easy as THAT . life would be so much simpler and happier . <3

ok so im not as tired as i think i am . (((=

a smile is just a mask to hide your sorrow

yes people . IM BACK . i know you guys missed me . awws . anyways the trip to aust was AWESOME . especially the shopping parts . hahas . so in total spent . TEN days there . hahas . bought lots of chocolattes , gums and CLOTHES . hahas . yes wei xin . i bought some more clothes to stuff into my already very stuffed closet . amazing . hahas . i bought 4 skirts . 4 sleeveless . 1 tee . 1 pants . quite alot huh . and i bought like one whole big bag of earings . sheesh . im such a killer for earings . and i brought back about a ton of chocolate and gum . hahas . go on . DROOL . yehs . and guess what . the first person to greet me online was mr bhb . yes . my big hot boobs . and it wasnt to welcome me back either . he asked me to help him scan the holiday worksheets for him . AGAIN . only this time it was science . (the last time it was english) . and the only reason i actually agreed to scan it for him was cos . ... . wells . i didnt even start on it . so like it wasnt as if i was actually giving him answers . i was just giving him blank sheets . and im like SO DEAD . schools starting soon and i havent even started . guess i dont have to patience determination . etc etc . and well to put in a simpler way im LAZY . xPpP . bleahs . i could finish it all in one day . but well . who wants to be stuck doing homework when you can be doing much more great stuff rights . hahas . ok . i shouldnt influence the rest of you guys . hahas . ok im starting to feel tired now . i know ! its only 10 for petes sake . but well australia's 3 hours ahead so its like one in the morning there . yawns . nights then i guess . gotta go dream bout the chocolatte gum shopping AND the nice cooling weather there .

rtist: Hillsong United
Album: Look To You
Track: Tell The World That

Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

Running After You - Planet Shakers

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
I'm running after You

Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You i'm following today
'Cause i'm running after you

breakfast = strepsils
lunch = strepsils
tea break = strepsils
dinner = strepsils
supper = strepsils

haixx . why cant people be more understanding and try to at least see points from your view . why do people have to be dog damn selfish . why . that stupid ass brother of mind is one of those people . pushed me off to this comp again . while he uses the better one . its not fair . anyways . dad just called to say that we're going to chinatown to have dinner . yummy . hahas . hmms . this year for christmas . im gonna do something . good . ^ ^ . hahas . instead of only recieving christmas cards . im gonna sent them too . whee~ hahas . sighs . but now life is boring . haii . actually thats and understatement . life is totally boring . since i've been grounded of cos . im not supposed to use the comp to . but whatevers . noones at home . noone will know . noone will care . yumm . now eating instant noodle . hahas . chicken instant noodles . x)) . with fishballs past their expiry date . fishBALLS . expired fishBALLS . hahas . ok im starting to sound sick again . its been a long time since i.ve been talking sick talk . the last time was during school . kays so i miss school . bleahxx . i never thought i would say that . arhhs . yays . hahas i painted my fingernails white . now it looks like i played with correction fluid . and guess what my bro said . i should have painted black . cos is more me . then can sure my true colours . my evilness . SHIT HIM LAR . want to say i evil then say straight foward lar . no need to go one big round just to insult me . sheesh . GEES . cant guys just be straight . why do they always have to go one BIG round . its so fraustrating . and oyars . i had one hell of a freaky dream last night . i dreamt of this guy(and i know this guy) wearing a tutu . its so wierd . hahas . SHIT ! my bro is trying to compete with me . i blast my music he try to blast his louder . but of cos mine will always be louder . since i have the better speakers hahas . i guess thats one of the good advatages of the mac hahas . xPpP . haiis .

upon request . i have decided to dedicate this WHOLE post to Sonjia Yam Li (dash?) Mun . ok i thinks that how you spell it . anyways . this post is gonna be ALL about her greatness . evilness . crappyness . craziness . and well all the other nesses she has . which come to think of it is actually quite alot . so well . wont go into details about it . if not it would take all night . she should be very honoured . im writing this post at 12 something . i stayed THIS late to write this FOR her . so she should be honoured . VERY honoured . its not like i do this often . the only people i ever wrote posts totally dedicated to are mostly to my(idiot dumb freakin as of a)brother . HIM . ahma(though im not supposed to call him that anymore . but whatevers) . and wells . HIM again . so she really should thank me . anyways . back to the main thingie . we're here to talk about sonn . a sweet little girl . who sometimes take(a little too much if you ask me) joy in seeing other peoples life "get interesting" . really . plus shes DAMN crappy . you want to know how crappy . she was the one(with me of cos) who founded the Ass Acadamy . which is as you can tell . where aspiring asses go to to recieve the proper treatment to become full fledged asses . hahas . sounds damn sick . euww . hahas . ok im getting out of point again . you know what . because i've been typing this for you . i just broke a freaking damn nail . i broke a nail for YOU ok . anyways mums nagging me to go off the com . cya .

now its almost 12 midnight . recieved an sms frm HIM . i dunno why he keeps doing that . keep tormenting me . keep hurting me . keep making me cry . i have totally no idea why . everytime i try to forget him . and almost suceed . he appears again . and the whole painful process starts all over again . i just want to hate him . but i cant . i just want to ignore him . but i cant . i just want things to be normal again . i want things to be the way it was before i met him . but i know . because of him . its not possible now . for him i have had many sleepless nights . many happyless days . i have no idea how many times i cried . just because of him . its really painful you know . i just want to forget him . want to get rid of him . but everytime i try i never suceed . its hopeless . everytime he appears again . i cant seem to push him away . no matter how hard i try . i'll just go back to him . only to be rejected once again . it's terrifying how just this one person can cause so much change in my life . its amazing how this one person can inflict so much hurt and pain unto me . i've never felt this weak before . im exhausted . im tired of trying to run away . im tired of hidding in a corner . but i still i cant seem to face him . when im in his presence i just totally ... i dunno . cant seem to find any word to describe it . but even though i keep getting hurt . i still cant help but hope that . i can still be with him . i know its silly of me . or even stupid . but . i dunno . theres just this glimmer of hope . cos when im with him . everything is good again . i just feel great . but without him . theres always a part of me that is empty . always a part of me longing for something . sighs . but what would he want with me . nothing . to him im just a stupid little girl . he sees nothing in me . ok . i sound so stupid and dumb right . i mean . here am i falling hopelessly for this guy who doesnt even see me . ok he does see me . if not why is he always smsing me . especially when i just started to forget him . up he appears again . like some bouncing bunny in a freaking magicians hat . I SO HATE HIM . i really do . i keep telling it to myself . to make me belive it . except . i dont mean it at all . i dont mean it at all .

let me tell you something MR A*** . you are so OBVIOUS . PLEASE lar . you know that you are damn unfaithful . first you like a MS M****** . then in comes in the beautiful the wonderful MS W** . and you dumped MS M****** like hot potato . (but then who can blame you lar MS W** is GREAT) . but you didnt need to get jealousy you know . on her kor too . how cheap can to get . ok im no longer making sense . but whatevers . you know what i am so HOPELESS . i just got beaten up by my brother . my younger brother . ok like i keep talking about how he bullies me right . hmmz . time for things to change a little here . now its my turn to do the bullying . i've been to hopeless useless and all the other lesses . i mean i've been bullied by my TWO year old cousin . that must say something rights . i mean a two year old and a ten year old . and i havent even started metioning friends . ok . IM DETERMINED . to not be a lesses anymore . hahas . ok that sounds sick . anyways today also had tuition . was totally boring . BLEAHSs . next year i think i'll still be continuing with this tuition . BUT . my mums thinking of puting my bro into one to one tuition . HAHS . cos he failed his chinese AGAIN . come to think of it . the only times when he pass his chinese was when he was in pri one and two . hahas . xPp . im being mean again .

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

SOLDIER - HILLSONG UNITED

Can't nobody stop me now
Cause i'm a part of the army now
Praise the Lord is what i'm gonna shout
Even in a crowd i'm gonna sing it loud

You can see what you want to see
But i know what He's done for me
Every day i can feel His power
'cause the spirit of the Lord
He lifts me higher

All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him
All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him now

My God is the strongest tower
Turn to Him in the scary hour
Even when it gets harder now
All i wanna do is just praise Him louder

Keep singing 'til my voice run out
Keep running 'til He lifts me out
Keep singing it cause i can't stop
Oh, i can't stop

You got to give your self up
You got to lose your pride
You got to see it different
Open up your spiritual eyes

The devil wants you beaten
He wants you lying, cheating
But that won't last much longer
My Dad is bigger, stronger

Sound off, 1, 2, sound off, 3, 4
Bring it on down, 1, 2, 3, 4... 1, 2...3, 4

you know what shes such a . ***** . (or acording to sonn , a female chihuahua) . one minute say if i want to go for the dinner must do housework . then i clean up the whole house finish . what she say ? (oyar . happy birthday lorraine and alton) . cannot go . you only thirteen years old . all the rest going all older then you . then some more go untill marina so far . and so late also . so CANNOT . so female chihuahua rights . and she said . anyway im going to be working that night and you have to take care of your brother (who by the way can totally take care of himself . cmon lar his 10 already . not 4 anymore) . and besides . i've been out till later then ten lar . so its so obvious she just doesnt want me to go . instead she wants me to stay at home cook dinner . and do the laundry . parents are so obvious you know . they are so TRANSPARENT . xPp . thank goodness she doesnt know my blog add . if not i be dead . but then i can just tell her my bro's one . then he be dead too ! ! im so evil . bleahxx .

i think i just killed my "dearest ahma" . i think i just murdered him . SORRY AHMA ! not my fault lar . who ask you be such a jerk . keep breaking little girls hearts . ahma . how can you do that . supposed to be my role model lehs . tsktsk . i know lar . i shouldnt have encouraged her to hate you . but what could i do . she say until like so ke lian . so convincing . nvm lar . you wont blame me right . besides you havent been a very good ahma . hahas . anyway a word of warning . you might want to wear extra protection when going out . i think she mentioned something bout going round looking for you with a baseball bat . GOOD LUCK . dun die before cny . i want my hong bao .

ok last night . as in late LATE in the night . at like 12 . i had a very serious talk with sonn . we talked about a very serious subject . the subject on why do parents love tormenting their kids so much . isnt it serious ? so this is going to be a very serious post . im not going to type any laughing words . AT ALL . "why do parents like to make their kids life hell?" . let me give you some equations . to parents "children" = "maids" . "more children" = "more maids" . preety easy equations right . easier then algebra . parents say : "as part of the family you have to do your part . you have do your chores" . ok . so we do our chores . what do our parents do ? they sit down on the comfy couch and watch tv . while we sweep up after them . arent they part of the family too . when they say they are busy and they need you to help cook dinner . what do they really mean ? it probably means : they need to go sleep . and parents are always asking you not to ask too many questions . they have their privacy . yes of course i respect they . but they didnt need to go read my smses and read my mail . wheres my privacy then . they are always saying stuff like . : "you are still young . for goodness sake . you are 13 only . can you stop doing such mature stuff . you are not old enough to do them" . ok so i listen to them . and what do they say ? : "can you stop being so childish . for goodness sake . you are already 13 . can you grow up" . theres just now pleasing them . and YES . there is still more . parents are so damn pian xin . so damn bias . they are always like . : "how can you teach your brother to be like that ? you as and elder must set a good example" . in my opinion . they aint setting that a perfect example too . ok end this post here .

yays ! last night went shopping and bought a blue hoodie ! x) . i still want some more ! i want a pink one . a black one and a white one ! im such a greedy pig . xPp . you know how damn freaking smart my borther is . he woke up at 7 today and started using the comp . i woke up at 10 then he said first come first serve . so i have to use THIS comp . which is ok and stuff . but its a macintosh . so like cant really do much with it . since most of the stuff i want to do doesnt seem to work with this comp . my damn bro took the windows one . slap him lar . *piakpiak* . o yar . now i remember . during camp i actually found someone more bhb then ching sheng . hahas . incredible isnt it . that someone could actually have a bigger ego then his already very big ego . hahas . the only reason i dare to write out ching shengs name is cause he wont take any offense . he takes pride in his big ego . how BIG can he get . ok that sounds sick . but whatever . thats true bhbness . SEE . im not the most bhb person there is . there are soo many people worse then me . but of cos without me the world wouldnt be able to function properly lar . hahas . bleahx . xPp . hmmz . now my bro is like using the other comp to play some war game . and well so far his losing . his been playing since like 7 till now . and he hasnt even won once . says alot huh . hahas . i need someone to pei wo go shopping ! i like saved up to 300 big ones . i still need to go buy christmas presents . hmmz . that means about 200 plus left for me . and wx and byje are supposed to come to my house . that byje lar . busy woman . everytime cannot make it want . and im also supposed to go out with sarah ! but im going off to aust this sat . for like ten days . omg . i still need to do my homework . im like so dead . i still have so many things to do . and PEOPLE said i was so free . hmmz . at least liyan has paid me back my ten bucks . x)) im ten bucks richer . whee~ . hahas . and where got i loan shark arhs . you make me your punching bag havent suan zhang yet . o yeah . im alos the atm machine yar . see . i have soo many jobs . hahas . ok thats lame . im being LAME . and now SPASTIC too . but WHATEVER . im now insanely crasy . if that means anything . xPP .

ok . actually last night i was supposed to post another post instead of the ahma post . but i couldnt take it lar . hahas dun want to talk about him already . yesterday got back frm camp . hahas . it was totally cool lar . met lots of new friends too . too bad it ended so early . actually at first didnt really like it there and stuff . oyeah and fell sick . sighs . everytime i go for camp i ALWAYS fall sick . but then later no more sick so liked it alot better . it would have been alot better if SOMEONE also came . but THAT person just kept making EXCUSES . so whatever . anyway the camp was totally fun . like did alot of stuff . and the sessions were really good . could feel Gods presence there . and all the campers were very friendly and stuff . hahas . who ask YOU never go . huo gai arhs . xPp . yeah last night slept at 1 something lar . then my mum was like nagging cos i was in front fo the comp sneezing and coughing . hahas . she say i dun let everybody else sleep also . so in the end have no choice go to sleep lors . hee~ . yeah . so now im sick . my throat is like so sore . and now my voice is like a guys . anyways . last night xin ask me go read someones blog . and i went to read it . is like SO TOUCHING . sobs . cry for that person arh . the persons heart got broken . i can so understand how he felt lar . but my situation wasnt as bad as his . it was SO SAD . and even though he heart was broken by someone else . he still kept loving her and praying for her . like kept wishing her well . ok so i know the HER person . and i know the her person isnt bad and stuff . cmon lar . i knew her for like half my life . pratically . but is like how could she do that . she broke his heart . after all they've been together too . i thought they would always be together lar . but well . nothing ever lasts forever . and i better then anyone should know that better . hahas . people are always changing . when you think that you know a person really well . later on you will find out that you dont know him at all . when you really begin to think that you are finally a part of his life but suddenly he tells you you are nothing to him . when he opens up to you and you feel that finally he sees you . only later he says nothing and leaves you all alone once again . yeah something like that . the process is long and painful . you feel like yelling at the person to stop hurting you and bashing the person up . yet evertime for even that second that he comes back to you . your love for him just rushes out again . and everytime he leaves you . you cant help but hope he will return even when you know after he returns he will just leave you again . you know that he will never ever love you back . but you just cant stop loveing him . and you just cant stop hoping that he will one day love you the same way you love him . though he probably never will . you cant help wishing for it . its all painful . and it hurts all the time . you always wish he would come back but scared that it will hurt . to love someone is the must hurting thing you can ever do to yourself . but you just cant help it . you just can help loving him . you dont care about the pain . you are willing to suffer for HIM . as long as you get even one secong with him . you're willing to brave through all difficulties just for him . just to bad he doesnt realize anything . to him you are as important as the dirt on his feet . you are not important to him all . too bad i had to go through all that before i realized what happen . just too bad

I CANT BELIVE IT ! MY [short , crappy , naggy] AHMA BROKE A LITTLE INNOCENT GIRLS HEART ! how can you do that lar ahma . you supposed to set a good example le . you do that how i follow you arh . so EVIL . i disown you arh . but then is supposed to be the other way round right . hmmz . AHMA ! ! .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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