yays . its chinese new year . whoots . not bad buisness this year . got four hundred plus already . and its only the second day . oyeah . later going to some long lost grand aunts house . gonna get somemore hong baos . uhuh . its gonna be so good . now watching some dvd . serenity the name i think . some sci fic show .

man yesterday went to china town . was so crowded lar . and so HOT . had to like move inch by inch lar . gee .

YAYS . i finally updated my links . now its new and precise . and sebas thanks so much . really from the bottom of my heart . not as in the sarcastic way . you really helped me alot . and listened to me . thanks for not . daoing me . like some certain kor i have . SHEESH .

yays . ok today had chinese new year celebrations . wore some indian costume to shool . most people wore indian costumes too . x)) . WHOOTS . and today dont have lessons too . x)) YAYS . hmms . after school went over to sarahs house . watched a movie . white chicks . watched it like five times already . but it still rocks . x)) . later going out to china town i think . SMILE .

sharks sharks sharks fishes . first thing i want to say . those two people are just damn frigging liars . kiss my arse lar . ok . done with that . another first thing . I LOVE YOU GENIE BABY ! YOU ROCK ! x)) . ok now back to sharks sharks sharks fin soup . school is so damn tiring . feel like dying man . their like piling us up with tests and projects . its like one after another lar . CAN DIE . and plus their all almost due on the same week . like next week . and i havent even done a single thing . im so DEAD . (and ahma is SO BLUR) . (ok out of point) . anyways . sheesh . no wonder i havent been blogging for so long . its like been weeks since i touched the computer . ok it FELT like weeks . know the reason why . cos my damn smart ass mutt of my brother has been hogging the comp . hes like sitting there from when he comes back from school to 7 at night . then the rents want to use it . so im stuck with erm . NOTHING . so unfair . life is SO unfair . well it always was . just more now then ever . omfg . i still cant belive it lar . chio bu is like such a romantic freak . he does so much to please *girl* . you could WEEP . HAH . but he still treats me like . this bad person . no ailien from outer space . shit him lar . im nice ok . im not all that bad . you just never give me a chance . gtg . needa do more . EEKS . work . stupid arse teachers . trying to drown us . MURDER . we drink to drown uor sorrow . not do your frigging homework .

yesterday was markus birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARKUS ! today is jonathans birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN . and next its wennys birthday . wanna guess what im gonna get her . COOKIES . especially the amos variety yeah . x)) . whoots ! i feel so happy . i ruined your life . i told amos your blog wenny . (( x . im so proud of myself . and i do not like c******* . BLAHS . hmms . today dads coming back from china . later going to go to the airport to pick him up . eating dinner at the airport too . yummy . i have a feeling we're eating sushi . yes . be jealous of me . i totally love my class now . we've suddenly become so united . so great . but its like we're being flooded with projects . ARHHS . one after another . IM DROWNING . anyways now im going to the airport . see all the airplanes . whee~

OMFG . IRWIN LIKES CHERYL CHIA !

im so uber duber pissed off . that freaking bitch backstabbed me lar . damn her lar . she the one who suggested it and go amke me do it lar . then when something went wrong go say is my idea . say that i should take resbonsibility and take the full blame . say what i so irresponsible never own up . then some more tell everyone im such a bitch . never ever do anything . always push the blame unto everyone else . bitch lar she . should have known better . next time i'll watch out for her .

yesterday i had training . and you know what i realised . volleyballers can be real bitches sometimes . like what i learnt is . if you aggrevate one of the volleyballers . the whole team's gonna get you . and its soo bad . like the whole training they were asking wether you like this girl . cos they thought she was such a tight bitch . always whining and complaining . and thinking she was so good . honestly to say . i know this girl and i think shes ok . shes actually pretty nice . well thats to me . i guess you gotta be in their shoes to see it their way huh . sighs . i better be prepared . must watch my step . i have no idea when it will be me . hmms . oyes . the guys today were soo sick . in english class the whole row at the back started laughing and screaming . they were all playing with something . wanna guess . condoms . ok so its not that sick . but did they have to play it in english class . sheesh . anyways . today was suppose to have d and t project meeting . in the end we went to plaza sing to take neo prints . then when back to my house . and didnt do anything . sighs . we are SO gonna fail this project . we have like tons of projects this year . can die arhs . then some more all the tourneys starting . PRESSURE . sinking in it man . i just realised something . my brothers a gay . plus he loves being called a gay . what can be more gay then that . sighs . what genes when wrong . i mean i turned up straight . and im dead straight . while my brothers like . GAY . not the happy kind either . and hes always acting the innocent angel bunny . even though hes more like evil underwear gay . like SO OPPOSITE . then some more . hes always finding ways to get on peoples nerves . (ok so its mostly mine) . what does he do . invite his kiddiwinky friends over . and disturb me . they hog the computer . and blast it out loud full volume . when im trying to be a good girl and actually try to study . who can study in an enviroment like that . its no wonder im failing everything . and my mum actually encourages my brother to bring home more friends . and when i bring home friends shes like all black face and stuff . always scolding me in front of them and scolding them too . make me look so small lar . damn pai seh . fish her lar . always so pian xin . always side my brother . " hes your brother . must show more care and concern . must give way to him " what shit lar . care and concern my foot . then whos gonna show me care and concern . dont i get a piece too . no i dont . i dont even get a crumb . while my brother ? he gets a big fat slice . herhs . dont want to talk about him . talk about nicer things . things that dont come from hell . x)) . oyar . today so yj in school again . (this is not that ahma yj) . (its another yj . even shorter and cuter) . (why are all yjs SHORT) . (no offence) . ANYWAY . i didnt know he was in fairfield lar . this year sec 1 . i so lonf never see him in church then see him in school like so wierd . at first couldnt even recognise him lar . like look look look then realise its " OHH ITS HIM " . im soo blur* lar . eeks . you know what . the more i look at him the more he reminds me of ' chio bu ' . i dunno why lar . i find them damn alike . then i also met this girl . she remembered me then call out to me . i like find her really familiar . i think her name is shanny or something . i forgot where i met her . i think it was at a camp or something . x)) . she still remembered me . conclusion . i have my memory SUCKS . anyways gotta go eat some dinner . tummys growling . grrr . rumble rumble .

you know what . i just realized something . im really hopeless . i want to learn how to play the guitar but i dunno how to strum . sheesh .

shit . volleyball tourney is like two days away . thursday . and im still so blur bout the positions and stuff . well its not exactly my fault . that wei hong lar . he put me one place then when i got familiar with it . he go change me again . there like today he change me again lar . dunno what he trying to do lar . trying to make me understand or just making my life misirable . sheesh . and all my team mates damn angry at me lar . everytime i miss the ball theres like five pairs of eyes staring at me . not my fault what . they know i suck at it then they still ask me to go "gang" the ball . dunno what they thinking lar . know that i cannot do it then go ask me to do it then i cannot then they glare at me . sighs . why did i join volleyball . why didnt i become a nice little librarian and stay in the cooling library instead . hmms . at least im still doing all my homework . I MUST NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKE . and not make a reputation for myself . eeEk . well dads gone to guang zhou . hope he buys back lotsa goodies . yummy . x)) . but i musnt gorge myself too much . hmms . ok i made this "pact" two days ago . i promised myself to run 1km everyday . but wells i havent gotton to it . im trying to drag my bro in too . then show him im not that weak . hes weaker . x)) . i know i sound super duper evil . x)) . but its shuang . hahas . anways . gotta go eat my dinner . bros yelling at me . (if you ask me . his beginning to sound more and more like my mum . NOT a good sign)

what happened to us ? we used to be the best of friends . we stood up for each other . when you had problems you'd come to me . when i had problems i'd go to you . you would listen to me and i would listen to you . i was the first one to comfort you and you were the first one to comfort me . we used to talk on the phone for hours and hours . we used to tell each other everything . but ever since that trip . everything changed . you changed . you forgot all about me . you forgot all the times we had together . you even forgot my name . when i talked to you . you never replied . when i tried to be friends you pushed me away . now you're trying to be my friend again . you ask me why cant we be friends . why can't we be the way we used to be . you ask me why we broke friends . i never did break friends . it was all you . have you forgotton the way you treated me . like i was air and nothing to you . now you say its my fault . but do you know how many sleepless nights i've had . do you know how many tears i've shed . i thought we were best friends . but then you turned your back on me . you treated me like a stranger . i trusted you with everything i ever had . i was honest and true with our friendship . you know what . you really dissapointed me . you broke me apart . i thought you were different . i thought we could be friends always . but then after that trip . i dunno what happened . but it was like you had a total change . after that trip our friendship came to an end . you know whats the saddest thing . its not that you changed . it that we became from best friends to strangers .

sighs . now school has started . no more sleeping in and rolling out of the bed at ten oclock . sighs . back with the piles of homework and unduly stress . hmms . i actually went for training yesterday . amazing . then i so long never go for training . so now i everywhere also aching . shits . i still feel that nobody in volleyball likes me . i do try to train hard . but i can never do it . so why actually train at all . hmms . now i beginning to like my class more and more . at first they seemed very cold . brr . but i turns out they're a bunch of warm friendly people . x)) . still missing 1d though . without the sirens it seems awfully quiet . hahas . and the teachers are all pretty nice too . at first thought they very fierce de . look so angry all the time . but it turned out that sarah was right . fierce teachers are nice . well not most of the time . but this exception . yeah . their nice . x)) . at least school turned out good . thats one good thing in my life . x)) . smiles for everyone . and well haven't gotten into any trouble yet . hope that i wont of cos . but wells . you know me . my laziness is gonna kill me one day . but im really gonna work hard this year . since its the streaming year and all . hope that i'll get to the triple science class . i know it sounds out of reach but wells . with determination and hard work anything IS possible rights . hahas . x)) . well at home the situations not bad . parents not screaming . brother not pulling my hair . but its bound to happen . i mean its only the beginning of the year . anything can happen both good and bad . ok but i still need to make my new year resolutions right .

2oo6 new year resolutions
#1. study hard and try my best to get into the triple science class (unrealistic, but wells its my goal)
#2. not piss my parents off too much (piss them off no money, why should i suffer)
#3. try to go for trainings even if it means getting up early when i should be sleeping (gotta kick my lazy butt)
#4. try no to snack in bed, the insects there are starting to bite me (cant sleep properly)
#5. try to be nice and not bitch about other people (this is gonna take all of me)
#6. not getting into any trouble (no time for detention)
#7. practice on my piano (gotta pass some time)

there i did . not like im actually gonna follow them . cmon . new year resolutions are meant to be broken . thats the fun of it all rights . but wells . i'll try my best to fufill them . and talking about pianos . i got a new keyboard . whoots ! and my dad sold off the old piano . and you will never guess how much he sold it for . even i could but it . $60 . can you belive it . sheesh . if you ask me i think the salesman is trying to cheat my dad . but well . it did have alot of spoilt keys . like in every octave there was one key spoilt . so then i had an excuse to not being able to play properly . now . my dad sold off my excuse for a misirable $60 . well . the good thing is that i have a new keyboard . which is so great . and the bad news is that i have to practice . dont get me wrong . its not that i dont like playing the piano . i love it . i love anything that has to do with music . but wells . i dont like playing and practising from a book . i prefer to chose what i like and play by ear or find the scores myself . BUT . theres no hope in that . plus i got another good news . x)) i seem to be full of good news today . whee~ . my dads finally agreed to teach me the drums and guitar . well the guitar im quite familiar with it . but the drums i havent touched for a year . its been sitting in that dusty corner of my house . neglected . you could almost feel sorry for it . but if i know my dad . which i do . looks like im gonna be picking up the instruments by myself . and this is from past experiance . last year i asked him to teach me to play the guitar . he gave me a book . which said . 10 easy lessons to play the guitar . looks like this year his gonna be giving me a new book . 10 easy lessons on how to play the drums . isint it so very kind of him . i think so too . anyways . its getting late and i gotta go sleep . tomorrow theres still school and stuff . needa get up early . arghs .

promise by simple plan

breakdown
i can't take this
i need somewhere to go
i need you
i'm so restless
i don't know what to do

we've had our rough times
fighting all night
and now you're just slipping away

give me this chance
to make the the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

i promise
i won't let you down
if you take my hand tonight
i promise
we'll be just fine this time
if you take my hand tonight

without you i go through the motions
without you it's just not quite the same
without youi don't want to go out
i just want to say

that i'm sick of these fights
i'll let you be right
if it stops you from running away

so give me this chance
to make the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

take my hand
i promise

if you take my hand tonight
i won't let you down
take my hand tonight

perfect world by simple plan

i never could have seen this far
i never could have seen this coming
it seems like my worlds falling apart
why is everything so hard
i don't think i can deal
with the things you said
it just won't go away

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world
you'd still be here
and it makes no sense
i can just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all

i used to think that i was strong
until the day it all when wrong
i think i need a miricle to make it through
i wish that i could bring you back
i wish that i could turn back time
cuz i can't let go
i just can't find my way
without you i just can't find my way

i don't know what i should do now
i don't know where i should go
i'm still here waiting for you
i'm lost when you're not around
i need to hold on to you
i just can't let you go

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world you still be here
and it makes no sense
i could just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all
you feel nothing
nothing at all

ok . before i complain about all the unfotunate events that have happened in my unsignificent life . let me first say HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! ok now that im done with that . let me carry on . WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND TV PROGRAMS WITH PEOPLE IN HARD PLASTIC SUITS AND UNDERWEAR WORN ON THE OUTSIDE WAY TOO TIGHT FOR THEM . sorry . just HAD to let that out . i just dont see the attraction . really . and those guys in the too-tight-underwear-that-makes-your-stuff-stick-out . doesnt it like suffocate their balls ? wont it affect their fertility rate or something ? i guess you have to try it to know . but i do now that they make loads of money doing that . hmms . but how do they fit it in ? their balls must be pretty small . but with all that butt kicking . i guess it has to be . can you imagine if its actually BIG . i think it would really get into the way yeh . ok next topic . my imaginations getting alittle bit TOO wild . oyes . MR A*** . you little bitch . (ok so his a guy . but who ever said you cant call a guy a bitch . i call my bro that and his not complaining) . ITS ALL YOUR FAULT . you started it . actually no you didnt . it all started with MR D****** . yes . now that brings back all those sweet memories . NOT . yes . i didnt even tell anyone what he told me . i totally didnt . i was being such a good friend . and what do i get in return ? his big blardy mouth telling everybody what i told him . shit him lar . great . and you know when that happen about one year ago . and now its resurfaced again . ok . now whatever good reputation i built up between the year . too put it literally . is all flushed down the toilet bowl (along with my bros brain . euww) . o great . just perfect . just the way i wanted to start the new year with . not . not to mention . i have not finish my holiday homework . which means when i go back to school i be well . just alittle dead . (there IS the possibility that i might finish my homework . but its like the same possibility that the holidays have been lenghtened for another month) . those are my chances . well my chances would have been higher if the teachers didnt try to drown us with homework . i mean for chinese we have to actually finish the whole orca book . now whats with that ?!?! and i have about two days to finish it . not to mention the rest of the homework . things are not looking good . things are not looking good at all . well its not like im not trying . for the whole afternoon ive been reading the stuff on world war one . but its just not easy to you know . digest . takes time . i just dont get it . why dont those people just sit quietly together and play something nice like dollies or chess or something . why did they have to go built those war thingys . and be so wishy washy bout it too . if they had only be nice to each other . then there wouldnt be a world war one . and i wouldnt have to be here studying about it . makes life soo much simpler doesnt it . all you have to do is play nice and try not to bite each others head off . see its soo simple . ok . got to stop my argument here . gotta go study more on those stupid people who couldnt keep their mouths shut . and when to start war . sheesh . what happened to world peace . cya guys takkaire .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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