back from Genting
last week of school
impending doom

yay tmr going to genting! whee~
okay this morning got up at 530 to suprise lyn at the airport. hahas(: only me, mathias, darren and elton went. pretty pathetic but hey its the thought that counts(: it was kinda awkward but kinda nice still. fun to a certain extent. ohwells(: than went back to sleep. HAHA. than got up to go eat sushi buffet and sakae. yumtum. than packed and now still packing... hahas. okay tmrs gonna be a long day. gotta rest early. yay.

OMG. im feeling so darn pissed right now... you know cos we were supposed to have this plan tmr. but everyones backing out cos its so early. so maybe i'll be the only one whos going. but that will be so NOT meaningful. i mean why cant they just freaking get up early. is it so hard to sacrifice a little bit of sleep for a friend. and its not like they have to do anything. they just have to BE THERE. how hard can it be. i mean. if a bunch of girls could sacrifice more than 2 days baking for their friend why cant they sacrifice afew hours. and its not like its last minute or something. i told them a month before. it really baffles me. i mean everyones all i wish we were more united... yadiyadida. but like it takes effort to be united. and it takes everyone. you cant just sit and complain and whine. like come on. do something. and its not like im asking alot. its just freaking getting up and going to the airport. im the one who baked the cupcake and cookie. and doing the banner. and you dont see me complaining. like HELLO. gawd this is so pissing. and now what you want me to change it last minute. if shes going tmr how can i ask when she'll be back. SHEESH. and after we planned this for so freaking long. i mean. now you want me to change it?!? but than the whole PURPOSE is like gone man. fuck lar i dunno. i think im just gonna go and screw the rest. oh yeah. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOYCELYN! SCREW THE WORLD!

super tired now(: but had super alot of fun. so it was okay(: yay. okay start from yesterday(:
like the night before only had 4 hours of sleep. cos was doing art(: HEE. than had to rush home to bake with stef and xin. it was kinda fun. than later kim and xiang came too. hahas. we all made such a whole mess of the kitchen. than after that was persuaded to go for the moscow concert. hahas(: was super lucky. actually thought i'd be late and would get barred from the show. but i think i was like the last one they put through. ON THE DOT XD super duber lucky. caught up with stupid 'i-quit-choir-and-chose-to-suffer-in-tennis' vienna. HAH. i kinda miss that bitchy bimbo in choir. its less loads of laugh. than after hanged out with the rest of them at esplanade roof. its kinda pretty up there. we were cam whoring all the way. whee~ than we generously helped this group of people take surveys. and i got surveyed by this really cute guy. hee. after that me, weiqin, debbie and eli went to take the mrt. we had loads of laughs. HAHA. me and weiqin were being retarded. and making debbie stupid. by the time i got home it was almost 12. GEE. hms... was woken up today by the dulcet sounds of kimchoo. hah. today we all baked some more. like loads more. and totally screwed the house upside down. and ohyeah what were we baking for. jieyun's suprise bday party. WHOOTS. but it think we like mistreated her. haha. cos we made her walk round and round downstairs and wait for ages and ambushed with bubbles. all while blindfolded(: we're good. but the lunch/dinner was good. all the deserts were there... cookies, cupcakes, tiramisu, chocolate strawberries, choco-banana cake, frozen fruits! yay yum tums. and after that had a crazy photo/fb time. taking retarded photos and ambushing doggy boy :D yay. made loads of retarded videos too. HAH. we can only hope all that evidence will be deleted. whee. hms.. just really tired now. nothing else to say. AHH. sleep. how i miss you so.

TCFC = To Close For Comfort

ohwells. in the end didnt go for dipars party. cos es and lyn couldnt go. sighs. i was kinda looking out to chilling at sentosa. the beach. the fresh night air. so tempting. ohwells. lifes life. but hey. at least i get to relax next week at genting. WHOOTS. its been ages since i last went there. cant wait to get sick on all the rides. HAH XD hms... stuck now doing the choir design tee. which i due tmr(: so predictable. i know. well i had the design ready in my head eons ago. its just a matter of putting pen to paper. which is something i not too good in(: i always have this vision of how this design is gonna come out. or like sometimes when i hear some music i get a vision of how to dance to the music. but i cant neccessarily carry it out. so all those genius stuff is stuck in my head. oh wells. HAHA(: im a closet genius. whee. and a handicapped one at that. hee~ hms.. already almost two weeks of the holidays are gone. and i still havent done much. im so breaking my own promise. i think im gonna crash and burn during the last week. i really dont want that to happen. but like saying and doing is two totally different things. i can say i want to do it all i want but everytime it actually comes to doing it i cant. or dont. or whatever. i know its like the worst WORST habit ever. but its ever so hard to break. ohwells. just gotta keep trying! YEAH! (: oh! made meringues today! cinnamon ones. i dont think it went very well though. tasted nice. but funky. so not like the one i ate at the restaurant. practise makes perfect! hahas(: but i dont think my mum will like that much. considering the mess i make each time i step into the kitchen. hahas(: hms... actually i did loads of things today. just nothing useful. first i finally cut my bangs. though it looks wierd. OHAH. than i went to ghim moh to get stuff for grans and post my letter. than i came home and did meringue. which took ages. cos i dont have that electric whisky thing. and than went to swim. cos mi had tennis. so i went to swim. think i swam for 45min -1hour. NONSTOP. which is quite an acomplishment. considering i havent swam in ages. CENTURIES. (:yay! okay. need to go sleep now. plus my old bones are aching from all that exercise. groan...

ive come to a conclusion! i want to be an architect! HAHAHAHA...

i saw something on tv today. it reminded me alot about me and a thing im stuck in right now. its like deja vu or something. cept its not a memory and im still stuck with the problem. i see so much of myself in her. its scary(: but than i see the outcome too. and i think we'll end up with that too. because no matter how hard i try. i know i wont be able to do it. or at least i wont allow myself to do it. i guess i only have myself to blame. but its still a predicament no one could have prevented. all hope it ends out well. if not her that no one else right(: now to just face the future...

Wondering - Good Charlotte


If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I will stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Go!

Yeah, yeah!

Since I was a young man
I never was a fun man
I never had a plan and no security
Then ever since I met you
I never could forget you
I only wanna get you right here next to me

Cause everybody
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

Now my life is changing
It's always rearranging
It's always getting stranger than I thought it ever could
Ever since I found you
I wanna be around you
I wanna get down to the point that I need you

Cause everybody
Needs someone that they can trust and
You're somebody
That I found just in time

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Go!

Yeah, yeah!
Yeah, yeah!

Don't tell me the bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me that you need me
And stay right here with me

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering

If you want me to wait
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering


jake cherry(:
LOVE. aint he like the cutest little thing ever! swoon. and his eyes are GORGEOUS. im gonna bet hes gonna be like such a babe when he grows up. SWOON.

ohman. now i stink of durians. hahas(:
today after piano went to cbg to eat french lunch. its really good! whee. was an early birthday lunch for mummy. had wagyu beef. AH. heavenly. and lobster salad thingy. AH. gorgeous. and some cream puffy fluffy sweet thing. AH. beautiful. than rushed to yishun to catch star trek. cos she was so stubborn and refused to watch anything else. HAH. the movie was pretty good. i love the bowl head guy. he is SO so cute. than went to visit auntie irene cos it was nearby. crashed her house with tons of durians. so i guess she forgave us(: watched transformers at her house. the first one. it was so AWESOME. the soldier guy is so hot. hahas. and so is megan fox! totally understand what you see in her now nzl! yay. happy day. too bad we have have to like get back to reality one day. AHS. ohwells. nights stinky breath!

just got back from dinner at auntie angelines house. her house is like so freaking big! like seriously. its so pretty. i love her garden. she like has this huge lawn. and TWO fountains. and like those little wooden walkways. it so pretty! ahh(: and i got to drink loads of wine(: hee. im an alcoholic man. i love LOVE wine. there was red and white. and i now proclaim i love red wine. its so marvy. mi's beginning to drink too. not bad. hahas. i had my first sip at 12. so hes 14. ohwells. he had coffee earlier than. me. so hes a coffeeholic and im an alcoholic. and we're both gamblers. WHOOTS. marvy family. but all the people at the dinner party were all old and poshy. so me and mi were like sitting in one corner talking to one another and drinking. hahas. hee~ today. went to school early for econs. i woke up at 730 and thought lecture was at 800. so i like cabbed there. and guess what. lecture was at 830. so i like wasted 15 bucks. GOSH. ahs. hahas. than after that cabbed to bedok with the girls and kitty to bedok for the ymca meeting. the woman is kinda nice. reminds me of mdm lim. hahas. ohwells. hms... today felt like going back to fairfield. but no one to go back with me. AWW. ohwells. theres still time i hope. okay. im tired and drunk. its time to sleep! whoots.

all work and no play made jack a sad boy
so jack played hard
jack of all trades yet a master of none
moral of story?
jack is still a loser



YAY! finally watched finish! awesome~ hee.

李國毅 Lego Li - Be My King [蜂蜜幸運草]


天空 染成了藍色 連接了海洋的旅程
微風 簡單而清純 加速了前進的快樂
世界上總會有太多煩悶 要我放棄希望的可能
我開始相信要左右悲恨 沖出門 狂奔

夢想著 要飛去 我不停息努力前進
不管那白色光芒多麼纖細
生命不怕結局 好好經營這遊戲
就踩著我 的單車 往前旅行不會再多意

I will be my king

天空 染成了藍色 連接了海洋的旅程
微風 簡單而清純 加速了前進的快樂
路途上有太多顛簸曲折 美麗風景才能讓我停
不讓人來左右 我的人生 要像風 飛行


夢想著要飛去 我不停息努力前進
不管那白色光芒多麼纖細
生命不怕結局 好好經營這遊戲
就踩著我的單車 往前旅行

就讓我帶著你 仔細去看清 天的黎明
所有的原因 不必太過說明
生命不怕結局 好好經營這遊戲
可以肯定 我將會 站在山頂
I will be my king

I will be my king

就讓我帶著你 一起看清 天的黎明 多麼美麗
讓我帶著你 一起飛行 會下落是因為你

the deafening loud silence is crying out to me...

you know how people keep saying "oh i want this day to pass like so fast" or "i wish time could quickly move on"? i dont understand why. i wish time would stop now and here. like forever. time is already passing so fast. why would you want it to pass faster. like in 1 and a half years time i'll be an adult. i'll have to chose a path of life that i want. i'll have to be responsible and act that way. why would anyone want that. i wish time would just slow down. i dont want to grow up just yet. there are still so many things that i have left undone. so much stuff left to do. when we grow up there'll never be any time left to do those stuff. when we grow up things will have to change. and everything will be different. already its starting to change. paths split and rocks hinder it. so sometimes through the twists and turns it becomes so easy to get lost. sometimes i feel like im getting lost. wandering furthur and furthur away into the wilderness. oh why cant time just stop. but by than its still too late...

"true friends are not those who love you in spite of your faults and imperfections, but because of them"

whee. just came home from dinner with xin, steff and xiang. hahas. didnt actually eat anything. but had cookies and cream ice cream! hee~ and i walked home too! all the way from holland v. im like soo proud of myself. XD hms. had history paper in the morning. it was okay i guess. at least i didnt like hand in a blank piece of paper. but the questions were really tough though. ohwells. dones dones. than had lunch with debby. she eats like slower than me man. plus she is so SO unfaithful. she already has like a so devoted boyfriend but she googles at practically every guy that walks pass. honestly. she thinks hellokitty is cute! thats how bad it is. uh huh. than had choir meeting. which was kinda productive i think. we've got it all worked out man. we're gonna make choir so rocking cool. so cool it hurts. brainfreeze! hahas(: than went to lot1 with the choir gang. we went to the roof garden which is actually kinda pretty. met the choir j2s there too. for once the j1s and the j2s actually think the same on certain like 'subjects'. keane joined us and treated us to fries and icecream from macs(: big heart! big heart! big wallet! XD. went back with keane. he really really likes cc alot. i think. and hes like so sweet. and shes like so nice. oh get together already! but heard that cc likes someone else. oh stuff and bothers! (: oh and heard nzl wants to be a fashion designer and hf wants to be a chef. its like so cool. like finally people who like me want to do out of this world jobs and not like the 9-5 job. or the whole cliche doctor thing. hee~ but now im not sure what i want to be either. i really want to do something in the creative line too. but its such a tough industry. and so awesomely hard to survive. ahs. ohwells. i still got till next year. or worst case scenario. next next year (gawd no!). to think about it. sighs. pondering about life.

just finished my art(: whee. now left eom and history. all which needs to be done by tmr. i know its like my fault. cos i keep procrastinating and all. but really it wasnt like there was much time anyway to do anything. ohwells. shitty life. and tmrs gonna be another shitty day. like its fully COMPLETELY jam packed. from morning to night. whoo-pie. ahwahwah...

Flightless Bird, American Mouth - Iron and Wine

I was a quick wet boy, diving too deep for coins
All of your street light eyes wide on my plastic toys
Then when the cops closed the fair, I cut my long baby hair
Stole me a dog-eared map and called for you everywhere

Have I found you
Flightless bird, jealous, weeping or lost you, american mouth
Big pill looming

Now I'm a fat house cat
Nursing my sore blunt tongue
Watching the warm poison rats curl through the wide fence cracks
Pissing on magazine photos
Those fishing lures thrown in the cold
And clean blood of Christ mountain stream

Have I found you
Flightless bird, grounded, bleeding or lost you, american mouth
Big pill stuck going down

Today - Smashing Pumpkins


Today is the greatest
Day I've ever known
Can't live for tomorrow,
Tomorrow's much too long
I'll burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant me
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I've never known
Can't wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
I'll tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
I tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever really known

THE HOLIDAYS ARE HERE!!! yeahman(:
went dental today. like early in the morning. so that meant i had to wake up at like before 10. i am amazed. so after that went gallaventing at orchard with mi. we had macbreakfast(: whee. i love mac hashbrowns. theyre 100% fattening goodness. GAWD. hee(: than went to borders to browse. i so love the stationary there. wanted to buy the birthday/anniversary book. the one with the jelly cupcake on it. whee. but didnt. cos well. my wallet hasnt been my bestfriend these few days. hms. met darren there too. hahas. apparently he went to school previously for consultation. GAWD. what is it with me. i should seriously start bucking up too. GO JAS! XD tmrs gonna be a busy day. study for H1. finish EOM. finish ART. gawd. so dead. okay need to sleep early to be fresh tmr. yay! holidays LOVE.

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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