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Monday, April 16, 2007
been totally long since i last blogged huh. tried but couldnt. the damn windows doesnt allow me to. so owells. not really my fault now isit. life has totally not been good to me. kinda feeling depressed and stressed out lately. with all the school work and exams in 2 weeks. totally gonna die. im think im gonna flunk the exams too lar. havent really started SERIOUSLY revising. yeah i read some here read some there. i just dont retain any of the information. its soo bad. school hasnt really been good too. though for once i actually competed my homework. well most of it anyway. and she says i havent handed it up. i soo did. i did it up soo nicely too. all type written. but now she says she cant find it. crap her. im not gonna bother anymore. all the tests it been the same too. flunking if not barely passing. i do study. and i can do the homework. with a guide. but i just cant seem to remember the stuff. ohman. my life is soo screwed. and lately theyve been picking on us. like how we're the top and thats not how we should behave and all those shit. but arent we like human. children at that. we screw up too. they cant expect us children to grow up and behave like adults. sure we're maturing and all that. but are we actually ready for the adulthood burden. i dont think soo. i want to look back next time and say i was a child. not a child forces to become an adult. thats so not how it should be. bull them. hmms. familys not that good. cant stand my rents. my mum obviously promised me that i could watch that show yet while i was watching halfway my dad comes in and switchs it off. he says i cant watch cos i watched the previous show. and i watched like what of the previous show. 10 damn minutes. and how could i not watch it. i have to eat my dinner dont i. and the dinner food is in front of the tv isnt it. HAH. how can i eat there without looking at something thats placed right in front of me. so BIG thing thats placed right in front of me. what you want me to do. eat with my mouth full. ive had it with all this adults thinking their all that. trying to shape us up to be what they want us to be. this is our own life. and i control my life. sheesh. im getting all worked up. talk bout lighter things. oyeah. might be doing braces. its kinda exciting. hahas. but havent gotton an orthodontist yet. went to a dentist and she wrote a letter of recommendation to some doctor. and my mum recognised hes name and said he was expensive so now shes trying to find a cheap good one. like that actually exists. nothing cheap is good. well in the espect of you know doctors and stuff. which good doctor would be willing to charge cheap for hes services. that would be a stupid doctor. and we all know doctors arent stupid. so there. yays. i have a feeling that this outburst of anger has actually brought back my scarcasm. whoots. im proud of myself. owells gonna go snooze now. been totally shagged the past few days. ahh.
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