YAYS! ive finally posted. hahas. been totally long. bahs. hahas. still sick now. hees. x) been sick for like almost a month. tee. hmms. two weeks since ive been back from hong kong. hahas. the trip was totally great. the shopping and the scene. totally awesome. hahas. bought lotsa dvds. the drama serial stuff. theres "it started with a kiss" "tree of heaven" "silence" "tokyo juliet" and "jumong". hahas. jumong is driving my mum nuts. cause we needed to buy this part one and a part two. then when she watched the last tape she realized it hadnt finished. hahas. theres supposed to be a part three i think. bahs. and in the part one package one of the disc was missing. bahs. anyways. also bought lotsa new junk. hahas. and i bought a pair of BOOTS. have no idea what to do with it now. in hk loads of people were wearing them. but in singapore. dont really see them around. and its kinda stuffy in them. owellss. hahas. x). hmms. christmas is coming! but dont really feel the christmas spirit. actually dont really feel anything. been locked up in the house most of the time! hahas. needa so get out. needa but my cds. the longer i wait the longer the list gets. kaaa. fraid i wont have much money left. bahhs. JM QUICK BRING ME SHOPPING! hahas. yups. still needa go wx house to learn the art of jewellry making. hahas. i seriously want to learn lor. ahh. but always too lazy. i also want to go see my lil cousins. hahas. been pretty long since i visited them. the last time i went he was SOO CUTE. he walks like a frog. hahas. (by the way hes one. so its not like a ten year old walking like a frog. its a one year old walking like a frog. whatever) hahas. and sary. oyar. we gotta SOO meet up. hahas. hmms. right. i think im going to 3d next year. hahas. go take my art! yays. hahas. oyar. fei lun hais jiro can REALLY draw. hahas. i think he was an art student or something. so cool. hes cute. can act. can sing. can draw. can be a total romantic. but funny and carefree at the same time. sorta like a serious joker. (if that is actually possible. hahas.) its like my dream guy! hahas. jk. this post is pretty long huh. well ive got two weeks to stuff in here. bahs. hahas. oright. im really into asian pop right now. hahas. i find that some of the songs (those i have listened to at least) have loads of meaning. hahas. yups. some of them are really touching. totally. and some of them seem to speak exactly what i feel. hahas. its a connection man. and some of the singers are really cute. hahas. nowadays everyone likes western bands. though yar theyre nice and all but their sorta further. like. if thier asian theres these closer bond or something. its not like a far away dream ya know. its sorta closer. wierd thinking huh. owells. thats what i feel. IM WEIRD! bahs. hmms. what else is there. oyar. my dad really wants me to take up a water sport. hms. im for that too. but sports involve hard work. and i dont like hard work. actually any work for that matter. BAHS. stressful. and hes thinking of sending us for some mindchamps thing. it works for studys but the prices are sorta steep. argh. hahas. less then a month till the new year. YEAR 2007! im coming. hahas. watch out. okies. nights. i need to take a rest. if not i ll never get. well. AHH.

小丑魚 (羅志祥)

我在你身邊 游來游去 我不敢出聲 看著他親吻你 眼不能閉
看你的唇印 還在那裡 你隔著玻璃 所以聽不見 我在嘆息
說不出口的秘密 永遠活在小小的世界裡
僅存一點稀薄的氧氣 是否夠我繼續撐下去

這件脫不下來的外衣 還是你喜歡的橘
我不能確定 是否你曾經注意 我的眼淚留在透明的水裡

LADY LADY ONE MORE TRY 再試著了解我的愛
發不出聲音的感慨 選擇作朋友的無奈
LADY LADY ONE MORE TRY 提醒我何時該走開
只要你偶爾想起來 我就住在那片海 (那片海)

等我轉過身 看妳眼神 才知道自己 想得太過天真 傷得太深
愛來的時候 劃破沉悶 我早該知道 妳終究不是我 該愛的人
黑暗中兩眼無神 夜裡不再為我開盞燈
始終不敢將愛說出口 當然沒有資格去競爭

戀愛和失戀同時發生 怪自己枉費青春
我輸得徹底 把臉深埋在水裡面 卻還要演好這一場戲

那片海 眼看就要 讓我愈來愈遠 回不來
從此 你的不愉快 那麼遙遠 誰聽你埋怨
再說一遍 說一遍 YA... 我在你身邊
給你一點點愉快就 會心甘情願回到大海

something amazing happened today. i actually went for training. bah. the first part was gruelling. had to run 1.2 then my knee started hurting again. xP. but i finished. then had to do the cheonging thing. up and down the netball court. but after that it was better. xP. picked loads of balls. then spiked. then match. and coached put me in. i felt like kicking him lar. AHH. of course we lost. duh. i was playing. i think theyre all like mad at me or something. but i guess its kinda my fault too. hahas. since i never go training. note that its not never EVER. which means i do go. OCCASIONALLY. hahas. bahs. but i determined to go. holidays and next year onwards. if not my cca points are so gonna suffer. oyeah! i determined man. hahas. hmms. im thinking of doing something this holls. bahs. oyar. i realized something. my class have no electives. only 7 subjects. BWAHH. i want my ART! not fair. herhs. wehhhh.

the previous post is what people do when thier bored. anyways. YAYS. im gonna be in 3ao7! hahas. its gonna be good no matter what. (x. dads kinda dissapointed that i didnt get into triple. but i dont mind. the class looks nice. hahas. as in the people. duh. bah. i expected i get into doubles anyway. cos my science and maths got b3. bahs. hahas. (x.



Lee Soo Young Bimil (secret) Lyrics - translated

It was you who made my heart dizzy
You are very bad to me
Our love no one knew about,
The one ever she didn’t know about
You made it into nothing
I watched you under my breath
The day you smiled warmly at me
No matter how much I try to forget you
No matter how much I tell myself it’s not love
I can’t erase that warm smile
If we can’t bring back the love that is locked up
It will be a secret between you and me
I hide behind you
And I cry behind you
I wanted to say this in a way no one can understand
That we are in love
Look at me I am behind you
Now tell her everything
No matter how much I cry of pain,
Even if you say you’ll come to me,
I can’t stand your confused eyes
Hurt her, make me happy and just love me
So I won’t be hurt behind you anymore
I’m sorry to her that we couldn’t keep our secret
No matter how much I try to forget
No matter how much I tell myself it’s not love
I can’t erase that warm smile
If we can’t bring back the love that is locked up
It will be a secret between you and me
You are very bad to me

Lee Soo Young Bimil (Secret) Lyrics
Baro gudejyo ne mamul ojirobge manduldon
negen namun nappun gudejyo
amudo narul moruge gudeui gu maljocha moruge
to uriga saranghan gudewaui irun obdon godchorom
sumjugimyo gude barabodon na
tasuhage misojidon gunarihu

Borigo boryodo tolchyonedo sarang anira mironedo
gunal narul boda narul miso jiul su obso
idero gamchyoborin sarangul doryoneryo hedo halsu obdamyon
igon gudewa naui bimiringojyo

Gudedwieso gamanhi gude dwie sumoso
najimaghi nunmul hullijyo
saranghe norul saranghe moduga uishimobnun soriro
marhago shiphojyo uri saranghago issumul
narul bwayo gude dwie issoyo
ije guman toronwayo gunyoege

Aphugo aphaso sorichyodo ijen nege oran marhedo
momchwo mangsorinun gude nunbid gyondilsu obso
gunyorul aphugehe ne maumul
hengboghage hejun noman saranghe
donun gude dwieso aphuji anhge hejwo

Gunyoege mian urimane bimirul
kuthkaji jikhiji mothe

Borigo boryodo tolchyonedo sarang anira mironedo
gunal narul boda narul miso jiul su obso
idero gamchyoborin sarangul doryoneryo hedo halsu obdamyon
igon gudewa naui bimirijyo negen
namun nappun gude

ok. second week of holidays! hahas. still havent really done much of anything. bah. anyways ive watched finish my girl. YAYS. hahas. its quite ok lar. but only the later parts then nicer. bleah. xP . hahas. but who cares. both the male leads were cute! hahas. lee jun ki is really pretty! hahas. and i just love his hair man. sorta like joo ji hun's hair in goong. hahas. anyways theres this really nice mv. lee soo young - grace. its actually a story. and theres like 3 parts. first one is lee soo young - grace. but thats like the preview. then theres lee soo young - grace (part two). thats like more in depth. then the last one is lee soo young - secret. the number 2 one is told by the girlfriend. how she sorta shows grace. and the last one is told by the other girl. how she loves the guy and stuff. like a love triangle of sorts. but its quite nice. can see it on youtube. find for the subbed one. then its easier to understand. i like the last one better. secret. hahas. the lyrics for that one are nicer too. yays. hahas. go see it. its kinda sweet. bahs. im bored. its always like that. everytime the holidays come everything sorta slows down. not that i dont like it. its just kinda gets bored sometimes. bah. anyways dads going to china again. from 12 to 16. then we're going to hong kong from 19 to 24. yups. im saving up already! hahas. ive actually saved up more then 400. uhuh. amazing huh. im impressed with myself too. x). but i had to totally scrimp and save. i had to eat cereal from home for some weeks. and i didnt buy food out. shows how determined i am huh! hahas. x). hmms. havent gone to training yet. been a week already. at least the first two days got reason. i was injured. but then the third and today. hmms. but then its competition now. so i go also mei li you. i mean what do i do there. its not like im actually gonna play. im just gonna watch how good they are and remind myself how much i suck. talk about rubbing salt in the wound. sheesh. sighs. soo im just gonna wait till the compete finish then go. how bout that. sounds good. hahas. and nowadays im learning new languages from the web. hahas. right now its korean and cantonese. bleahs. xP. its not like im actually retaining anything in my brain. but after long it will. right now im just aimlessly compying everything down. hahas. hopeless. ok. i cant stand it anymore. tmr im totally going out. and noones stoping me! yes. hahas. x). im a total basket case.

Our Love Will Always Last (English Version) - Edward Chun
Save the last dance for me OST

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last
And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love can not be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I’ll never leave your side
But I know someday
I’ll be gone, and you’ll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain…

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

Give My Love (English Version) - Edward Chun
* Track 1 of Save the Last Dance for Me OST

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you’re so scared
And I don’t know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won’t change my love
And I can’t do nothing to keep you

Oh, I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain’t here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don’t give doubt a moment’s rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

Jeremiah 29 : 13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

SARANG HAE YO ( I LOVE YOU) - KIM HYUNG SUP

Ee jeu meh suh nal sa rang heh doh dweh ni ah joo jo geu meh ni poom eh suh
nal nam gyuh doo go duh na gan da myun neh mam ah peun guh ja ral ja na...
*sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yo him deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh oo ri sa rang eun jung heh jyuh buh rin oon myung in gul*
nul him deul geh han noon mool ga ji doh ee jen neh ga jun boo ga peul geh yo
neh ga gi beun gun nuh eh geu oo seu mi ji geum nal dal ma it da neun guh
*REPEAT*
ji geum chuh rum man...sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yohim deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh mo deun guh rit go heng bo ga geh man heh jool geh
sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yo him deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh oo ri sa rang eun jung heh jyuh buh rin oon myung ee ya...

HAENG BOK HA GIL BA RAE - LIM HYUNG JOO
Geu noon so geh suh nuh neun doh da reun go seul bo myuh oo ruh suh
geu ruh neun ni ga nuh moo mi wuh suh na doh da ra oh ruh suh
*geu ri wuh nan ni ga nuh moo jit gi doh rok na ah pa dohna joo guh suh doh neh sa rang eu roh nuh heng bo ga gil ba reh*ahh~
hi mi deu ruh doh ra bo myun na guh gi eh neu ri neun gun
geu go seh da nam gyuh doo go on ni noon mool deh moo neh
nah duh nan ja ri eh nuh reun ja dool soo ub suh ee suh dun geh
ee jeh neun nul nuh moo sa rang heh gal soo ub neun ee yoo dweh suh
*REPEAT*

if you guys want to listen to the OST for my sassy girl chun hyang go to this webby :

url: http://www.mjgraphix.com/korean/KDRAMA/CHUNHYANG/chunhyang.htm

(its really nicex) )

ok. now that i have put triple science as my first choice. i have officially ruined my life. but. its kinda wierd you know. i mean. ive been striving to go to triple science. but now when it comes to making the choice. i somehow have this wierd feeling. i dont actually want to go. wierd huh. sighs. anyways. now its like a fifty fifty chance. i know my parents really want me to go to triple science. they keep making all "you know its your choice" but in their hearts they really want me to go. like when i told them i put that as my first choice they were all smiles and goods. i guess i kinda understand. all the cousins and whatever relatives are all like from prestigious schools. they keep coming top in everything. and every family gathering. they'll be like "my sons in raffles. my daughters going there next year too. which school do your children go to?" "oh. my children are in fms." "ohh. really. thats good. wait. what school again?" i guess itd be nice to show them up for abit. make them eat their words. hahas. and i guess the extra education wouldnt be too bad. but then i probably wont be able to do what i want. i want to be an artist. or something like that. something that uses my hands. or creativity. thatd be fun. but rents say it wont earn loads of money unless i become totally good at it. so i think they sorta object. i think they want me to do some really high job or something. hmms. i guess the big question now is whether i want my future planned out for me or do i want to carve out something myself. hmms. ANYWAYS. yays. i watched finish my sassy girl chun hyang. ok so i watched it before. now im just watching it to remember everything hahas. its really REALLY good. a little like goong alittle like full house. hahas. pity it never quite made it to singapore. not many people here know about it. hmms. but its just sooo SWEET. myong rong and chun hyang. AHHS. and jae hee. the guy who played myong rongs quite cute too. hahas. that doesnt hurt now does it. the soundtracks pretty nice too. been listening to it the past few days. hahas. IM GETTING HOOKED. hahas.

my future lies ahead.

ok i really have to thank you sonn. you have REVIVED my sense of humour. and i thought i lost it forever. didnt anyone notice that most of my later posts were all well. BORING. sighs. everybodys growing up. theres noone to talk sick and talk crap to. (besides steff that is. and she says ive been teaching her! well if thats the case. damn im a gd teacher.) people nowadays are getting all mature and sensible. its not fun anymore. hahas. its good to know there are still sick horny people around.

hes forgotton.
i thought we were getting closer.
werent we?
how did we end up in this pathetic state?
where there is no free flow of words,
where the conversation is restrained,
where all signs of emotion is taken away.
noone is comfortable with the other,
noone wants to talk,
noone even wants to meet.
have we wasted all those years?
the bonds?
the togetherness?
whats the use of saying all this.
its still ending.
all tied up in a knot.



life sucks. totally and completely. it either ruins you. or let you enjoy for abit then ruin you. its still the same. all the way round. owells. not gonna dwell on misdwellings anymore. anyways the exams are over. but i havent talked about the post exam activities. they totally rock. ok so far wx been to my hse for a goong marathon. and ywah! we completed it in like 2 days. we totally rawk. uhuh. and there was a slight problem. and we(me actually) being such a smart pig solved it. hahas. i can be a technician or something! blah. anyways now thats over. but i got her hooked unto something else! my sassy girl chun hyun. yeah! i watched it halfway already. its back to sleepless nights. MENG LONG IS SOO CUTE! blah. hahas. oyups. we had a rocking get together-ing. hahas. me muni wx and sary. yups. it was uber duber fun. we kept doing poses and taking photos. hahas. wild wacky and random. ilorve. (x. yups and then gave sary a make over. 3 totally different looks. but all incredibily nice. auwws. yays. ers. then today wx came over and we worked on our 'secret' project. its soo nice. i betcha shed be suprised. (:. hahas. blah. anyway i right now sorta running a short circuit. totally blank. dont feel like thinking of anything. dont feel like doing anything. sighs. 2 more days of school then itll be the holidays. then the new year. im pretty freaked out about the new year. sorta excited but more freaked out then ever. im soo wierd. sighs. but hope i go to doubles. my dads sorta wanting me to take nine subjects. so that i can become an architect. some sort of wierd thing about me designing and building houses. wierd. guess thats where i inherited my wierd-ness from. hahas. oyups. i gonna learn how to make jewellry. yups. im determined. then im gonna dagong. like "chunxiang" hahas. im gonna make loads and loads of money! then i can go overseas to study. then can go with berng. hahas. and we can go share an apartment! yeah man! hahas. blah. im slowing to a crawl now. cya pokes tmr. when we go collect our death sentences from the teachers. hahas. x)

ahh. yays. all the exams are over! whoots! i still cant believe it lar. im 3rd in class and 38th in level. im such a smart pig! hahas. yups . which means i can actually go to triple science. like wow right? hahas. hmms. but im relly confused right now. cos now that i can actually go to triple science. i dunno if i should go to double or triple science. ahh. if i go to trip i'll probably be like the dumbest there. and i'll have to work like super duper hard. and that is not possible. sharks. but if go to double. i might have to work really hard to. but i get to take art! uhuh. so im all flustered up! ahh.

my technolatte likes someone ELSE!

ok . ive made it through 3 days of exams . allhaill ME ! x) hahas . yays like 2 more days till the goong marathon . yups . hahas . im not really all that geared up but someone is ! hahas . owells . just feel like catching up on some snooze nowadays . just feeling so beat man . blah . ahh . sharkshes . hahas . so far for all the papers its been pretty okay lar . yups . was actually able to finish all the papers . so thats good . uhuh . was actually suprised i could finish it . cos ive been totally slacking and crashing last minute . but i guess the crashing does work ! yays . big thanks to muni and steff . hahas . they were the ones who helped me cramp everything (although steff kept heating everything out!) hahas . bleahs . ahh . shes such a butter in . i wasnt even asking her ok . i wasnt even talking to her . and then she kept answering everything and nagging . like what the hell . was i even talking to her . i dont think so . durse .

daniel bedingfield - if you're not the one

If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i can stay in your arms?

man . the exams are like tmr ! ahh . nervour breakdown ! yeah . and i still havent finished studying finished yet . sarks . its not that i dont wanna study too ok . its just that my brain says study my body doesnt react . wierd huh ? hahas . ok . nack to studying ! i'll try really hard too ! xiao zhu and xiao gui rawks man ! ahh . chao shuai !

hanaretakunai.
zutto issho-ni itai.
anata-nashi-ja ikiteke-nai.
anata-no-koto wasure-nai.
itsumo anata-o omotteru
aishiteru.
itsumo suki.

<3

throwing darts.
shooting daggers.

Cascada Everytime We Touch Lyrics

I still hear your voice,
When you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch,
in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness,
But I dont know why,
Without you it's hard to survive

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel estatic,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
We've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall..

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

'every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly,
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

Delirious -- i will offer up my life

i will offer up my life in spirit and truth,
pouring out the oil of love as my worship to You.
in surrender i must give my every part,
Lord, receive the sacrifice of a broken heart.

Jesus, what can i give? what can i bring?
to so faithful a Friend, to so loving a King!
Saviour, what can be said? what can be sung,
as a praise of Your name for the things You have done?
oh my words could not tell, not even in part
of the debt of love that is owed
by this thankful heart.

You deserve my every breath for You've paid the great cost:
giving up Your life to death, even death on a cross.
You took all my shame away, there defeated my sin.
opened up the gates of Heaven, and have beckoned me in.

Jesus, what can i give? what can i bring?
to so faithful a Friend, to so loving a King!
Saviour, what can be said? what can be sung,
as a praise of Your name for the things You have done?
oh my words could not tell, not even in part
of the debt of love that is owed
by this thankful heart.

what can i give?
what can i bring?
what can i sing as an offering, Lord?

what can i give to You? to You?

how to save a life - the fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

Kelly Clarkson Behind These Hazel Eyes Lyrics

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here i am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...(anymore)

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

you know whats the scariest things about school ? its not the schoolwork or exams . nor isit the teachers . its the students . i dunno why . i just feel this way . its like . you dont really know who are your friends . or whos backstabbing you . on the surface everyone is nice . but you never know whats underneath . its kinda scary that way . you dont know who to actually trust or who to beware . and you dunno if those people are whispering about you . it just kind of freaks me out . especially nowadays . you keep seeing people gossiping about one another . and backstabbing each other . and i admit i did it to . but its just wierd . i dont really feel safe anymore for some reason . sighs . if only he was here . he'd be able to cheer me up . he always does that . finds the silver linning . hahas .

oh my gosh . its like two days till exams . arhhhh . total panic meltdown ! 3 2 1 . splosh . i havent revised finished yet ! i know . im like totally SLOW . gotta hurry it up man . sharks . hahas . ok now my prince has a nick name ! techno-latte . wierd huh . i know . cos it was wx who came up with it . hahas . jk . ok today had to cancel maths tuition cos needed to do the home ec sewing thing . damn was she pissed . just called up and spoke to my mum . didnt sound good . anyway i think she mostly complained about di . so thats good . now my mums trashing him out . hahas . x) . lorveit . actually the tt is kinda BLUR . she keeps complaining that di never do his homework . and i never do it too . its just that i seem to be able to answer the questions she ask . hahas . so thats good ! yays . ok . blah . anyway . im soo proud of myself . i sewed finish the pencil case today x) . and its not too bad if i say so myself . hahas . but now my fingertips are all sore . hahas . poked myself with the needle quite a couple of times . damn that needle . owells . needa get back to studying . yes i am hardworkng . xP

i believe in love - tata young
I feel the heat around me
I feel the beat surrounds me
Could this be for real, I wonder
No need for hesitation
It's time for celebration
Will this be the night I've waited for

When angels fall in love
Heaven knows, does it show, oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus]
I believe, I believe in love
And like the stars above
They shine, let it shine over me
Set me free I believe in you
And that our love is true
Oh I believe, I believe

I see that people dancing
Boys and girls romancing
They want this to last forever

Cause underneath the moonlight
Everything is alright
We're reaching our hands up in the air

To where the souls alive
Heaven knows, that it shows oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus]

How could I doubt, what was meant to be
Everything I needed was in front of me
Your healing touch, will lift me up in the sky, so high

[Chorus]

man . i didnt go to school again ! whoots . ok i really shouldnt be happy . but im just cant help it . yays . anyways i'll probably be going to school tmr . so owells . at least today i put the time to good use . i did a little revising . then my bro came home . and he on the movie . so its not my fault ok . i was tempted . uhuh . watched "just my luck" . it was pretty good . anyways . i dont think hes going to school tmr . he STOLE my flu . its like my mums asking him to sit away from me but instead he come nearer . thats pretty obvious right ? hahas . so . then i went to do some more revising . damn am i a hardworking girl . hahas . yups . then gramps came over and gave me 30 bucks . I LOVE YOU GRAMPS ! yeahs . now im richer . hees . x))) . so now here i am . its all pretty boring . but its laid back . sighs . seems like tmr im going back to school . its gonna be hectic ! ahh . xP

talked to him today . he seems so damn distant you know . like hes avoiding me or something . keeps making small talk . sharks . its always sad when i think about it . we used to be soo darn close and now ? we hardly make time for each other . heck . we hardly talk . this is the first time ive actually havent a (short as it is) conversation with him for about a year . really missing those times . sighs . bff . bull .

LOVE starts with a SMILE
Grows with a KISS
and ends with a TEAR.
DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave,
and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
ACTIONS speak louder than words.
The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.
DON'T let the past hold you back,
you're missing the good stuff.
LIFE'S SHORT.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover,
HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL
just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings
God forgot to give us.
When it HURTS to look back,
and you're SCARED to look ahead,
you can look beside you and
your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like STARS
You don't always see them,
but you know they are ALWAYS THERE.
DON'T frown.
You never know who is falling in love with your smile.
What do you do when the only person
who can make you stop crying
is the person who made you cry
Nobody is perfect until
you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life,
but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart.
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had
I guess the most important things
are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...
if you don't, you might break theirs.
Your heart decides whom it likes and
whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....
when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone
with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because
we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much,
or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump
People live, but people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid),
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
If you care about me as much as I care about you,
you will send this back
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say, e
ven if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
My Wish For You
I wish....
You happiness on a cloudy day.
Blue skies to chase your cares away.
A breath of fresh air when you are feeling down.
Anything to get rid of that frown.
A sprinkle of rain,
And a life free of pain.
I wish you warmth from the rays of the sun
And a lifetime of joy and fun.
Just keep your eyes to the sky.
And know I am always nearby.

loads of thanks to the one who sent me this. it shows me you care. x)

a glimpse of hope.

dear lord,
i know ive done wrong.
ive been avoiding you,
neglecting you
even running away from you.
right now,
in my our of need.
im asking you
to help me find
the right path.
help me to find
the way back into your arms.
please grant me strength
and courage,
for me to suceed
give me the knowledge
to tell from the right
and the wrong.
please give me peace
in my heart.
here i am,
kneeling before you,
begging for forgiveness.
please lord,
forgive me.

damn . ive just been so stressed lately . and if i dont show it out i doesnt mean im not ok . like i tell pple im stressed and they just laugh it off . like hell . and if i just you keep quiet . pple are like all . whats wrong with you today . cant a person have an off day . damn im pissed . with like the exams nearing and everything . ahhs . why is everything so darn complicated . why cant we just be like the stone ages . you know . just hunting eating and sleeping . instead of studying so damn hard . just to what ? show pple youre smart ? loads of pple say that its to earn more money . but whats the use of soo much money huh . its just to show off in the end right . duh . why do you think nobody wants to become a cleaner ? they earn money too . its just lesser . damnit . yeah and theres another problem too . everybody seems to be getting closer to God . even that big flirting asshole . hes now singing praises to God . but how do you get closer to him ? ive tried . but ive never been able to actually connect . in my whole life . ive only felt his presence once . and that was at the camp . the race . that was one heck of a spiritual camp . but after that it kind of . i dont know . cooled down ? like now i dont even want to go to church . im actually dreading it . man . whats happening to me .

you have no idea how many nights ive cried myself to sleep. saying to myself that tmr it will be a better day. but it never is. and looks like it never will be.

ok . hah . im right now sick as shit . ok not shit shit . but cha get it . like my voice is totally GONE . now i really sound like a frog . (towhomitmayconcern: imnotafroggie!wherethehelldidjagetthatideafrom?) yups . just came back from the docs . you know whats really freaky ? i was actually dreading to come to school today . cos you know . the scrapbook deadline is today . and ive done zilt about it . so then i fell ill and couldnt come today . its not like i even purposely fell ill like the other time . this time it was pure FATE . i just love that . yays . and the next lit lesson is like on thurs x) . which means i'll get like 1 to 2 more days . yays . well the downside is that i'll have to eat ginger porridge . and i HATE ginger ok . owells . some of the things we have to live with . oyeah . and my dad bought a new plasma ! whoots . a 32 inch . yeah man . the old tv is like almost the same age as me . most likely a few years older . its about time . whoots . if youre happy and you know it clap your hands CLAP CLAP .

dont look at me that way. as if you know me you have no idea what ive been through. so dont think youre all that. when youre actually nothing.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Artist: Savage Garden
Song: Truly Madly Deeply

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning. Yeah..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me.

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna live like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

yays ! hahas . x) now im in school . did i ever tell you how much home econs rocks ? hahas . cos we never have to do anything~ . BLAH . oyes . i found out that my darling a sonny . loves steve IRWIN . wow huh . hahas . x) . yays . im happy today XD . bleah . ok . just too bad its back to school again . and like 3 more weeks till exams . OMG . hahas . i soo need help ok ? anyone interested in giving me free tuition ? yays . bleah . but the holls were pretty good . (: the first three days were at quantan . uhuh . we drived the 8 hours there . most of the whole trip was just driving there and all around . so it was like being in the car the whole time . and it was pretty boring . but kind of fun too . did loads of silly wacky things in the car with didi . yays . took loads of wacky pictures too (: . hahas . yeah . and the beach there was great too . really clean and white and clear . though the tide was pretty strong . yeah . so couldnt really swim there . pity . but the night walk was great . the first night me and my dad took our torch lights and went to the beach . it was pretty dark . so it was kinda spooky . but really exciting too . x) . and we picked loads of shells . we even saw a real live crab ok . hahas . that was pretty cool . cos we were going around with sticks digging at all the crab holes . and boy were there loads of holes . hahas . then suddenly we saw the crab . it was just lying there . pretty freaky . at first we thought it was dead . but when we wanted to pick it up . it suddenly run away . hahas . x) . but it was still pretty cool . hahas . yays . i cant wait for the next trip . uhuh . it'll probably be in nov . to hong kong ! yays . shopping ! AHH! hahas . though its not confirmed yet . but LETS ALL HOPE !

darn. im like totally spacing right now . like in the middle of living and dreaming . so im pratically sleep walking ! hahas . now my lifes really such a BORE . which means im growing old . euww . hahas . people i soo need to get out . x) only one more week till sept holls . WHOOTS ! i'll get to sleep late ! sleep sleep gorgeuos gorgeuos sleep! i really really need it lar . cos i realised im like yawning everyday . and thats got to mean something right . im overworked ! hahas . anyway anyone want to go out during the holls . lets all go SHOPPING . hahas . and im going out of the country too ! ok so its only malaysia . but wells . its something ! we're going to cherating . thats like an 8 hour drive . i still cant belive my dad agreed to drive there for 8 whole hours . well its damn sure im gonna get carsick . but he says its really beautiful there . and theres a beach too . uhuh . i totally looove the beach . im a bona fide beach lover . hahas . and the water there is really clear too . totally cant wait . but its only for 3 days . and plus the 8 hour drive there and back its not much huh . owells . hahas . bleahs xP . anyway schools still a bore . i feel like im just walking through it lar . its like im only half there . and the other half is off somewhere really fantastic . hahas . oyeah . i went to the school musical last sat . hahas . it was really great . suprisingly good . even my dad was suprised . it was loads better then the normal school musicals they make you go . ours had SUBSTANCE ! hahas . and i saw him there . ahh . my *mitang . hahas . he was soo shuai lar . like he was wearing this brown jacket and this shirt and pants . really grown up looking . the "owen" look ! hahas .

ONCE AGAIN

Jesus Christ, I think upon your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times, I wonder at your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

Jesus Christ, I think upon your sacrifice
You became nothing, poured out to death
Many times, I wonder at your gift of life
I'm in that place once again
I'm in that place once again

CHORUS-
And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

Now you are, exalted to the highest place
King of the heavens, where one day I'll bow
But for now, I marvel at this saving grace
I'm full of praise once again
I'm full of praise once again

CHORUS-
And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

mmmm...hm...

And once again I look upon the cross where you died
I'm humbled by your mercy and I'm broken inside
Once again I thank you
Once again I pour out my life

mmmm...hm...

Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross
Thank you for the cross, my friend
Thank you for the cross
you for the cross, my friend
X2

AAHH . im so darn stressed out ok . by like school, family and well everything ! xP . now the schools totally piling us up with homework . its just simply pure murder . just kill us woncha . dont torture us as well ! blah and yeh . about family . blah my family just sucks lar . they totally blame me for every damn thing man . like what am i some sort of human punching bag . fish them lar . you know what im think im gonna be suffering from depression or something . but dontcha worry . i havent done anything serious like cutting myself yet . thinking about it maybe but not actually doing it . cos they leave awful scars . and why would i want to scar my beautiful skin huh . hahas . ok back to bitching and pmsing . oyes . and that bitch . yar i know shes like all for acting cool and stuff . but bitching about me is soo NOT cool ok . hey i treated you with respect . the least you can do is well . treat ME with respect . alls fair now isnt it ? but do you ? NO . ok so since ms bitch you want to play this way . i'll play with you huh . how bout that . tit for tat . so you cant blame me for bitching about you . dont come to me will all that "i thought we were friends" stuff and "how can you do that" thing . cos like HELLO didnt you like did that to me too huh . think about THAT before you open that big ass mouth of yours and try to act pathetic . oh and yes i forgot to tell you . stop trying to act cool and smart . cos you know what . you're actings like shit . you look absoulutely riduculous . and if you think *a* really likes you . you gotta be kidding . hes a damn big flirt . he didnt just flirt with you cos he likes you ok . he can just simply flirt with any stranger on the street . and wanna know how i know . somehow he thinks i take great delight in telling me hes wonderful "stories" . and youre hes latest addition . owells .


p.s this whole post was written in angst . nothing more nothing less . just the wholesome truth . no offense given . but if you feel a need . take that offense . its good for high blood pressure . :)

Make it through the rain

And if you keep falling down don't you dare give in
You will arise safe and sound, so keep pressing on steadfastly
And you'll find what you need to prevail
What you say is

"I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend
And everytime I feel afraid I hold tighter to my faith
And I live one more day and I'll make it through the rain"

you know sometimes when you go through some tough spot in life . when God puts soo many bitches and morons in your life . and you dont know why . i guess God is like possing me a challenge . you know . see how strong i'll be . lifes been pretty bad this pass few weeks . with the whole new term and stuff . i feel totally alienated from this world . like schools been a drag . i just walk through it without much caring . and now i've learnt there really is no TRUSTWORTHY friend out there . like everyone is suddenly backstabbing me . right in front of my face . couldn't they have more decency ? sharks . man im in such a pessismistic mood . but at least family's still the same . nagging and scoldings . my lifes just this whole mess . and now i feel so OUT with my class . dont know why . plus my soo called "good pals" been so distant nowadays . we hardly talk . and its like really sad . maybe that WILL be my life from now on . just dragging it through life . i really can't seem to be bothered anymore . i want to just concentrate on my studies and go home every day . cos when i concentrate on my studies . i wont have to think of other stuff . then i can go home and lock myself in the room . and just space and dream . sometimes i just feel like staying in my room forever you know ? then i wont have to go out to face the cold and cruel world . or maybe i should start that project my mums been nagging me about . then it will distract me from other stuff huh . anyways the new projects about me going to lots of classes . design jewellry . or shoes o . or clothes . then selling it on the web . but of cos we still need to create the website . which is probably gonna take time and money . which come to think of it is good . then i'll earn money . and not have time to think about those bitches and morons . sighs . im such a failure . sharkses .

man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))

man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))

man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))

man . been a pretty long time since i last poste . now with the start of school and everything lifes totally hectic and out of place . hahas . just finished studying for the science test tmr . i actually copied every single slide in the powerpoint given . not bad huh . but i cant remember a single thing . WASTED . my brain is like totally BLANK . some more today had a maths test and had to write a chinese compo . so like everything was rushrushrush . BLAH . its so not fair man . its only like the second week of the term and their already stressing us out . how we gonna make it to the rest of the term ! oh i forgot . today also supposed to do finish the science project . another burden . its like a website on the topic sexuality education . and the websites not bad if i say so myself . well i did most of the work DUH its beautiful . hahas . BHB . ok the urls http://thesexuallyeducated-science.blogspot.com . go check it out . dont bother reading all the stuff . its BORING . just go straight to the pictures . thats where it all lies . x) . you know what . i shoulden't have drank the can of latte . now i cant go to sleep . bwah . well i had to do something to keep me awake . and now i am . blah . i need to space out ! any ideas how to . like for me to unwind and stuff . i've been so darn stressed lately . and i feel like soo im gonna break down . not good . cause everytime that happens . i get pissed so darn easily . and then i either cry or i punch someone . wierd huh . being so opposite and stuff . owells . thats me . hey maybe i have like split personalities or something . that be totally great huh . then i can do that anakin skywalker/darth vader thing . hahas . ok im retartded . but its all that stress and pressure just getting to me ya know . and this year its the streaming year too . its the year that determines your future ! talk about pressure . sheesh . well i want to get into triple sciences . but whats the chances . besides . it be like commiting sucide or something . with my lousy maths and science . oh man . that means i'll probably not end up in the science stream . probably go to arts stream . i guess that be better . i am better in humaninities . i think . owells . thats in the future of about 5 more months . wait . that means i only have fve more months to finals ! this is BAD bad BAD . im gonna FAIL fail FAIL . but then if i have confidence i should be able to do it . along with hard work and determination . if only i can actually find those . they ran away from me along time ago . sharks . CONFIDENCE? HARD WORK? DETERMINATION? where are you guys when i need you . sheesh . ok this whole post is like practically all CRAP . so whatevers . im tired . lalaland beckons . NIGHTS . x))

blahs . im bored now . now doing project at sarah ays house . at least thats what we're supposed to do . bleahs xP . we were all supposed to get here at nine . at now its like what . 10 ? and not everyone is here yet . i should have gotton up later . sarks . plus we havent even started on the project yet . anyways when i took the taxi here . just my luck . the taxi i got stuck in ? yeah . the driver was like a newbie or something . so he didnt know how to get to the place and stuff . then he took me one WHOLE round . all his fault . ARHH . ok i dont think you can even read this cos i think theres something wrong with my blog . o why o why is everything going wrong for me . whats wrong with my life . wahh .

TEDDY GEIGER LYRICS

"You'll Be In My Heart"

Come stop your crying,
It'll be all right
Just take my hand
Hold it tight
I will protect you
From all around you
I will be here don't you cry

For one so small
You seem so strong
My arms will hold you
Keep you safe and warm
This bond between us
Can't be broken
I will be here
Don't you cry

'Cause you'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be here in my heart...
...Always

Why can't they understand
The way we feel
They just don't trust
What they can't explain
I know we're different
But deep inside us
We're not that different at all

And you'll be in my heart
Yes you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Don't listen to them
'Cause what do they know
We need each other
To have, to hold
They'll see in time
I know

When destiny calls you
You must be strong
I may not be with you
But you got to hold on
They'll see in time
I know
We'll show them together!

'Cause you'll be in my heart (Believe me)
You'll be in my heart (I'll be there)
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart (you'll be here in my heart)
You'll be in my heart (I'll be there)
From this day on
Now and forever more
You'll be in my heart

Always!
I'll be with you!
I'll be there for you always
Always and always
Just look over your shoulder
I will be there

TEDDY GEIGER LYRICS

"For You I Will (Confidence)"

Wandering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, I've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room, yeah

That's what I'd do,
That's what I'd do
To get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

ok now i've got a new craze . teddy geiger ! hahas . i love hes songs and he is SOO CUTE . hahas . hes black floppy hair and blue eyes . x) . i know that celebrity crushes are dumb . im mean their total fatasy . but hes totally cute so who cares . hahas . ok back to reality . hmms . dad flew off yesterday to china . he wont be around for like . 2 weeks . so TOTAL FREEDOM . even more freedom when mum goes on call too ! yays . whoots . hee X) . sighs . its like the last week of the school holidays already . BOO . time doesnt fly . it gushes . swoosh . havent even touched my homework . soo dead . actually i think i lost it . sharks . anyways . no me and my bro are like total bike maniacs . we bike everyday . like no kidding okay . x) . we are so perservering and diligent . xD . hahas . yups . and now we've gotten DARKER . so not good . well actually i like it . but my mum says its BAD for the skin . blah . xP . wahh . schools coming back into my life . no more sleeping at 1 and getting up at ll . sighs . okays gotta go mourn the last weeks of school .

BACKSTREET BOYS LYRICS

"I Want It That Way"

Yeah

You are my fire
The one desire
Believe when I say
I want it that way

But we are two worlds apart
Can't reach to your heart
When you say
That I want it that way

[Chorus:]
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Am I your fire
Your one desire
Yes I know it's too late
But I want it that way

[Chorus]

Now I can see that we're falling apart
From the way that it used to be, yeah
No matter the distance
I want you to know
That deep down inside of me...

You are my fire
The one desire
You are
You are, you are, you are

Don't wanna hear you say
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Ain't nothin' but a mistake
(Don't wanna hear you say)
I never wanna hear you say
I want it that way

Tell me why
Ain't nothin' but a heartache
Tell me why
Ain't nothin but a mistake
Tell me why
I never wanna hear you say
(Don't wanna hear you say it)
I want it that way
I want it that way

time really flies huh . already the second week of the holidays have past . sad . my whole holidays have been soo totally freaking boring . i have no social life at all . thats why im here blogging about my boring life . the whole two weeks all i did was eat , sleep , watch tv , and go cycling . the only time i went out was for tuition and cycling . other then that . nope nothing nada zip . man im so hopelessly screwed up .how come everyones out there having fun except well . ME ? am i actually missing something out there ? SARKS ! anyway since my social life is now oficially dead . so that means i'll probably be blogging more and watching more tv . and probably watch the world cup like an old geezer . story of my life . pathetic . man im sooo longing to get out there . plus tmr im actually going out with my family . im turning into a family kid ! not that its bad or anything . just . you know . sad and boring . owells . so please if you see some action anywhere tell me . im starting to fall asleep . NIGHTS and SWEET DREAMS . oyar . happy birthday tong jit !

Spirit: Stallion of the Cimarron Soundtrack Lyrics

Artist: Bryan Adams Lyrics
Song: Nothing I've Ever Known Lyrics

Right now I feel - just like a leaf on a breeze
Who knows where it's blowin'
Who knows where it's goin'
I find myself somewhere I - I never thought I'd be
Going round in circles
Thinking about you and me
How do I expalin it when I don't know what to say
What do I do now - so much has changed

Nothing I have ever known - has made me feel this way
Nothing I have ever seen - has made me want to stay
but here I am - ready for you
I'm turnin', I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'
Hey - I've never felt somethin's so strong - oh no
I'ts like nothing I've ever known

Now you're the one I'm looking for
You're the one I need
You're the one that gives me - a reason to believe
Following a star - has lead to where you are
It feels so stong now - this can't be wrong now

Reflection by Christina Aguilera

Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where I have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that I'm
Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be free to fly
That burns with a need to know the reason why
Why must we all conceal
What we think
How we feel
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?

I won't pretend that I'm
Someone else
For all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

ok . the two "family" days have past . and now my life is back to its old boring state . BLAH . on the first day . as in monday . we first went to IMM for brunch . then went to my dad's cafe . then finally went ice skating ! whoots . hahas . it was super cold there plus my ice skating SUCKS . im ok at rollarbladding but somehow on ice i cant really . wells . MOVE . and soo much for the theory "ice sakting is just the same as rollarbladding . bullshit . and after that episode of falling slipping and slidding . we went to watch x'men :last stance .real great movie . but real sad too . why did everyone have to DIE . sadistic . after that we went home . the ice skating must have been really tiring . cos when i hit the bed i just zonked out . completely . so the next day . today . first we had to go to shenton way cos the rents needed to bank in some money . then we went to east coast to bike . 3 hours straight ok . no joke . so now my butt really hurts . ouch . anyway we biked from one end to the other then back and back again . hahas . was really fun . especially seeing my bro falling all over the place . the best part was at the ending . when he banged into this girl who looked like she was totally enjoying her day . untill bro banged into her that is . owells . hahas . im totally sadistic . x) . oyeah . and my mum was totally suprised that i could bike so well . sorta . well what didja expect . all those forced trips to pulau ubin had to have its advatages . it was so totally great . i didnt want to stop . you know the feeling when you get on a bike and just whiz away . with the wind blowing in your face . with totally nothing to worry about . its such a great feeling . after we had dinner . dad bought bro a bike . sort of a early birthday present three months early . and when we got home my dad INSISTED on a test run to see if everything worked and such . yeah . and since my "poor" brother was filled with cuts and bruises . guess who had to test ride it . me of cos . the usual guinea pig . and you know after your butt really hurts after 3 hours of continues riding . and when you are forced after that to ride on a bike which by the way had a sit that was totally hard . as in rock hard . you really can feel pretty pissed . and when you get back totally trashed . your mum expects you to do the laundry . and you just cannt help feeling . well . more pissed . so altogether i feel really pissed . that about sums it all up . anyway . tmr gonna be back to the same boring days . having tuition and reading books that talk about EXCITING experiances . *** . x) . im not sick nor dirty . i just like interesting books that talk about life . ok . im really bushed out right now . so byes . takkaires good night .

been a darn long time since i last posted huh . been pretty busy here and there . anyway now noone ever comes here . its DULLSVILLE ! boo . hoo . anyway WHO NEEDS THEM ! HERH ! soo . now its the holidays now ! whoots . oh the good days are here . one week of the holidays gone already . pretty fast . and now the rents have been nagging about more tuition . GREAT . totally GREAT . anyway . soo today went to pulau ubin with my brother dad and his friends . didnt actually want to go . i mean who wants to wake up at 6 just to cycle your butt numb at some ulu island . plus my dad had to sent hes car for servicing . soo guess who had to spent bout 1 hour in the mrt today . plus it was really crowded . with all the people going to work and all . (from buona vista to pasir ris! no kidding okay) . AND when we reached there we had to walk and walk and walk . round and round and round . and then when we reached there . we had to cycle and cycle and cylce . the downhills werent too bad . i like those . but those uphills . gods . can DIE arh . plus it rained in the middle of it too . it RAINED and RAINED and RAINED . and we got stuck in this shrimp farm with a "holey" roof . and when we were about al half DRENCHED . we had to ride our soaking bikes in the mud back to the port . let me tell you . WHO NEEDS THAT ! but then the later part almost made it all worth it . ALMOST . we had this totally yummy seafood lunch . prawns crabs clamps . you name it . its there . shesh . im SUCH A PIG . owells . must while live to eat then rather to eat to live right ? TOTALLY ! soo here am i now sitting here with a big cushion tied to my ass . cos it hurts soo damn SOO DAMN FREAKING much . i must really learn how to stand on the bike and ride . im sure those who can do that never have sore aching butts . and its not my fault i totally find that place creepy . i mean . thats where i learn how to ride ! 2 years ago . so im a little late in learning how to ride . so laugh already . anyway . you'll never belive how i learnt how to ride . its the most evil and cruel way ever . my family and another family when there to holiday . and then they all rented bikes . and gave me this two wheeled bike . i was all like . i have totally no idea how to ride this THING . and you ask me to ride it . then they all mounted and rode off . leaving poor me all by myself with that stupid darn bike . so i got scared and just tried to ride . and i DID IT . amazing huh . i know . but it really is unfair . all the other little children have their daddys helping them on their cutsie little bikes balancing them and all . and my daddy ? rode off in a double biker with my bro . is life fair ? so thats my little story . and its soo true . i still have the sars to prove it (of cos i fell alot . what did you expect ? my first ride ever and in the wilderness to . its not like im the bike genius or anything ) . anyways to day it was payback time . it was my brothers turn ! except not totally the same experiance . he rode a double with my dad again . but while we were eating . (he really HATES seafood) . he was out there TRYING to ride a bike . in the rain no less . xD . im just soo glad . anyway i think this post is long enough for a welcome back post no ? i think it is . so cya .

what is the meaning of life ? what is the meaning of love ? what is the meaning of family ? to me this has no meaning at all . whats life really . its just eating and sleeping . whats love . theres no such thing as love . whats family . just people who are related to you . sighs .

YAY ! have 6c chalet from 14 - 16 june (: . so funn . anyways i want to complain about boys now . about their stupid "face" and their cannot cry policy . i mean guys are still human right . they should be able to cry . if you're sad you cry . if you're touched you cry . WHATS THEIR PROBLEM . they never cry . they always bottle it all inside . it really irritates me . i dunno why . it just . especially if theres this guy . who happens to be a close friend . he got hes heart really broken . but he refuses to cry . he wont even cry in front of me . and i've known him for what . 5 years ? come on . then he hides it all inside . so it really pains me to see my good friend like that you know . i just feel like yelling at him and asking him to just break down and cry . he'll feel much MUCH better then now won't he . but NO he just sits there staring into space and sulks . don't guys just know that if you don't let your emotions out . you'll just be hurting yourself . and its NOT GOOD FOR HEALTH . your health and my health . so just LET IT ALL OUT . sheesh . guys .

today school ended early so went to west mall with sarah and muni . x)) . went walking round and round . bought a cd and a little stuffed doggy ! hehes . i want the 3 doors down - seventeen cd ! if anyone sees it . BUY FOR ME . x)) . anyway when i came home with the dog and played with it . my dad saw me and he was like . you have a depressed childhood right . YES TOTALLY . its all his fault anyway . he wont get me a dog . so i have to be just satisfied with a toy dog . owells . im getting hungry again . fridge here i comee eee ee e ...

3 DOORS DOWN LYRICS-"It's Not Me"

Nevermind the face that you put on
In front of me
And nevermind the pain
You've put me ..through

Cause every little thing you say
And every little thing you do
It makes me doubt all of this

What are you waiting for?

[Chorus:]
Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me

Forget about the trip that you've been on
Or so it seems
Nevermind the lies that you told, my tears

Cause every little thing you said
And every little thing you did
You made me doubt all of this

Is that what your waiting for?

[Chorus:]
Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me
Was meant for me
Was meant for me
Yeah, Yeahhhhhh

Look what you did
Is this who you wanted me to be?
Well it's not me

Look what you did
Is this how you wanted it to be?
This life you gave away
Was meant for me
I don't know how I can face this pain
I'll keep it inside so you can't see
I don't think I can go on this way, 'cause it's not me

hehes . its been a pretty long time since i last blogged huh . been pretty busy . plus i was lazy too . so well yeah . just came back from camp . it was totally awesome (: . i know you guys are totally jealous . there you are mugging for exams and here i am enjoying myself at camp . its that soo great (: . yes i know . im evil . just cant help it huh . anyway as usual was sick at camp . thats always the case . during the last day everyone comes down with cramps and tummyaches . why . cos never shit there . well . who wants too . all that mud and shit floating around . it could just make you puke . yes it was that bad . anyways enough about camp . you know what im DYING to do . SHOPPING! . (x . yes . im suddenly having this urge to splurge and splurge . i know it isnt GOOD . but who cares . (x . plus holidays are coming in three weeks time ! and during that time for one week my dad will be in china . that means there'll be noone home ((: . especially when mum has night shift too . TOTAL HAVOC . nice (: . you know what i noticed . my brother has nice hair and nice eyes . not fair . why cant he give them to me . his hair is all soft and silky (softer and silkier then MINE) and he has this big sad puppy dod eyes . let me tell you . when he gives you those lassie eyes . you'll give him ANYTHING . which is totally not right . but i guess when god gave out the genes . he gave my bro the better looking genes whereas he gave me the smarts yeah ? its totally true kay . my brothers like this cute little teddy bear without the brain . uhuh . to put it simply . hes just not smart . as in . DUMB . im not smart too . but at least im SMARTER . you know what new deed my bro did . he failed two subjects . one maths (his soo called "best" subject) . and the other you'll never belive . english . i take is as an amazing feet . english being the language he speaks and communicates . amazing isnt it . hahas . i know . i sound darn evil . putting down my bro . but well hes been totally irritating me so well . fairs fair . HA HA HA . anyway gotta go watch my tv (: . been 4 days since i watched . amazing i didnt die or something . cya .

Everytime We Touch - Cascada

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me,
I still feel your touch in my dreams. (my dreams)
Forgive me my weakness,
but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle,
your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry. (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I feel the static,
and everytime we kiss,
I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go,
want you in my life.
'Cause everytime we touch,
I get this feeling,
and everytime we kiss,
I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last,
need you by my side.

Bad Day - Daniel Powter

Where is the moment we need at the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to grey
They tell me your passion's gone away
And I don't need no carryin' on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You're faking a smile with the coffee to go
You tell me your life's been way off line
You're falling to pieces everytime
And I don't need no carryin' on

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Well you need a blue sky holiday
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don't need no carryin' on

You had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don't lie
You're coming back down and you really don't mind
You had a bad day

(Oh.. Holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I'm not wrong

(yeah...)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You're taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don't know
You tell me don't lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You've seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

WAKAKAKAKAKA . im in music class now . everyones slacking as usual . x)) . WHOOTS ! anyways i finished what i was suposed to do already . so im not exactly in the wrong . bleahs . xP .

why did you leave me alone to fend for myself . have you forgotton the promises you made . how you said you would never leave me and always be by my side . but then you went . you ran away . without a word . without an apology . what could you be thinking . how do you think i felt . have you ever thought about me . i trusted you with all i had . i gave you my everything . i really . really loved you . im sure you loved me too . you used to always tell me . you used to make me feel safe . make me feel happy . when i was with you . i felt that nothing in the world would ever go wrong again . but why are you ignoring me now . even avoiding me . cant you see my tears . feel my sadness . why did you leave me . did i not do good enough . but if you want to go . just go . why do you always turn back . make me love you again . only to leave the next . do you know how much pain you cost me . how much suffering . you keep breaking my heart . keep saying you'll never leave . keep promising me hope . but you never could keep your promises could you . you never did . so just leave me alone . dont turn back . dont come to me . i dont want to see your face . dont want to hear your voice . cos if i do . i know i'll just love you again . i cant take it anymore . so please . please . just let me go . leave .










i love you. i really do. thats why i want you to leave. and if you love me too. do it.

why did you leave me alone to fend for myself . have you forgotton the promises you made . how you said you would never leave me and always be by my side . but then you went . you ran away . without a word . without an apology . what could you be thinking . how do you think i felt . have you ever thought about me . i trusted you with all i had . i gave you my everything . i really . really loved you . im sure you loved me too . you used to always tell me . you used to make me feel safe . make me feel happy . when i was with you . i felt that nothing in the world would ever go wrong again . but why are you ignoring me now . even avoiding me . cant you see my tears . feel my sadness . why did you leave me . did i not do good enough . but if you want to go . just go . why do you always turn back . make me love you again . only to leave the next . do you know how much pain you cost me . how much suffering . you keep breaking my heart . keep saying you'll never leave . keep promising me hope . but you never could keep your promises could you . you never did . so just leave me alone . dont turn back . dont come to me . i dont want to see your face . dont want to hear your voice . cos if i do . i know i'll just love you again . i cant take it anymore . so please . please . just let me go . leave .










'i love you. i really do. thats why i want you to leave. and if you love me too. do it.'

sighs . feeling so tired so sleepy . so stressed . i want to just sleep continously and never get up . when i sleep theres no problems . theres no worries . it feels good . not to have anything on my mind . but when i wake up . it all begins . its not fair . why do i have to go through all this . i just want to sleep forever . in a faeriland . free of all thoughts . i just feel so tired . i feel like ending it all . but i know i cant . cos it would be just too foolish . but i just wish ... sighs . GET ME OUT OF HERE .


happy easter day. happy birthday marcus and magdeline.

Who Am I
by Casting Crowns
album: Casting Crowns (2003)

Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the Bright and Morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours

Who am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love and watch me rise again
Who am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are

I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
Vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours

I am Yours
Whom shall I fear
Whom shall I fear
'Cause I am Yours
I am Yours

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JASMINE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME
yays . its my birthday . and it did NOT start of well . i woke up late . went late for church . noone in church even remembered my birthday . not even my cell members . sad case . plus . was having stomach cramps the whole day . then had to go to the columbarium . (in case you dunno whats THAT . its where the dead are) . cos its tomb sweeping day . i know . im not a buddhist and stuff . but my grandmas there plus my dads gramps . so had to go visit . and boy was it smokey . but its really renovated alot since the last time i went there . then after that went to sakae sushi for my birthday dinner . and you know whats the worst thing ever . cos my wisdom tooth is coming out . so my whole mouth is like in PAIN . and i cant eat anything . NOT FAIR . and i love sushi sooo much . so i just sat there . with my tummy cramps and toothache . looking at people eat my favourite food . AHH . but aleast the present were all worth it . ok the list of presents soo far :
1.) one BIG famous amos cookie; wenny
2.) poohbear and chocs; steffi
3.) $20; mummy and daddy
4.) $50; gong gong
5.) $50; ahkong and mama
...
thats about it for now . hope i get more tmr(: . hehes . im greedy . ouch . my teeth is still hurting me . waaaa . very pain lar . even drink water also pain . sighs . AHHH .

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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