yesterday i had training . and you know what i realised . volleyballers can be real bitches sometimes . like what i learnt is . if you aggrevate one of the volleyballers . the whole team's gonna get you . and its soo bad . like the whole training they were asking wether you like this girl . cos they thought she was such a tight bitch . always whining and complaining . and thinking she was so good . honestly to say . i know this girl and i think shes ok . shes actually pretty nice . well thats to me . i guess you gotta be in their shoes to see it their way huh . sighs . i better be prepared . must watch my step . i have no idea when it will be me . hmms . oyes . the guys today were soo sick . in english class the whole row at the back started laughing and screaming . they were all playing with something . wanna guess . condoms . ok so its not that sick . but did they have to play it in english class . sheesh . anyways . today was suppose to have d and t project meeting . in the end we went to plaza sing to take neo prints . then when back to my house . and didnt do anything . sighs . we are SO gonna fail this project . we have like tons of projects this year . can die arhs . then some more all the tourneys starting . PRESSURE . sinking in it man . i just realised something . my brothers a gay . plus he loves being called a gay . what can be more gay then that . sighs . what genes when wrong . i mean i turned up straight . and im dead straight . while my brothers like . GAY . not the happy kind either . and hes always acting the innocent angel bunny . even though hes more like evil underwear gay . like SO OPPOSITE . then some more . hes always finding ways to get on peoples nerves . (ok so its mostly mine) . what does he do . invite his kiddiwinky friends over . and disturb me . they hog the computer . and blast it out loud full volume . when im trying to be a good girl and actually try to study . who can study in an enviroment like that . its no wonder im failing everything . and my mum actually encourages my brother to bring home more friends . and when i bring home friends shes like all black face and stuff . always scolding me in front of them and scolding them too . make me look so small lar . damn pai seh . fish her lar . always so pian xin . always side my brother . " hes your brother . must show more care and concern . must give way to him " what shit lar . care and concern my foot . then whos gonna show me care and concern . dont i get a piece too . no i dont . i dont even get a crumb . while my brother ? he gets a big fat slice . herhs . dont want to talk about him . talk about nicer things . things that dont come from hell . x)) . oyar . today so yj in school again . (this is not that ahma yj) . (its another yj . even shorter and cuter) . (why are all yjs SHORT) . (no offence) . ANYWAY . i didnt know he was in fairfield lar . this year sec 1 . i so lonf never see him in church then see him in school like so wierd . at first couldnt even recognise him lar . like look look look then realise its " OHH ITS HIM " . im soo blur* lar . eeks . you know what . the more i look at him the more he reminds me of ' chio bu ' . i dunno why lar . i find them damn alike . then i also met this girl . she remembered me then call out to me . i like find her really familiar . i think her name is shanny or something . i forgot where i met her . i think it was at a camp or something . x)) . she still remembered me . conclusion . i have my memory SUCKS . anyways gotta go eat some dinner . tummys growling . grrr . rumble rumble .

you know what . i just realized something . im really hopeless . i want to learn how to play the guitar but i dunno how to strum . sheesh .

shit . volleyball tourney is like two days away . thursday . and im still so blur bout the positions and stuff . well its not exactly my fault . that wei hong lar . he put me one place then when i got familiar with it . he go change me again . there like today he change me again lar . dunno what he trying to do lar . trying to make me understand or just making my life misirable . sheesh . and all my team mates damn angry at me lar . everytime i miss the ball theres like five pairs of eyes staring at me . not my fault what . they know i suck at it then they still ask me to go "gang" the ball . dunno what they thinking lar . know that i cannot do it then go ask me to do it then i cannot then they glare at me . sighs . why did i join volleyball . why didnt i become a nice little librarian and stay in the cooling library instead . hmms . at least im still doing all my homework . I MUST NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKE . and not make a reputation for myself . eeEk . well dads gone to guang zhou . hope he buys back lotsa goodies . yummy . x)) . but i musnt gorge myself too much . hmms . ok i made this "pact" two days ago . i promised myself to run 1km everyday . but wells i havent gotton to it . im trying to drag my bro in too . then show him im not that weak . hes weaker . x)) . i know i sound super duper evil . x)) . but its shuang . hahas . anways . gotta go eat my dinner . bros yelling at me . (if you ask me . his beginning to sound more and more like my mum . NOT a good sign)

what happened to us ? we used to be the best of friends . we stood up for each other . when you had problems you'd come to me . when i had problems i'd go to you . you would listen to me and i would listen to you . i was the first one to comfort you and you were the first one to comfort me . we used to talk on the phone for hours and hours . we used to tell each other everything . but ever since that trip . everything changed . you changed . you forgot all about me . you forgot all the times we had together . you even forgot my name . when i talked to you . you never replied . when i tried to be friends you pushed me away . now you're trying to be my friend again . you ask me why cant we be friends . why can't we be the way we used to be . you ask me why we broke friends . i never did break friends . it was all you . have you forgotton the way you treated me . like i was air and nothing to you . now you say its my fault . but do you know how many sleepless nights i've had . do you know how many tears i've shed . i thought we were best friends . but then you turned your back on me . you treated me like a stranger . i trusted you with everything i ever had . i was honest and true with our friendship . you know what . you really dissapointed me . you broke me apart . i thought you were different . i thought we could be friends always . but then after that trip . i dunno what happened . but it was like you had a total change . after that trip our friendship came to an end . you know whats the saddest thing . its not that you changed . it that we became from best friends to strangers .

sighs . now school has started . no more sleeping in and rolling out of the bed at ten oclock . sighs . back with the piles of homework and unduly stress . hmms . i actually went for training yesterday . amazing . then i so long never go for training . so now i everywhere also aching . shits . i still feel that nobody in volleyball likes me . i do try to train hard . but i can never do it . so why actually train at all . hmms . now i beginning to like my class more and more . at first they seemed very cold . brr . but i turns out they're a bunch of warm friendly people . x)) . still missing 1d though . without the sirens it seems awfully quiet . hahas . and the teachers are all pretty nice too . at first thought they very fierce de . look so angry all the time . but it turned out that sarah was right . fierce teachers are nice . well not most of the time . but this exception . yeah . their nice . x)) . at least school turned out good . thats one good thing in my life . x)) . smiles for everyone . and well haven't gotten into any trouble yet . hope that i wont of cos . but wells . you know me . my laziness is gonna kill me one day . but im really gonna work hard this year . since its the streaming year and all . hope that i'll get to the triple science class . i know it sounds out of reach but wells . with determination and hard work anything IS possible rights . hahas . x)) . well at home the situations not bad . parents not screaming . brother not pulling my hair . but its bound to happen . i mean its only the beginning of the year . anything can happen both good and bad . ok but i still need to make my new year resolutions right .

2oo6 new year resolutions
#1. study hard and try my best to get into the triple science class (unrealistic, but wells its my goal)
#2. not piss my parents off too much (piss them off no money, why should i suffer)
#3. try to go for trainings even if it means getting up early when i should be sleeping (gotta kick my lazy butt)
#4. try no to snack in bed, the insects there are starting to bite me (cant sleep properly)
#5. try to be nice and not bitch about other people (this is gonna take all of me)
#6. not getting into any trouble (no time for detention)
#7. practice on my piano (gotta pass some time)

there i did . not like im actually gonna follow them . cmon . new year resolutions are meant to be broken . thats the fun of it all rights . but wells . i'll try my best to fufill them . and talking about pianos . i got a new keyboard . whoots ! and my dad sold off the old piano . and you will never guess how much he sold it for . even i could but it . $60 . can you belive it . sheesh . if you ask me i think the salesman is trying to cheat my dad . but well . it did have alot of spoilt keys . like in every octave there was one key spoilt . so then i had an excuse to not being able to play properly . now . my dad sold off my excuse for a misirable $60 . well . the good thing is that i have a new keyboard . which is so great . and the bad news is that i have to practice . dont get me wrong . its not that i dont like playing the piano . i love it . i love anything that has to do with music . but wells . i dont like playing and practising from a book . i prefer to chose what i like and play by ear or find the scores myself . BUT . theres no hope in that . plus i got another good news . x)) i seem to be full of good news today . whee~ . my dads finally agreed to teach me the drums and guitar . well the guitar im quite familiar with it . but the drums i havent touched for a year . its been sitting in that dusty corner of my house . neglected . you could almost feel sorry for it . but if i know my dad . which i do . looks like im gonna be picking up the instruments by myself . and this is from past experiance . last year i asked him to teach me to play the guitar . he gave me a book . which said . 10 easy lessons to play the guitar . looks like this year his gonna be giving me a new book . 10 easy lessons on how to play the drums . isint it so very kind of him . i think so too . anyways . its getting late and i gotta go sleep . tomorrow theres still school and stuff . needa get up early . arghs .

promise by simple plan

breakdown
i can't take this
i need somewhere to go
i need you
i'm so restless
i don't know what to do

we've had our rough times
fighting all night
and now you're just slipping away

give me this chance
to make the the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

i promise
i won't let you down
if you take my hand tonight
i promise
we'll be just fine this time
if you take my hand tonight

without you i go through the motions
without you it's just not quite the same
without youi don't want to go out
i just want to say

that i'm sick of these fights
i'll let you be right
if it stops you from running away

so give me this chance
to make the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

take my hand
i promise

if you take my hand tonight
i won't let you down
take my hand tonight

perfect world by simple plan

i never could have seen this far
i never could have seen this coming
it seems like my worlds falling apart
why is everything so hard
i don't think i can deal
with the things you said
it just won't go away

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world
you'd still be here
and it makes no sense
i can just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all

i used to think that i was strong
until the day it all when wrong
i think i need a miricle to make it through
i wish that i could bring you back
i wish that i could turn back time
cuz i can't let go
i just can't find my way
without you i just can't find my way

i don't know what i should do now
i don't know where i should go
i'm still here waiting for you
i'm lost when you're not around
i need to hold on to you
i just can't let you go

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world you still be here
and it makes no sense
i could just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all
you feel nothing
nothing at all

ok . before i complain about all the unfotunate events that have happened in my unsignificent life . let me first say HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! ok now that im done with that . let me carry on . WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND TV PROGRAMS WITH PEOPLE IN HARD PLASTIC SUITS AND UNDERWEAR WORN ON THE OUTSIDE WAY TOO TIGHT FOR THEM . sorry . just HAD to let that out . i just dont see the attraction . really . and those guys in the too-tight-underwear-that-makes-your-stuff-stick-out . doesnt it like suffocate their balls ? wont it affect their fertility rate or something ? i guess you have to try it to know . but i do now that they make loads of money doing that . hmms . but how do they fit it in ? their balls must be pretty small . but with all that butt kicking . i guess it has to be . can you imagine if its actually BIG . i think it would really get into the way yeh . ok next topic . my imaginations getting alittle bit TOO wild . oyes . MR A*** . you little bitch . (ok so his a guy . but who ever said you cant call a guy a bitch . i call my bro that and his not complaining) . ITS ALL YOUR FAULT . you started it . actually no you didnt . it all started with MR D****** . yes . now that brings back all those sweet memories . NOT . yes . i didnt even tell anyone what he told me . i totally didnt . i was being such a good friend . and what do i get in return ? his big blardy mouth telling everybody what i told him . shit him lar . great . and you know when that happen about one year ago . and now its resurfaced again . ok . now whatever good reputation i built up between the year . too put it literally . is all flushed down the toilet bowl (along with my bros brain . euww) . o great . just perfect . just the way i wanted to start the new year with . not . not to mention . i have not finish my holiday homework . which means when i go back to school i be well . just alittle dead . (there IS the possibility that i might finish my homework . but its like the same possibility that the holidays have been lenghtened for another month) . those are my chances . well my chances would have been higher if the teachers didnt try to drown us with homework . i mean for chinese we have to actually finish the whole orca book . now whats with that ?!?! and i have about two days to finish it . not to mention the rest of the homework . things are not looking good . things are not looking good at all . well its not like im not trying . for the whole afternoon ive been reading the stuff on world war one . but its just not easy to you know . digest . takes time . i just dont get it . why dont those people just sit quietly together and play something nice like dollies or chess or something . why did they have to go built those war thingys . and be so wishy washy bout it too . if they had only be nice to each other . then there wouldnt be a world war one . and i wouldnt have to be here studying about it . makes life soo much simpler doesnt it . all you have to do is play nice and try not to bite each others head off . see its soo simple . ok . got to stop my argument here . gotta go study more on those stupid people who couldnt keep their mouths shut . and when to start war . sheesh . what happened to world peace . cya guys takkaire .

I HATE THA FRIGGIN BITCH !

NUMPY BEAR . why are you ignoring / avoiding ME ? herhs . FINE be that way see if i care . to think of all those sick days we had together . and all the times you 'married' and 'divorced' me . it was so great . too bad we won't be in the same class anymore . im going to 2c . bwahwahwahhs . NOT FAIR . and you know what i found out . my bro DESTRYED my drawing . he erase something out of it . actually i didnt even know . but then the ass of him let it out . he is so bad at lying . so very bad . he should learn from me . my grannys maid taught me how to lie since i could talk . had lots and lots of experiance . yep . certainly did . x)) . its finally chirstmas . BUT . whats with you guys . my presents are so UNDER my expectations . i recieved like only what ? two presents so far . cmon . you guys cant be THAT hurting for that thang i call money . a nice ten bucks would have been enough . anyways . i already got your prezzie aileenie . so i got one for aileenie one for weixinie . which is left for the byjeie . no idea how you would pronounce it . but well im on a 'ie'ing streak . so heck . oyeah . you now something me and my bro did that was totally crasy . we bought a can of pink hair spray . and sprayed our whole head pink . ok it wasnt exactly whole head . but it was close . so if on christmas eve you see some freaks with pink hair (plus it was hot pink) (my bro was nuts) that be us . x)) . but it was fun to see peoples reactions . and those reactions were pretty BIG . especially from our relatives . hahas . you should have seen their faces . you could frame it up forever . muahahahaa . im suck an evil freak . yes . i am . cant deny it anymore . x)) . sheesh . im so sickly happy you could puke . dont even ask me why im happy . i have no idea either . sighs . gotta go wash the dishes . there goes my happy mood down the drain with the rest of the left over food .

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!

if only loving someone could be as easy as THAT . life would be so much simpler and happier . <3

ok so im not as tired as i think i am . (((=

a smile is just a mask to hide your sorrow

yes people . IM BACK . i know you guys missed me . awws . anyways the trip to aust was AWESOME . especially the shopping parts . hahas . so in total spent . TEN days there . hahas . bought lots of chocolattes , gums and CLOTHES . hahas . yes wei xin . i bought some more clothes to stuff into my already very stuffed closet . amazing . hahas . i bought 4 skirts . 4 sleeveless . 1 tee . 1 pants . quite alot huh . and i bought like one whole big bag of earings . sheesh . im such a killer for earings . and i brought back about a ton of chocolate and gum . hahas . go on . DROOL . yehs . and guess what . the first person to greet me online was mr bhb . yes . my big hot boobs . and it wasnt to welcome me back either . he asked me to help him scan the holiday worksheets for him . AGAIN . only this time it was science . (the last time it was english) . and the only reason i actually agreed to scan it for him was cos . ... . wells . i didnt even start on it . so like it wasnt as if i was actually giving him answers . i was just giving him blank sheets . and im like SO DEAD . schools starting soon and i havent even started . guess i dont have to patience determination . etc etc . and well to put in a simpler way im LAZY . xPpP . bleahs . i could finish it all in one day . but well . who wants to be stuck doing homework when you can be doing much more great stuff rights . hahas . ok . i shouldnt influence the rest of you guys . hahas . ok im starting to feel tired now . i know ! its only 10 for petes sake . but well australia's 3 hours ahead so its like one in the morning there . yawns . nights then i guess . gotta go dream bout the chocolatte gum shopping AND the nice cooling weather there .

rtist: Hillsong United
Album: Look To You
Track: Tell The World That

Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

Running After You - Planet Shakers

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
I'm running after You

Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You i'm following today
'Cause i'm running after you

breakfast = strepsils
lunch = strepsils
tea break = strepsils
dinner = strepsils
supper = strepsils

haixx . why cant people be more understanding and try to at least see points from your view . why do people have to be dog damn selfish . why . that stupid ass brother of mind is one of those people . pushed me off to this comp again . while he uses the better one . its not fair . anyways . dad just called to say that we're going to chinatown to have dinner . yummy . hahas . hmms . this year for christmas . im gonna do something . good . ^ ^ . hahas . instead of only recieving christmas cards . im gonna sent them too . whee~ hahas . sighs . but now life is boring . haii . actually thats and understatement . life is totally boring . since i've been grounded of cos . im not supposed to use the comp to . but whatevers . noones at home . noone will know . noone will care . yumm . now eating instant noodle . hahas . chicken instant noodles . x)) . with fishballs past their expiry date . fishBALLS . expired fishBALLS . hahas . ok im starting to sound sick again . its been a long time since i.ve been talking sick talk . the last time was during school . kays so i miss school . bleahxx . i never thought i would say that . arhhs . yays . hahas i painted my fingernails white . now it looks like i played with correction fluid . and guess what my bro said . i should have painted black . cos is more me . then can sure my true colours . my evilness . SHIT HIM LAR . want to say i evil then say straight foward lar . no need to go one big round just to insult me . sheesh . GEES . cant guys just be straight . why do they always have to go one BIG round . its so fraustrating . and oyars . i had one hell of a freaky dream last night . i dreamt of this guy(and i know this guy) wearing a tutu . its so wierd . hahas . SHIT ! my bro is trying to compete with me . i blast my music he try to blast his louder . but of cos mine will always be louder . since i have the better speakers hahas . i guess thats one of the good advatages of the mac hahas . xPpP . haiis .

upon request . i have decided to dedicate this WHOLE post to Sonjia Yam Li (dash?) Mun . ok i thinks that how you spell it . anyways . this post is gonna be ALL about her greatness . evilness . crappyness . craziness . and well all the other nesses she has . which come to think of it is actually quite alot . so well . wont go into details about it . if not it would take all night . she should be very honoured . im writing this post at 12 something . i stayed THIS late to write this FOR her . so she should be honoured . VERY honoured . its not like i do this often . the only people i ever wrote posts totally dedicated to are mostly to my(idiot dumb freakin as of a)brother . HIM . ahma(though im not supposed to call him that anymore . but whatevers) . and wells . HIM again . so she really should thank me . anyways . back to the main thingie . we're here to talk about sonn . a sweet little girl . who sometimes take(a little too much if you ask me) joy in seeing other peoples life "get interesting" . really . plus shes DAMN crappy . you want to know how crappy . she was the one(with me of cos) who founded the Ass Acadamy . which is as you can tell . where aspiring asses go to to recieve the proper treatment to become full fledged asses . hahas . sounds damn sick . euww . hahas . ok im getting out of point again . you know what . because i've been typing this for you . i just broke a freaking damn nail . i broke a nail for YOU ok . anyways mums nagging me to go off the com . cya .

now its almost 12 midnight . recieved an sms frm HIM . i dunno why he keeps doing that . keep tormenting me . keep hurting me . keep making me cry . i have totally no idea why . everytime i try to forget him . and almost suceed . he appears again . and the whole painful process starts all over again . i just want to hate him . but i cant . i just want to ignore him . but i cant . i just want things to be normal again . i want things to be the way it was before i met him . but i know . because of him . its not possible now . for him i have had many sleepless nights . many happyless days . i have no idea how many times i cried . just because of him . its really painful you know . i just want to forget him . want to get rid of him . but everytime i try i never suceed . its hopeless . everytime he appears again . i cant seem to push him away . no matter how hard i try . i'll just go back to him . only to be rejected once again . it's terrifying how just this one person can cause so much change in my life . its amazing how this one person can inflict so much hurt and pain unto me . i've never felt this weak before . im exhausted . im tired of trying to run away . im tired of hidding in a corner . but i still i cant seem to face him . when im in his presence i just totally ... i dunno . cant seem to find any word to describe it . but even though i keep getting hurt . i still cant help but hope that . i can still be with him . i know its silly of me . or even stupid . but . i dunno . theres just this glimmer of hope . cos when im with him . everything is good again . i just feel great . but without him . theres always a part of me that is empty . always a part of me longing for something . sighs . but what would he want with me . nothing . to him im just a stupid little girl . he sees nothing in me . ok . i sound so stupid and dumb right . i mean . here am i falling hopelessly for this guy who doesnt even see me . ok he does see me . if not why is he always smsing me . especially when i just started to forget him . up he appears again . like some bouncing bunny in a freaking magicians hat . I SO HATE HIM . i really do . i keep telling it to myself . to make me belive it . except . i dont mean it at all . i dont mean it at all .

let me tell you something MR A*** . you are so OBVIOUS . PLEASE lar . you know that you are damn unfaithful . first you like a MS M****** . then in comes in the beautiful the wonderful MS W** . and you dumped MS M****** like hot potato . (but then who can blame you lar MS W** is GREAT) . but you didnt need to get jealousy you know . on her kor too . how cheap can to get . ok im no longer making sense . but whatevers . you know what i am so HOPELESS . i just got beaten up by my brother . my younger brother . ok like i keep talking about how he bullies me right . hmmz . time for things to change a little here . now its my turn to do the bullying . i've been to hopeless useless and all the other lesses . i mean i've been bullied by my TWO year old cousin . that must say something rights . i mean a two year old and a ten year old . and i havent even started metioning friends . ok . IM DETERMINED . to not be a lesses anymore . hahas . ok that sounds sick . anyways today also had tuition . was totally boring . BLEAHSs . next year i think i'll still be continuing with this tuition . BUT . my mums thinking of puting my bro into one to one tuition . HAHS . cos he failed his chinese AGAIN . come to think of it . the only times when he pass his chinese was when he was in pri one and two . hahas . xPp . im being mean again .

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

SOLDIER - HILLSONG UNITED

Can't nobody stop me now
Cause i'm a part of the army now
Praise the Lord is what i'm gonna shout
Even in a crowd i'm gonna sing it loud

You can see what you want to see
But i know what He's done for me
Every day i can feel His power
'cause the spirit of the Lord
He lifts me higher

All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him
All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him now

My God is the strongest tower
Turn to Him in the scary hour
Even when it gets harder now
All i wanna do is just praise Him louder

Keep singing 'til my voice run out
Keep running 'til He lifts me out
Keep singing it cause i can't stop
Oh, i can't stop

You got to give your self up
You got to lose your pride
You got to see it different
Open up your spiritual eyes

The devil wants you beaten
He wants you lying, cheating
But that won't last much longer
My Dad is bigger, stronger

Sound off, 1, 2, sound off, 3, 4
Bring it on down, 1, 2, 3, 4... 1, 2...3, 4

you know what shes such a . ***** . (or acording to sonn , a female chihuahua) . one minute say if i want to go for the dinner must do housework . then i clean up the whole house finish . what she say ? (oyar . happy birthday lorraine and alton) . cannot go . you only thirteen years old . all the rest going all older then you . then some more go untill marina so far . and so late also . so CANNOT . so female chihuahua rights . and she said . anyway im going to be working that night and you have to take care of your brother (who by the way can totally take care of himself . cmon lar his 10 already . not 4 anymore) . and besides . i've been out till later then ten lar . so its so obvious she just doesnt want me to go . instead she wants me to stay at home cook dinner . and do the laundry . parents are so obvious you know . they are so TRANSPARENT . xPp . thank goodness she doesnt know my blog add . if not i be dead . but then i can just tell her my bro's one . then he be dead too ! ! im so evil . bleahxx .

i think i just killed my "dearest ahma" . i think i just murdered him . SORRY AHMA ! not my fault lar . who ask you be such a jerk . keep breaking little girls hearts . ahma . how can you do that . supposed to be my role model lehs . tsktsk . i know lar . i shouldnt have encouraged her to hate you . but what could i do . she say until like so ke lian . so convincing . nvm lar . you wont blame me right . besides you havent been a very good ahma . hahas . anyway a word of warning . you might want to wear extra protection when going out . i think she mentioned something bout going round looking for you with a baseball bat . GOOD LUCK . dun die before cny . i want my hong bao .

ok last night . as in late LATE in the night . at like 12 . i had a very serious talk with sonn . we talked about a very serious subject . the subject on why do parents love tormenting their kids so much . isnt it serious ? so this is going to be a very serious post . im not going to type any laughing words . AT ALL . "why do parents like to make their kids life hell?" . let me give you some equations . to parents "children" = "maids" . "more children" = "more maids" . preety easy equations right . easier then algebra . parents say : "as part of the family you have to do your part . you have do your chores" . ok . so we do our chores . what do our parents do ? they sit down on the comfy couch and watch tv . while we sweep up after them . arent they part of the family too . when they say they are busy and they need you to help cook dinner . what do they really mean ? it probably means : they need to go sleep . and parents are always asking you not to ask too many questions . they have their privacy . yes of course i respect they . but they didnt need to go read my smses and read my mail . wheres my privacy then . they are always saying stuff like . : "you are still young . for goodness sake . you are 13 only . can you stop doing such mature stuff . you are not old enough to do them" . ok so i listen to them . and what do they say ? : "can you stop being so childish . for goodness sake . you are already 13 . can you grow up" . theres just now pleasing them . and YES . there is still more . parents are so damn pian xin . so damn bias . they are always like . : "how can you teach your brother to be like that ? you as and elder must set a good example" . in my opinion . they aint setting that a perfect example too . ok end this post here .

yays ! last night went shopping and bought a blue hoodie ! x) . i still want some more ! i want a pink one . a black one and a white one ! im such a greedy pig . xPp . you know how damn freaking smart my borther is . he woke up at 7 today and started using the comp . i woke up at 10 then he said first come first serve . so i have to use THIS comp . which is ok and stuff . but its a macintosh . so like cant really do much with it . since most of the stuff i want to do doesnt seem to work with this comp . my damn bro took the windows one . slap him lar . *piakpiak* . o yar . now i remember . during camp i actually found someone more bhb then ching sheng . hahas . incredible isnt it . that someone could actually have a bigger ego then his already very big ego . hahas . the only reason i dare to write out ching shengs name is cause he wont take any offense . he takes pride in his big ego . how BIG can he get . ok that sounds sick . but whatever . thats true bhbness . SEE . im not the most bhb person there is . there are soo many people worse then me . but of cos without me the world wouldnt be able to function properly lar . hahas . bleahx . xPp . hmmz . now my bro is like using the other comp to play some war game . and well so far his losing . his been playing since like 7 till now . and he hasnt even won once . says alot huh . hahas . i need someone to pei wo go shopping ! i like saved up to 300 big ones . i still need to go buy christmas presents . hmmz . that means about 200 plus left for me . and wx and byje are supposed to come to my house . that byje lar . busy woman . everytime cannot make it want . and im also supposed to go out with sarah ! but im going off to aust this sat . for like ten days . omg . i still need to do my homework . im like so dead . i still have so many things to do . and PEOPLE said i was so free . hmmz . at least liyan has paid me back my ten bucks . x)) im ten bucks richer . whee~ . hahas . and where got i loan shark arhs . you make me your punching bag havent suan zhang yet . o yeah . im alos the atm machine yar . see . i have soo many jobs . hahas . ok thats lame . im being LAME . and now SPASTIC too . but WHATEVER . im now insanely crasy . if that means anything . xPP .

ok . actually last night i was supposed to post another post instead of the ahma post . but i couldnt take it lar . hahas dun want to talk about him already . yesterday got back frm camp . hahas . it was totally cool lar . met lots of new friends too . too bad it ended so early . actually at first didnt really like it there and stuff . oyeah and fell sick . sighs . everytime i go for camp i ALWAYS fall sick . but then later no more sick so liked it alot better . it would have been alot better if SOMEONE also came . but THAT person just kept making EXCUSES . so whatever . anyway the camp was totally fun . like did alot of stuff . and the sessions were really good . could feel Gods presence there . and all the campers were very friendly and stuff . hahas . who ask YOU never go . huo gai arhs . xPp . yeah last night slept at 1 something lar . then my mum was like nagging cos i was in front fo the comp sneezing and coughing . hahas . she say i dun let everybody else sleep also . so in the end have no choice go to sleep lors . hee~ . yeah . so now im sick . my throat is like so sore . and now my voice is like a guys . anyways . last night xin ask me go read someones blog . and i went to read it . is like SO TOUCHING . sobs . cry for that person arh . the persons heart got broken . i can so understand how he felt lar . but my situation wasnt as bad as his . it was SO SAD . and even though he heart was broken by someone else . he still kept loving her and praying for her . like kept wishing her well . ok so i know the HER person . and i know the her person isnt bad and stuff . cmon lar . i knew her for like half my life . pratically . but is like how could she do that . she broke his heart . after all they've been together too . i thought they would always be together lar . but well . nothing ever lasts forever . and i better then anyone should know that better . hahas . people are always changing . when you think that you know a person really well . later on you will find out that you dont know him at all . when you really begin to think that you are finally a part of his life but suddenly he tells you you are nothing to him . when he opens up to you and you feel that finally he sees you . only later he says nothing and leaves you all alone once again . yeah something like that . the process is long and painful . you feel like yelling at the person to stop hurting you and bashing the person up . yet evertime for even that second that he comes back to you . your love for him just rushes out again . and everytime he leaves you . you cant help but hope he will return even when you know after he returns he will just leave you again . you know that he will never ever love you back . but you just cant stop loveing him . and you just cant stop hoping that he will one day love you the same way you love him . though he probably never will . you cant help wishing for it . its all painful . and it hurts all the time . you always wish he would come back but scared that it will hurt . to love someone is the must hurting thing you can ever do to yourself . but you just cant help it . you just can help loving him . you dont care about the pain . you are willing to suffer for HIM . as long as you get even one secong with him . you're willing to brave through all difficulties just for him . just to bad he doesnt realize anything . to him you are as important as the dirt on his feet . you are not important to him all . too bad i had to go through all that before i realized what happen . just too bad

I CANT BELIVE IT ! MY [short , crappy , naggy] AHMA BROKE A LITTLE INNOCENT GIRLS HEART ! how can you do that lar ahma . you supposed to set a good example le . you do that how i follow you arh . so EVIL . i disown you arh . but then is supposed to be the other way round right . hmmz . AHMA ! ! .

herh . you read the previous post ? thank you by simple plan . yeah thats what i feel too . MISTAH PEEPEE ! YOU SUCK ! herh .

*//best friends cannot be trusted\\*
*//you broke me down\\*
*//i'll never be the same again\\*

hiish ! whats the use that GUY wont even be reading this . to think of all the years we knew each other and he still did that . after all i did for him . when he was down who was the one who stuck with him huh ? who ? ME ! when he got dumped by his girl who comforted him huh ? who ? ME ! when he needed to pour his soul out who lent him a listening ear ? who ? ME ! when he was in a fix who untanggled everything for him ? who ? ME ! that ASS . i am soo hating him . FISH HIM ! hermps . that idiotic ungrateful BRAT ! to think after all we've been through he would have not done it . but NO . YOU ASS . I HATE YOU . you know who you are . i hope you're reading this now . herh .

"Thank You" - simple plan

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We'd be alright,
We'd be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won't forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I'd never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I'll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You'll remember me my friend,
You'll be wishing I was there for you.
I'll be the one you'll miss the most,
But you'll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You'll wonder why,
You're all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

ok . 2 more days to camp . whee~ . i just cant wait . (sacarstically) . hmm . i think im starting to catch a cold . been sneezing the whole day . now my nose is all red and glowing . reminds you of ?? rudolf the red nosed reindeer !! rudolf the red nosed reindeer had a very shiny nose~ hahas . x)) . going to australia in two more weeks ! but i know its gonna be the same old boring routine . cmon . i've been practicing since i was 7 ? first we will take the mid night flight there . there will be no one at the airport cept us . oyar this year theres gonna be more ppl . besides me my bro my granny my grandaddy my aunt my uncle and cousin . theres gonna be another uncle aunty and cousin . which come to think of it . is actually already alot of ppl . hahas . anyway i like waiting at the empty airport . so nice . then the aircon very very cold . then we will all sit in one row listen to the announcements . hahas . ok . i sound spastic . hehes . then we will fly there and we kids would spent the rest of the time in the hotel while the old folks will go gamble . hehs . but this year we're going to melbourne . which is nice and everything but well . i prefer sydney . cos then we can go to the bridge and play . damn fun lar . ok . so it sounds childish . but well . when there nothing else to do . you do childish things . like chase the tail . hahas . hmm . this year's christmas bash will be at ah yi's new house . which is really posh and totally cool . yeah ! its like a condominium but its not . its much much bigger . her house is one of the biggest ones i think . it has like two levels and a basement . which altogether is like 3 levels . and theres only the 3 of them staying there plus one maid so its like 4 ppl to this big house . they even have their own bomb shelter . IN the house . so you can imagine how big it is . yeah ! its so totally cool . and my aunt said i can go there anytime i like too ! since its so near my granny's house and everything . but dont think i'll be there to often . cept to use the facilities of cos ! hahas . i sound like an evil little cheap skate . anyway i cant belive i worte so many things in one post . hmmz m .

hmmz . im totally boreded out ! nothing to do . i feel like going out ! but cant . anyway noone to go out with . i had another dream of HIM* . man . im soo hopeless . i dont feel anything for him anymore . but why does he keep appearing in my dreams ? what the hell does this mean arhx ? totally wierded out ! sheesh . im so TOTALLY hopeless . hmm . dont want to talk bout my Hopelessness anymore . oyea . camp coming up ! next wed . i havent sent in my registration form yet . xPp . naughty me . hee~ . and after camp theres the trip to australia ! whee~ . its not gonna be boring anymore ! hehe . i sound like a small kiddiwink . mmz . havent started any of my holiday homework yet . im like so dead . and i also must start preparing for next year . im gonna work really really hard this time . gonna get into a good class in sec 3 . YES ! jia you jia youu ! hee~ .

YEAH! dad came home today . bought lots of goodies back . yumm . hee~ . you know something . some ppl are just so transparent . let me give some tips to those transparent ppl . when you like someone . dont keep pestering her . dont keep talking bout her . dont keep hanging on her every word . cos if you do . you truly are very transparent . and well just to tell you this . mr transparent . now the whole world knows you like her . hehs . wahahahaha . ok . im like being so evil here . hiish .

*//(p0ohs still dreaming about h0ney . how much worse can it get . in a total mess)\\*

#__ taking the worse and pretending its the best ``'

hehes . today post so many times liao . nothing better to do mahs . boOored . hehs . yeah ! next week benita and wei xin coming over i think . not sure . havent confirm yet . then after that . ... . after i come back from australia i think i going shopping with them too . hahas . just too bad we wnt be in the same class next year . actually more like i wont be in the same class as them . but whatever . makes not much difference . so what if they got into a better class and their smarter . it doesnt matter . no i doesnt matter at all . sheesh . i am a bad liar . well practice makes perfect . hmm . i think my granddaddy's gonna give me a digital cam . not sure yet . and though its not exactly the newest model . its still good . at least it can take pictures . but im not sure whether his gonna give it to me . im just praying . oyea . my dads coming home tomorrow . whee~ hope he brouht back lots of goodies with him . he should to . he went away for 3 weeks ok . and during that 3 weeks i had noone to chauffer me anywhere . hmf . *pouts* hehes . i sound like a spoilt pampered brat . but whatever lar . spoilt and pampered isint that bad a thing . but well . if im spoilt and pampered . i wonder what my bro is . hmm . WORSE . yes . MUCHmuch worse . o look . im putting him down again . i supposed to be a good sister and encourage him . but who cares . ITS FUN ! hiish .

*//( p0ohs hopeless ! cant seem to get over h0ney ! must quickly get over h0ney ! p0oh jia y0o ! )\\*

secret land - sandra

i remember
leaves were fallin' down
in St. Germainit was a cold November
you went away
an' i got a dream

nobody knows who i am
maybe you would understand
anybody knows what i am
down in a secret land

nobody knows how i try
not to tell another lie
anybody knows in the end
i'll find a secret land

i need you
i feel you
i can't life without you
so long

i know that
we parted
i'll stay in this town
cause i miss you so

i feel it
i mean it
the secret that
i'm gonna show

an' i turn back
i see that
all my love had to fail
but i miss you so

nobody knows who i am
maybe you would understand
anybody knows what i am
down in a secret land

nobody knows how i try
not to tell another liea
nybody knows in the end
i'll find a secret land

JAMIE CULLUM - "Everlasting Love"

Hearts gone astray, deep in her when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you. (mmm)
Won't you forget, welcome the love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love.
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love.... oh...

Hearts gone astray deep in hurt when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You wont regret I'll come back begging you.
Wont you forget, welcome love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you'll realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love.

From the very start open up your heart, feel that you've fall in,
Everlasting love......

need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.........

I need a love to last forever

i just wanna let you know.
that even though you keep breaking my heart.
that even though you always keep me waiting.
that even though you never keep your promises.
that even though you keep making me cry.
that even though you keep hurting me again and again.
i just wanna let you know.
that i still love you.
and i mean it.
from the bottom of my heart.

wahh . i got into a different class from you guys . a class where i dont really know anyone .

class list :

1.AARON B HAMZAH
2.ANG SI MIN
3.CHANG TING FANG CHLOE
4.CHAU CHIN FONG JEREMY
5.CHEN YOU JIE CLEMENT
6.CHEONG BAOYUE JD
7.CHIA BIN KAI
8.CHIANG MING RUI
9.CHOO LI SHI KIMBERLY
10.CHUA LIN HONG
11.CHUANG FAYE ARABELLE
12.DANIEL SIM KAY JUAN
13.GOH TONG JIT
14.GUO YELIN
15.HU YANG
16.JASMINE CHEW SHENG FANG
17.JOHNATHAN LEE JOO CHENG
18.JOSHUA TAN LI XING
19.JUNE CHEN JIAMIN
20.KAY JIN HAO ERNEST
21.KESTER CHAN YI REN
22.LIM KAH KENG
23.LIM LYNN AMANDA
24.LIM SI YUAN ALEXANDER
25.LOKE JUN WEI JOEL
26.LYNNETTE LAI XIN YI
27.MUNIRAH BTE MOHAMAD SANTOSA
28.NG JUN RONG
29.ONG CHU HUI
30.PUA PENG CHEN GABRIEL
31.SARAH AU-YONG JIE XIN
32.SEE XIAO YUN AMANDA
33.SHAUN ELIJAH TAN YEAN TAT
34.SIEOW JE YUN
35.SIMON MAGDALENE MALANI
36.STEFFI LEE SHU JIN
37.TAN JING WEN NOEL
38.TAN YAN LING CHERIE
39.WEE CHEE CHEONG
40.WU JIAMEI

ok . so their all very nice people . but its not like i hate them or anything . its just that they aint my close friends . i dun know anything bout them . but i guess along the way we'll get to know each other better . i hope . PLEASE LET ME GET TO KNOW THEM BETTER . hahas . ok im begging here .

someone once told me :
"if you really love someone, you will let go of that person. cos if you truly love someone, you would do anything in your means to make the person happy. even if means sacrificing yourself, even if it means letting go. if you really love this person with all your heart, you would do just that."

thats why im letting go of you now .
it doesnt mean i hate you.
it means i love you.
and i want the best for you.
but the best isnt me.
you deserve more then just me.
please forgive me.

everytime i see you hurt.
my heart cries.
everytime i see you in pain.
my heart breaks.
i dun want you to suffer anymore.
i want to stop hurting you.
i want to heal your pain.

and the only way i know how to do it.
is to let you go.
at first you might feel the pain.
but time heals wounds.
just try to forget me.
as im trying to forget you.

im sorry.

heartbroken.

Love Does Not Need A Reason

Lady : Why do you like me? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason... But I really like you...
Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... How can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason.My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her, but not you!
Man : OK..OK!!! Erm...because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements...

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went into coma. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content :

Dearest,
Because of your sweet voice that I love you...
Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you...
Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile, because of your every movements that I love you...
Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you.
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Do love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you...
And love doesn't need a reason

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched, but are felt in the heart."

hahas . you guys must be wondering what the last three posts were about . they were the song lyrics for a korean drama called full house . yes . and im crasy bout it . at least for now . hahas . but its totally sweet and funny ! you cant help but fall in love with it ! hehe . right . now i sound like a babbling idiot . hehs . anyway went for another "family" shopping trip . my bro bought 2 more shirts from zara . he has taste no . i just bought 3 shirts from giordano . im the cheaper child . i only demand for a handphone and mp3 . my bro demands for any new version of the gameboy or any new version of playstation . and if there is any new game . he'll beg for it . like we already have 3 gameboys at home . ok now 2 . he lost one of them . sheesh . and my mum keeps saying i need to learn to save money and dont spend soo much . whos the one spending huh . let me ask you . hmphs . gees . people nowadays are just soo blind .

gom semari ga , han jibe itso
[three bears are in one house]

appa gom, umma gom, ehgi gom
[father bear, mother bear, baby bear]

appa gom eun tungtung heh
[father bear is fat]

umma gom eun nalshin heh
[mother bear is slender]

ehgi gom eun nuhmu giyowuh
[baby bear is really cute~]

wu suk wu suk jal han da~
[*wu suk word is like when u move ur shoulders up and down]

jalhanda- very good

I Think I by Byul (korean version)

Geureolri eobsdago anilkkeorago miteossjyo~ um
Naega geudae saranghandan imaldo andoejyo~ um
Gwaenchan jiltuilkkeorago naega oeroungabodago
Jashineul sokyeobwassjiman ije deoneun nan gamchulsuga eobsneungeolyo

I think i love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause i miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon

Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakku saeng-gaknago
Ireongeol bomyeo amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now i need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo

Urin aneoulrindago chingu geuge ttak johdago um
Hanabuteo yeolgae dodaeche mwo hangaerado majneunge eobsneunde
Eotteohgesagwil suissnyago maldoandwaeneun yaegirago
Malhamyeo dulreo daessjiman ijedeoneun nan geureogigashirheungeolyo

Wae molrassjyo geudaeraneungeol woo
Wae mosbwassjyo baro apinde hoo ye
Geu dongan ireohge baro naegyeote isseossneunde
Wae ijeseoya sarangi boineungeoji hoo

im sick of being me . being the little push over . the ball picker . the rap taker . the slave . i have my own life to run too . i aint no sick little thing any more . get off me .

wahh . today damn hectic . in the morning wake up need to do some chores that my mum left for me . +(( . had to mop the whole house ! and clear up everything . TORTURE ! anyway later went to my granny's house . then we go shopping together . me , bro , granny , aunt and little cousin . hahas . so many ppl . then we take a taxi to orchard . everybody squish into one . hehe . then our first stop was the bank . my cousin keep running around everywhere lar . then i have to keep chasing her around around and around . like merry go round . then our next stop was espirit . but didnt find what we want there . after that we went to zara . there my bro got a pair of jeans . then we went to mango . see see only . didnt find anything really nice . then my granny spotted a tube top . for only $9 . so she bought it for me . then my aunt and granny went to a money changer to change to australian money . for our trip to australia . x)) . then we go to giordano . there i bought a pants and a shirt . hahas . then need to go for piano class . then come back home ! hahas . SPASTIC ! haix . anyway no im back here hahas . and tonight my mums on call . that means she'll get back only tmr morning . hee~ so i get the whole house to myself ! xD . cept for my bro of cos . i cant seem to be able to get rid of him . YET . hmmz . i sound evil . EVIL MONSTER . ok . im being retarded again . hehs . okies . gtg watch tv . cya . takkaires .

hees . today i posted so many times . hahas . im so wu liao . hmmz . tomorrow im going shopping with granny , aunt and bro . shes gonna buy us clothes . for our trip to australia ! hehe . x)) . smileyyy . yeah ! you know whats the most disturbing and amazing thing . my bro only failed one subject . his supposed to fail more so he wont get to go to australia . hmmz . his has more than what i credit him for . anyway gtg soon . mums nagging me to go help her do something . more slavary . i have my rights . just too bad shes my mum . after all . she gave life to me . looks like im in debted to her . well i'll just have to bear with it . and after all . shes too is the one who controls my pocket money . hehz . bye . takkaires you guys . muacks .

ok . a friend sent me this mail . its actually a chain mail . but its pretty touching .

A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its
hiding place in the closet.
She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three
times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for
mistakes.
Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she
slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store
with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door.
She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he>>was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing
noise.
Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could
muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on
the glass counter. That did it!
"And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice.
I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said
without waiting for a reply to his question. "Well, I want to talk to you
about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's
really, really sick... and I want to buy a miracle."
" I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.
" His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my
Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"
"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you,"the pharmacist said, softening a little.
"Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the
rest. Just te ll me how much it costs."
The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked
the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does your brother need?"
" I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. I just know he's
really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay
for it, so I want to use my money."
" How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago.
"One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly."And it's all
the money I have, but I can get some more if I need& nbsp; to."
"Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents---the
exact price of a miracle for little brothers. "
He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten
and said "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet
your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need."
That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in
neuro-surgery. The operation was completed free of charge and it wasn't long
until Andrew was home again and doing well.
Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them
to this place.That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I
wonder how much it would have cost?"
Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and
eleven cents .. plus the faith of a little child..
In our lives, we never know how many miracles we will need..A miracle is
not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law.. I know
you'll keep the ball moving!
Here it goes. Throw it back to someone who means something to you!
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end. It keeps us together like our
Circle of Friends. But the treasure inside for you to see is the treasure of
friendship you've granted to me.
Today I pass the friendship ball to you.
Pass it on to someone who is a friend to you.
MY OATH TO YOU...
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears.
When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried.....I will give you hope.
When you are confused.....I will help you cope.
And when you are lost....And can't see the light,
I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright.
This is my oath.....I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend.

Signed: GOD

HOWIE DAY - "Collide"

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking'
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

phew . just finish "battling" with one of my brothers friends . ok let me fill you in . i wanted to use the com but my bro was using . then he say i can use but must not sign off his msn messenger . then he go watch tv . then suddenly his friend keep sending him messengers . like keep pestering (even my bro cant stand him) . then i just keep asking him to shut up then he say i so rude . but anyway he gave up and went offline . yeah ! im pro aint i . x)) . but am i really very rude ? hmmz . compared to SOME ppl im actually considered quite polite ya know . hahas . anyway im now blasting music really really LOUD . and its damn shiok . mm . today also dont have any training .=] . not like i dont like training or anything . in fact im actually starting to like it (pigs aint flying yet) . but its nice to take a break sometimes . dad flew off last night . his going for about three weeks this time . not really sure where his going . but i know his going to three places . the last place is USA i think . hope he buys back lots of prezzies ! x)) . whee~

Good Enough For You - Freefaller

You're never proud
And I'm not allowed
To make mistakes
I'm always too much
Or never enough
I just can't win

I get so confused
Don't know what to do
Maybe I'm just dumb
Because everything I seem to do is wrong
When I try to talk you shout
Freak out
I feel like I'm going to break

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for youI

'm trying my best to make you impressed
But it's no good
You just shoot me down and push me around
I just can't win

I get so confused
Don't know what to do
Maybe I'm just dumb
Because everything I seem to do is wrong
When I try to talk you shout
Freak out
I feel like I'm going to break

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for you

You keep making no sense when you talk
So I'm taking this chance to walk away

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for you
Nothing's ever good enough for you
Nothing's ever good enough for you

THE CLICK FIVE-Just The Girl

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

last night went for the class bbq . it was pretty fun lar . and lots of great food too . hahas . everyone took lots of pictures . ate lots of good food . the guys tried to burn everything down . melissa bought a frisbee and some ppl started playing . another group was playing cards . some were riding bikes . some were cooking food . yeah . thats pratically what happened . hahas . anyway today was deepavali . so its a public holiday . and everyone slept late . then we did some more major house cleaning . threw out lots of stuff . sniffsniff . but must make room for new stuff . x)) . hehehs . yeah . im saving all my money for the greatest shopping trip ever . yeah ! hehs . anyway . needa wake up early tomorrow . for training . xP . dont really feel like going . but i'll try to lar . later some ppl will nag nag nag . sighs . hehe . kaex . takkaires everyone . nights .

heysh . been quite awhile since i last blogged huh . been kinda busy . doing some big spring cleaning at home . with my mum who keeps forcing me to throw my personal stuff which she calls JUNK . hmm . finally the holidays are here . dont really feel THAT relived though . like dont really feel as happy as i thought i would . more like spacing . anyway on saturday went to sarahs birhtday party . it was pretty small . like around 10 ppl bahs . and it was held at her hse . too bad i had to leave early . so sad lar . had to go for a family dinner with . well my family . like duh . went to little india to eat fish head curry . damn shiok lar . then while you eat you sweat cos its just so spicy . shuangs . DO NOT think i am crasy ok . hahas . then later me and my family went shopping ! bought two shirts and one skirt . not with my own money too . xD . hees .

you say i have changed ; but the truth is you dont know me anymore

you know what i noticed ? this year went by very fast . its like i can still remember the day of orientation . hmmz . next year i'll work harder . jia yooo . i wont slack . (i know its impossible but dun break my confidence / stupidity) . i'll get into the best classes ! yes i will . (shut up . you dont have to say anything) . and i'll strive to be the best . (not the best . just close enough) . i'll make it . (yes i will so shut up) .

hahas . just come back from training . so damn tired lar . EII . today at IT damn funny lar . someone try to play stupid . ask stupid questions . he obv know what the answer is but act stupid dunno . SLAP THE PERSON LAR . hmmz . today the last day for lessons . one more day of meet the parents and one more day of thanksgiving service . WHEE~ . then 2 months HOLIDAY . !!! . hmmz . hope next year can be the same class with the same ppl . just as we were getting together . hahas . but i dun think so . my L1R5 got so high lar . like 18 i think . nvm tmr i'll know for sure . hehe . but at least i know im not the worst ! have ppl worst then ME ! yeah . hahas . no offence to those OTHER ppl . hee~ .

YEAH . last nights BBQ rawked ! so fun lar . specially the dunking part . though i got dunked too . but it was still fun . the food was ok lar . sausage chicken balls sausage chicken balls . yups . thats about all the food they had . they were not combined hor . DO NOT THINK SICK ! its IDIVIDUAL PORTIONS . yes it is . hahas . hmmz . hope they plan another one soon . the fun actually began at the last part lar . like when most of the ppl were all gone . and there was just one small group of ppl left . AND that was the time it went WILD . totally crasy . hahas . eII . so funn . ok . i sound spastic . whateva . hahas .

today had training . and i went for it . for what ? no idea . no matter how much i try , train , practice . i wont be able to do it . im just hopeless . permentnently . haix . anyway today recieved back the four papers . chinese . history . maths . design and technology . the four papers i predicted i was sure to fail ! pretty wierd huh . anyway i didnt fail any ! =)) happy smiles ~ hehe . hope i dun fail the rest . tmr i'll be getting back my science and english . plsplspls dun let me fail . . . PLEASE ! anyway i got better marks then byje for chinese history and design and technology ! she only beat me in maths ! hahas . =))) . it shows that im improving ! or . maybe its because shes deproving ! hahas . but wadeva . hmmx . that means i'll be able to go to australia ! YEAH ! hehe . cos my dad said i cannot fail anything if not cannot go . and i PASSED ! yipee .

[i found out someone likes aileen] shh .

a ball picker . thats what i am and will always be . sighs .

br0kenn hearrted

t0rrn aparrt

fallenn int0 piieces

thats miie

many ppl ask me why my blog have soo many song lyrics . well . this songs represent my moods . what im feeling inside . what im going through . and right now i feel so depressed . sad . pissed . feel like the world is crashing down upon me . i dunno why i feel that way . i just feel it . i feel like crying and just screaming my head off . but i cant . i wish that i had a shoulder to lean upon . a ear to hear my sorrow . and hand to comfort me . but i have none . not that im complaining about that . i just feel . well . i dunno . u add it up and tell me .

song in my head :
AVRIL LAVIGNE - "Forgotten"
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah
I'm giving up on everything
Because you messed me up
Don't know how much you
Screwed it up
You never listened
That's just too bad
Because I'm moving on
I won't forget
You were the one that was wrong
I know I need to step up and be strong
Don't patronize me
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

[Chorus:]
Have you forgotten
Everything that I wanted
Do you forget it now
You never got It
Do you get it now
Yea yea yea yea yea
Yea yea yea yea yea
Ah ah ah ah
Ah ah ah ah

Gotta get away
There's no point in thinking about yesterday
It's too late now
It won't ever be the same
We're so different now
Yea yea yea yea yea

[Chorus]
I know I wanna run away
I know I wanna run away
Run away
If only I could run away
If only I could run away
Run away
I told you what i wanted I
I told you what i wanted
What I wanted
But I was forgotten
I won't be forgotten
Never Again

[Chorus (2x)]
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah
Forgotten
Yeah yeah yeah

song in my head :
AVRIL LAVIGNE - "How Does It Feel"
I'm not afraid of anything
I just need to know that i can breathe
I don't need much of anything
But suddenly, suddenly

I am small and the world is big
All around me is fast moving
Surrounded by so many things
But suddenly, suddenly

[Chorus]
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel, to be different from me?
Are we the same?
How does it feel?

I'm young, and I am free
But I get tired, and I get weak
I get lost, and I can't sleep
But suddenly, suddenly

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
Would you comfort me
Would you cry with me;

Ahh, ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
Ahh, ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah
ahh, ahh-ah

I am small and the world is big
But I'm not afraid of anything;

[Chorus x2]

[Ending (background)]
How does it feel [x2]
Different from me, different...
(ahh, ahh, ahh-ah;
ahh-ah,
ahh-ah,
ahh, ahh, ahh-ah;
ahh-ah,
ahh-ah)

song in my head :
MAE - "Someone Else's Arms"
Two days and I've not slept a wink
with these thoughts that I've been thinking.
This is the mark I aim to miss. (again)

You toss and turn, I lie awake,
who knows what I've been drinking.
another cheap, meaningless kiss. (to give)

From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone's?
I just wanna wake up. [4x]

Six days and I can see the same
brown eyes in this reflection.
Is the man you say I'll be? (become)

You toss and turn, I lie awake,
into the sand were sinking.
Holding us back from breathing free (I'm done)

From the beginning,
dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone's?
I just wanna wake up. [8x]

More than words you keep to yourself.
Like a curse that fares thee well.

One man came, one truth to tell.
All this blame, hammers your way to hell.

I've got a feeling it's not the safest place to start.
This heavy breathing, it seems, we're better off breaking hearts.
From the beginning, dulled down and lost with all its charm.
I just wanna wake up, wake up in someone's?
I just wanna wake up. [8x]

I just wanna wake up in someone else's arms.

haix . cheryl just told me that tuesday have training . sighs . dont they ever give us a break ?!?! first day come back to school after exams sumore . sighs . anyway today had to do ushering at church . i go there super early =) . so guai . hehe . this sat have cluster BBQ at heritage view . gonna cause havoc . xD . im gonna scream my head off . arghHhh . i HATE everything ! everything SUCKS !

wahh . today went to piano class then the teacher told me actually no lesson . then idiot lar . make me go all the way there then tell me no lesson . sighs .

hmm . just now one guy and je yun rang my doorbell . they said have one dunno what post exam party at je yuns hse . hmm . then i think they doing it door to door lar . they were like is there any fmss ppl living here ? hmm . my estate has 3 blocks each one has 25 storeys with 4 units on each level . thats alot huh . so shld i go ? hmmz . dont really feel like going . but also feel like going . sighs . hmmz . wonder whos gonna be there ? dont think alot of ppls there . cos their like doing door to door calls . soo ? sighs . nvm lar . dun go . cos i dun think i cant go either .

OKAEE ! today is officially the last day of exams ! scream for joy ! hehe . yipee . now its total freedom ! whoots ! but it also means i must find some other activity to waste my time . hahas . and it also means i must clean the whole house up ! wahh . hmm . i feel like going out noww . hahas . sound whinyy . eEee . ok and i found out today is my "ahma"'s birthday ! HAPPY BIRTHDAY "AHMA" ! live long long hor . then must not get angry to much . later get heart attack . then noone to pull my ear and scold me . hahas . ok . cannot tease "ahma" liao . later he go pull my ear some more . hahas .

song in my head now :

James Blunt - "You're Beautiful"
My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.

She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Flying high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.

You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.

There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,I will never be with you.

ok this is lame . hahas . i post so many times today liao . hmmz . today my mum very good mood le . back quiche and cheese sticks . hmm . suspicious . she wants something out of me and my bro . hahas . anyway it was so fun ! play with the flour . then mix everything into some icky guee mixture . hehe . so sticky and nice x) . yumm . mm . now finally all the exams finish liao . should be happy . but feel like soo empty . like so free liddat . nothing to do . hahas . somethings wrong with me . must be more of the byje syndrome . ohno . its getting worse . must go get more medicine . go to wei xin for more councelling . hahas . shes the best doctor for curing byje related deseases . shes been around to long liao . now have no effect . hahas . yummy . now can smell the quiche and cheese sticks liao . mMmm . hahas . okies . cya guys . hahas . buaish .

hey people . go check out my webbie that i created for some school project . www.fairfieldsec.org/homepages/S9212185B/jasmine . give me ya comments yar .

wahah . today last paper ! okok . minus the two more days of oral lar . hahas . hmm . my prediction is that i will fail my maths , history , design and technology , chinese and . . hmm . thatts about it ba . nothing else i can fail right . hmm . that means i cant go to australia ! my daddy said if i fail at least one subject i wont get to go . and i should be failing four ? this is bad so very bad . wahh . but then again i'll be getting the whole house to MYSELF . hmm .
sighs . i've been getting such wierd dreams lar . actually its more like nightmares . but wadeva . you know what i keep dreaming of ? specific people . guys . guys that i actually know . pretty wierd huh . and this guys are all idiots . so what could it mean . hmmz . wierd . this is so wierd . eEee . hahas . anyways i gotta go to dreamland . minus those nightmarishyy thoughts of cos . needa catch up on my sleep ya know . all those late night cramming . nights . byee . takkairishh .

still not trusting no freakin two faced double lying bitch .

clown fishies are cute and innocent . NOT .

dun trust no freaking two faced double lying bitch


its never a beautiful ending

todays the third day of finals . maths 1 and science . the maths was damn tough lar . paper from hell . and its like only the first paper . im so gonna fail for maths . hmm . the science paper was pretty ok . it was much easier than the maths paper . thats good . at least i will pass something . hahas . today my bro bought some electrical-chewing-gum-thingyy . its in the shape of a box of chewing gum and theres this one piece half-way out . and if you pull it . it will send static shocks to your hand . pretty scary . yupx . and i was the first victim . you can trust the dumb-old-me to fall for that trick . you definately can . sighs . hahas . today go my ah ma house again . the whole week i went there . im soo guai lor . then watch cartoons all day with my baby cuz . so fun . then we keep laughing . hahas . so happy xD . and we ate lots and lots of marshmallows ! yummy . hehee . my ah ma bought them . so nice right . hahas . hmmz . you ever have the feeling that someone is pulling a prank on you but then again the person seems so damn serious . yeah ? hahas . cos theres this guy . he usually doesnt talk to me . except to make fun of me and tease me . and suddenly he gets all chummy and serious and actually ask me for advice on his love affairs . and he tells me what happens . and it all sounds so totally bizzare . so im still trying to find out if its a prank . hmmz . okies . till later guyz . takkaire ok . try not to miss me to much . and here i go . back mugging .

tmr's clown fishies birthday ! =)

wahaha . todays the first day of the finals . stress sia . today had ennglish paper 1 and history . hahas . gotta continue mugging . cya

wahahaha . 2 more days till finals . stress . pressure . jia yoo .

only 4 more days till finals start . die liao . havent finish revising everything lar . bleahx . xP . hmms . then after exams 2 weeks . still have 2 more weeks till school end . so fast .
today mdm chong said that even though year coming to an end liao , we still have no class spirit , not united . i so agree with her lor . is like everyone does try to cooperate but theres just THIS group then doesnt want to . always make noise dont want to help dont want to cooperate . SIGH .
today my dad came home from india . bought quite alot of stuff back . hahas . yeah . really thank God that he is safely back . cos my mum said the place he went was having floods . hahas . then yesterday was his birthday . hehes . just went out for dinner to celebrate . yumm .
today i kept seeing *him . is like walk here . there *he is . walk the other way . there *he is again . is damn freaky lar . FREAKYY . then like go somewhere to sit . *he'll suddenly walk pass . then i go somewhere else sit . o there *he is again . is SO freakYY . hmmz . last time find him also cannot find . now dont want to see him have no choice . put right in front of my face some more . hahas .
hmms . today in history class there was a HUGE war . and me , byje , wei xin and aileen were in the middle of it . at the eye of the storm hahas . the guys(no naming) behind us were throwing stuff to the guys(no naming) in front of us . and the guys in front of us were throwing stuff back . and guess where most of the stuff landed ? yes us . the middle people . who were so innocent and had nothing to do with the war . their aiming SUCKS lar . throw untill so . aiyoo . haish .

hahas . spastiC . today my mum on-call again . then my dad overseas . the whole house left to me and my bro . havoC man . hahas . suppose to be studying science now . but instead im here . blogging . hahas . bOOo . hehe . xPpP . nites you guys . bYEe . tc .

hehe . now in school . in history classs . MRS SNORTGRASS's class . boOriingg . whee~ and jereme is next to me playing some lame LAME game . making lots LOTS of noise . EEee . and amanda is squashing me off the chair . eEvilnessES . hAH . the whole class suppose to be doing work in the end everyone playing . shows what a failure teacher she is . bOoo . the whole class so noisy some more . amandas still pushing me off the chair . big butt . hahas .

wahh . . stress sia . onlt 1 more week until finals . stressSTRESSstress . hehe . hmm . and only 5 more weeks till school holidays . but before that must keep mugging for exams . hehe . okie . study hard everyone . =)) smile always!

the song in my head now :
Did you feel th mountains tremble - delirious
Did you feel the mountains tremble?
Did you hear the oceans roar?
When the people rose to sing of Jesus Christ the risen one.
Did you feel the people tremble?
Did you hear the singers roar?
When the lost began to sing of Jesus Christ the saving one.
And we can see that God you're moving
A mighty river through the nations
And young and old will turn to Jesus
Fling wide you heavenly gates
Prepare the way of the risen Lord
Open up the doors and let the music play
Let the streets resound with singing
Songs that bring your hope
Songs that bring your joy
Dancers who dance upon injustice.
Do you feel the darkness tremble?
When all the saints join in one song.
And all the streams flow as one river
To wash away our brokenness.
And here we see that God you're moving.
A time of jubilee is coming
When young and old return to Jesus
Fling wide you heavenly gates.
Prepare the way of the risen Lord.

hahas . today quarrelled with my brother again . i dont mean to quarrel with him lor .. but his just so damn irritating . then suddenly bad temper so quarrel . so styupid lor . arghh . oyar . the toilet bowl is still stuck . tommorrow the plumber coming . he better repair quickly . im sick of doing buisnesses in plastic bags . serious . it was that bad . hmm . this week revising maths and science . all so chim . dont understand . sighs . then today during IT lesson .. jereme keep disturbing me lar . keep shuting down my computer . shut down 5 times some more . and to think of all the times i helped him . sighs . some sort of gratitude . JEREME CHONG'S AN ASS . his a faggot too . (just borrowing his all time favourite word) . hmm . after school we rehearsed for the lit project : romeo and juliet . then everytime pause pause pause and one by one all go home . never even finish the whole play once lar . then some more tommorrow's the presentation . die liao . si ding liao . cannot make it arh ! hahas . not i want to say lar . but it is true . never even practise properly . sighs . SHOUT IT OUT ! hahas .

hehe . been a long time since i last blogged huh . been quite busy with exams , projects and stuff . and i really did study ! hehe . been quite stressed out lately lar . study study till head explode liao . hmm . wahh . that stupid part-time cleaner lady lar ! all her fault ! now my house the toilet all cannot use ! cannot shit ! hehe . dunno how she scrub the toilet bowl untill the brush break then got flushed into the toilet . not the drains all stuck . wahahahh . must be she go and break off then go and stuff down the toilet bowl . so eevil . no i cannot go toilet anymore . haix . hehe . then my mum go call my dad (whose in china) . then my dad dont belive her lor . thought she joking joking de . hahas . so funny lar . actually it does sound pretty stupid . BUTbutBUT i still cannot go toilet ! hmphh . later i get constipation i blame the cleaner lady . make her pay my doctor bill . hehe . eevil miie . hmmz . 2 more weeks till final year exams . so nervous . hope i do well . if not next year wont be same class with my classmates again . all of them so smart . aww . hehe . must keeep mugging . YEAH ! I CAN DO IT ! hahas . okie . stop here now . must carry on mugging . byee . takkaire you guys . bOo\\-

reasons why i just cant stop loving you* .
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#1 you* held my hand and walked with me through times of trouble
#2 you* were there behind me supporting me all the way
#3 you* gave me strength to carry on
#4 you* let me cry on your shoulder
#5 you *tried you best to be there for me
#6 you* were patient with me
#7 you* did not look down on me
#8 you* were willing to listen to all my complaining
#9 you* sacrificed so much for me
#10 you* loved me for who i was not who i was supposed to be
i love you* so much . thank you for being there with me always . <3

lalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~ // laaaaaaaa~ hehe . taking a break .

wahh . i just digged out a secret i should have left buried larr . its like so unbelivable and sick . it really is . . i still cant seem to belive it . of all the nice less whiny *clue here* girls he picked her . guys . . . you never know what they are thinking .

hehe . today have inter-class games . hehe . but we lost the frisbee match . so wasted lor . but at least for soccer we won 1 match . the one against 1c =) hehe . but then lost the second match =( . against 1e . they damn power lar . hahas . then the dunno-his-name so rough lar . he go push down the poor guys from my class . so rough ! hehe . 3-nil lar . hmm . on wednesday then the captain ball match . hope we win ! hehe . against 2i le ! not fair lar . almost all the first matches against sec 2's one lor . . so unfair ! hehe . then most of the sec 2's won lar . should be fair what ! let the same level compete with the same level . hehe . well . at least next year i'll be sec 2 . . then can bully the sec 1 . mwahahahaa . hee~ im so evil . yes i am evil . hahas . hmm . today also the first day back to school . hahas . and the trashedd us with so mauch homework . hahas . needa study now . byee

ok . so im back . BOO ! at least i feel better now . not that piss-y and safer to cross . hmm . tomorrow have lit project . . hope can finish it . . AND that everyone makes it on time too . not that much to ask right . must finish and must get high marks for that project ! its the only hope i have to pass lit . ok maybe not that bad . but close . hmm . we havent finish taking the shots . . havent develop . . havent get the scrapbook . . oyar . . and the project is due next friday . interesting . any bets on whether we will finsh it ? hehe . ok im being sacarstic . but its true . we still have so much to do and the dateline IS coming closer . . and well noone seems to care 'cept for me . well maybe thats due to the fact that the rest of my group members got A for lit . but still thats no excuse . if any of my lit group members are listening . . buck up and quickly do it . . even though you have A's . . at least do it for me . . hmm . but i dont think they will anyway . sighh . its the last day of school holidays already ! wahh =( soo sad . sumore i havent even started on my holiday homework . wait i dont even know what holiday homework there is . hmm . wonder what that says of me . WAIT . i dont think i want to know . so just keep your mouth shut . sighh . the marks i got this term totally suck . i must be determined to pull them up ! i must study harder ! hmm . i really must do it this time . dont want to get last in class again . that would totally suck . being last in class 2 times in a row . hehe . okies . need to get back to work . (it really is work) . byee . =) *studying hard now* sign on my door *do not disturb ! trying very hard to study * hehe . ok really byee now .

I SO HATE HER ! ! ! arghh . she just keeps trying to control my life . . casting me away when she doesnt need me and sucking me up when she does . who does she think she is man . ARHH ! she asks me to come . . then leaves me out . I HAVE HAD ENOUGH ! ! im not this dog that you can order around . nor am i this used toilet paper that you want to throw . well i feel like throwing HER ! arghh . so damn pissed off lar ! grr . actually im practically pissed off with everyone . so like stay away from me . cos im in this foul foul mood . and its so totally got look awful if you dun heed my advice . i cant get it why im always the one being used by other people . and i dont even get a thanks . nope all i get is friggin crap back . it so sucks to be used and later on dumped into the bin . do i have like a "throw me in the bin please recycle" sign on my forehead . i dont think so . but apparently everyone seems to be seeing the sign . and they sure do recycle . . passing me on to another person to use . you could almost be proud of them for being able to recycle . well almost . arghh . ok so im crapping here . but i needa vent it on something dont i . AHH ! MY LIFE TOTALLY SUCKS ! sighh . sighh . sighh . this is so sadening huh . ok lar . stop my sad story and mad ravings here . cya . if i live to tell my next sad tell .

wahh . . yesterday so tired lar . . had to do the lit project . . climb all the way up a hill just to take pictures lar . hehe . hope will get high marks for the project . . 50% lar . i need those marks to pass !

hehe . . second day of school holidays ! ! soo fast . hmm . still have lots of studying left to do . . aiming to get at least 3 A's for finals ! yi ding yao jian chi xia qu ! hehe . ok get back to studying now . later then try to blog sumore . bye ! =)

hehe . been such a long time since i last blogged huh . been pretty busy so you cant really blame me . . yeah ! i finally got a new mp3 player ! zen neeon . wonder how i got it ? cos my old one spoilt . . soo sad ! my stupid baby cousin lar ! go and drop drop drop . . then in the end spoil . . bwahahha ! but then for the new one my mum only fork out a hundred . . then the rest i had to pay . . hundred plus lar ! ! so xin teng ! then found out yesterday that we're gonna have a combined youth camp with five other churches . . its gonna be held at st andrews village . like soo many people are gonna be there lar . . so exciting ! hope can go ! hmm . . now sept holls liao . . then later finals ! must study hard liao . must cram cram cram ! must get higher marks now ! if not next year got lousy class . . and also cannot go melbourne . hehe . hmm . . i think im gonna organize a study party . . hehe . . but than noone can study . . hahas .aiya . the com lag . later then blog sumore . bye.


todays the day of gran aunt irene cremation . tomorrows didi's birthday party . ironic isint it . i've finally seen baby matt ! so cute and so small . . looks just like 'thilda . . hehe . but his eyes bigger . so cute . i think 'thilda spoilt my mp3 lar . . she go snatch then i think she dropped it quite a few times . bwahh . sad . now cannot on . then can on . . the song play wierd wierd de . hehe . then should have seen her lar . . so jealous of baby matt . . keep clinging on to my aunt . . hahas . but now she getting cuter and cuter . also become smarter . hahas .

hmm . . yesterday went to gran aunt irene's wake . . it was so sad . i still cant believe that she isnt with us anymore . . it was like i keep seeing her smiling at me . . still alive and happy . but now shes gone . it really makes you think . . makes you treasure all that you have now . . makes you cherish what you thought was never there . . makes you see things . hmm .

hehehe . . been one whole week since i've been to school ( continuous ) . sick for so long lar . but now getting better =) . passed it on to my didi . now his turn to suffer . mwahahaha . evil ? totally ! hmm . baby matthew ( my cuz ) now come back home from hospital . but i cannot visit him . bwaa . cos i sick then new born baby cannot be sick . owell . then on wed baby matt almost died lar . xia si ren . mhmm . DIED . not yet lar . almost . cos my aunt feeding him milk then he got choked . and according to " sources " . he turned a funny blueish blackish . eEee . scarieE . but now he's doing fine . thank god . i hope i get well quick ! then can go see him ! while my bro cant . mwahaha . and get back that loan . hmm . been like a year lar . since she return me that loan . then august first suppose to return me . but baby matt came back . then i sick . cannot go . bwaa . looks like gonna have to wait another month . bwaa . never gonna get my money back . bwaa . sad .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

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