the sound of your serenade from the open window.
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
i feel like a little girl
trying to conquer the whole wide world
my total fave song now is little superhero girl man. it like totally speaks whatever im feeling now...
like how my life is like some total mess. i feel so tired. and so out of place. OGL. everything is all piling up. and i just dont have any energy left to do anything about it. i dont even know how i feel anymore.
like how its hard to pretend not to care an be nonchalent anymore. well technically i still feel stressed i just dont show it so openly or emotionally as other people. maybe im numb or something. or maybe its just that some people just get emotional really quickly... ohwells. i just guess im different? who knows.
this whole year has been a year of change. in more ways and realities than some. after this year. EVERYTHING is going to change. every freaking aspect of my life. even the ones i thought that would always remain the same. its just all going to be different.
my last security haven is no longer heaven. ive run out of places to hide. afew nights ago i went to the top of the mcp. it was so dark so lonely and so desolated. its a good place to think. the starry sky helped too. i think that might be my new secret place. i just want a place where i can feel safe.
im beginning to be this little emo bitch. again. ohplease dont let me permenantly become like that. i'd just die
well this is my sad pathetic life. hate me.
words spilled @ 10:13 PM /
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