TEDDY GEIGER LYRICS

"You'll Be In My Heart"

Come stop your crying,
It'll be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here don't you cry

For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart...
...Always

Why can't they understand
The way we feel
They just don't trust
What they can't explain
I know we're different
But deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other
To have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together!

'Cause you'll be in my heart (Believe me)
You'll be in my heart (I'll be there)
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart (you'll be here in my heart)
You'll be in my heart (I'll be there)
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart

Always!
I'll be with you!
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
I will be there

TEDDY GEIGER LYRICS

"For You I Will (Confidence)"

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah

That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do
To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

ok now i've got a new craze . teddy geiger ! hahas . i love hes songs and he is SOO CUTE . hahas . hes black floppy hair and blue eyes . x) . i know that celebrity crushes are dumb . im mean their total fatasy . but hes totally cute so who cares . hahas . ok back to reality . hmms . dad flew off yesterday to china . he wont be around for like . 2 weeks . so TOTAL FREEDOM . even more freedom when mum goes on call too ! yays . whoots . hee X) . sighs . its like the last week of the school holidays already . BOO . time doesnt fly . it gushes . swoosh . havent even touched my homework . soo dead . actually i think i lost it . sharks . anyways . no me and my bro are like total bike maniacs . we bike everyday . like no kidding okay . x) . we are so perservering and diligent . xD . hahas . yups . and now we've gotten DARKER . so not good . well actually i like it . but my mum says its BAD for the skin . blah . xP . wahh . schools coming back into my life . no more sleeping at 1 and getting up at ll . sighs . okays gotta go mourn the last weeks of school .

BACKSTREET BOYS LYRICS

"I Want It That Way"

Yeah

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

[Chorus:]
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

[Chorus]

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...

You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say it)
I want it that way
I want it that way

time really flies huh . already the second week of the holidays have past . sad . my whole holidays have been soo totally freaking boring . i have no social life at all . thats why im here blogging about my boring life . the whole two weeks all i did was eat , sleep , watch tv , and go cycling . the only time i went out was for tuition and cycling . other then that . nope nothing nada zip . man im so hopelessly screwed up .how come everyones out there having fun except well . ME ? am i actually missing something out there ? SARKS ! anyway since my social life is now oficially dead . so that means i'll probably be blogging more and watching more tv . and probably watch the world cup like an old geezer . story of my life . pathetic . man im sooo longing to get out there . plus tmr im actually going out with my family . im turning into a family kid ! not that its bad or anything . just . you know . sad and boring . owells . so please if you see some action anywhere tell me . im starting to fall asleep . NIGHTS and SWEET DREAMS . oyar . happy birthday tong jit !

Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron Soundtrack Lyrics

Artist: Bryan Adams Lyrics
Song: Nothing I've Ever Known Lyrics

Right now I feel - just like a leaf on a breeze
Who knows where it's blowin'
Who knows where it's goin'
I find myself somewhere I - I never thought I'd be
Going round in circles
Thinking about you and me
How do I expalin it when I don't know what to say
What do I do now - so much has changed

Nothing I have ever known - has made me feel this way
Nothing I have ever seen - has made me want to stay
but here I am - ready for you
I'm turnin', I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'
Hey - I've never felt somethin's so strong - oh no
I'ts like nothing I've ever known

Now you're the one I'm looking for
You're the one I need
You're the one that gives me - a reason to believe
Following a star - has lead to where you are
It feels so stong now - this can't be wrong now

Reflection by Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

ok . the two "family" days have past . and now my life is back to its old boring state . BLAH . on the first day . as in monday . we first went to IMM for brunch . then went to my dad's cafe . then finally went ice skating ! whoots . hahas . it was super cold there plus my ice skating SUCKS . im ok at rollarbladding but somehow on ice i cant really . wells . MOVE . and soo much for the theory "ice sakting is just the same as rollarbladding . bullshit . and after that episode of falling slipping and slidding . we went to watch x'men :last stance .real great movie . but real sad too . why did everyone have to DIE . sadistic . after that we went home . the ice skating must have been really tiring . cos when i hit the bed i just zonked out . completely . so the next day . today . first we had to go to shenton way cos the rents needed to bank in some money . then we went to east coast to bike . 3 hours straight ok . no joke . so now my butt really hurts . ouch . anyway we biked from one end to the other then back and back again . hahas . was really fun . especially seeing my bro falling all over the place . the best part was at the ending . when he banged into this girl who looked like she was totally enjoying her day . untill bro banged into her that is . owells . hahas . im totally sadistic . x) . oyeah . and my mum was totally suprised that i could bike so well . sorta . well what didja expect . all those forced trips to pulau ubin had to have its advatages . it was so totally great . i didnt want to stop . you know the feeling when you get on a bike and just whiz away . with the wind blowing in your face . with totally nothing to worry about . its such a great feeling . after we had dinner . dad bought bro a bike . sort of a early birthday present three months early . and when we got home my dad INSISTED on a test run to see if everything worked and such . yeah . and since my "poor" brother was filled with cuts and bruises . guess who had to test ride it . me of cos . the usual guinea pig . and you know after your butt really hurts after 3 hours of continues riding . and when you are forced after that to ride on a bike which by the way had a sit that was totally hard . as in rock hard . you really can feel pretty pissed . and when you get back totally trashed . your mum expects you to do the laundry . and you just cannt help feeling . well . more pissed . so altogether i feel really pissed . that about sums it all up . anyway . tmr gonna be back to the same boring days . having tuition and reading books that talk about EXCITING experiances . *** . x) . im not sick nor dirty . i just like interesting books that talk about life . ok . im really bushed out right now . so byes . takkaires good night .

been a darn long time since i last posted huh . been pretty busy here and there . anyway now noone ever comes here . its DULLSVILLE ! boo . hoo . anyway WHO NEEDS THEM ! HERH ! soo . now its the holidays now ! whoots . oh the good days are here . one week of the holidays gone already . pretty fast . and now the rents have been nagging about more tuition . GREAT . totally GREAT . anyway . soo today went to pulau ubin with my brother dad and his friends . didnt actually want to go . i mean who wants to wake up at 6 just to cycle your butt numb at some ulu island . plus my dad had to sent hes car for servicing . soo guess who had to spent bout 1 hour in the mrt today . plus it was really crowded . with all the people going to work and all . (from buona vista to pasir ris! no kidding okay) . AND when we reached there we had to walk and walk and walk . round and round and round . and then when we reached there . we had to cycle and cycle and cylce . the downhills werent too bad . i like those . but those uphills . gods . can DIE arh . plus it rained in the middle of it too . it RAINED and RAINED and RAINED . and we got stuck in this shrimp farm with a "holey" roof . and when we were about al half DRENCHED . we had to ride our soaking bikes in the mud back to the port . let me tell you . WHO NEEDS THAT ! but then the later part almost made it all worth it . ALMOST . we had this totally yummy seafood lunch . prawns crabs clamps . you name it . its there . shesh . im SUCH A PIG . owells . must while live to eat then rather to eat to live right ? TOTALLY ! soo here am i now sitting here with a big cushion tied to my ass . cos it hurts soo damn SOO DAMN FREAKING much . i must really learn how to stand on the bike and ride . im sure those who can do that never have sore aching butts . and its not my fault i totally find that place creepy . i mean . thats where i learn how to ride ! 2 years ago . so im a little late in learning how to ride . so laugh already . anyway . you'll never belive how i learnt how to ride . its the most evil and cruel way ever . my family and another family when there to holiday . and then they all rented bikes . and gave me this two wheeled bike . i was all like . i have totally no idea how to ride this THING . and you ask me to ride it . then they all mounted and rode off . leaving poor me all by myself with that stupid darn bike . so i got scared and just tried to ride . and i DID IT . amazing huh . i know . but it really is unfair . all the other little children have their daddys helping them on their cutsie little bikes balancing them and all . and my daddy ? rode off in a double biker with my bro . is life fair ? so thats my little story . and its soo true . i still have the sars to prove it (of cos i fell alot . what did you expect ? my first ride ever and in the wilderness to . its not like im the bike genius or anything ) . anyways to day it was payback time . it was my brothers turn ! except not totally the same experiance . he rode a double with my dad again . but while we were eating . (he really HATES seafood) . he was out there TRYING to ride a bike . in the rain no less . xD . im just soo glad . anyway i think this post is long enough for a welcome back post no ? i think it is . so cya .

what is the meaning of life ? what is the meaning of love ? what is the meaning of family ? to me this has no meaning at all . whats life really . its just eating and sleeping . whats love . theres no such thing as love . whats family . just people who are related to you . sighs .

YAY ! have 6c chalet from 14 - 16 june (: . so funn . anyways i want to complain about boys now . about their stupid "face" and their cannot cry policy . i mean guys are still human right . they should be able to cry . if you're sad you cry . if you're touched you cry . WHATS THEIR PROBLEM . they never cry . they always bottle it all inside . it really irritates me . i dunno why . it just . especially if theres this guy . who happens to be a close friend . he got hes heart really broken . but he refuses to cry . he wont even cry in front of me . and i've known him for what . 5 years ? come on . then he hides it all inside . so it really pains me to see my good friend like that you know . i just feel like yelling at him and asking him to just break down and cry . he'll feel much MUCH better then now won't he . but NO he just sits there staring into space and sulks . don't guys just know that if you don't let your emotions out . you'll just be hurting yourself . and its NOT GOOD FOR HEALTH . your health and my health . so just LET IT ALL OUT . sheesh . guys .

today school ended early so went to west mall with sarah and muni . x)) . went walking round and round . bought a cd and a little stuffed doggy ! hehes . i want the 3 doors down - seventeen cd ! if anyone sees it . BUY FOR ME . x)) . anyway when i came home with the dog and played with it . my dad saw me and he was like . you have a depressed childhood right . YES TOTALLY . its all his fault anyway . he wont get me a dog . so i have to be just satisfied with a toy dog . owells . im getting hungry again . fridge here i comee eee ee e ...

3 DOORS DOWN LYRICS-"It's Not Me"

Nevermind the face that you put on
In front of me
And nevermind the pain
You've put me ..through

Cause every little thing you say
And every little thing you do
It makes me doubt all of this

What are you waiting for?

[Chorus:]
Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me

Forget about the trip that you've been on
Or so it seems
Nevermind the lies that you told, my tears

Cause every little thing you said
And every little thing you did
You made me doubt all of this

Is that what your waiting for?

[Chorus:]
Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me
Was meant for me
Was meant for me
Yeah, Yeahhhhhh

Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me
I don't know how I can face this pain
I'll keep it inside so you can't see
I don't think I can go on this way, 'cause it's not me

hehes . its been a pretty long time since i last blogged huh . been pretty busy . plus i was lazy too . so well yeah . just came back from camp . it was totally awesome (: . i know you guys are totally jealous . there you are mugging for exams and here i am enjoying myself at camp . its that soo great (: . yes i know . im evil . just cant help it huh . anyway as usual was sick at camp . thats always the case . during the last day everyone comes down with cramps and tummyaches . why . cos never shit there . well . who wants too . all that mud and shit floating around . it could just make you puke . yes it was that bad . anyways enough about camp . you know what im DYING to do . SHOPPING! . (x . yes . im suddenly having this urge to splurge and splurge . i know it isnt GOOD . but who cares . (x . plus holidays are coming in three weeks time ! and during that time for one week my dad will be in china . that means there'll be noone home ((: . especially when mum has night shift too . TOTAL HAVOC . nice (: . you know what i noticed . my brother has nice hair and nice eyes . not fair . why cant he give them to me . his hair is all soft and silky (softer and silkier then MINE) and he has this big sad puppy dod eyes . let me tell you . when he gives you those lassie eyes . you'll give him ANYTHING . which is totally not right . but i guess when god gave out the genes . he gave my bro the better looking genes whereas he gave me the smarts yeah ? its totally true kay . my brothers like this cute little teddy bear without the brain . uhuh . to put it simply . hes just not smart . as in . DUMB . im not smart too . but at least im SMARTER . you know what new deed my bro did . he failed two subjects . one maths (his soo called "best" subject) . and the other you'll never belive . english . i take is as an amazing feet . english being the language he speaks and communicates . amazing isnt it . hahas . i know . i sound darn evil . putting down my bro . but well hes been totally irritating me so well . fairs fair . HA HA HA . anyway gotta go watch my tv (: . been 4 days since i watched . amazing i didnt die or something . cya .

Everytime We Touch - Cascada

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams. (my dreams)
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry. (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

WAKAKAKAKAKA . im in music class now . everyones slacking as usual . x)) . WHOOTS ! anyways i finished what i was suposed to do already . so im not exactly in the wrong . bleahs . xP .

why did you leave me alone to fend for myself . have you forgotton the promises you made . how you said you would never leave me and always be by my side . but then you went . you ran away . without a word . without an apology . what could you be thinking . how do you think i felt . have you ever thought about me . i trusted you with all i had . i gave you my everything . i really . really loved you . im sure you loved me too . you used to always tell me . you used to make me feel safe . make me feel happy . when i was with you . i felt that nothing in the world would ever go wrong again . but why are you ignoring me now . even avoiding me . cant you see my tears . feel my sadness . why did you leave me . did i not do good enough . but if you want to go . just go . why do you always turn back . make me love you again . only to leave the next . do you know how much pain you cost me . how much suffering . you keep breaking my heart . keep saying you'll never leave . keep promising me hope . but you never could keep your promises could you . you never did . so just leave me alone . dont turn back . dont come to me . i dont want to see your face . dont want to hear your voice . cos if i do . i know i'll just love you again . i cant take it anymore . so please . please . just let me go . leave .










i love you. i really do. thats why i want you to leave. and if you love me too. do it.

why did you leave me alone to fend for myself . have you forgotton the promises you made . how you said you would never leave me and always be by my side . but then you went . you ran away . without a word . without an apology . what could you be thinking . how do you think i felt . have you ever thought about me . i trusted you with all i had . i gave you my everything . i really . really loved you . im sure you loved me too . you used to always tell me . you used to make me feel safe . make me feel happy . when i was with you . i felt that nothing in the world would ever go wrong again . but why are you ignoring me now . even avoiding me . cant you see my tears . feel my sadness . why did you leave me . did i not do good enough . but if you want to go . just go . why do you always turn back . make me love you again . only to leave the next . do you know how much pain you cost me . how much suffering . you keep breaking my heart . keep saying you'll never leave . keep promising me hope . but you never could keep your promises could you . you never did . so just leave me alone . dont turn back . dont come to me . i dont want to see your face . dont want to hear your voice . cos if i do . i know i'll just love you again . i cant take it anymore . so please . please . just let me go . leave .










'i love you. i really do. thats why i want you to leave. and if you love me too. do it.'

sighs . feeling so tired so sleepy . so stressed . i want to just sleep continously and never get up . when i sleep theres no problems . theres no worries . it feels good . not to have anything on my mind . but when i wake up . it all begins . its not fair . why do i have to go through all this . i just want to sleep forever . in a faeriland . free of all thoughts . i just feel so tired . i feel like ending it all . but i know i cant . cos it would be just too foolish . but i just wish ... sighs . GET ME OUT OF HERE .


happy easter day. happy birthday marcus and magdeline.

Who Am I
by Casting Crowns
album: Casting Crowns (2003)

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
yays . its my birthday . and it did NOT start of well . i woke up late . went late for church . noone in church even remembered my birthday . not even my cell members . sad case . plus . was having stomach cramps the whole day . then had to go to the columbarium . (in case you dunno whats THAT . its where the dead are) . cos its tomb sweeping day . i know . im not a buddhist and stuff . but my grandmas there plus my dads gramps . so had to go visit . and boy was it smokey . but its really renovated alot since the last time i went there . then after that went to sakae sushi for my birthday dinner . and you know whats the worst thing ever . cos my wisdom tooth is coming out . so my whole mouth is like in PAIN . and i cant eat anything . NOT FAIR . and i love sushi sooo much . so i just sat there . with my tummy cramps and toothache . looking at people eat my favourite food . AHH . but aleast the present were all worth it . ok the list of presents soo far :
1.) one BIG famous amos cookie; wenny
2.) poohbear and chocs; steffi
3.) $20; mummy and daddy
4.) $50; gong gong
5.) $50; ahkong and mama
...
thats about it for now . hope i get more tmr(: . hehes . im greedy . ouch . my teeth is still hurting me . waaaa . very pain lar . even drink water also pain . sighs . AHHH .

sighs . today have sports day . so darn boring . just see people run and run and RUN . not like our class atully won anything . only TWO pple won trophies . gabriel and muni . so BORING . now if i were in 2d it WOULD be different . they practically won everything . SOO UNFAIR . all the atheletes are in THIER class . its ok . we'll just win the rest of the competitions . uhuh . 2c rawks . x) . sighs then after sports day it rained and rained non-stop . who needs that . supposed to have a pizza party too . in honour of my birthday (WHICH IS TMR) . but in the end cancelled it . didnt really feel like having a party . plus . dun even know whether can have it . plus . everyone was confused . so . owells . no more pizza party . not like its my loss . its pizza huts loss . now i dont need to spend unwanted money . so its a good thing . yays . i already got my first prezzie . from my darling steffi . (if you give me a prez too . i'll call you a darling anytime) . a POOHBEAR . and chocies . x) . ilove <3 . feeling darn sians now . nothing to do . and suffering from a tummyache . ouchies . sighs .

one more day till im another year older.

hmms . nowadays feeling so darn danged . beat . TIRED . everytime go to school always feel like sleeping . snores . zZzz . i have no idea why either . ): . sad . then i can never pay attention during class too lar . sighs . i do try to sleep as early as i can . i just cant sleep now you cant blame me can you . like my dad says . im a nocturnal animal . im ALIVE at night . uhuh . so what can i do . sighs . AHH . you know what . i cant stand HER . shes soo .. IRRITATING . oyar . and i thought i was the only one who didnt like her . but guess what . i found a whole lot of people who dont like her either(: . YAYS . ok . i know i sound darn evil . like being happy when soo many people dont like someone . but wells i cant help it . i really REALLY really try very hard to like her . but i just cant take it any longer . shes always SOO extra . and shes got this hearing problem . like when you call her name . NO . when you SCREAM her name . she can never ever hear you . and when you never even said her name . she asks you . did you call me . like what the reek . plus whenever im talking to someone . she'll just cut in . and shes always eavesdropping . AHH . cant take it . BLAH . and she always thinks she soo BIG . like i never even ask her how to do anything . and she will just snatch my paper and tell me how to do . like wheres your manners girl . didnt your mummy teach you how to say PLEASE . and like what . i actually got a higher l1r5 then her . shows that i did better then her didnt i . HERH . ahhh .. .. ..

stop blaming yourself already . its not entirely your fault . you too didnt want it to happen . it was an ACCIDENT yeah ? so stop saying its all your fault and looking down on yourself . cos its painful for me too . i dont want to see you this way . it hurts to see you this way . so stop being sad and depressed . and smile . OK ? ((:

i will love you forever and ever . no matter what happens . so smile . for me
hearts <3 ME
hearts <3 YOU


chocolates heal broken hearts and tired souls

hearts <3


ok . this time . im gonna complain about BOYS AND THEIR HORRIBLE AIMING . you know yesterday when i rushed back home from school . (there was a reason why i rushed . i was urgent) . YES . so just rushed to the toilet and sat down . AND squish . my brothers PEE was all over the place . on the sit . and even on the FLOOR . man . if they already know that their aiming SUCKS . cant they at least clean up after themselves . SHEESH . GUYS ! . oyes talking about guys . my stupid kor lar . ALL HIS FAULT . give me all the wrong answers for my homework . HERH . he better reedeem himself and buy me a NICE birthday pressie ! (hinthint) . uhuh . to those totally CLUELESS people . my birthday is coming up in 5MOREDAYS ! x)) . please remember . and most importantly . THE PRESENTS . hahas . im soo greedy . x)) . eEee . but i dont care . HAHAHA .

MAN . im damn burned . so totally tired lar . i feeling so pmsing lar . and darn bad . i keep getting pissed off with people . and i think they know im pissed off with them . soo ... IM SO SORRY . ahhh . stress stress stress .

Tears In Heaven by Eric Clapton and Will Jennings

Would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause i know i don't belong
Here in heaven.

Would you hold my hand
If i saw you in heaven?
Would you help me stand
If i saw you in heaven?

I'll find my way
Through night and day,
'Cause i know i just can't stay
Here in heaven.

Time can bring you down,
Time can bend knees.
Time can break your heart,
Have you begging please, begging please.

Beyond the door,
There's peace i'm sure,
And i know there'll be no more,
Tears in heaven.

Would you know my name
If i saw you in heaven?
Would it be the same
If i saw you in heaven?

I must be strong
And carry on,
'Cause i know i don't belong
Here in heaven

ok this time im gonna dedicate this WHOLE post to a bitch named b***** . yes about that bitch . (and i am not being mean by calling her a bitch ok . she really is one) . you know right . i treat her like such a great friend lar . then i some more trusted her soo much . then she go backstab me . you know how i know this . cos a friend told me that that bitch told her that i was this scheming backstabbing bitch . that i damn "what lar" . what the shit lar . then my friend say she dont belive cos i seem like very nice . then you know what that bitch say . she said that thats only a mask . say what "she will show her true colours soon" . like what the heck . whos the backstabbing bitch now huh . i never did her any wrong lar . and by the way she forgot that i was the only one who actually stood by her and told her to stand up for her own rights . like she have stm is it . some more everybody hates her lar . cos shes SOO indecisive . can never make up her mind . one minute side with this person one minute side with the other . like cant she just make up her mind and stop being so luo li luo suo . so long winded . so wishy washy . just get on with it lar . sheesh . cant stand it cant stand it cant stand it . AHH .

man im into a depressed mood again . sheesh . i was retardedly happy half an hour ago . all stupid kors fault lar . talktalktalk nicenicenice then become depressed . sharks . and you know whats even worse . i ran OUT of ice cream . WHAT HAS THIS WORLD BECOMED ? i dont have a fetish for ice cream ok . its just that whenever i feel depressed i gourge on ice cream and chocolate . i dont know why too . its just satisfyingly reliving . BUT i ran out of chocs 1 week ago and know im outa ice cream tooo . oh nooo . im dying . i must go shopping . hms . i know what you must be thinking . its such an unhealthy habit . EUWW . all that sugar and calories . but wells who feels relaxed after eating like ginger and garlic ? if i ate that i'd rather die from depression . besides . it was either that or dying from the stench of my own breath (which in my opinion is a rather PATHETIC death) . so yar . hms maybe i should change it to fat free ice cream or something . but then there goes the shiokness . i mean . you eat ice cream cos you know its utterly sinful . thats the pleasure right . and by the way i totally dont belive in those fat free stuff . like you can make something obviously sugary and sweet without fat . like what the . then it wouldnt BE that nice . it be bland and tasteless . BLAH . totally unsatisfying . uh uh . like celery or something (its not that i have something against celerys or anything . its just that i totally HATE simply HATE them) . hmms . anyways . tmrs yi jie's birthday . what should i get for him . hmms . i dunno . thats always a problem . getting gifts for guys . they should have this book with gift ideas lar . makes life soo much simpler for us girls to give guys presents . if you want to give your girls a present you just find something cute and totally adorable and she'll love it to bits . but guys ? i have no idea . for the past years the only presents i ever give guys are well sweets and chocs . is there really something else to give ? hmms . who knows . i think im gonna give xiao jie a totally adorable soapy thing . you know those little bottles of flake soap that dissovles in water . uhuh . i have no idea what he'll think of it but whatever . ITS THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS ! whoots . hahas . anyways . gotta go catch a winkwink . yawns . without my ice cream . sobss .

shucks man . its already the second term . but im darn happy . for first term i got 11 for my l1r5 . whoots . 5a1s and 1c5 and 1c6 . darn wasted . i got c5 for chinese and c6 for maths lar . man my maths does suck . looks like im never gonna get into triple science . cos in triple science theres *shudder* a maths . and if i have trouble passing e maths why make life difficult (for me AND the teacher)(im being REALLY considerate) by taking a maths . its like sucide , jumping off the building , jumping down the river , standing in the middle of orchard road , insulting that big FAT bully . ok i think you get what i mean . see . thats exactly why my life is over . owells . its not like its the first time my life was over . WOW . im like better then a cat . a cat has nine lifes . but i have more . WHOOTS . ok im retarding here . feel totally retarded today i dunno why . no its not because of what you are thinking sonn . im old and innocent . uhuh . and im NOT in love . (if i were you i would belive me to . thats why im not you . not logical ? nvm) so like whatever (this is not the whatever way that gay amos cookie says it . cos im NOT gay) . ok im being retarded again . R E T A R D E D . ooo . i can spell ! x)) . oyar . you know someone i really really really hate right now . thats MR ** ! herh i cant stand him . i cant understand why those nutcases set up a fan club for him . like he has any fans . HERH . i cant stand him i cant stand him i cant stand him . EEeeEE . what black cat white cat shit . ! i dont like cats . EeE . anyways its getting late . gotta go sleep . mr ** says you must sleep at 10.30 . so that your body can be fully rested . and im gonna try it out make sure it fails and throw it back in his face . uhuh . so nights .



13moreDAYS//-0

man its been like what since i last blogged . been totally busy and bushed . anyways its the holidays now ! whoots . so its only for one week and . im sick again . man . isnt it like the worst time ever . the start of the holls and im sick . argh . so totally not starting on the bright side . bush . and plus i can feel that im totally pmsing . so pls PLS do NOT cross me over . you're not gonna like it . eesh .

to be truly loved

i may have rich parents,
who gave me everything i ever wanted.
but they'll never there beside me,
am i truly loved?
i may have had a hundred ex-lovers,
they all said they loved me.
but then they said it to every other girl,
am i truly loved?
i may have a whole hoard of friends,
who are at my every beck and call.
but they never really care at all,
am i truly loved?
i may have everything a girl could ever dream of,
boyfriends money popularity.
but do they really matter at all,
am i truly loved?
what is love you might say.
is it gifts and money?
big houses? baloney!
if you ask me i say none at all.
all i ever wanted,
was a guy to love me,
parents who supported me,
and friends who were there for me.
that was all i ever wanted,
i want to be truly loved.

man . its been a pretty long time since i last blogged huh . been pretty busy lately . and of theres also my bro . been hogging the computer day and night . but now hes benched . cos he failed hes last chinese test . nananeepoopoo . hahas . BLEAHS . x)) . i feel retarded . today had adp . i got into drama . its ok i guess . very little pple too . like eight . and all we did was play games and stuff . so it was all very calm and cool . no stressful brainwork or anything . x)) thats always a good thing . time is passing so fast lar . its like the eighth week now . two more weeks till march holls . SOO FAST . plus theres so much tests coming up . im so gonna DIE . but at least my science is still ok . for the last test i got 18/20 . im so proud of myself . next one im getting back is history i think . then theres a chinese compo test tmr . oh sharks . im starting to feel so darn stressed up now . i need to chill . breathe in breathe out . HU XI . you know what . i feel like im totally dying in chinese . at first it started out to be really ok . then i lost my chinese text book and now everythings a blur . sighs . i need to buy a new book . its starting to be a real sick tradition . like it happened last year too lar . i lost my chinese book about like now . but last year it was worst . i lost my chinese workbook too . sharkses . OWELLS . im feeling really tired now . so i guess im going off to snooze . cya guys .

My Best Friend - United Live


Have you heard of the One called Savior?
Have you heard of His perfect Love?
Have you heard of the One in heaven?
Have you heard how He gave His love
Cause I have found this love
And I believe in The Son
Show me Your way

I believe in the One called savior
I believe He's the Risen One
I believe that I'll live forever
I believe that the King will come
Cause I have found this love
And I believe in The Son
Show me Your way

Jesus You are my best friend
You will always be
And nothing will ever change that

Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that
Nothing Will ever change that

man we LOST todays competition . made soo many mistakes . actually i feel that we could have won easily . but wells . who was i to say . and CHERYL DONT CRY ANYMORE . we almost won and we DID try our best . cheer up kays . i think i know why we didnt win . we're like so un united and stuff . like theres always people trying to backstab or bitch about the rest . WE MUST BE UNITED . that means cannot bad mouth people liao . SAD . wells so im admiting i hate people there and i bitch about them . but i just cant take it lar . especially that *bitch lar . so damn ass . TOTALLY HATE her . always try to act guai and hardworking in front of the coaches and teachers . think she soo BIG isit . well she is . literally . owells . i still hate her . ARGH . hmms . tomorrow have auditions . ARH . stress ! im so hoping i get into the cast . but whats the chances . sighs . BUT theres still at least a 1% chance . but its only 1% ! ok im like acting retard . im arguing with myself . sheesh . next thing i'll be wacking myself . BHAM . self prophecy . not good for health . anways . TODAYS valentines day . i soo nice lor . give out soo many presents . WHOOTS . im soo generous . ((: . it was a pretty lonely valentines . who wants to tell people they went for competition on valentines day . sheesh . oh shits . i totally forgot to buy that ass kor of mines birthday present . and his birthday is tomorrow . sharks . nevermind . i give him late present . since he always bully me . HERH . x)) . i feel so childish . I LOVE IT ! look like its back to instant pizza for dinner . mummys not here to buy me delicious food . wahh . but its ok . instant pizza taste nice too . ((: .

OYES . i finally got my new phone . panasonic vs2 . and i changed my number too . its 91186953 . uhuh . the phone is soo much better then my OLD phone . x)) . its pink in colour too . looks so gay . hahas . owells .

oyes . i rawk . i just finished byjes shoes . it so rawks if i dont say so myself . and i only spent one day on it . its SOO NICE . uhuh . MY CREATION . i feel so proud . hmms . so now its confirmed . this march holls the cell is gonna have a pizza party at my house(i think) today so genie again . he gets cuter and cuter everyday . but dont worry its not gonna be like i like him or anything . after all he is younger then me . then after that went to mathildas birthday party . now shes three i think . WHOOTS . so cute lar . i love her to bits . hmms . today godpa and godma came by too . talked with the rents for awhile . sighs . been having cramps and tummy ache the whole day . SUFFERING . had to go to the toilet like four times . but now feeling much better . mum gave me some ginger tea to drink . it tasted horrible . but wells . it worked . hmms . now feeling alittle depressed dunno why either . just feeling depressed . feeling totally blue . well more like black but whatevers . actually felt like going up to the carpark to play bball or just rollarblade . to like chill myself . but then feeling so sick . cannot go . sighs . then still have to do all the homework and project . just feeling so sian . sighs now need to go and eat dinner . see you guys .

Artist: Planet Shakers Song
Title: Reflector

Since i've found your love
I've never needed anything to fill my heart
Even when i fall
You're always there with open arms to pick me up
From the start i knew
No one else could make me feel the way you do
Everyday i want to grow
Just a little bit closer, just a little bit closer

I want to be a reflector
I want to shine with your glory
I want to let the whole world know that you're
Living in me

I want to burn with your fire
Shine my light a little brighter
I want to let the whole world know thatJesus
Lives in me

Big by Planet Shakers

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortress
God, He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do

Big by Planet Shakers

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God's plan for me
Goes beyond my wildest dreams

My God is good
He's so good to me

My God is big
So strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

He's my God and
He is my refuge
He's the rock on which I stand
He's my fortressGod,
He is my life
He holds the oceans in His hand

My God is Big
So Strong so mighty

My God is good
He's so good to me

There's nothing my God cannot do

you ignored me again . why do you always see pass me . looking through me like a nobody . am i only that to you . the little nobody that noone sees . after all that i did for you . i would have thought . you . figured it out . well . at least i now know where my placing is in your life . the very last .

some meaningful story someone sent to me :

as i was walking
down lifes highway
many years ago
i came upon a
sign that read
heavens grocery store
when i got
alittle closer
the doors swung
open wide
and when i came
to myself
i was standing inside
i saw a host of
angels
they were
standing everywhere
one handed me a basket
and said
"my child shop with care"
everything a human needed
was in that grocery store
and what you
could not carry
you could come back for more
first i got patience
love was in that
same row
futher down was
understanding
you need that
everywhere you go
i got a box
or two of wisdom
and faith a bag
or two
and charity of course
i would need some of that too
i couldnt miss the holy ghost
it was all over
the place
and then some strength
and courage to
help me run this race
my basket was getting full
but i remembered
i needed grace
and then i chose
salvation for
salvation was for free
i tried to get enough of that
for you and me
then i started to
the counter
to pay my grocery bill
for i thought i had everything
to do the masters will
as i went up the isle
i saw prayer and
put that in
for i knew when i
stepped outside
i would run into sin
peace and joy were plentiful
the last things
on the shelf
song and praise were
hanging near
so i just helped myself
then i said to the angel
"now how much
do i owe?"
he smiled and said
"just take them
everywhere you go"
again i asked
"really now
how much do i owe?"
"my child" he said
"God paid your bill a long long time ago"

oyes . its DONS BIRTHDAY ! happy birthday don . yes . don . my "tuition teacher" hahas . although ALL the answers he gave were wrong . owells . and FREAK that liang jie . keep spamming me . i open my inbox and half of them is from him . sending some kind if virus . always knew he was up to no good . but kinda miss him now . dunno why . miss shooting back at him . but thats just between you and me .

man those stupid soccer people totally hate them . such posers too . you know what happen . on sat . me jer fab sebas and lea were happily playing bball . then this soccer freaks ( i have nothing against soccer people . its just that those people were really freaks ) just barged in and took over our court . such creeps eh . no excuse me no sharing . just shoving . REALLY . they were like barbarians . uhuh . anyways . enough about those freaks . uhuh . lets talk about i dunno . whats there too talk about . wells yesterday i was sick . down with fever . not too bad . but got to miss school . x)) yays . the macs guy just came . so now im enjoying my dinner . mmm . if only my bro would buzz off . hes trying to steal my fries . again . neeways . today had chinese test . probably gonna fail it . but for my history test i got 12/16 . oyeah . x)) . anyways . something really wierd happened to me today . i been thinking bout genie . cos i havent seen his cute little self for about one week . and was wondering where the hell he went to . then POP . his standing next to me . its freaky you know . but i guess . weell he is a genie . x)) . arent genies supposed to do that . bros trying to steal my fries again . gotta go defend my treasures .

yays . its chinese new year . whoots . not bad buisness this year . got four hundred plus already . and its only the second day . oyeah . later going to some long lost grand aunts house . gonna get somemore hong baos . uhuh . its gonna be so good . now watching some dvd . serenity the name i think . some sci fic show .

man yesterday went to china town . was so crowded lar . and so HOT . had to like move inch by inch lar . gee .

YAYS . i finally updated my links . now its new and precise . and sebas thanks so much . really from the bottom of my heart . not as in the sarcastic way . you really helped me alot . and listened to me . thanks for not . daoing me . like some certain kor i have . SHEESH .

yays . ok today had chinese new year celebrations . wore some indian costume to shool . most people wore indian costumes too . x)) . WHOOTS . and today dont have lessons too . x)) YAYS . hmms . after school went over to sarahs house . watched a movie . white chicks . watched it like five times already . but it still rocks . x)) . later going out to china town i think . SMILE .

sharks sharks sharks fishes . first thing i want to say . those two people are just damn frigging liars . kiss my arse lar . ok . done with that . another first thing . I LOVE YOU GENIE BABY ! YOU ROCK ! x)) . ok now back to sharks sharks sharks fin soup . school is so damn tiring . feel like dying man . their like piling us up with tests and projects . its like one after another lar . CAN DIE . and plus their all almost due on the same week . like next week . and i havent even done a single thing . im so DEAD . (and ahma is SO BLUR) . (ok out of point) . anyways . sheesh . no wonder i havent been blogging for so long . its like been weeks since i touched the computer . ok it FELT like weeks . know the reason why . cos my damn smart ass mutt of my brother has been hogging the comp . hes like sitting there from when he comes back from school to 7 at night . then the rents want to use it . so im stuck with erm . NOTHING . so unfair . life is SO unfair . well it always was . just more now then ever . omfg . i still cant belive it lar . chio bu is like such a romantic freak . he does so much to please *girl* . you could WEEP . HAH . but he still treats me like . this bad person . no ailien from outer space . shit him lar . im nice ok . im not all that bad . you just never give me a chance . gtg . needa do more . EEKS . work . stupid arse teachers . trying to drown us . MURDER . we drink to drown uor sorrow . not do your frigging homework .

yesterday was markus birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY MARKUS ! today is jonathans birthday . HAPPY BIRTHDAY JONATHAN . and next its wennys birthday . wanna guess what im gonna get her . COOKIES . especially the amos variety yeah . x)) . whoots ! i feel so happy . i ruined your life . i told amos your blog wenny . (( x . im so proud of myself . and i do not like c******* . BLAHS . hmms . today dads coming back from china . later going to go to the airport to pick him up . eating dinner at the airport too . yummy . i have a feeling we're eating sushi . yes . be jealous of me . i totally love my class now . we've suddenly become so united . so great . but its like we're being flooded with projects . ARHHS . one after another . IM DROWNING . anyways now im going to the airport . see all the airplanes . whee~

OMFG . IRWIN LIKES CHERYL CHIA !

im so uber duber pissed off . that freaking bitch backstabbed me lar . damn her lar . she the one who suggested it and go amke me do it lar . then when something went wrong go say is my idea . say that i should take resbonsibility and take the full blame . say what i so irresponsible never own up . then some more tell everyone im such a bitch . never ever do anything . always push the blame unto everyone else . bitch lar she . should have known better . next time i'll watch out for her .

yesterday i had training . and you know what i realised . volleyballers can be real bitches sometimes . like what i learnt is . if you aggrevate one of the volleyballers . the whole team's gonna get you . and its soo bad . like the whole training they were asking wether you like this girl . cos they thought she was such a tight bitch . always whining and complaining . and thinking she was so good . honestly to say . i know this girl and i think shes ok . shes actually pretty nice . well thats to me . i guess you gotta be in their shoes to see it their way huh . sighs . i better be prepared . must watch my step . i have no idea when it will be me . hmms . oyes . the guys today were soo sick . in english class the whole row at the back started laughing and screaming . they were all playing with something . wanna guess . condoms . ok so its not that sick . but did they have to play it in english class . sheesh . anyways . today was suppose to have d and t project meeting . in the end we went to plaza sing to take neo prints . then when back to my house . and didnt do anything . sighs . we are SO gonna fail this project . we have like tons of projects this year . can die arhs . then some more all the tourneys starting . PRESSURE . sinking in it man . i just realised something . my brothers a gay . plus he loves being called a gay . what can be more gay then that . sighs . what genes when wrong . i mean i turned up straight . and im dead straight . while my brothers like . GAY . not the happy kind either . and hes always acting the innocent angel bunny . even though hes more like evil underwear gay . like SO OPPOSITE . then some more . hes always finding ways to get on peoples nerves . (ok so its mostly mine) . what does he do . invite his kiddiwinky friends over . and disturb me . they hog the computer . and blast it out loud full volume . when im trying to be a good girl and actually try to study . who can study in an enviroment like that . its no wonder im failing everything . and my mum actually encourages my brother to bring home more friends . and when i bring home friends shes like all black face and stuff . always scolding me in front of them and scolding them too . make me look so small lar . damn pai seh . fish her lar . always so pian xin . always side my brother . " hes your brother . must show more care and concern . must give way to him " what shit lar . care and concern my foot . then whos gonna show me care and concern . dont i get a piece too . no i dont . i dont even get a crumb . while my brother ? he gets a big fat slice . herhs . dont want to talk about him . talk about nicer things . things that dont come from hell . x)) . oyar . today so yj in school again . (this is not that ahma yj) . (its another yj . even shorter and cuter) . (why are all yjs SHORT) . (no offence) . ANYWAY . i didnt know he was in fairfield lar . this year sec 1 . i so lonf never see him in church then see him in school like so wierd . at first couldnt even recognise him lar . like look look look then realise its " OHH ITS HIM " . im soo blur* lar . eeks . you know what . the more i look at him the more he reminds me of ' chio bu ' . i dunno why lar . i find them damn alike . then i also met this girl . she remembered me then call out to me . i like find her really familiar . i think her name is shanny or something . i forgot where i met her . i think it was at a camp or something . x)) . she still remembered me . conclusion . i have my memory SUCKS . anyways gotta go eat some dinner . tummys growling . grrr . rumble rumble .

you know what . i just realized something . im really hopeless . i want to learn how to play the guitar but i dunno how to strum . sheesh .

shit . volleyball tourney is like two days away . thursday . and im still so blur bout the positions and stuff . well its not exactly my fault . that wei hong lar . he put me one place then when i got familiar with it . he go change me again . there like today he change me again lar . dunno what he trying to do lar . trying to make me understand or just making my life misirable . sheesh . and all my team mates damn angry at me lar . everytime i miss the ball theres like five pairs of eyes staring at me . not my fault what . they know i suck at it then they still ask me to go "gang" the ball . dunno what they thinking lar . know that i cannot do it then go ask me to do it then i cannot then they glare at me . sighs . why did i join volleyball . why didnt i become a nice little librarian and stay in the cooling library instead . hmms . at least im still doing all my homework . I MUST NOT REPEAT MY MISTAKE . and not make a reputation for myself . eeEk . well dads gone to guang zhou . hope he buys back lotsa goodies . yummy . x)) . but i musnt gorge myself too much . hmms . ok i made this "pact" two days ago . i promised myself to run 1km everyday . but wells i havent gotton to it . im trying to drag my bro in too . then show him im not that weak . hes weaker . x)) . i know i sound super duper evil . x)) . but its shuang . hahas . anways . gotta go eat my dinner . bros yelling at me . (if you ask me . his beginning to sound more and more like my mum . NOT a good sign)

what happened to us ? we used to be the best of friends . we stood up for each other . when you had problems you'd come to me . when i had problems i'd go to you . you would listen to me and i would listen to you . i was the first one to comfort you and you were the first one to comfort me . we used to talk on the phone for hours and hours . we used to tell each other everything . but ever since that trip . everything changed . you changed . you forgot all about me . you forgot all the times we had together . you even forgot my name . when i talked to you . you never replied . when i tried to be friends you pushed me away . now you're trying to be my friend again . you ask me why cant we be friends . why can't we be the way we used to be . you ask me why we broke friends . i never did break friends . it was all you . have you forgotton the way you treated me . like i was air and nothing to you . now you say its my fault . but do you know how many sleepless nights i've had . do you know how many tears i've shed . i thought we were best friends . but then you turned your back on me . you treated me like a stranger . i trusted you with everything i ever had . i was honest and true with our friendship . you know what . you really dissapointed me . you broke me apart . i thought you were different . i thought we could be friends always . but then after that trip . i dunno what happened . but it was like you had a total change . after that trip our friendship came to an end . you know whats the saddest thing . its not that you changed . it that we became from best friends to strangers .

sighs . now school has started . no more sleeping in and rolling out of the bed at ten oclock . sighs . back with the piles of homework and unduly stress . hmms . i actually went for training yesterday . amazing . then i so long never go for training . so now i everywhere also aching . shits . i still feel that nobody in volleyball likes me . i do try to train hard . but i can never do it . so why actually train at all . hmms . now i beginning to like my class more and more . at first they seemed very cold . brr . but i turns out they're a bunch of warm friendly people . x)) . still missing 1d though . without the sirens it seems awfully quiet . hahas . and the teachers are all pretty nice too . at first thought they very fierce de . look so angry all the time . but it turned out that sarah was right . fierce teachers are nice . well not most of the time . but this exception . yeah . their nice . x)) . at least school turned out good . thats one good thing in my life . x)) . smiles for everyone . and well haven't gotten into any trouble yet . hope that i wont of cos . but wells . you know me . my laziness is gonna kill me one day . but im really gonna work hard this year . since its the streaming year and all . hope that i'll get to the triple science class . i know it sounds out of reach but wells . with determination and hard work anything IS possible rights . hahas . x)) . well at home the situations not bad . parents not screaming . brother not pulling my hair . but its bound to happen . i mean its only the beginning of the year . anything can happen both good and bad . ok but i still need to make my new year resolutions right .

2oo6 new year resolutions
#1. study hard and try my best to get into the triple science class (unrealistic, but wells its my goal)
#2. not piss my parents off too much (piss them off no money, why should i suffer)
#3. try to go for trainings even if it means getting up early when i should be sleeping (gotta kick my lazy butt)
#4. try no to snack in bed, the insects there are starting to bite me (cant sleep properly)
#5. try to be nice and not bitch about other people (this is gonna take all of me)
#6. not getting into any trouble (no time for detention)
#7. practice on my piano (gotta pass some time)

there i did . not like im actually gonna follow them . cmon . new year resolutions are meant to be broken . thats the fun of it all rights . but wells . i'll try my best to fufill them . and talking about pianos . i got a new keyboard . whoots ! and my dad sold off the old piano . and you will never guess how much he sold it for . even i could but it . $60 . can you belive it . sheesh . if you ask me i think the salesman is trying to cheat my dad . but well . it did have alot of spoilt keys . like in every octave there was one key spoilt . so then i had an excuse to not being able to play properly . now . my dad sold off my excuse for a misirable $60 . well . the good thing is that i have a new keyboard . which is so great . and the bad news is that i have to practice . dont get me wrong . its not that i dont like playing the piano . i love it . i love anything that has to do with music . but wells . i dont like playing and practising from a book . i prefer to chose what i like and play by ear or find the scores myself . BUT . theres no hope in that . plus i got another good news . x)) i seem to be full of good news today . whee~ . my dads finally agreed to teach me the drums and guitar . well the guitar im quite familiar with it . but the drums i havent touched for a year . its been sitting in that dusty corner of my house . neglected . you could almost feel sorry for it . but if i know my dad . which i do . looks like im gonna be picking up the instruments by myself . and this is from past experiance . last year i asked him to teach me to play the guitar . he gave me a book . which said . 10 easy lessons to play the guitar . looks like this year his gonna be giving me a new book . 10 easy lessons on how to play the drums . isint it so very kind of him . i think so too . anyways . its getting late and i gotta go sleep . tomorrow theres still school and stuff . needa get up early . arghs .

promise by simple plan

breakdown
i can't take this
i need somewhere to go
i need you
i'm so restless
i don't know what to do

we've had our rough times
fighting all night
and now you're just slipping away

give me this chance
to make the the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

i promise
i won't let you down
if you take my hand tonight
i promise
we'll be just fine this time
if you take my hand tonight

without you i go through the motions
without you it's just not quite the same
without youi don't want to go out
i just want to say

that i'm sick of these fights
i'll let you be right
if it stops you from running away

so give me this chance
to make the wrongs right, to say:
don't walk away

take my hand
i promise

if you take my hand tonight
i won't let you down
take my hand tonight

perfect world by simple plan

i never could have seen this far
i never could have seen this coming
it seems like my worlds falling apart
why is everything so hard
i don't think i can deal
with the things you said
it just won't go away

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world
you'd still be here
and it makes no sense
i can just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all

i used to think that i was strong
until the day it all when wrong
i think i need a miricle to make it through
i wish that i could bring you back
i wish that i could turn back time
cuz i can't let go
i just can't find my way
without you i just can't find my way

i don't know what i should do now
i don't know where i should go
i'm still here waiting for you
i'm lost when you're not around
i need to hold on to you
i just can't let you go

in a perfect world
this could never happen
in a perfect world you still be here
and it makes no sense
i could just pick up the pieces
but to you this means nothing
nothing at all
you feel nothing
nothing at all

ok . before i complain about all the unfotunate events that have happened in my unsignificent life . let me first say HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE ! ok now that im done with that . let me carry on . WHAT IS IT WITH GUYS AND TV PROGRAMS WITH PEOPLE IN HARD PLASTIC SUITS AND UNDERWEAR WORN ON THE OUTSIDE WAY TOO TIGHT FOR THEM . sorry . just HAD to let that out . i just dont see the attraction . really . and those guys in the too-tight-underwear-that-makes-your-stuff-stick-out . doesnt it like suffocate their balls ? wont it affect their fertility rate or something ? i guess you have to try it to know . but i do now that they make loads of money doing that . hmms . but how do they fit it in ? their balls must be pretty small . but with all that butt kicking . i guess it has to be . can you imagine if its actually BIG . i think it would really get into the way yeh . ok next topic . my imaginations getting alittle bit TOO wild . oyes . MR A*** . you little bitch . (ok so his a guy . but who ever said you cant call a guy a bitch . i call my bro that and his not complaining) . ITS ALL YOUR FAULT . you started it . actually no you didnt . it all started with MR D****** . yes . now that brings back all those sweet memories . NOT . yes . i didnt even tell anyone what he told me . i totally didnt . i was being such a good friend . and what do i get in return ? his big blardy mouth telling everybody what i told him . shit him lar . great . and you know when that happen about one year ago . and now its resurfaced again . ok . now whatever good reputation i built up between the year . too put it literally . is all flushed down the toilet bowl (along with my bros brain . euww) . o great . just perfect . just the way i wanted to start the new year with . not . not to mention . i have not finish my holiday homework . which means when i go back to school i be well . just alittle dead . (there IS the possibility that i might finish my homework . but its like the same possibility that the holidays have been lenghtened for another month) . those are my chances . well my chances would have been higher if the teachers didnt try to drown us with homework . i mean for chinese we have to actually finish the whole orca book . now whats with that ?!?! and i have about two days to finish it . not to mention the rest of the homework . things are not looking good . things are not looking good at all . well its not like im not trying . for the whole afternoon ive been reading the stuff on world war one . but its just not easy to you know . digest . takes time . i just dont get it . why dont those people just sit quietly together and play something nice like dollies or chess or something . why did they have to go built those war thingys . and be so wishy washy bout it too . if they had only be nice to each other . then there wouldnt be a world war one . and i wouldnt have to be here studying about it . makes life soo much simpler doesnt it . all you have to do is play nice and try not to bite each others head off . see its soo simple . ok . got to stop my argument here . gotta go study more on those stupid people who couldnt keep their mouths shut . and when to start war . sheesh . what happened to world peace . cya guys takkaire .

I HATE THA FRIGGIN BITCH !

NUMPY BEAR . why are you ignoring / avoiding ME ? herhs . FINE be that way see if i care . to think of all those sick days we had together . and all the times you 'married' and 'divorced' me . it was so great . too bad we won't be in the same class anymore . im going to 2c . bwahwahwahhs . NOT FAIR . and you know what i found out . my bro DESTRYED my drawing . he erase something out of it . actually i didnt even know . but then the ass of him let it out . he is so bad at lying . so very bad . he should learn from me . my grannys maid taught me how to lie since i could talk . had lots and lots of experiance . yep . certainly did . x)) . its finally chirstmas . BUT . whats with you guys . my presents are so UNDER my expectations . i recieved like only what ? two presents so far . cmon . you guys cant be THAT hurting for that thang i call money . a nice ten bucks would have been enough . anyways . i already got your prezzie aileenie . so i got one for aileenie one for weixinie . which is left for the byjeie . no idea how you would pronounce it . but well im on a 'ie'ing streak . so heck . oyeah . you now something me and my bro did that was totally crasy . we bought a can of pink hair spray . and sprayed our whole head pink . ok it wasnt exactly whole head . but it was close . so if on christmas eve you see some freaks with pink hair (plus it was hot pink) (my bro was nuts) that be us . x)) . but it was fun to see peoples reactions . and those reactions were pretty BIG . especially from our relatives . hahas . you should have seen their faces . you could frame it up forever . muahahahaa . im suck an evil freak . yes . i am . cant deny it anymore . x)) . sheesh . im so sickly happy you could puke . dont even ask me why im happy . i have no idea either . sighs . gotta go wash the dishes . there goes my happy mood down the drain with the rest of the left over food .

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE !!!

if only loving someone could be as easy as THAT . life would be so much simpler and happier . <3

ok so im not as tired as i think i am . (((=

a smile is just a mask to hide your sorrow

yes people . IM BACK . i know you guys missed me . awws . anyways the trip to aust was AWESOME . especially the shopping parts . hahas . so in total spent . TEN days there . hahas . bought lots of chocolattes , gums and CLOTHES . hahas . yes wei xin . i bought some more clothes to stuff into my already very stuffed closet . amazing . hahas . i bought 4 skirts . 4 sleeveless . 1 tee . 1 pants . quite alot huh . and i bought like one whole big bag of earings . sheesh . im such a killer for earings . and i brought back about a ton of chocolate and gum . hahas . go on . DROOL . yehs . and guess what . the first person to greet me online was mr bhb . yes . my big hot boobs . and it wasnt to welcome me back either . he asked me to help him scan the holiday worksheets for him . AGAIN . only this time it was science . (the last time it was english) . and the only reason i actually agreed to scan it for him was cos . ... . wells . i didnt even start on it . so like it wasnt as if i was actually giving him answers . i was just giving him blank sheets . and im like SO DEAD . schools starting soon and i havent even started . guess i dont have to patience determination . etc etc . and well to put in a simpler way im LAZY . xPpP . bleahs . i could finish it all in one day . but well . who wants to be stuck doing homework when you can be doing much more great stuff rights . hahas . ok . i shouldnt influence the rest of you guys . hahas . ok im starting to feel tired now . i know ! its only 10 for petes sake . but well australia's 3 hours ahead so its like one in the morning there . yawns . nights then i guess . gotta go dream bout the chocolatte gum shopping AND the nice cooling weather there .

rtist: Hillsong United
Album: Look To You
Track: Tell The World That

Don’t want to stand here and shout Your praise
And walk away and forget Your Name
I’ll stand for you if it’s all I do
Cause there is none that compare to You

Cause all I want in this lifetime is You
And all i want in this whole world is you

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

No longer I but Christ in me
Cause it’s the truth that set me free
How could this world be a better place?
But by thy mercy and by thy grace

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You

Tell the world that Jesus lives
Tell the world that, tell the world that
Tell the world that he died for them
Tell the world that he lives again

C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
C’mon, c’mon we’ll tell the world about You
Tell the world that
Tell the world that
About You

Running After You - Planet Shakers

Your Word is a light unto my path
Your Love guides me through my darkest night
And even though sometimes Your ways i cannot understand
I'll never walk away because my future's in your hands

I don't care what people will say
I'm running after You
I won't turn back and go their way
I'm running after You

Don't matter what may come my way
I'm running after You
It's You i'm following today
'Cause i'm running after you

breakfast = strepsils
lunch = strepsils
tea break = strepsils
dinner = strepsils
supper = strepsils

haixx . why cant people be more understanding and try to at least see points from your view . why do people have to be dog damn selfish . why . that stupid ass brother of mind is one of those people . pushed me off to this comp again . while he uses the better one . its not fair . anyways . dad just called to say that we're going to chinatown to have dinner . yummy . hahas . hmms . this year for christmas . im gonna do something . good . ^ ^ . hahas . instead of only recieving christmas cards . im gonna sent them too . whee~ hahas . sighs . but now life is boring . haii . actually thats and understatement . life is totally boring . since i've been grounded of cos . im not supposed to use the comp to . but whatevers . noones at home . noone will know . noone will care . yumm . now eating instant noodle . hahas . chicken instant noodles . x)) . with fishballs past their expiry date . fishBALLS . expired fishBALLS . hahas . ok im starting to sound sick again . its been a long time since i.ve been talking sick talk . the last time was during school . kays so i miss school . bleahxx . i never thought i would say that . arhhs . yays . hahas i painted my fingernails white . now it looks like i played with correction fluid . and guess what my bro said . i should have painted black . cos is more me . then can sure my true colours . my evilness . SHIT HIM LAR . want to say i evil then say straight foward lar . no need to go one big round just to insult me . sheesh . GEES . cant guys just be straight . why do they always have to go one BIG round . its so fraustrating . and oyars . i had one hell of a freaky dream last night . i dreamt of this guy(and i know this guy) wearing a tutu . its so wierd . hahas . SHIT ! my bro is trying to compete with me . i blast my music he try to blast his louder . but of cos mine will always be louder . since i have the better speakers hahas . i guess thats one of the good advatages of the mac hahas . xPpP . haiis .

upon request . i have decided to dedicate this WHOLE post to Sonjia Yam Li (dash?) Mun . ok i thinks that how you spell it . anyways . this post is gonna be ALL about her greatness . evilness . crappyness . craziness . and well all the other nesses she has . which come to think of it is actually quite alot . so well . wont go into details about it . if not it would take all night . she should be very honoured . im writing this post at 12 something . i stayed THIS late to write this FOR her . so she should be honoured . VERY honoured . its not like i do this often . the only people i ever wrote posts totally dedicated to are mostly to my(idiot dumb freakin as of a)brother . HIM . ahma(though im not supposed to call him that anymore . but whatevers) . and wells . HIM again . so she really should thank me . anyways . back to the main thingie . we're here to talk about sonn . a sweet little girl . who sometimes take(a little too much if you ask me) joy in seeing other peoples life "get interesting" . really . plus shes DAMN crappy . you want to know how crappy . she was the one(with me of cos) who founded the Ass Acadamy . which is as you can tell . where aspiring asses go to to recieve the proper treatment to become full fledged asses . hahas . sounds damn sick . euww . hahas . ok im getting out of point again . you know what . because i've been typing this for you . i just broke a freaking damn nail . i broke a nail for YOU ok . anyways mums nagging me to go off the com . cya .

now its almost 12 midnight . recieved an sms frm HIM . i dunno why he keeps doing that . keep tormenting me . keep hurting me . keep making me cry . i have totally no idea why . everytime i try to forget him . and almost suceed . he appears again . and the whole painful process starts all over again . i just want to hate him . but i cant . i just want to ignore him . but i cant . i just want things to be normal again . i want things to be the way it was before i met him . but i know . because of him . its not possible now . for him i have had many sleepless nights . many happyless days . i have no idea how many times i cried . just because of him . its really painful you know . i just want to forget him . want to get rid of him . but everytime i try i never suceed . its hopeless . everytime he appears again . i cant seem to push him away . no matter how hard i try . i'll just go back to him . only to be rejected once again . it's terrifying how just this one person can cause so much change in my life . its amazing how this one person can inflict so much hurt and pain unto me . i've never felt this weak before . im exhausted . im tired of trying to run away . im tired of hidding in a corner . but i still i cant seem to face him . when im in his presence i just totally ... i dunno . cant seem to find any word to describe it . but even though i keep getting hurt . i still cant help but hope that . i can still be with him . i know its silly of me . or even stupid . but . i dunno . theres just this glimmer of hope . cos when im with him . everything is good again . i just feel great . but without him . theres always a part of me that is empty . always a part of me longing for something . sighs . but what would he want with me . nothing . to him im just a stupid little girl . he sees nothing in me . ok . i sound so stupid and dumb right . i mean . here am i falling hopelessly for this guy who doesnt even see me . ok he does see me . if not why is he always smsing me . especially when i just started to forget him . up he appears again . like some bouncing bunny in a freaking magicians hat . I SO HATE HIM . i really do . i keep telling it to myself . to make me belive it . except . i dont mean it at all . i dont mean it at all .

let me tell you something MR A*** . you are so OBVIOUS . PLEASE lar . you know that you are damn unfaithful . first you like a MS M****** . then in comes in the beautiful the wonderful MS W** . and you dumped MS M****** like hot potato . (but then who can blame you lar MS W** is GREAT) . but you didnt need to get jealousy you know . on her kor too . how cheap can to get . ok im no longer making sense . but whatevers . you know what i am so HOPELESS . i just got beaten up by my brother . my younger brother . ok like i keep talking about how he bullies me right . hmmz . time for things to change a little here . now its my turn to do the bullying . i've been to hopeless useless and all the other lesses . i mean i've been bullied by my TWO year old cousin . that must say something rights . i mean a two year old and a ten year old . and i havent even started metioning friends . ok . IM DETERMINED . to not be a lesses anymore . hahas . ok that sounds sick . anyways today also had tuition . was totally boring . BLEAHSs . next year i think i'll still be continuing with this tuition . BUT . my mums thinking of puting my bro into one to one tuition . HAHS . cos he failed his chinese AGAIN . come to think of it . the only times when he pass his chinese was when he was in pri one and two . hahas . xPp . im being mean again .

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

my brother is a piece of little Sss "cloth" . stupid dumb ass of me went to tuition and forgot to log off the comp . my ass of a brother saw that it was still on . and took that chance to totally mess up everything . dont you just hate him ! KILL HIM ! he is so gonna get it frm me . but not now . with my parents watching and protecting him . i wont even get to lay a finger on one tiny hair of his . BUT when we go to australia . HAH . my parents wont be there to guardian angel him . cos we're going with gramps and they dun care a heck about him and his hairs . HAH . he'll get it then . and besides . my mum "entrusted" me the holiday money . ^^ . lets see how well he survives . MUAHAHAHAA . ok im sounding like the old evil sister . well its more like his the evil one . but his always making me look bad and sound evil . haixx . and dont belive anything he posted on his blog . ITS ALL CRAP . like all the post have a least one sentence that speaks bad of me . ISNT HE EVIL . hahas . hmmz . today in the afternoon had piano . then all we did was sight reading . totally boring lar . and my sight reading SARKS . for every piece i like probably did half of it wrong . BLEAHxx . i so SARK at piano . i've like been playing since about 6 ? and now im only at grade 3 . let me tell you . IM PATHETIC . so pathetic

SOLDIER - HILLSONG UNITED

Can't nobody stop me now
Cause i'm a part of the army now
Praise the Lord is what i'm gonna shout
Even in a crowd i'm gonna sing it loud

You can see what you want to see
But i know what He's done for me
Every day i can feel His power
'cause the spirit of the Lord
He lifts me higher

All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him
All the world, can't stop, can't stop Him now

My God is the strongest tower
Turn to Him in the scary hour
Even when it gets harder now
All i wanna do is just praise Him louder

Keep singing 'til my voice run out
Keep running 'til He lifts me out
Keep singing it cause i can't stop
Oh, i can't stop

You got to give your self up
You got to lose your pride
You got to see it different
Open up your spiritual eyes

The devil wants you beaten
He wants you lying, cheating
But that won't last much longer
My Dad is bigger, stronger

Sound off, 1, 2, sound off, 3, 4
Bring it on down, 1, 2, 3, 4... 1, 2...3, 4

you know what shes such a . ***** . (or acording to sonn , a female chihuahua) . one minute say if i want to go for the dinner must do housework . then i clean up the whole house finish . what she say ? (oyar . happy birthday lorraine and alton) . cannot go . you only thirteen years old . all the rest going all older then you . then some more go untill marina so far . and so late also . so CANNOT . so female chihuahua rights . and she said . anyway im going to be working that night and you have to take care of your brother (who by the way can totally take care of himself . cmon lar his 10 already . not 4 anymore) . and besides . i've been out till later then ten lar . so its so obvious she just doesnt want me to go . instead she wants me to stay at home cook dinner . and do the laundry . parents are so obvious you know . they are so TRANSPARENT . xPp . thank goodness she doesnt know my blog add . if not i be dead . but then i can just tell her my bro's one . then he be dead too ! ! im so evil . bleahxx .

i think i just killed my "dearest ahma" . i think i just murdered him . SORRY AHMA ! not my fault lar . who ask you be such a jerk . keep breaking little girls hearts . ahma . how can you do that . supposed to be my role model lehs . tsktsk . i know lar . i shouldnt have encouraged her to hate you . but what could i do . she say until like so ke lian . so convincing . nvm lar . you wont blame me right . besides you havent been a very good ahma . hahas . anyway a word of warning . you might want to wear extra protection when going out . i think she mentioned something bout going round looking for you with a baseball bat . GOOD LUCK . dun die before cny . i want my hong bao .

ok last night . as in late LATE in the night . at like 12 . i had a very serious talk with sonn . we talked about a very serious subject . the subject on why do parents love tormenting their kids so much . isnt it serious ? so this is going to be a very serious post . im not going to type any laughing words . AT ALL . "why do parents like to make their kids life hell?" . let me give you some equations . to parents "children" = "maids" . "more children" = "more maids" . preety easy equations right . easier then algebra . parents say : "as part of the family you have to do your part . you have do your chores" . ok . so we do our chores . what do our parents do ? they sit down on the comfy couch and watch tv . while we sweep up after them . arent they part of the family too . when they say they are busy and they need you to help cook dinner . what do they really mean ? it probably means : they need to go sleep . and parents are always asking you not to ask too many questions . they have their privacy . yes of course i respect they . but they didnt need to go read my smses and read my mail . wheres my privacy then . they are always saying stuff like . : "you are still young . for goodness sake . you are 13 only . can you stop doing such mature stuff . you are not old enough to do them" . ok so i listen to them . and what do they say ? : "can you stop being so childish . for goodness sake . you are already 13 . can you grow up" . theres just now pleasing them . and YES . there is still more . parents are so damn pian xin . so damn bias . they are always like . : "how can you teach your brother to be like that ? you as and elder must set a good example" . in my opinion . they aint setting that a perfect example too . ok end this post here .

yays ! last night went shopping and bought a blue hoodie ! x) . i still want some more ! i want a pink one . a black one and a white one ! im such a greedy pig . xPp . you know how damn freaking smart my borther is . he woke up at 7 today and started using the comp . i woke up at 10 then he said first come first serve . so i have to use THIS comp . which is ok and stuff . but its a macintosh . so like cant really do much with it . since most of the stuff i want to do doesnt seem to work with this comp . my damn bro took the windows one . slap him lar . *piakpiak* . o yar . now i remember . during camp i actually found someone more bhb then ching sheng . hahas . incredible isnt it . that someone could actually have a bigger ego then his already very big ego . hahas . the only reason i dare to write out ching shengs name is cause he wont take any offense . he takes pride in his big ego . how BIG can he get . ok that sounds sick . but whatever . thats true bhbness . SEE . im not the most bhb person there is . there are soo many people worse then me . but of cos without me the world wouldnt be able to function properly lar . hahas . bleahx . xPp . hmmz . now my bro is like using the other comp to play some war game . and well so far his losing . his been playing since like 7 till now . and he hasnt even won once . says alot huh . hahas . i need someone to pei wo go shopping ! i like saved up to 300 big ones . i still need to go buy christmas presents . hmmz . that means about 200 plus left for me . and wx and byje are supposed to come to my house . that byje lar . busy woman . everytime cannot make it want . and im also supposed to go out with sarah ! but im going off to aust this sat . for like ten days . omg . i still need to do my homework . im like so dead . i still have so many things to do . and PEOPLE said i was so free . hmmz . at least liyan has paid me back my ten bucks . x)) im ten bucks richer . whee~ . hahas . and where got i loan shark arhs . you make me your punching bag havent suan zhang yet . o yeah . im alos the atm machine yar . see . i have soo many jobs . hahas . ok thats lame . im being LAME . and now SPASTIC too . but WHATEVER . im now insanely crasy . if that means anything . xPP .

ok . actually last night i was supposed to post another post instead of the ahma post . but i couldnt take it lar . hahas dun want to talk about him already . yesterday got back frm camp . hahas . it was totally cool lar . met lots of new friends too . too bad it ended so early . actually at first didnt really like it there and stuff . oyeah and fell sick . sighs . everytime i go for camp i ALWAYS fall sick . but then later no more sick so liked it alot better . it would have been alot better if SOMEONE also came . but THAT person just kept making EXCUSES . so whatever . anyway the camp was totally fun . like did alot of stuff . and the sessions were really good . could feel Gods presence there . and all the campers were very friendly and stuff . hahas . who ask YOU never go . huo gai arhs . xPp . yeah last night slept at 1 something lar . then my mum was like nagging cos i was in front fo the comp sneezing and coughing . hahas . she say i dun let everybody else sleep also . so in the end have no choice go to sleep lors . hee~ . yeah . so now im sick . my throat is like so sore . and now my voice is like a guys . anyways . last night xin ask me go read someones blog . and i went to read it . is like SO TOUCHING . sobs . cry for that person arh . the persons heart got broken . i can so understand how he felt lar . but my situation wasnt as bad as his . it was SO SAD . and even though he heart was broken by someone else . he still kept loving her and praying for her . like kept wishing her well . ok so i know the HER person . and i know the her person isnt bad and stuff . cmon lar . i knew her for like half my life . pratically . but is like how could she do that . she broke his heart . after all they've been together too . i thought they would always be together lar . but well . nothing ever lasts forever . and i better then anyone should know that better . hahas . people are always changing . when you think that you know a person really well . later on you will find out that you dont know him at all . when you really begin to think that you are finally a part of his life but suddenly he tells you you are nothing to him . when he opens up to you and you feel that finally he sees you . only later he says nothing and leaves you all alone once again . yeah something like that . the process is long and painful . you feel like yelling at the person to stop hurting you and bashing the person up . yet evertime for even that second that he comes back to you . your love for him just rushes out again . and everytime he leaves you . you cant help but hope he will return even when you know after he returns he will just leave you again . you know that he will never ever love you back . but you just cant stop loveing him . and you just cant stop hoping that he will one day love you the same way you love him . though he probably never will . you cant help wishing for it . its all painful . and it hurts all the time . you always wish he would come back but scared that it will hurt . to love someone is the must hurting thing you can ever do to yourself . but you just cant help it . you just can help loving him . you dont care about the pain . you are willing to suffer for HIM . as long as you get even one secong with him . you're willing to brave through all difficulties just for him . just to bad he doesnt realize anything . to him you are as important as the dirt on his feet . you are not important to him all . too bad i had to go through all that before i realized what happen . just too bad

I CANT BELIVE IT ! MY [short , crappy , naggy] AHMA BROKE A LITTLE INNOCENT GIRLS HEART ! how can you do that lar ahma . you supposed to set a good example le . you do that how i follow you arh . so EVIL . i disown you arh . but then is supposed to be the other way round right . hmmz . AHMA ! ! .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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