sighs . today have sports day . so darn boring . just see people run and run and RUN . not like our class atully won anything . only TWO pple won trophies . gabriel and muni . so BORING . now if i were in 2d it WOULD be different . they practically won everything . SOO UNFAIR . all the atheletes are in THIER class . its ok . we'll just win the rest of the competitions . uhuh . 2c rawks . x) . sighs then after sports day it rained and rained non-stop . who needs that . supposed to have a pizza party too . in honour of my birthday (WHICH IS TMR) . but in the end cancelled it . didnt really feel like having a party . plus . dun even know whether can have it . plus . everyone was confused . so . owells . no more pizza party . not like its my loss . its pizza huts loss . now i dont need to spend unwanted money . so its a good thing . yays . i already got my first prezzie . from my darling steffi . (if you give me a prez too . i'll call you a darling anytime) . a POOHBEAR . and chocies . x) . ilove <3 . feeling darn sians now . nothing to do . and suffering from a tummyache . ouchies . sighs .

one more day till im another year older.

hmms . nowadays feeling so darn danged . beat . TIRED . everytime go to school always feel like sleeping . snores . zZzz . i have no idea why either . ): . sad . then i can never pay attention during class too lar . sighs . i do try to sleep as early as i can . i just cant sleep now you cant blame me can you . like my dad says . im a nocturnal animal . im ALIVE at night . uhuh . so what can i do . sighs . AHH . you know what . i cant stand HER . shes soo .. IRRITATING . oyar . and i thought i was the only one who didnt like her . but guess what . i found a whole lot of people who dont like her either(: . YAYS . ok . i know i sound darn evil . like being happy when soo many people dont like someone . but wells i cant help it . i really REALLY really try very hard to like her . but i just cant take it any longer . shes always SOO extra . and shes got this hearing problem . like when you call her name . NO . when you SCREAM her name . she can never ever hear you . and when you never even said her name . she asks you . did you call me . like what the reek . plus whenever im talking to someone . she'll just cut in . and shes always eavesdropping . AHH . cant take it . BLAH . and she always thinks she soo BIG . like i never even ask her how to do anything . and she will just snatch my paper and tell me how to do . like wheres your manners girl . didnt your mummy teach you how to say PLEASE . and like what . i actually got a higher l1r5 then her . shows that i did better then her didnt i . HERH . ahhh .. .. ..

stop blaming yourself already . its not entirely your fault . you too didnt want it to happen . it was an ACCIDENT yeah ? so stop saying its all your fault and looking down on yourself . cos its painful for me too . i dont want to see you this way . it hurts to see you this way . so stop being sad and depressed . and smile . OK ? ((:

i will love you forever and ever . no matter what happens . so smile . for me
hearts <3 ME
hearts <3 YOU


chocolates heal broken hearts and tired souls

hearts <3


ok . this time . im gonna complain about BOYS AND THEIR HORRIBLE AIMING . you know yesterday when i rushed back home from school . (there was a reason why i rushed . i was urgent) . YES . so just rushed to the toilet and sat down . AND squish . my brothers PEE was all over the place . on the sit . and even on the FLOOR . man . if they already know that their aiming SUCKS . cant they at least clean up after themselves . SHEESH . GUYS ! . oyes talking about guys . my stupid kor lar . ALL HIS FAULT . give me all the wrong answers for my homework . HERH . he better reedeem himself and buy me a NICE birthday pressie ! (hinthint) . uhuh . to those totally CLUELESS people . my birthday is coming up in 5MOREDAYS ! x)) . please remember . and most importantly . THE PRESENTS . hahas . im soo greedy . x)) . eEee . but i dont care . HAHAHA .

MAN . im damn burned . so totally tired lar . i feeling so pmsing lar . and darn bad . i keep getting pissed off with people . and i think they know im pissed off with them . soo ... IM SO SORRY . ahhh . stress stress stress .

Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings

Would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause i know i don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If i saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If i saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause i know i just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace i'm sure,
And i know there'll be no more,
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause i know i don't belong
Here in heaven

ok this time im gonna dedicate this WHOLE post to a bitch named b***** . yes about that bitch . (and i am not being mean by calling her a bitch ok . she really is one) . you know right . i treat her like such a great friend lar . then i some more trusted her soo much . then she go backstab me . you know how i know this . cos a friend told me that that bitch told her that i was this scheming backstabbing bitch . that i damn "what lar" . what the shit lar . then my friend say she dont belive cos i seem like very nice . then you know what that bitch say . she said that thats only a mask . say what "she will show her true colours soon" . like what the heck . whos the backstabbing bitch now huh . i never did her any wrong lar . and by the way she forgot that i was the only one who actually stood by her and told her to stand up for her own rights . like she have stm is it . some more everybody hates her lar . cos shes SOO indecisive . can never make up her mind . one minute side with this person one minute side with the other . like cant she just make up her mind and stop being so luo li luo suo . so long winded . so wishy washy . just get on with it lar . sheesh . cant stand it cant stand it cant stand it . AHH .

man im into a depressed mood again . sheesh . i was retardedly happy half an hour ago . all stupid kors fault lar . talktalktalk nicenicenice then become depressed . sharks . and you know whats even worse . i ran OUT of ice cream . WHAT HAS THIS WORLD BECOMED ? i dont have a fetish for ice cream ok . its just that whenever i feel depressed i gourge on ice cream and chocolate . i dont know why too . its just satisfyingly reliving . BUT i ran out of chocs 1 week ago and know im outa ice cream tooo . oh nooo . im dying . i must go shopping . hms . i know what you must be thinking . its such an unhealthy habit . EUWW . all that sugar and calories . but wells who feels relaxed after eating like ginger and garlic ? if i ate that i'd rather die from depression . besides . it was either that or dying from the stench of my own breath (which in my opinion is a rather PATHETIC death) . so yar . hms maybe i should change it to fat free ice cream or something . but then there goes the shiokness . i mean . you eat ice cream cos you know its utterly sinful . thats the pleasure right . and by the way i totally dont belive in those fat free stuff . like you can make something obviously sugary and sweet without fat . like what the . then it wouldnt BE that nice . it be bland and tasteless . BLAH . totally unsatisfying . uh uh . like celery or something (its not that i have something against celerys or anything . its just that i totally HATE simply HATE them) . hmms . anyways . tmrs yi jie's birthday . what should i get for him . hmms . i dunno . thats always a problem . getting gifts for guys . they should have this book with gift ideas lar . makes life soo much simpler for us girls to give guys presents . if you want to give your girls a present you just find something cute and totally adorable and she'll love it to bits . but guys ? i have no idea . for the past years the only presents i ever give guys are well sweets and chocs . is there really something else to give ? hmms . who knows . i think im gonna give xiao jie a totally adorable soapy thing . you know those little bottles of flake soap that dissovles in water . uhuh . i have no idea what he'll think of it but whatever . ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS ! whoots . hahas . anyways . gotta go catch a winkwink . yawns . without my ice cream . sobss .

shucks man . its already the second term . but im darn happy . for first term i got 11 for my l1r5 . whoots . 5a1s and 1c5 and 1c6 . darn wasted . i got c5 for chinese and c6 for maths lar . man my maths does suck . looks like im never gonna get into triple science . cos in triple science theres *shudder* a maths . and if i have trouble passing e maths why make life difficult (for me AND the teacher)(im being REALLY considerate) by taking a maths . its like sucide , jumping off the building , jumping down the river , standing in the middle of orchard road , insulting that big FAT bully . ok i think you get what i mean . see . thats exactly why my life is over . owells . its not like its the first time my life was over . WOW . im like better then a cat . a cat has nine lifes . but i have more . WHOOTS . ok im retarding here . feel totally retarded today i dunno why . no its not because of what you are thinking sonn . im old and innocent . uhuh . and im NOT in love . (if i were you i would belive me to . thats why im not you . not logical ? nvm) so like whatever (this is not the whatever way that gay amos cookie says it . cos im NOT gay) . ok im being retarded again . R E T A R D E D . ooo . i can spell ! x)) . oyar . you know someone i really really really hate right now . thats MR ** ! herh i cant stand him . i cant understand why those nutcases set up a fan club for him . like he has any fans . HERH . i cant stand him i cant stand him i cant stand him . EEeeEE . what black cat white cat shit . ! i dont like cats . EeE . anyways its getting late . gotta go sleep . mr ** says you must sleep at 10.30 . so that your body can be fully rested . and im gonna try it out make sure it fails and throw it back in his face . uhuh . so nights .



13moreDAYS//-0

man its been like what since i last blogged . been totally busy and bushed . anyways its the holidays now ! whoots . so its only for one week and . im sick again . man . isnt it like the worst time ever . the start of the holls and im sick . argh . so totally not starting on the bright side . bush . and plus i can feel that im totally pmsing . so pls PLS do NOT cross me over . you're not gonna like it . eesh .

to be truly loved

i may have rich parents,
who gave me everything i ever wanted.
but they'll never there beside me,
am i truly loved?
i may have had a hundred ex-lovers,
they all said they loved me.
but then they said it to every other girl,
am i truly loved?
i may have a whole hoard of friends,
who are at my every beck and call.
but they never really care at all,
am i truly loved?
i may have everything a girl could ever dream of,
boyfriends money popularity.
but do they really matter at all,
am i truly loved?
what is love you might say.
is it gifts and money?
big houses? baloney!
if you ask me i say none at all.
all i ever wanted,
was a guy to love me,
parents who supported me,
and friends who were there for me.
that was all i ever wanted,
i want to be truly loved.

man . its been a pretty long time since i last blogged huh . been pretty busy lately . and of theres also my bro . been hogging the computer day and night . but now hes benched . cos he failed hes last chinese test . nananeepoopoo . hahas . BLEAHS . x)) . i feel retarded . today had adp . i got into drama . its ok i guess . very little pple too . like eight . and all we did was play games and stuff . so it was all very calm and cool . no stressful brainwork or anything . x)) thats always a good thing . time is passing so fast lar . its like the eighth week now . two more weeks till march holls . SOO FAST . plus theres so much tests coming up . im so gonna DIE . but at least my science is still ok . for the last test i got 18/20 . im so proud of myself . next one im getting back is history i think . then theres a chinese compo test tmr . oh sharks . im starting to feel so darn stressed up now . i need to chill . breathe in breathe out . HU XI . you know what . i feel like im totally dying in chinese . at first it started out to be really ok . then i lost my chinese text book and now everythings a blur . sighs . i need to buy a new book . its starting to be a real sick tradition . like it happened last year too lar . i lost my chinese book about like now . but last year it was worst . i lost my chinese workbook too . sharkses . OWELLS . im feeling really tired now . so i guess im going off to snooze . cya guys .

My Best Friend - United Live


Have you heard of the One called Savior?
Have you heard of His perfect Love?
Have you heard of the One in heaven?
Have you heard how He gave His love
Cause I have found this love
And I believe in The Son
Show me Your way

I believe in the One called savior
I believe He's the Risen One
I believe that I'll live forever
I believe that the King will come
Cause I have found this love
And I believe in The Son
Show me Your way

Jesus You are my best friend
You will always be
And nothing will ever change that

Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that

man we LOST todays competition . made soo many mistakes . actually i feel that we could have won easily . but wells . who was i to say . and CHERYL DONT CRY ANYMORE . we almost won and we DID try our best . cheer up kays . i think i know why we didnt win . we're like so un united and stuff . like theres always people trying to backstab or bitch about the rest . WE MUST BE UNITED . that means cannot bad mouth people liao . SAD . wells so im admiting i hate people there and i bitch about them . but i just cant take it lar . especially that *bitch lar . so damn ass . TOTALLY HATE her . always try to act guai and hardworking in front of the coaches and teachers . think she soo BIG isit . well she is . literally . owells . i still hate her . ARGH . hmms . tomorrow have auditions . ARH . stress ! im so hoping i get into the cast . but whats the chances . sighs . BUT theres still at least a 1% chance . but its only 1% ! ok im like acting retard . im arguing with myself . sheesh . next thing i'll be wacking myself . BHAM . self prophecy . not good for health . anways . TODAYS valentines day . i soo nice lor . give out soo many presents . WHOOTS . im soo generous . ((: . it was a pretty lonely valentines . who wants to tell people they went for competition on valentines day . sheesh . oh shits . i totally forgot to buy that ass kor of mines birthday present . and his birthday is tomorrow . sharks . nevermind . i give him late present . since he always bully me . HERH . x)) . i feel so childish . I LOVE IT ! look like its back to instant pizza for dinner . mummys not here to buy me delicious food . wahh . but its ok . instant pizza taste nice too . ((: .

OYES . i finally got my new phone . panasonic vs2 . and i changed my number too . its 91186953 . uhuh . the phone is soo much better then my OLD phone . x)) . its pink in colour too . looks so gay . hahas . owells .

oyes . i rawk . i just finished byjes shoes . it so rawks if i dont say so myself . and i only spent one day on it . its SOO NICE . uhuh . MY CREATION . i feel so proud . hmms . so now its confirmed . this march holls the cell is gonna have a pizza party at my house(i think) today so genie again . he gets cuter and cuter everyday . but dont worry its not gonna be like i like him or anything . after all he is younger then me . then after that went to mathildas birthday party . now shes three i think . WHOOTS . so cute lar . i love her to bits . hmms . today godpa and godma came by too . talked with the rents for awhile . sighs . been having cramps and tummy ache the whole day . SUFFERING . had to go to the toilet like four times . but now feeling much better . mum gave me some ginger tea to drink . it tasted horrible . but wells . it worked . hmms . now feeling alittle depressed dunno why either . just feeling depressed . feeling totally blue . well more like black but whatevers . actually felt like going up to the carpark to play bball or just rollarblade . to like chill myself . but then feeling so sick . cannot go . sighs . then still have to do all the homework and project . just feeling so sian . sighs now need to go and eat dinner . see you guys .

Artist: Planet Shakers Song
Title: Reflector

Since i've found your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way you do
Everyday i want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer

I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with your glory
I want to let the whole world know that you're
Living in me

I want to burn with your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know thatJesus
Lives in me

Big by Planet Shakers

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do

Big by Planet Shakers

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortressGod,
He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do

you ignored me again . why do you always see pass me . looking through me like a nobody . am i only that to you . the little nobody that noone sees . after all that i did for you . i would have thought . you . figured it out . well . at least i now know where my placing is in your life . the very last .

some meaningful story someone sent to me :

as i was walking
down lifes highway
many years ago
i came upon a
sign that read
heavens grocery store
when i got
alittle closer
the doors swung
open wide
and when i came
to myself
i was standing inside
i saw a host of
angels
they were
standing everywhere
one handed me a basket
and said
"my child shop with care"
everything a human needed
was in that grocery store
and what you
could not carry
you could come back for more
first i got patience
love was in that
same row
futher down was
understanding
you need that
everywhere you go
i got a box
or two of wisdom
and faith a bag
or two
and charity of course
i would need some of that too
i couldnt miss the holy ghost
it was all over
the place
and then some strength
and courage to
help me run this race
my basket was getting full
but i remembered
i needed grace
and then i chose
salvation for
salvation was for free
i tried to get enough of that
for you and me
then i started to
the counter
to pay my grocery bill
for i thought i had everything
to do the masters will
as i went up the isle
i saw prayer and
put that in
for i knew when i
stepped outside
i would run into sin
peace and joy were plentiful
the last things
on the shelf
song and praise were
hanging near
so i just helped myself
then i said to the angel
"now how much
do i owe?"
he smiled and said
"just take them
everywhere you go"
again i asked
"really now
how much do i owe?"
"my child" he said
"God paid your bill a long long time ago"

oyes . its DONS BIRTHDAY ! happy birthday don . yes . don . my "tuition teacher" hahas . although ALL the answers he gave were wrong . owells . and FREAK that liang jie . keep spamming me . i open my inbox and half of them is from him . sending some kind if virus . always knew he was up to no good . but kinda miss him now . dunno why . miss shooting back at him . but thats just between you and me .

man those stupid soccer people totally hate them . such posers too . you know what happen . on sat . me jer fab sebas and lea were happily playing bball . then this soccer freaks ( i have nothing against soccer people . its just that those people were really freaks ) just barged in and took over our court . such creeps eh . no excuse me no sharing . just shoving . REALLY . they were like barbarians . uhuh . anyways . enough about those freaks . uhuh . lets talk about i dunno . whats there too talk about . wells yesterday i was sick . down with fever . not too bad . but got to miss school . x)) yays . the macs guy just came . so now im enjoying my dinner . mmm . if only my bro would buzz off . hes trying to steal my fries . again . neeways . today had chinese test . probably gonna fail it . but for my history test i got 12/16 . oyeah . x)) . anyways . something really wierd happened to me today . i been thinking bout genie . cos i havent seen his cute little self for about one week . and was wondering where the hell he went to . then POP . his standing next to me . its freaky you know . but i guess . weell he is a genie . x)) . arent genies supposed to do that . bros trying to steal my fries again . gotta go defend my treasures .

yays . its chinese new year . whoots . not bad buisness this year . got four hundred plus already . and its only the second day . oyeah . later going to some long lost grand aunts house . gonna get somemore hong baos . uhuh . its gonna be so good . now watching some dvd . serenity the name i think . some sci fic show .

man yesterday went to china town . was so crowded lar . and so HOT . had to like move inch by inch lar . gee .

YAYS . i finally updated my links . now its new and precise . and sebas thanks so much . really from the bottom of my heart . not as in the sarcastic way . you really helped me alot . and listened to me . thanks for not . daoing me . like some certain kor i have . SHEESH .

yays . ok today had chinese new year celebrations . wore some indian costume to shool . most people wore indian costumes too . x)) . WHOOTS . and today dont have lessons too . x)) YAYS . hmms . after school went over to sarahs house . watched a movie . white chicks . watched it like five times already . but it still rocks . x)) . later going out to china town i think . SMILE .

sharks sharks sharks fishes . first thing i want to say . those two people are just damn frigging liars . kiss my arse lar . ok . done with that . another first thing . I LOVE YOU GENIE BABY ! YOU ROCK ! x)) . ok now back to sharks sharks sharks fin soup . school is so damn tiring . feel like dying man . their like piling us up with tests and projects . its like one after another lar . CAN DIE . and plus their all almost due on the same week . like next week . and i havent even done a single thing . im so DEAD . (and ahma is SO BLUR) . (ok out of point) . anyways . sheesh . no wonder i havent been blogging for so long . its like been weeks since i touched the computer . ok it FELT like weeks . know the reason why . cos my damn smart ass mutt of my brother has been hogging the comp . hes like sitting there from when he comes back from school to 7 at night . then the rents want to use it . so im stuck with erm . NOTHING . so unfair . life is SO unfair . well it always was . just more now then ever . omfg . i still cant belive it lar . chio bu is like such a romantic freak . he does so much to please *girl* . you could WEEP . HAH . but he still treats me like . this bad person . no ailien from outer space . shit him lar . im nice ok . im not all that bad . you just never give me a chance . gtg . needa do more . EEKS . work . stupid arse teachers . trying to drown us . MURDER . we drink to drown uor sorrow . not do your frigging homework .

yesterday was markus birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARKUS ! today is jonathans birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN . and next its wennys birthday . wanna guess what im gonna get her . COOKIES . especially the amos variety yeah . x)) . whoots ! i feel so happy . i ruined your life . i told amos your blog wenny . (( x . im so proud of myself . and i do not like c******* . BLAHS . hmms . today dads coming back from china . later going to go to the airport to pick him up . eating dinner at the airport too . yummy . i have a feeling we're eating sushi . yes . be jealous of me . i totally love my class now . we've suddenly become so united . so great . but its like we're being flooded with projects . ARHHS . one after another . IM DROWNING . anyways now im going to the airport . see all the airplanes . whee~

OMFG . IRWIN LIKES CHERYL CHIA !

im so uber duber pissed off . that freaking bitch backstabbed me lar . damn her lar . she the one who suggested it and go amke me do it lar . then when something went wrong go say is my idea . say that i should take resbonsibility and take the full blame . say what i so irresponsible never own up . then some more tell everyone im such a bitch . never ever do anything . always push the blame unto everyone else . bitch lar she . should have known better . next time i'll watch out for her .

yesterday i had training . and you know what i realised . volleyballers can be real bitches sometimes . like what i learnt is . if you aggrevate one of the volleyballers . the whole team's gonna get you . and its soo bad . like the whole training they were asking wether you like this girl . cos they thought she was such a tight bitch . always whining and complaining . and thinking she was so good . honestly to say . i know this girl and i think shes ok . shes actually pretty nice . well thats to me . i guess you gotta be in their shoes to see it their way huh . sighs . i better be prepared . must watch my step . i have no idea when it will be me . hmms . oyes . the guys today were soo sick . in english class the whole row at the back started laughing and screaming . they were all playing with something . wanna guess . condoms . ok so its not that sick . but did they have to play it in english class . sheesh . anyways . today was suppose to have d and t project meeting . in the end we went to plaza sing to take neo prints . then when back to my house . and didnt do anything . sighs . we are SO gonna fail this project . we have like tons of projects this year . can die arhs . then some more all the tourneys starting . PRESSURE . sinking in it man . i just realised something . my brothers a gay . plus he loves being called a gay . what can be more gay then that . sighs . what genes when wrong . i mean i turned up straight . and im dead straight . while my brothers like . GAY . not the happy kind either . and hes always acting the innocent angel bunny . even though hes more like evil underwear gay . like SO OPPOSITE . then some more . hes always finding ways to get on peoples nerves . (ok so its mostly mine) . what does he do . invite his kiddiwinky friends over . and disturb me . they hog the computer . and blast it out loud full volume . when im trying to be a good girl and actually try to study . who can study in an enviroment like that . its no wonder im failing everything . and my mum actually encourages my brother to bring home more friends . and when i bring home friends shes like all black face and stuff . always scolding me in front of them and scolding them too . make me look so small lar . damn pai seh . fish her lar . always so pian xin . always side my brother . " hes your brother . must show more care and concern . must give way to him " what shit lar . care and concern my foot . then whos gonna show me care and concern . dont i get a piece too . no i dont . i dont even get a crumb . while my brother ? he gets a big fat slice . herhs . dont want to talk about him . talk about nicer things . things that dont come from hell . x)) . oyar . today so yj in school again . (this is not that ahma yj) . (its another yj . even shorter and cuter) . (why are all yjs SHORT) . (no offence) . ANYWAY . i didnt know he was in fairfield lar . this year sec 1 . i so lonf never see him in church then see him in school like so wierd . at first couldnt even recognise him lar . like look look look then realise its " OHH ITS HIM " . im soo blur* lar . eeks . you know what . the more i look at him the more he reminds me of ' chio bu ' . i dunno why lar . i find them damn alike . then i also met this girl . she remembered me then call out to me . i like find her really familiar . i think her name is shanny or something . i forgot where i met her . i think it was at a camp or something . x)) . she still remembered me . conclusion . i have my memory SUCKS . anyways gotta go eat some dinner . tummys growling . grrr . rumble rumble .

you know what . i just realized something . im really hopeless . i want to learn how to play the guitar but i dunno how to strum . sheesh .

shit . volleyball tourney is like two days away . thursday . and im still so blur bout the positions and stuff . well its not exactly my fault . that wei hong lar . he put me one place then when i got familiar with it . he go change me again . there like today he change me again lar . dunno what he trying to do lar . trying to make me understand or just making my life misirable . sheesh . and all my team mates damn angry at me lar . everytime i miss the ball theres like five pairs of eyes staring at me . not my fault what . they know i suck at it then they still ask me to go "gang" the ball . dunno what they thinking lar . know that i cannot do it then go ask me to do it then i cannot then they glare at me . sighs . why did i join volleyball . why didnt i become a nice little librarian and stay in the cooling library instead . hmms . at least im still doing all my homework . I MUST NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKE . and not make a reputation for myself . eeEk . well dads gone to guang zhou . hope he buys back lotsa goodies . yummy . x)) . but i musnt gorge myself too much . hmms . ok i made this "pact" two days ago . i promised myself to run 1km everyday . but wells i havent gotton to it . im trying to drag my bro in too . then show him im not that weak . hes weaker . x)) . i know i sound super duper evil . x)) . but its shuang . hahas . anways . gotta go eat my dinner . bros yelling at me . (if you ask me . his beginning to sound more and more like my mum . NOT a good sign)

what happened to us ? we used to be the best of friends . we stood up for each other . when you had problems you'd come to me . when i had problems i'd go to you . you would listen to me and i would listen to you . i was the first one to comfort you and you were the first one to comfort me . we used to talk on the phone for hours and hours . we used to tell each other everything . but ever since that trip . everything changed . you changed . you forgot all about me . you forgot all the times we had together . you even forgot my name . when i talked to you . you never replied . when i tried to be friends you pushed me away . now you're trying to be my friend again . you ask me why cant we be friends . why can't we be the way we used to be . you ask me why we broke friends . i never did break friends . it was all you . have you forgotton the way you treated me . like i was air and nothing to you . now you say its my fault . but do you know how many sleepless nights i've had . do you know how many tears i've shed . i thought we were best friends . but then you turned your back on me . you treated me like a stranger . i trusted you with everything i ever had . i was honest and true with our friendship . you know what . you really dissapointed me . you broke me apart . i thought you were different . i thought we could be friends always . but then after that trip . i dunno what happened . but it was like you had a total change . after that trip our friendship came to an end . you know whats the saddest thing . its not that you changed . it that we became from best friends to strangers .

sighs . now school has started . no more sleeping in and rolling out of the bed at ten oclock . sighs . back with the piles of homework and unduly stress . hmms . i actually went for training yesterday . amazing . then i so long never go for training . so now i everywhere also aching . shits . i still feel that nobody in volleyball likes me . i do try to train hard . but i can never do it . so why actually train at all . hmms . now i beginning to like my class more and more . at first they seemed very cold . brr . but i turns out they're a bunch of warm friendly people . x)) . still missing 1d though . without the sirens it seems awfully quiet . hahas . and the teachers are all pretty nice too . at first thought they very fierce de . look so angry all the time . but it turned out that sarah was right . fierce teachers are nice . well not most of the time . but this exception . yeah . their nice . x)) . at least school turned out good . thats one good thing in my life . x)) . smiles for everyone . and well haven't gotten into any trouble yet . hope that i wont of cos . but wells . you know me . my laziness is gonna kill me one day . but im really gonna work hard this year . since its the streaming year and all . hope that i'll get to the triple science class . i know it sounds out of reach but wells . with determination and hard work anything IS possible rights . hahas . x)) . well at home the situations not bad . parents not screaming . brother not pulling my hair . but its bound to happen . i mean its only the beginning of the year . anything can happen both good and bad . ok but i still need to make my new year resolutions right .

2oo6 new year resolutions
#1. study hard and try my best to get into the triple science class (unrealistic, but wells its my goal)
#2. not piss my parents off too much (piss them off no money, why should i suffer)
#3. try to go for trainings even if it means getting up early when i should be sleeping (gotta kick my lazy butt)
#4. try no to snack in bed, the insects there are starting to bite me (cant sleep properly)
#5. try to be nice and not bitch about other people (this is gonna take all of me)
#6. not getting into any trouble (no time for detention)
#7. practice on my piano (gotta pass some time)

there i did . not like im actually gonna follow them . cmon . new year resolutions are meant to be broken . thats the fun of it all rights . but wells . i'll try my best to fufill them . and talking about pianos . i got a new keyboard . whoots ! and my dad sold off the old piano . and you will never guess how much he sold it for . even i could but it . $60 . can you belive it . sheesh . if you ask me i think the salesman is trying to cheat my dad . but well . it did have alot of spoilt keys . like in every octave there was one key spoilt . so then i had an excuse to not being able to play properly . now . my dad sold off my excuse for a misirable $60 . well . the good thing is that i have a new keyboard . which is so great . and the bad news is that i have to practice . dont get me wrong . its not that i dont like playing the piano . i love it . i love anything that has to do with music . but wells . i dont like playing and practising from a book . i prefer to chose what i like and play by ear or find the scores myself . BUT . theres no hope in that . plus i got another good news . x)) i seem to be full of good news today . whee~ . my dads finally agreed to teach me the drums and guitar . well the guitar im quite familiar with it . but the drums i havent touched for a year . its been sitting in that dusty corner of my house . neglected . you could almost feel sorry for it . but if i know my dad . which i do . looks like im gonna be picking up the instruments by myself . and this is from past experiance . last year i asked him to teach me to play the guitar . he gave me a book . which said . 10 easy lessons to play the guitar . looks like this year his gonna be giving me a new book . 10 easy lessons on how to play the drums . isint it so very kind of him . i think so too . anyways . its getting late and i gotta go sleep . tomorrow theres still school and stuff . needa get up early . arghs .

promise by simple plan

breakdown
i can't take this
i need somewhere to go
i need you
i'm so restless
i don't know what to do

we've had our rough times
fighting all night
and now you're just slipping away

give me this chance
to make the the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

i promise
i won't let you down
if you take my hand tonight
i promise
we'll be just fine this time
if you take my hand tonight

without you i go through the motions
without you it's just not quite the same
without youi don't want to go out
i just want to say

that i'm sick of these fights
i'll let you be right
if it stops you from running away

so give me this chance
to make the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

take my hand
i promise

if you take my hand tonight
i won't let you down
take my hand tonight

perfect world by simple plan

i never could have seen this far
i never could have seen this coming
it seems like my worlds falling apart
why is everything so hard
i don't think i can deal
with the things you said
it just won't go away

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world
you'd still be here
and it makes no sense
i can just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all

i used to think that i was strong
until the day it all when wrong
i think i need a miricle to make it through
i wish that i could bring you back
i wish that i could turn back time
cuz i can't let go
i just can't find my way
without you i just can't find my way

i don't know what i should do now
i don't know where i should go
i'm still here waiting for you
i'm lost when you're not around
i need to hold on to you
i just can't let you go

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world you still be here
and it makes no sense
i could just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all
you feel nothing
nothing at all

ok . before i complain about all the unfotunate events that have happened in my unsignificent life . let me first say HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! ok now that im done with that . let me carry on . WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND TV PROGRAMS WITH PEOPLE IN HARD PLASTIC SUITS AND UNDERWEAR WORN ON THE OUTSIDE WAY TOO TIGHT FOR THEM . sorry . just HAD to let that out . i just dont see the attraction . really . and those guys in the too-tight-underwear-that-makes-your-stuff-stick-out . doesnt it like suffocate their balls ? wont it affect their fertility rate or something ? i guess you have to try it to know . but i do now that they make loads of money doing that . hmms . but how do they fit it in ? their balls must be pretty small . but with all that butt kicking . i guess it has to be . can you imagine if its actually BIG . i think it would really get into the way yeh . ok next topic . my imaginations getting alittle bit TOO wild . oyes . MR A*** . you little bitch . (ok so his a guy . but who ever said you cant call a guy a bitch . i call my bro that and his not complaining) . ITS ALL YOUR FAULT . you started it . actually no you didnt . it all started with MR D****** . yes . now that brings back all those sweet memories . NOT . yes . i didnt even tell anyone what he told me . i totally didnt . i was being such a good friend . and what do i get in return ? his big blardy mouth telling everybody what i told him . shit him lar . great . and you know when that happen about one year ago . and now its resurfaced again . ok . now whatever good reputation i built up between the year . too put it literally . is all flushed down the toilet bowl (along with my bros brain . euww) . o great . just perfect . just the way i wanted to start the new year with . not . not to mention . i have not finish my holiday homework . which means when i go back to school i be well . just alittle dead . (there IS the possibility that i might finish my homework . but its like the same possibility that the holidays have been lenghtened for another month) . those are my chances . well my chances would have been higher if the teachers didnt try to drown us with homework . i mean for chinese we have to actually finish the whole orca book . now whats with that ?!?! and i have about two days to finish it . not to mention the rest of the homework . things are not looking good . things are not looking good at all . well its not like im not trying . for the whole afternoon ive been reading the stuff on world war one . but its just not easy to you know . digest . takes time . i just dont get it . why dont those people just sit quietly together and play something nice like dollies or chess or something . why did they have to go built those war thingys . and be so wishy washy bout it too . if they had only be nice to each other . then there wouldnt be a world war one . and i wouldnt have to be here studying about it . makes life soo much simpler doesnt it . all you have to do is play nice and try not to bite each others head off . see its soo simple . ok . got to stop my argument here . gotta go study more on those stupid people who couldnt keep their mouths shut . and when to start war . sheesh . what happened to world peace . cya guys takkaire .

I HATE THA FRIGGIN BITCH !

NUMPY BEAR . why are you ignoring / avoiding ME ? herhs . FINE be that way see if i care . to think of all those sick days we had together . and all the times you 'married' and 'divorced' me . it was so great . too bad we won't be in the same class anymore . im going to 2c . bwahwahwahhs . NOT FAIR . and you know what i found out . my bro DESTRYED my drawing . he erase something out of it . actually i didnt even know . but then the ass of him let it out . he is so bad at lying . so very bad . he should learn from me . my grannys maid taught me how to lie since i could talk . had lots and lots of experiance . yep . certainly did . x)) . its finally chirstmas . BUT . whats with you guys . my presents are so UNDER my expectations . i recieved like only what ? two presents so far . cmon . you guys cant be THAT hurting for that thang i call money . a nice ten bucks would have been enough . anyways . i already got your prezzie aileenie . so i got one for aileenie one for weixinie . which is left for the byjeie . no idea how you would pronounce it . but well im on a 'ie'ing streak . so heck . oyeah . you now something me and my bro did that was totally crasy . we bought a can of pink hair spray . and sprayed our whole head pink . ok it wasnt exactly whole head . but it was close . so if on christmas eve you see some freaks with pink hair (plus it was hot pink) (my bro was nuts) that be us . x)) . but it was fun to see peoples reactions . and those reactions were pretty BIG . especially from our relatives . hahas . you should have seen their faces . you could frame it up forever . muahahahaa . im suck an evil freak . yes . i am . cant deny it anymore . x)) . sheesh . im so sickly happy you could puke . dont even ask me why im happy . i have no idea either . sighs . gotta go wash the dishes . there goes my happy mood down the drain with the rest of the left over food .

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!

if only loving someone could be as easy as THAT . life would be so much simpler and happier . <3

ok so im not as tired as i think i am . (((=

a smile is just a mask to hide your sorrow

yes people . IM BACK . i know you guys missed me . awws . anyways the trip to aust was AWESOME . especially the shopping parts . hahas . so in total spent . TEN days there . hahas . bought lots of chocolattes , gums and CLOTHES . hahas . yes wei xin . i bought some more clothes to stuff into my already very stuffed closet . amazing . hahas . i bought 4 skirts . 4 sleeveless . 1 tee . 1 pants . quite alot huh . and i bought like one whole big bag of earings . sheesh . im such a killer for earings . and i brought back about a ton of chocolate and gum . hahas . go on . DROOL . yehs . and guess what . the first person to greet me online was mr bhb . yes . my big hot boobs . and it wasnt to welcome me back either . he asked me to help him scan the holiday worksheets for him . AGAIN . only this time it was science . (the last time it was english) . and the only reason i actually agreed to scan it for him was cos . ... . wells . i didnt even start on it . so like it wasnt as if i was actually giving him answers . i was just giving him blank sheets . and im like SO DEAD . schools starting soon and i havent even started . guess i dont have to patience determination . etc etc . and well to put in a simpler way im LAZY . xPpP . bleahs . i could finish it all in one day . but well . who wants to be stuck doing homework when you can be doing much more great stuff rights . hahas . ok . i shouldnt influence the rest of you guys . hahas . ok im starting to feel tired now . i know ! its only 10 for petes sake . but well australia's 3 hours ahead so its like one in the morning there . yawns . nights then i guess . gotta go dream bout the chocolatte gum shopping AND the nice cooling weather there .

rtist: Hillsong United
Album: Look To You
Track: Tell The World That

Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

Running After You - Planet Shakers

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
I'm running after You

Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You i'm following today
'Cause i'm running after you

breakfast = strepsils
lunch = strepsils
tea break = strepsils
dinner = strepsils
supper = strepsils

haixx . why cant people be more understanding and try to at least see points from your view . why do people have to be dog damn selfish . why . that stupid ass brother of mind is one of those people . pushed me off to this comp again . while he uses the better one . its not fair . anyways . dad just called to say that we're going to chinatown to have dinner . yummy . hahas . hmms . this year for christmas . im gonna do something . good . ^ ^ . hahas . instead of only recieving christmas cards . im gonna sent them too . whee~ hahas . sighs . but now life is boring . haii . actually thats and understatement . life is totally boring . since i've been grounded of cos . im not supposed to use the comp to . but whatevers . noones at home . noone will know . noone will care . yumm . now eating instant noodle . hahas . chicken instant noodles . x)) . with fishballs past their expiry date . fishBALLS . expired fishBALLS . hahas . ok im starting to sound sick again . its been a long time since i.ve been talking sick talk . the last time was during school . kays so i miss school . bleahxx . i never thought i would say that . arhhs . yays . hahas i painted my fingernails white . now it looks like i played with correction fluid . and guess what my bro said . i should have painted black . cos is more me . then can sure my true colours . my evilness . SHIT HIM LAR . want to say i evil then say straight foward lar . no need to go one big round just to insult me . sheesh . GEES . cant guys just be straight . why do they always have to go one BIG round . its so fraustrating . and oyars . i had one hell of a freaky dream last night . i dreamt of this guy(and i know this guy) wearing a tutu . its so wierd . hahas . SHIT ! my bro is trying to compete with me . i blast my music he try to blast his louder . but of cos mine will always be louder . since i have the better speakers hahas . i guess thats one of the good advatages of the mac hahas . xPpP . haiis .

upon request . i have decided to dedicate this WHOLE post to Sonjia Yam Li (dash?) Mun . ok i thinks that how you spell it . anyways . this post is gonna be ALL about her greatness . evilness . crappyness . craziness . and well all the other nesses she has . which come to think of it is actually quite alot . so well . wont go into details about it . if not it would take all night . she should be very honoured . im writing this post at 12 something . i stayed THIS late to write this FOR her . so she should be honoured . VERY honoured . its not like i do this often . the only people i ever wrote posts totally dedicated to are mostly to my(idiot dumb freakin as of a)brother . HIM . ahma(though im not supposed to call him that anymore . but whatevers) . and wells . HIM again . so she really should thank me . anyways . back to the main thingie . we're here to talk about sonn . a sweet little girl . who sometimes take(a little too much if you ask me) joy in seeing other peoples life "get interesting" . really . plus shes DAMN crappy . you want to know how crappy . she was the one(with me of cos) who founded the Ass Acadamy . which is as you can tell . where aspiring asses go to to recieve the proper treatment to become full fledged asses . hahas . sounds damn sick . euww . hahas . ok im getting out of point again . you know what . because i've been typing this for you . i just broke a freaking damn nail . i broke a nail for YOU ok . anyways mums nagging me to go off the com . cya .

now its almost 12 midnight . recieved an sms frm HIM . i dunno why he keeps doing that . keep tormenting me . keep hurting me . keep making me cry . i have totally no idea why . everytime i try to forget him . and almost suceed . he appears again . and the whole painful process starts all over again . i just want to hate him . but i cant . i just want to ignore him . but i cant . i just want things to be normal again . i want things to be the way it was before i met him . but i know . because of him . its not possible now . for him i have had many sleepless nights . many happyless days . i have no idea how many times i cried . just because of him . its really painful you know . i just want to forget him . want to get rid of him . but everytime i try i never suceed . its hopeless . everytime he appears again . i cant seem to push him away . no matter how hard i try . i'll just go back to him . only to be rejected once again . it's terrifying how just this one person can cause so much change in my life . its amazing how this one person can inflict so much hurt and pain unto me . i've never felt this weak before . im exhausted . im tired of trying to run away . im tired of hidding in a corner . but i still i cant seem to face him . when im in his presence i just totally ... i dunno . cant seem to find any word to describe it . but even though i keep getting hurt . i still cant help but hope that . i can still be with him . i know its silly of me . or even stupid . but . i dunno . theres just this glimmer of hope . cos when im with him . everything is good again . i just feel great . but without him . theres always a part of me that is empty . always a part of me longing for something . sighs . but what would he want with me . nothing . to him im just a stupid little girl . he sees nothing in me . ok . i sound so stupid and dumb right . i mean . here am i falling hopelessly for this guy who doesnt even see me . ok he does see me . if not why is he always smsing me . especially when i just started to forget him . up he appears again . like some bouncing bunny in a freaking magicians hat . I SO HATE HIM . i really do . i keep telling it to myself . to make me belive it . except . i dont mean it at all . i dont mean it at all .

let me tell you something MR A*** . you are so OBVIOUS . PLEASE lar . you know that you are damn unfaithful . first you like a MS M****** . then in comes in the beautiful the wonderful MS W** . and you dumped MS M****** like hot potato . (but then who can blame you lar MS W** is GREAT) . but you didnt need to get jealousy you know . on her kor too . how cheap can to get . ok im no longer making sense . but whatevers . you know what i am so HOPELESS . i just got beaten up by my brother . my younger brother . ok like i keep talking about how he bullies me right . hmmz . time for things to change a little here . now its my turn to do the bullying . i've been to hopeless useless and all the other lesses . i mean i've been bullied by my TWO year old cousin . that must say something rights . i mean a two year old and a ten year old . and i havent even started metioning friends . ok . IM DETERMINED . to not be a lesses anymore . hahas . ok that sounds sick . anyways today also had tuition . was totally boring . BLEAHSs . next year i think i'll still be continuing with this tuition . BUT . my mums thinking of puting my bro into one to one tuition . HAHS . cos he failed his chinese AGAIN . come to think of it . the only times when he pass his chinese was when he was in pri one and two . hahas . xPp . im being mean again .

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

SOLDIER - HILLSONG UNITED

Can't nobody stop me now
Cause i'm a part of the army now
Praise the Lord is what i'm gonna shout
Even in a crowd i'm gonna sing it loud

You can see what you want to see
But i know what He's done for me
Every day i can feel His power
'cause the spirit of the Lord
He lifts me higher

All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him
All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him now

My God is the strongest tower
Turn to Him in the scary hour
Even when it gets harder now
All i wanna do is just praise Him louder

Keep singing 'til my voice run out
Keep running 'til He lifts me out
Keep singing it cause i can't stop
Oh, i can't stop

You got to give your self up
You got to lose your pride
You got to see it different
Open up your spiritual eyes

The devil wants you beaten
He wants you lying, cheating
But that won't last much longer
My Dad is bigger, stronger

Sound off, 1, 2, sound off, 3, 4
Bring it on down, 1, 2, 3, 4... 1, 2...3, 4

you know what shes such a . ***** . (or acording to sonn , a female chihuahua) . one minute say if i want to go for the dinner must do housework . then i clean up the whole house finish . what she say ? (oyar . happy birthday lorraine and alton) . cannot go . you only thirteen years old . all the rest going all older then you . then some more go untill marina so far . and so late also . so CANNOT . so female chihuahua rights . and she said . anyway im going to be working that night and you have to take care of your brother (who by the way can totally take care of himself . cmon lar his 10 already . not 4 anymore) . and besides . i've been out till later then ten lar . so its so obvious she just doesnt want me to go . instead she wants me to stay at home cook dinner . and do the laundry . parents are so obvious you know . they are so TRANSPARENT . xPp . thank goodness she doesnt know my blog add . if not i be dead . but then i can just tell her my bro's one . then he be dead too ! ! im so evil . bleahxx .

i think i just killed my "dearest ahma" . i think i just murdered him . SORRY AHMA ! not my fault lar . who ask you be such a jerk . keep breaking little girls hearts . ahma . how can you do that . supposed to be my role model lehs . tsktsk . i know lar . i shouldnt have encouraged her to hate you . but what could i do . she say until like so ke lian . so convincing . nvm lar . you wont blame me right . besides you havent been a very good ahma . hahas . anyway a word of warning . you might want to wear extra protection when going out . i think she mentioned something bout going round looking for you with a baseball bat . GOOD LUCK . dun die before cny . i want my hong bao .

ok last night . as in late LATE in the night . at like 12 . i had a very serious talk with sonn . we talked about a very serious subject . the subject on why do parents love tormenting their kids so much . isnt it serious ? so this is going to be a very serious post . im not going to type any laughing words . AT ALL . "why do parents like to make their kids life hell?" . let me give you some equations . to parents "children" = "maids" . "more children" = "more maids" . preety easy equations right . easier then algebra . parents say : "as part of the family you have to do your part . you have do your chores" . ok . so we do our chores . what do our parents do ? they sit down on the comfy couch and watch tv . while we sweep up after them . arent they part of the family too . when they say they are busy and they need you to help cook dinner . what do they really mean ? it probably means : they need to go sleep . and parents are always asking you not to ask too many questions . they have their privacy . yes of course i respect they . but they didnt need to go read my smses and read my mail . wheres my privacy then . they are always saying stuff like . : "you are still young . for goodness sake . you are 13 only . can you stop doing such mature stuff . you are not old enough to do them" . ok so i listen to them . and what do they say ? : "can you stop being so childish . for goodness sake . you are already 13 . can you grow up" . theres just now pleasing them . and YES . there is still more . parents are so damn pian xin . so damn bias . they are always like . : "how can you teach your brother to be like that ? you as and elder must set a good example" . in my opinion . they aint setting that a perfect example too . ok end this post here .

yays ! last night went shopping and bought a blue hoodie ! x) . i still want some more ! i want a pink one . a black one and a white one ! im such a greedy pig . xPp . you know how damn freaking smart my borther is . he woke up at 7 today and started using the comp . i woke up at 10 then he said first come first serve . so i have to use THIS comp . which is ok and stuff . but its a macintosh . so like cant really do much with it . since most of the stuff i want to do doesnt seem to work with this comp . my damn bro took the windows one . slap him lar . *piakpiak* . o yar . now i remember . during camp i actually found someone more bhb then ching sheng . hahas . incredible isnt it . that someone could actually have a bigger ego then his already very big ego . hahas . the only reason i dare to write out ching shengs name is cause he wont take any offense . he takes pride in his big ego . how BIG can he get . ok that sounds sick . but whatever . thats true bhbness . SEE . im not the most bhb person there is . there are soo many people worse then me . but of cos without me the world wouldnt be able to function properly lar . hahas . bleahx . xPp . hmmz . now my bro is like using the other comp to play some war game . and well so far his losing . his been playing since like 7 till now . and he hasnt even won once . says alot huh . hahas . i need someone to pei wo go shopping ! i like saved up to 300 big ones . i still need to go buy christmas presents . hmmz . that means about 200 plus left for me . and wx and byje are supposed to come to my house . that byje lar . busy woman . everytime cannot make it want . and im also supposed to go out with sarah ! but im going off to aust this sat . for like ten days . omg . i still need to do my homework . im like so dead . i still have so many things to do . and PEOPLE said i was so free . hmmz . at least liyan has paid me back my ten bucks . x)) im ten bucks richer . whee~ . hahas . and where got i loan shark arhs . you make me your punching bag havent suan zhang yet . o yeah . im alos the atm machine yar . see . i have soo many jobs . hahas . ok thats lame . im being LAME . and now SPASTIC too . but WHATEVER . im now insanely crasy . if that means anything . xPP .

ok . actually last night i was supposed to post another post instead of the ahma post . but i couldnt take it lar . hahas dun want to talk about him already . yesterday got back frm camp . hahas . it was totally cool lar . met lots of new friends too . too bad it ended so early . actually at first didnt really like it there and stuff . oyeah and fell sick . sighs . everytime i go for camp i ALWAYS fall sick . but then later no more sick so liked it alot better . it would have been alot better if SOMEONE also came . but THAT person just kept making EXCUSES . so whatever . anyway the camp was totally fun . like did alot of stuff . and the sessions were really good . could feel Gods presence there . and all the campers were very friendly and stuff . hahas . who ask YOU never go . huo gai arhs . xPp . yeah last night slept at 1 something lar . then my mum was like nagging cos i was in front fo the comp sneezing and coughing . hahas . she say i dun let everybody else sleep also . so in the end have no choice go to sleep lors . hee~ . yeah . so now im sick . my throat is like so sore . and now my voice is like a guys . anyways . last night xin ask me go read someones blog . and i went to read it . is like SO TOUCHING . sobs . cry for that person arh . the persons heart got broken . i can so understand how he felt lar . but my situation wasnt as bad as his . it was SO SAD . and even though he heart was broken by someone else . he still kept loving her and praying for her . like kept wishing her well . ok so i know the HER person . and i know the her person isnt bad and stuff . cmon lar . i knew her for like half my life . pratically . but is like how could she do that . she broke his heart . after all they've been together too . i thought they would always be together lar . but well . nothing ever lasts forever . and i better then anyone should know that better . hahas . people are always changing . when you think that you know a person really well . later on you will find out that you dont know him at all . when you really begin to think that you are finally a part of his life but suddenly he tells you you are nothing to him . when he opens up to you and you feel that finally he sees you . only later he says nothing and leaves you all alone once again . yeah something like that . the process is long and painful . you feel like yelling at the person to stop hurting you and bashing the person up . yet evertime for even that second that he comes back to you . your love for him just rushes out again . and everytime he leaves you . you cant help but hope he will return even when you know after he returns he will just leave you again . you know that he will never ever love you back . but you just cant stop loveing him . and you just cant stop hoping that he will one day love you the same way you love him . though he probably never will . you cant help wishing for it . its all painful . and it hurts all the time . you always wish he would come back but scared that it will hurt . to love someone is the must hurting thing you can ever do to yourself . but you just cant help it . you just can help loving him . you dont care about the pain . you are willing to suffer for HIM . as long as you get even one secong with him . you're willing to brave through all difficulties just for him . just to bad he doesnt realize anything . to him you are as important as the dirt on his feet . you are not important to him all . too bad i had to go through all that before i realized what happen . just too bad

I CANT BELIVE IT ! MY [short , crappy , naggy] AHMA BROKE A LITTLE INNOCENT GIRLS HEART ! how can you do that lar ahma . you supposed to set a good example le . you do that how i follow you arh . so EVIL . i disown you arh . but then is supposed to be the other way round right . hmmz . AHMA ! ! .

herh . you read the previous post ? thank you by simple plan . yeah thats what i feel too . MISTAH PEEPEE ! YOU SUCK ! herh .

*//best friends cannot be trusted\\*
*//you broke me down\\*
*//i'll never be the same again\\*

hiish ! whats the use that GUY wont even be reading this . to think of all the years we knew each other and he still did that . after all i did for him . when he was down who was the one who stuck with him huh ? who ? ME ! when he got dumped by his girl who comforted him huh ? who ? ME ! when he needed to pour his soul out who lent him a listening ear ? who ? ME ! when he was in a fix who untanggled everything for him ? who ? ME ! that ASS . i am soo hating him . FISH HIM ! hermps . that idiotic ungrateful BRAT ! to think after all we've been through he would have not done it . but NO . YOU ASS . I HATE YOU . you know who you are . i hope you're reading this now . herh .

"Thank You" - simple plan

I thought that I could always count on you,
I thought that nothing could become between us two.
We said as long as we would stick together,
We'd be alright,
We'd be ok.
But I was stupid
And you broke me down
I'll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back

Yeah!

I wonder why it always has to hurt,
For every lesson that you have to learn.
I won't forget what you did to me,
How you showed me things,
I wish I'd never seen.
But I was stupid,
And you broke me down,
I'll never be the same again.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship the good times we had you can have them back

When the tables turn again,
You'll remember me my friend,
You'll be wishing I was there for you.
I'll be the one you'll miss the most,
But you'll only find my ghost.
As time goes by,
You'll wonder why,
You're all alone.

So thank you for showing me,
That best friends can not be trusted,
And thank you for lying to me,
Your friendship and good times we had you can have them back.

So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, for all the times you let me down
So thank you, for lying to me,
So thank you, your friendship you can have it back

ok . 2 more days to camp . whee~ . i just cant wait . (sacarstically) . hmm . i think im starting to catch a cold . been sneezing the whole day . now my nose is all red and glowing . reminds you of ?? rudolf the red nosed reindeer !! rudolf the red nosed reindeer had a very shiny nose~ hahas . x)) . going to australia in two more weeks ! but i know its gonna be the same old boring routine . cmon . i've been practicing since i was 7 ? first we will take the mid night flight there . there will be no one at the airport cept us . oyar this year theres gonna be more ppl . besides me my bro my granny my grandaddy my aunt my uncle and cousin . theres gonna be another uncle aunty and cousin . which come to think of it . is actually already alot of ppl . hahas . anyway i like waiting at the empty airport . so nice . then the aircon very very cold . then we will all sit in one row listen to the announcements . hahas . ok . i sound spastic . hehes . then we will fly there and we kids would spent the rest of the time in the hotel while the old folks will go gamble . hehs . but this year we're going to melbourne . which is nice and everything but well . i prefer sydney . cos then we can go to the bridge and play . damn fun lar . ok . so it sounds childish . but well . when there nothing else to do . you do childish things . like chase the tail . hahas . hmm . this year's christmas bash will be at ah yi's new house . which is really posh and totally cool . yeah ! its like a condominium but its not . its much much bigger . her house is one of the biggest ones i think . it has like two levels and a basement . which altogether is like 3 levels . and theres only the 3 of them staying there plus one maid so its like 4 ppl to this big house . they even have their own bomb shelter . IN the house . so you can imagine how big it is . yeah ! its so totally cool . and my aunt said i can go there anytime i like too ! since its so near my granny's house and everything . but dont think i'll be there to often . cept to use the facilities of cos ! hahas . i sound like an evil little cheap skate . anyway i cant belive i worte so many things in one post . hmmz m .

hmmz . im totally boreded out ! nothing to do . i feel like going out ! but cant . anyway noone to go out with . i had another dream of HIM* . man . im soo hopeless . i dont feel anything for him anymore . but why does he keep appearing in my dreams ? what the hell does this mean arhx ? totally wierded out ! sheesh . im so TOTALLY hopeless . hmm . dont want to talk bout my Hopelessness anymore . oyea . camp coming up ! next wed . i havent sent in my registration form yet . xPp . naughty me . hee~ . and after camp theres the trip to australia ! whee~ . its not gonna be boring anymore ! hehe . i sound like a small kiddiwink . mmz . havent started any of my holiday homework yet . im like so dead . and i also must start preparing for next year . im gonna work really really hard this time . gonna get into a good class in sec 3 . YES ! jia you jia youu ! hee~ .

YEAH! dad came home today . bought lots of goodies back . yumm . hee~ . you know something . some ppl are just so transparent . let me give some tips to those transparent ppl . when you like someone . dont keep pestering her . dont keep talking bout her . dont keep hanging on her every word . cos if you do . you truly are very transparent . and well just to tell you this . mr transparent . now the whole world knows you like her . hehs . wahahahaha . ok . im like being so evil here . hiish .

*//(p0ohs still dreaming about h0ney . how much worse can it get . in a total mess)\\*

#__ taking the worse and pretending its the best ``'

hehes . today post so many times liao . nothing better to do mahs . boOored . hehs . yeah ! next week benita and wei xin coming over i think . not sure . havent confirm yet . then after that . ... . after i come back from australia i think i going shopping with them too . hahas . just too bad we wnt be in the same class next year . actually more like i wont be in the same class as them . but whatever . makes not much difference . so what if they got into a better class and their smarter . it doesnt matter . no i doesnt matter at all . sheesh . i am a bad liar . well practice makes perfect . hmm . i think my granddaddy's gonna give me a digital cam . not sure yet . and though its not exactly the newest model . its still good . at least it can take pictures . but im not sure whether his gonna give it to me . im just praying . oyea . my dads coming home tomorrow . whee~ hope he brouht back lots of goodies with him . he should to . he went away for 3 weeks ok . and during that 3 weeks i had noone to chauffer me anywhere . hmf . *pouts* hehes . i sound like a spoilt pampered brat . but whatever lar . spoilt and pampered isint that bad a thing . but well . if im spoilt and pampered . i wonder what my bro is . hmm . WORSE . yes . MUCHmuch worse . o look . im putting him down again . i supposed to be a good sister and encourage him . but who cares . ITS FUN ! hiish .

*//( p0ohs hopeless ! cant seem to get over h0ney ! must quickly get over h0ney ! p0oh jia y0o ! )\\*

secret land - sandra

i remember
leaves were fallin' down
in St. Germainit was a cold November
you went away
an' i got a dream

nobody knows who i am
maybe you would understand
anybody knows what i am
down in a secret land

nobody knows how i try
not to tell another lie
anybody knows in the end
i'll find a secret land

i need you
i feel you
i can't life without you
so long

i know that
we parted
i'll stay in this town
cause i miss you so

i feel it
i mean it
the secret that
i'm gonna show

an' i turn back
i see that
all my love had to fail
but i miss you so

nobody knows who i am
maybe you would understand
anybody knows what i am
down in a secret land

nobody knows how i try
not to tell another liea
nybody knows in the end
i'll find a secret land

JAMIE CULLUM - "Everlasting Love"

Hearts gone astray, deep in her when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You won't regret, I'll come back begging you. (mmm)
Won't you forget, welcome the love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love.
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love.... oh...

Hearts gone astray deep in hurt when they go.
I went away just when you needed me so.
You wont regret I'll come back begging you.
Wont you forget, welcome love we once knew.

Open up your eyes, then you'll realise.
Here I stand with my everlasting love
Need you by my side.
Girl to be my pride.
Never be denied everlasting love.

From the very start open up your heart, feel that you've fall in,
Everlasting love......

need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.
need a love to last forever.........

I need a love to last forever

i just wanna let you know.
that even though you keep breaking my heart.
that even though you always keep me waiting.
that even though you never keep your promises.
that even though you keep making me cry.
that even though you keep hurting me again and again.
i just wanna let you know.
that i still love you.
and i mean it.
from the bottom of my heart.

wahh . i got into a different class from you guys . a class where i dont really know anyone .

class list :

1.AARON B HAMZAH
2.ANG SI MIN
3.CHANG TING FANG CHLOE
4.CHAU CHIN FONG JEREMY
5.CHEN YOU JIE CLEMENT
6.CHEONG BAOYUE JD
7.CHIA BIN KAI
8.CHIANG MING RUI
9.CHOO LI SHI KIMBERLY
10.CHUA LIN HONG
11.CHUANG FAYE ARABELLE
12.DANIEL SIM KAY JUAN
13.GOH TONG JIT
14.GUO YELIN
15.HU YANG
16.JASMINE CHEW SHENG FANG
17.JOHNATHAN LEE JOO CHENG
18.JOSHUA TAN LI XING
19.JUNE CHEN JIAMIN
20.KAY JIN HAO ERNEST
21.KESTER CHAN YI REN
22.LIM KAH KENG
23.LIM LYNN AMANDA
24.LIM SI YUAN ALEXANDER
25.LOKE JUN WEI JOEL
26.LYNNETTE LAI XIN YI
27.MUNIRAH BTE MOHAMAD SANTOSA
28.NG JUN RONG
29.ONG CHU HUI
30.PUA PENG CHEN GABRIEL
31.SARAH AU-YONG JIE XIN
32.SEE XIAO YUN AMANDA
33.SHAUN ELIJAH TAN YEAN TAT
34.SIEOW JE YUN
35.SIMON MAGDALENE MALANI
36.STEFFI LEE SHU JIN
37.TAN JING WEN NOEL
38.TAN YAN LING CHERIE
39.WEE CHEE CHEONG
40.WU JIAMEI

ok . so their all very nice people . but its not like i hate them or anything . its just that they aint my close friends . i dun know anything bout them . but i guess along the way we'll get to know each other better . i hope . PLEASE LET ME GET TO KNOW THEM BETTER . hahas . ok im begging here .

someone once told me :
"if you really love someone, you will let go of that person. cos if you truly love someone, you would do anything in your means to make the person happy. even if means sacrificing yourself, even if it means letting go. if you really love this person with all your heart, you would do just that."

thats why im letting go of you now .
it doesnt mean i hate you.
it means i love you.
and i want the best for you.
but the best isnt me.
you deserve more then just me.
please forgive me.

everytime i see you hurt.
my heart cries.
everytime i see you in pain.
my heart breaks.
i dun want you to suffer anymore.
i want to stop hurting you.
i want to heal your pain.

and the only way i know how to do it.
is to let you go.
at first you might feel the pain.
but time heals wounds.
just try to forget me.
as im trying to forget you.

im sorry.

heartbroken.

Love Does Not Need A Reason

Lady : Why do you like me? Why do you love me?
Man : I can't tell the reason... But I really like you...
Lady : You can't even tell me the reason... How can you say you like me? How can you say you love me?
Man : I really don't know the reason, but I can prove that I love you.
Lady : Proof? No! I want you to tell me the reason.My friend's boyfriend can tell her why he loves her, but not you!
Man : OK..OK!!! Erm...because you are beautiful, because your voice is sweet, because you are caring, because you are loving, because you are thoughtful, because of your smile, because of your every movements...

Unfortunately, a few days later, the Lady met with an accident and went into coma. The Guy then placed a letter by her side, and here is the content :

Dearest,
Because of your sweet voice that I love you...
Now can you talk? No! Therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your care and concern that I like you...
Now that you cannot show them, therefore I cannot love you.
Because of your smile, because of your every movements that I love you...
Now can you smile? Now can you move?No, therefore I cannot love you.
If love needs a reason, like now, there is no reason for me to love you anymore.
Do love need a reason? NO!
Therefore, I still love you...
And love doesn't need a reason

"The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen, nor touched, but are felt in the heart."

hahas . you guys must be wondering what the last three posts were about . they were the song lyrics for a korean drama called full house . yes . and im crasy bout it . at least for now . hahas . but its totally sweet and funny ! you cant help but fall in love with it ! hehe . right . now i sound like a babbling idiot . hehs . anyway went for another "family" shopping trip . my bro bought 2 more shirts from zara . he has taste no . i just bought 3 shirts from giordano . im the cheaper child . i only demand for a handphone and mp3 . my bro demands for any new version of the gameboy or any new version of playstation . and if there is any new game . he'll beg for it . like we already have 3 gameboys at home . ok now 2 . he lost one of them . sheesh . and my mum keeps saying i need to learn to save money and dont spend soo much . whos the one spending huh . let me ask you . hmphs . gees . people nowadays are just soo blind .

gom semari ga , han jibe itso
[three bears are in one house]

appa gom, umma gom, ehgi gom
[father bear, mother bear, baby bear]

appa gom eun tungtung heh
[father bear is fat]

umma gom eun nalshin heh
[mother bear is slender]

ehgi gom eun nuhmu giyowuh
[baby bear is really cute~]

wu suk wu suk jal han da~
[*wu suk word is like when u move ur shoulders up and down]

jalhanda- very good

I Think I by Byul (korean version)

Geureolri eobsdago anilkkeorago miteossjyo~ um
Naega geudae saranghandan imaldo andoejyo~ um
Gwaenchan jiltuilkkeorago naega oeroungabodago
Jashineul sokyeobwassjiman ije deoneun nan gamchulsuga eobsneungeolyo

I think i love you
Geureongabwayo
Cause i miss you
Geudaeman eobseumyeon

Nan amugeosdo moshago
Jakku saeng-gaknago
Ireongeol bomyeo amuraedo

I'm falling for you
Nan molrassjiman now i need you
Eoneusaenga nae mam gipeungose
Aju keuge jarijapeun geudaeui moseupeul ijen boayo

Urin aneoulrindago chingu geuge ttak johdago um
Hanabuteo yeolgae dodaeche mwo hangaerado majneunge eobsneunde
Eotteohgesagwil suissnyago maldoandwaeneun yaegirago
Malhamyeo dulreo daessjiman ijedeoneun nan geureogigashirheungeolyo

Wae molrassjyo geudaeraneungeol woo
Wae mosbwassjyo baro apinde hoo ye
Geu dongan ireohge baro naegyeote isseossneunde
Wae ijeseoya sarangi boineungeoji hoo

im sick of being me . being the little push over . the ball picker . the rap taker . the slave . i have my own life to run too . i aint no sick little thing any more . get off me .

wahh . today damn hectic . in the morning wake up need to do some chores that my mum left for me . +(( . had to mop the whole house ! and clear up everything . TORTURE ! anyway later went to my granny's house . then we go shopping together . me , bro , granny , aunt and little cousin . hahas . so many ppl . then we take a taxi to orchard . everybody squish into one . hehe . then our first stop was the bank . my cousin keep running around everywhere lar . then i have to keep chasing her around around and around . like merry go round . then our next stop was espirit . but didnt find what we want there . after that we went to zara . there my bro got a pair of jeans . then we went to mango . see see only . didnt find anything really nice . then my granny spotted a tube top . for only $9 . so she bought it for me . then my aunt and granny went to a money changer to change to australian money . for our trip to australia . x)) . then we go to giordano . there i bought a pants and a shirt . hahas . then need to go for piano class . then come back home ! hahas . SPASTIC ! haix . anyway no im back here hahas . and tonight my mums on call . that means she'll get back only tmr morning . hee~ so i get the whole house to myself ! xD . cept for my bro of cos . i cant seem to be able to get rid of him . YET . hmmz . i sound evil . EVIL MONSTER . ok . im being retarded again . hehs . okies . gtg watch tv . cya . takkaires .

hees . today i posted so many times . hahas . im so wu liao . hmmz . tomorrow im going shopping with granny , aunt and bro . shes gonna buy us clothes . for our trip to australia ! hehe . x)) . smileyyy . yeah ! you know whats the most disturbing and amazing thing . my bro only failed one subject . his supposed to fail more so he wont get to go to australia . hmmz . his has more than what i credit him for . anyway gtg soon . mums nagging me to go help her do something . more slavary . i have my rights . just too bad shes my mum . after all . she gave life to me . looks like im in debted to her . well i'll just have to bear with it . and after all . shes too is the one who controls my pocket money . hehz . bye . takkaires you guys . muacks .

ok . a friend sent me this mail . its actually a chain mail . but its pretty touching .

A little girl went to her bedroom and pulled a glass jelly jar from its
hiding place in the closet.
She poured the change out on the floor and counted it carefully. Three
times, even. The total had to be exactly perfect. No chance here for
mistakes.
Carefully placing the coins back in the jar and twisting on the cap, she
slipped out the back door and made her way 6 blocks to Rexall's Drug Store
with the big red Indian Chief sign above the door.
She waited patiently for the pharmacist to give her some attention but he>>was too busy at this moment. Tess twisted her feet to make a scuffing
noise.
Nothing. She cleared her throat with the most disgusting sound she could
muster. No good. Finally she took a quarter from her jar and banged it on
the glass counter. That did it!
"And what do you want?" the pharmacist asked in an annoyed tone of voice.
I'm talking to my brother from Chicago whom I haven't seen in ages," he said
without waiting for a reply to his question. "Well, I want to talk to you
about my brother," Tess answered back in the same annoyed tone. "He's
really, really sick... and I want to buy a miracle."
" I beg your pardon?" said the pharmacist.
" His name is Andrew and he has something bad growing inside his head and my
Daddy says only a miracle can save him now. So how much does a miracle cost?"
"We don't sell miracles here, little girl. I'm sorry but I can't help you,"the pharmacist said, softening a little.
"Listen, I have the money to pay for it. If it isn't enough, I will get the
rest. Just te ll me how much it costs."
The pharmacist's brother was a well dressed man. He stooped down and asked
the little girl, "What kind of a miracle does your brother need?"
" I don't know," Tess replied with her eyes welling up. I just know he's
really sick and Mommy says he needs an operation. But my Daddy can't pay
for it, so I want to use my money."
" How much do you have?" asked the man from Chicago.
"One dollar and eleven cents," Tess answered barely audibly."And it's all
the money I have, but I can get some more if I need& nbsp; to."
"Well, what a coincidence," smiled the man. "A dollar and eleven cents---the
exact price of a miracle for little brothers. "
He took her money in one hand and with the other hand he grasped her mitten
and said "Take me to where you live. I want to see your brother and meet
your parents. Let's see if I have the miracle you need."
That well dressed man was Dr. Carlton Armstrong, a surgeon, specializing in
neuro-surgery. The operation was completed free of charge and it wasn't long
until Andrew was home again and doing well.
Mom and Dad were happily talking about the chain of events that had led them
to this place.That surgery," her Mom whispered. "was a real miracle. I
wonder how much it would have cost?"
Tess smiled. She knew exactly how much a miracle cost...one dollar and
eleven cents .. plus the faith of a little child..
In our lives, we never know how many miracles we will need..A miracle is
not the suspension of natural law, but the operation of a higher law.. I know
you'll keep the ball moving!
Here it goes. Throw it back to someone who means something to you!
A ball is a circle, no beginning, no end. It keeps us together like our
Circle of Friends. But the treasure inside for you to see is the treasure of
friendship you've granted to me.
Today I pass the friendship ball to you.
Pass it on to someone who is a friend to you.
MY OATH TO YOU...
When you are sad.....I will dry your tears.
When you are scared.....I will comfort your fears.
When you are worried.....I will give you hope.
When you are confused.....I will help you cope.
And when you are lost....And can't see the light,
I shall be your beacon.....Shining ever so bright.
This is my oath.....I pledge till the end.
Why you may ask?.....Because you're my friend.

Signed: GOD

HOWIE DAY - "Collide"

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking'
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Don't stop here
I lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

phew . just finish "battling" with one of my brothers friends . ok let me fill you in . i wanted to use the com but my bro was using . then he say i can use but must not sign off his msn messenger . then he go watch tv . then suddenly his friend keep sending him messengers . like keep pestering (even my bro cant stand him) . then i just keep asking him to shut up then he say i so rude . but anyway he gave up and went offline . yeah ! im pro aint i . x)) . but am i really very rude ? hmmz . compared to SOME ppl im actually considered quite polite ya know . hahas . anyway im now blasting music really really LOUD . and its damn shiok . mm . today also dont have any training .=] . not like i dont like training or anything . in fact im actually starting to like it (pigs aint flying yet) . but its nice to take a break sometimes . dad flew off last night . his going for about three weeks this time . not really sure where his going . but i know his going to three places . the last place is USA i think . hope he buys back lots of prezzies ! x)) . whee~

Good Enough For You - Freefaller

You're never proud
And I'm not allowed
To make mistakes
I'm always too much
Or never enough
I just can't win

I get so confused
Don't know what to do
Maybe I'm just dumb
Because everything I seem to do is wrong
When I try to talk you shout
Freak out
I feel like I'm going to break

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for youI

'm trying my best to make you impressed
But it's no good
You just shoot me down and push me around
I just can't win

I get so confused
Don't know what to do
Maybe I'm just dumb
Because everything I seem to do is wrong
When I try to talk you shout
Freak out
I feel like I'm going to break

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for you

You keep making no sense when you talk
So I'm taking this chance to walk away

Cuz I'm sick of feeling so confused
No matter what I do
I seem to always lose
And it's just no use
Cuz all this abuse
Is the only thing I ever seem to get
I'm through, because nothing's ever good enough for you
Nothing's ever good enough for you
Nothing's ever good enough for you

THE CLICK FIVE-Just The Girl

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool
At our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

[Chorus:]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret
For more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

The way she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more

Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

last night went for the class bbq . it was pretty fun lar . and lots of great food too . hahas . everyone took lots of pictures . ate lots of good food . the guys tried to burn everything down . melissa bought a frisbee and some ppl started playing . another group was playing cards . some were riding bikes . some were cooking food . yeah . thats pratically what happened . hahas . anyway today was deepavali . so its a public holiday . and everyone slept late . then we did some more major house cleaning . threw out lots of stuff . sniffsniff . but must make room for new stuff . x)) . hehehs . yeah . im saving all my money for the greatest shopping trip ever . yeah ! hehs . anyway . needa wake up early tomorrow . for training . xP . dont really feel like going . but i'll try to lar . later some ppl will nag nag nag . sighs . hehe . kaex . takkaires everyone . nights .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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