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Sunday, July 30, 2006
AAHH . im so darn stressed out ok . by like school, family and well everything ! xP . now the schools totally piling us up with homework . its just simply pure murder . just kill us woncha . dont torture us as well ! blah and yeh . about family . blah my family just sucks lar . they totally blame me for every damn thing man . like what am i some sort of human punching bag . fish them lar . you know what im think im gonna be suffering from depression or something . but dontcha worry . i havent done anything serious like cutting myself yet . thinking about it maybe but not actually doing it . cos they leave awful scars . and why would i want to scar my beautiful skin huh . hahas . ok back to bitching and pmsing . oyes . and that bitch . yar i know shes like all for acting cool and stuff . but bitching about me is soo NOT cool ok . hey i treated you with respect . the least you can do is well . treat ME with respect . alls fair now isnt it ? but do you ? NO . ok so since ms bitch you want to play this way . i'll play with you huh . how bout that . tit for tat . so you cant blame me for bitching about you . dont come to me will all that "i thought we were friends" stuff and "how can you do that" thing . cos like HELLO didnt you like did that to me too huh . think about THAT before you open that big ass mouth of yours and try to act pathetic . oh and yes i forgot to tell you . stop trying to act cool and smart . cos you know what . you're actings like shit . you look absoulutely riduculous . and if you think *a* really likes you . you gotta be kidding . hes a damn big flirt . he didnt just flirt with you cos he likes you ok . he can just simply flirt with any stranger on the street . and wanna know how i know . somehow he thinks i take great delight in telling me hes wonderful "stories" . and youre hes latest addition . owells .
p.s this whole post was written in angst . nothing more nothing less . just the wholesome truth . no offense given . but if you feel a need . take that offense . its good for high blood pressure . :)
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Thursday, July 13, 2006
Make it through the rain
And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is
"I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I'll make it through the rain"
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you know sometimes when you go through some tough spot in life . when God puts soo many bitches and morons in your life . and you dont know why . i guess God is like possing me a challenge . you know . see how strong i'll be . lifes been pretty bad this pass few weeks . with the whole new term and stuff . i feel totally alienated from this world . like schools been a drag . i just walk through it without much caring . and now i've learnt there really is no TRUSTWORTHY friend out there . like everyone is suddenly backstabbing me . right in front of my face . couldn't they have more decency ? sharks . man im in such a pessismistic mood . but at least family's still the same . nagging and scoldings . my lifes just this whole mess . and now i feel so OUT with my class . dont know why . plus my soo called "good pals" been so distant nowadays . we hardly talk . and its like really sad . maybe that WILL be my life from now on . just dragging it through life . i really can't seem to be bothered anymore . i want to just concentrate on my studies and go home every day . cos when i concentrate on my studies . i wont have to think of other stuff . then i can go home and lock myself in the room . and just space and dream . sometimes i just feel like staying in my room forever you know ? then i wont have to go out to face the cold and cruel world . or maybe i should start that project my mums been nagging me about . then it will distract me from other stuff huh . anyways the new projects about me going to lots of classes . design jewellry . or shoes o . or clothes . then selling it on the web . but of cos we still need to create the website . which is probably gonna take time and money . which come to think of it is good . then i'll earn money . and not have time to think about those bitches and morons . sighs . im such a failure . sharkses .
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))
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man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))
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man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))
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man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))
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