ok. been posting loads today. hahas. x). owells. what to do. totally BORED stiff. lately my parents have been talking bout what the monsters we were when we were small. apparently im the monster. my brothers the sleeping angel. xP. BAHS. she said i pulled her hair. talked back at her and fought with her. at such a tender age too. im soo proud of myself. xD. well i only remember that when in kindergarden in was in the principals office practically the whole time. and in my class there were two gangs. and i was the gang leader too. hahas. who would have known huh. i remember we were always sitting on the cabinet. after the teacher strictly told us not too. hms. cant really believe that was me. hahas. xD. and we often fought and quarrel. nothing to serious. just pulling hair and stealing erasers. BLEAHS. xpp. oyar. and i was really a tomboy too. hahas. always playing with the guys. come to think of it. my two best pals were guys. the names i cant really remember. but i think it was john and benedict. john was one year older then us. and benedict was in my class. we sat the same bus back home. hahas. cant really remember much bout them now though. never kept in contact. wonder what happened to them. heard that they went to henry park primary school. hmms. wonder if they still remember me. hahas. x)). me and ben were ALWAYS quarelling. john was the peacemaker. after john left. me and ben hardly hanged out either. hms. but i do remember bens maid. she wore this sick thick black sun glasses. and spat saliva when she talked. hahas. i always complained to my granma that gramps had a saliva-ish girlfriend. xP. BAHS. yups. and last time when you took the bus there was this card thingy right. before the ez link. and i was always bending it. then one of them told me that if i kept bending it all the money would drop out. hahas. i really believed it then lar. xP. fool me. really want to get in contact with them. it sure would be fun meeting up with kindy friends. see how theyve changed and stuff. but i dunno where to start. AHH. owells. have no info on them either. only knew that we studied in the pap kindy at ghim moh. took the 92 (then m1 i think) bus back. i got off first. both of them stayed at the same condo it think. ben had a maid who spat saliva and wore sick black sunglasses. and john was the big brotherish peace maker. some stuff to start on huh. sighs. WHERE ARE YOU GUYS?

you know whats the problems with adults. well theres loads. but one of the thing that totally irks me the most is that they speak about us children in front of said children like we re not there. they'll be all blahblahblah. all the things (mostly bad) are said right through our ears. do they think we dont listen or something. are we like deaf? i dont think soo. so please. if you BIG people wanna talk about us SMALL people. please at least do it where we cant hear you. thats like polite you know. sheesh.

why do you keep pushing me away
dont you know that i just want to know everything detail of you
i want to know your likes and dislikes
your dreams and aspirations
your feelings and thoughts
even your complains and fears
but you keep putting up this facade
of a happy smiling face
i want to know the face behind that mask
i will always be willing to listen
but will you ever be willing to talk
i know youre more then just jokes and laughter
you have your troubles and sadness
even if you never share
i can feel it
but just remember this
i'll always be waiting
for that revealing moment of truth

today i woke up tired and cold. but i was happy. EXTREMELY HAPPY! x)
this must be what the call love. x)




yays. its christmas! merry christmas! x)). hahas. last night went for the christmas eve service. quite boring. but the skit and dance was nice. k.How was dancing! kakas. cant belive my brother recognised him. he was like isnt that guy from your cluster. i was pretty suprised lor (not at the dancing at my brother remembering. they have a total number of one meeting together) hms. hahas. x). but altogether it was ok. left at about 12.15. so today got up late. didnt go for christmas service. i so should have gone lar. christmas service is the best place to collect christmas presents. hahas. BAHS. xD. anyway you ll never believe how i spent christmas. at wcp in the rain and mud. cos my mums working today so my dad had this totally crasy idea of pitching a tent there and cooking dinner. xP. at first it was pretty ok and everything. hot. alittle stuffy. but not that muddy. then the rain came. i brought my bike there and me and my bike were covered in mud. sheesh. then went back to the tent for dinner. all of us squished inside (mud and all) and sat around the steamboat thingy waiting for our noodles to boil. hahas. it was quite fun lar. in a muddy cold mosquito bitten way. xPpP. wakakakas. oyar. my sushi turned out not too bad lor. hahas. too bad didnt take a picture of it. BLEAHS. even managed to make something like the california maki. you know. with the rice on the outside. pretty li hai right. hahas. but was kinda rushed and by the time we got there most of the people were full. wasted. for them that is. xP. then went to AUNTS house. hahas. finally saw her BOYFRIEND. xP. ok lar. not that cute. not that tall. tad nerdy. but totally intelligent. didnt look 18 lar. looks same age as you AUNT. hahas. but decent enough i guess. xP. thats where i dumped the other half box of sushi. hahas. the other box dumped at church. HEE. its sorta my christmas present to the church huh. xD. hmms. anyone know where to buy nail art stuff. like nail glue and gems. and that long piece thing. hahas. that sounds sick. nvm. xP. i wanna do someones nails. who wants to be my guinea pig? x)). my arts good ok. nothing much to worry. hahas. wx! i want to learn the jewellry thingy! havent gone your house yet. BAHS. hahas. im too lazy to get out of the house. xP. one of my new year resoulutions is definitely to be less lazy. lets hope it works. hahas. x)

two more days till christmas! whoots. tmrs gonna be a busy day. gotta make my sushi. i still cant believe it that they would actually trust me to make it. owells. other wierder stuff has happened before. hahas. x). i realised something. me and my brother are sick bugs. every few months we ll be sick at least once. and every few years we ll be seriously sick at least once. like that time my brother almost fried hes brains and that time i kept fainting non stop. its like soo wierd. and we re never soo sick till there is no cure. just sick enough to miss loads of school. hmms. actually thats not such a bad thing is it. owells. my parents say we were brought up on medicine. hahas. name one and we ve probably taken in before. hahas. x)). hms. gotta go eat now. feeling totally hungry. didnt eat lunch. just had late breakfast. BAHS. xPpP.

if i could wish for anything in the world.
i d wish we never met.



click that the above to see the lyrics for qian nian lei by tank. its the ending song for tian wai fei xian.

xiao zhu;

zaizai;

xiao zhu;

zaizai;


i realised something. zaizai and xiao zhu look tons alike right. and i dont think its just me. especially when they squint and do that eye bag thing. hmms. theres this saying that for everyone one person. there are seven in the world that look alike. i think their one of the lookalikes. doncha? hmms. pretty freaky if you ask me. BAHS. x)

man. the wierdest thing happened today. i was on my way back home in this taxi. then the taxi uncle asked me if i could speak chinese. the i said uh yar. then he said oh. he thought i was korean or something. wierd huh. do i not look chinese to you. do i not look local. this is bad. hahas. owells. x). anyways watched finish silence. i was right. it was a sad ending. zaizai died. SOO SAD. but somehow it didnt really give out this sad vibe. but rather kind of a xin fu vibe. owells. thats what i felt. overall it was pretty good. the actings pretty good too. and the storyline isnt too. farout? or somthing. BAHs. oyar. i so want to be like TANK. hahas. not as in want to be. but AHH. like as acomplished i guess. on wiki it said at the age of 21 he composed more then 200 songs. and even though hes sorta a newbie. hes songs are EVERYWHERE. pretty smart eh. and hes songs are pretty great too. hahas. x). oyar. that day i was talking about all those great singers and composers. i cant believe i forgot ashin from mayday. he rocks too. hahas. and mayday rocks too. YAYS. they are totally talented. hahas. actually i dont really have to go into music. i just want to be really good in something. have people recognise your specialty or something. soo far its zilch though. have no idea what im really good in. but im ok in everything though. soo my dad says since im ok in everything i just have to pick something to specialise in and work at it. but its tough. i dunno what to pick. sighs. even if i do pick something im bound to give up for something later on. AHHE. hahas. x). just have to wait for that special calling huh. hahas. well there was always that saying you only have one life soo must do your up most with it. dont live to regret. or something like that. i guess im sorta doing that now. trying all kinds of stuff. maybe not really trying all of it. mostly just thinking bout trying it. hahas. x). BAHS. hms. today went to that japanese supermarket at liang court. gonna make sushi for the christmas eve party. everyones gonna get poisoned man. hahas. xD. then they wont eat it and i ll get it all to myself. mwahah. hms. i have this sudden craving for sashimi and cold soba. YUMMS lar. mms.

hey. its been quite a long time since i posted one of those posts huh. it feels good. you just have to let it out every once in awhile ya know. bottling up could be bad for you. would suck to die cos you didnt go ahead a scream and someone who totally deserved it. totally. x). sheesh. totally boreded out now. xmas is coming and the years ending. hey. i know. im gonna make a list of people to thank yar. hahas. when im bored i do anything. and this proves it.

LIST OF PEOPLE TO THANK (OR OTHER WISE)
#o1. WEIXIN; for being the BEST pal ever x). hahas. thanks alot this year. helpful or not you were mostly there. thanks. LOADS. LUVING YA!
#o2. MUNI; thanks for sticking out with me. hahas. had loads of crazy fun xP. luv ya loads too.
#o3. STEFF; for being ever soo SICK and making me laugh. it was totally fun. and thanks for encouraging me and all. i didnt really teach you to be soo sick. you always were. x))
#o4. SARY; for being soo cute and blur. hahas. and bringing life to everything. SARYS THE CUTEST. auwws. xP. all the notes! ahh. xPpP.
#o5. BAS; yes. right now youre FAR AWAY. in a totally different galaxy xP. but i still LOVE YA. stop being such a bastard yar. x)).
#o6. SONN; for being the totally shitiest crappiest person ever! love our little titatats. hahas. CRUSH CONTROLER. x)
#o7. CHERYL; for being YOU. hahas. and planning all our get rid of 'erhem" missions. it didnt always work but it was GREAT FUN~! hahas.
#o8. CHOLEE; for letting me bully you. but youre really great. so nice and good that i feel like ARHBISHING you. hahas. x) jk.
#o9. M.S; you are so the BEST. thanks for being my 'counseller' and stuff. always guiding me and not killing me when i pester you. x).
#1o. MR PIG; killing me with your oh-so-lame sense of humor. and your 'im bored im bored' chanting. but it was loads of crazy stuff huh. YAYS. x))
#11. JM; thanks for well. hms. EVERYTHING! hahas. x). dont play so much computer games next time.
#12. AMANDA LIM; ok we werent THAT close. but youre great fun to be with. BIG BOOMS OF LAUGHTER! owells. hahas.
#13. JEYUN; for walking home with me! hahas.
#14. AMANDA LOCK; thanks for the crazy smses. hahas. and all the FLOWERS! x))
#15. DADA & MATTY; for being just oh so CUTE. love you both to bits! x) love me too yar.
#16. FAB; for being just the same and not changing. stop being such a flirt yar. it frightens the girls away. sometimes at least. hahas. x) love ya!
#17. THE ONE; thanks for not bring me soo much pain. but for actually making me stronger. i ll never make the same mistakes again.
#18. THE ASS; pain in the ass none the less. you thought me not to trust anyone so easily anymore. so thanks. i guess.
#19. THE BITCH; no thanks to you. cant think of anything. sorry. but hope you ll be less of a bitch next year.
#2o. THE BROTHER; for quarelling endlessly with me and being just so damn irritating and unreasonable. to bad i still have to love you. cos youre my brother. SHIT.

list completed! yays. exactly 20 people. hahas. if ive missed anyone give me a kick and tell me who you are yar. and the list is in no particular order. just the first one to come up to mind gets first place. (WX. feel honoured!) owells. hahas. x)). gotta go to sleep soon. feeling totally bushed today for no reason. hahas. NIGHTS.

you know some people are just soo damn RUDE. dont thier parents ever teach you that being polite is actually a basic nessesity. like HELLO. even if its just that little small girl. its still a small HUMAN girl. a HUMAN girl with FEELINGS. so cant you just show that little bit of courtesy. what the hell is wrong with this people lar. people this days are just the soo uped. how would you like it if someone treated you like the SHIT that you actually are. HUH. even though you see the shit in people there are some occasions where youre SUPPOSED to keep the shit to yourself. thats like BASIC. hello. just pretending wont do you no harm. or just lie like you always do. it comes as a second nature to you anyway. no biggie. just that you ll DEFINITELY go to hell when you die. i mean. all those lies you tell are ... alot. so its ok to tell one more lie. wont make a difference for you. after all you are. hopelessly done for. so theres no use of holding back anymore HUH. you think youre all high and mighty and all that dontcha. if you could just hear the stuff thats being passed all around. behind your back and in your face. just that you totally REFUSE to hear it. its not really insulting you or anything. not that much. take it as construtive critism. and pretend that we actually care for you. that way. itd be much much easier to swallow. no use getting choked up on somethings that soo obviously true is there. no there isnt. we really are trying to help you know. so that we wont actually have to kill you and dirty our clean hands. so to stop a murder. i really hope you do change. if not. im not responsible for what happens next. after all. its YOUR own fault. owells. nothing i can do about it. i ll be sorry for your death though. there be noone else to insult and help. even though i nice and all. i cant keep the rest for really murdering you. so please help yourself and us. change or get lost. you might not know it. but im really trying to forgive you and stuff. but its truly getting harder by the minute. and it doubles everytime we meet. its sad. i know. but. this is my cry for help. to help you and me. so dont take it to heart yar. both you and me know what youve done. and we all know how we feel. so owells.




thats misa from death note 2. and i have made up my mind. that is the hairstyle i want. its soo the NICE. x). i ll cut it when i have the time and courage. BAHS. xPpP. today went to the doctors for a review again. got another mc! x) until 6 january. YAYS. hahas. gonna go for a xray tmr though. hahas. i gonna be radio activated! alienised. hahas. owells. right. i can play the first part of the tian wai fei xian opening song on the piano! yays. im SOO smart. jk. it sounds kinda wierd though. but im working on it. hms. it actually sounds kind of EERIE. like spooky eerie. hahas. xD. owells. im just gonna try harder then. JIAYOO! oyar. the rain came back! i thought it was gonna be sunny the whole day. on account of the weather in the morning. but now it RAINED. and i love it. hahas. soo damply comforting. BLAHS. xPpP. im such a sadist huh. oyar i just delivered my xmas cards. YAYS. i love writing xmas cards. hahas. anyone want one? just pass me your address and i ll DELIGHTFULLY write one for you. hahas. im nuts. AHHEE. x))

wei yi ge ren er feng kuang.
dao di you she me cuo.
ai ben lai shi ru ci de feng kuang.
bu jiang dao li.
bu jiang yi qi.
na cai ke yi jiao zhe ai.
er wo jiu she wei ai er feng kuang.
de xiao nu hai.

Song Title: 静静的
Jing Jing De
Silently
(SILENCE OST: Opening Theme Song)

Artist: 庾澄庆
Harlem Yu/Yu Cheng Qing


空气里躲着什么
Kong qi li duo zhe shen me
What’s hidden in the air?

有点浪漫的心动
You dian lang man de xin dong
There’s a hint of romantic feeling

我偷偷看你
Wo tou tou kan ni
I’m looking at you secretly

你也偷偷看我
Ni ye tou tou kan wo
You’re also secretly looking at me

世界上多了什么
Shi jie shang duo le shen me
Seems like the world’s getting something more

好像变得很不同
Hao xiang bian de hen bu tong
It doesn’t feel the same anymore

站在你身边
Zhan zai ni shen bian
Standing by your side

这一切都好宽阔
Zhe yi qie dou hao kuan kuo
All become so much bigger

我还在等着你
Wo hai zai deng zhe ni
I’m still waiting for you

静静的爱我
Jing jing de ai wo
To love me silently

只要有你陪我
Zhi yao you ni pei wo
So long as you’re by my side

静静的就足够
Jing jing de jiu zu gou
Silently is good enough
你也在等着我
Ni ye zai deng zhe wo
You’re also waiting for

静静的温柔
Jing jing de wen rou
My silent tenderness

就这样手牵手
Jiu zhe yang shou qian shou
Holding hands like this

静静的看着天空
Jing jing de kan zhe tian kong
Silently gazing at the sky

心里面藏着什么
Xin li mian cang zhe shen me
What’s hidden inside this heart?

你只想要让我懂
Ni zhi xiang yao rang wo dong
You are only trying to let me understand

原来我的梦
Yuan lai wo de meng
It turns out that my dream

也就是你的梦
Ye jiu shi ni de meng
Is also yours

哦
Wo~
Oh~

纸条上写了什么
Zhi tiao shang xie le shen me
What’s written on this piece of paper?

我好想要听你说
Wo hao xiang yao ting ni shuo
How I wish I could hear you say

让字字句句
Rang zi zi ju ju
Let every word, every sentence

充满我们的笑容
Chong man wo men de xiao rong
Is filled with our smiles

永远要记得那天彼此许下的承诺
Yong yuan yao ji de na tian bi ci xu xia de cheng nuo
Forever we shall remember of the promise we made to each other on that day

瞬间点亮的火花
Shun jian dian liang de huo hua
That sudden, bright spark

是我们的拥有
Shi wo men de yong you
Belongs to us

静静的手牵手
Jing jing de shou qian shou
Holding hands silently

是最简单的梦
Shi zui jian dan de meng
Is the simplest dream

yays. finally revived my mp3. hahas. after soo many months. suprised it hasnt actually died yet. kakas. xP. anyway gotta get it ready for xmas. even bought new headphones. hahas. at those totally boring xmas partys. thats the PERFECT time for it. x)). hms. but im thinking of getting a new one. i want the ipod 80GB. yes. ok now that ive made up my mind. i just have to find someone to buy it for me. any takers? x). hms. i also one the nikon coolpix. and a new phone. hms. three out of one. anyone one also can. PLEASE. hee~ oyar. won some money today. 150 bucks. x)). for some good progress award. smart huh. hahas. looks like im gonna get some pocket money yar. x)). then maybe i can get one of the 'above'. kakas. xP. owells. its been raining for quite afew days already. some damper. but i like it. I LOVE IT WHEN IT RAINS. hahas. x). yays. its all cold and deary. and everyone would have to stay in their houses. it could actually be quite COSY! yups. ms.

what in the world is wrong with parents. especially mothers. sometimes i get the feeling that im not my mums 'qing sheng'. stupid i know. but i cant seem to help it lar. like when i get good results she doesnt even praise me. not even a nod. half the time she doesnt listen to me. AT ALL. like i can be just talking and talking and she ll just walk off. like show some respect can. im still a human ya know. then everytime also pian xing that BRAT. keep saying i never ever help out in the house. excuse me but what did the BRAT do? 'oh he goes to tuition' what crap is that. im helping by NOT going to tuition. wont you be saving money then. HERH. crap lar. say what everytime watch tv dont study. dont YOU do the same. watch watch. i dont watch also you will watch what. crap lar. this is called hypocrisy man. saying one thing and doing another. DAMN man.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7nXdU1mI9jk&feature=PlayList&p=2C4E384A4B40F317&index=0

thats where to find tian liang yi hou. man. hu ge can really sing. nice lar. the lyrics also nice. hahas. TANK rocks. all his songs are so the GOOD. hahas. owells. its quite touching rights? i love the chorus. speaks to me. hahas. owells. its late. nights now.

tian liang yi hou - hu ge

ke zhan qian na yi zuo qiao | huo xu wo men dou dao bu liao
mei you li you zai ku xiao | zhi shi jian ou
fan fu lian xi de yong bao | tian liang yi hou jiu kan bu dao
bu neng pei ni dao cang lao | pei ni dao lao
wo bu zhi dao | hai you shui neng xiang wo rang ni yi kao
wo zhi xi wang | ni hui lao ji wo de hao

tian liang yi hou | jiu zai ye qian bu dao ni de shou
tian liang yi hou | wo hui man man li kai ni de meng
bu gan shuo | zai jian jiu shi wu fa shuo chu kou

tian liang yi hou | liu zhu ni gai yong she me li you
tian liang yi hou | liu xia de jiu zhi sheng xia ji mo
bie nan guo | suo you de tong dou you wo mo mo cheng shou

wo yi wei wo zuo de dao | bao zhe ni dao tian huang di lao
ai ni wo gan dao jiao au | she me dou hao
qi dai zhe ni de yong bao | ye xu zhe ji hui tai miao xiao
liu zhe yan lei ku zhe xiao | wo zhe me tao
kong dang de meng | zhe me xie wo men de cong yi hou
wo jin zhe shou | kan bu dao zai jian de jin tou

tian liang yi hou | jiu zai ye qian bu dao ni de shou
tian liang yi hou | wo hui man man li kai ni de meng
bu gan shuo | zai jian jiu shi wu fa shuo chu kou

tian liang yi hou | liu zhu ni gai yong she me li you
tian liang yi hou | liu xia de jiu zhi sheng xia ji mo
bie nan guo | suo you de tong dou you wo mo mo cheng shou

tian liang yi hou | jiu zai ye qian bu dao ni de shou
tian liang yi hou | wo hui man man li kai ni de meng
bu gan shuo | zai jian jiu shi wu fa shuo chu kou

oh man. how come my blog cant seem to read chinese! ahh. ok anyways that song was tian liang yi hou sang by hu ge. song by TANK. i ll put int the han yu pin yin later. that ones the character then below it is the english translation. listening to it now on youtube. totally nice and touchy-woozy feelings. hahas. SOO want to buy the OST for tian wai fei xian. anyone interested in giving me that as a xmas pressie. AHH. hahas. x). right now im really pei-fuING songwriters. hahas. i want to learn how to create songs too. like TANK. jay chou. JJ lin. they all can write songs and sing. TALENTED lar. writing songs is so cool. you get paid thousands for one song. and you get to put your thoughts and feelings into it. like all your anger happyness sadness. and EVERYTHING. and earn money for it too. hahas. that would be totally great! hahas. another crazy idea. BAHS. oyar. heard some cousin (AUNT!) gots a boyfriend. hahas. to be truly honest. im SHOCKED. for words. well its not only me. everyone else too. hahas. not that shes bad or anything. she just seems to be the introvert type ya know. owells. my aunt (GRANAUNT!) is like totally worried for her. cos shes always been in a girls school. and now she goes to JC which is mixed. (15 yrs old. SPECIAL programme) so she says its like releasing a nun from the nunnery or something. hahas. but shes smart. so im sure she wont be that easily cheated (the guys in JC2!) hahas. owells. not my problem. xP. okays gonna do the han yu pin yin thing now.

tian liang yi hou - hu ge

客栈前那一座桥 或许我们都到不了
The Bridge in front of the restaurant, maybe we both can’t get there
没有理由在苦笑 只是煎熬
A bitter laugh with no reason, only torture
反复练习的拥抱 天亮以后就看不到
The embrace that I’ve practices for many times, we can’t see after sunrise
不能陪你到苍老 陪你到老
Can’t stay by yours side until you’re old, until you’re old
我不知道 还有谁能像我让你依靠
I don’t know, who else can you rely on like me
我只希望 你会牢记我的好
I only hope, you will remember how good I am

天亮以后 就再也牵不到你的手
After sunrise, I can never hold your hand anymore
天亮以后 我会慢慢离开你的梦
After sunrise, I will gradually leave your dream
不敢说 再见就是无法说出口
I don’t dare to say, I just can’t say goodbye

天亮以后 留住你该用什么理由
After sunrise, what reason do I have to make you stay
天亮以后 留下的就只剩下寂寞
After sunrise, the only thing left is loneliness
别难过 所有的痛都由我默默承受
Don’t be sad, let all the pain be silently withstood by me

我以为我做得到 抱着你到天荒地老
I thought I would be able to achieve it, hold you until the sky and earth turn old
爱你我感到骄傲 什么都好
Loving you, I feel proud, anything is good
期待着你的拥抱 也许这机会太渺小
Anticipating your embrace, maybe the chances are too slim
流着眼泪苦着笑 我怎么逃
Pouring tears with a bitter smile, how am I to escape?
空荡的梦 怎么写我们的从今以后
How can an empty dream write our “from now on”
握紧着手 看不到再见的尽头
Holding your hand tight, we cannot see the end of goodbye

*Repeat*

天亮以后 就再也牵不到你的手
天亮以后 我会慢慢离开你的梦
不敢说 再见就是无法说出口

天亮以后 留住你该用什么理由
天亮以后 留下的就只剩下寂寞
别难过 所有的痛都由我默默承受

man. im totally and absolutely confused. just about life and practically everthing else. for some reason i keep thinking of the game the cell girls played during the last sunday with yueyi and alissa. 'in ten years time' or something. i keep on wondering what and where i ll be in ten years time. its sorta wierd and thats a pretty long time too. but i just cant seem to help it. hms. i ll be 24 then. older. living by myself? working as a ...? married? hms. its just SOO wierd you know. then again would i actually be alive? not that im saying i ll die early or anything. but theres that possibility. hms. its something not really worth thinking and worrying at this stage. but theres just that spark of ...? ok dunno what thats called. but AHH. what the hell. this is all just worthless worrying lar. i dont even have any idea of what i want to become. hms. anyway life right now is a total bore. its starting to lose its spark. theres no more expectations or aspirations. hms. downer. sighs. owells enough of this down thing. hahas. right now listening to korean songs. hahas. theres a thing about listening to songs which you dont understand. kakas. xPpP. owells. im still gona try to understand though. x). trying really hard too. x))). hahas. but im bound to give up soon. wonder why. but i never could finish something throughly. hahas. like the cantonese and japanese. and right now korean i guess. im such a lazy pig. AHH. x)

iyllaertnawuoyybymedis.
tsujgnidlohemniruoysmradnaginlletemginhtyrevesithgirla.

i have just set off on my next conquest! this time its a drama called SILENCE. its pretty ok. im only on the second disc (theres seven in total). hahas. its actually pretty touching. yays. hahas. hms. really feel like going for a swim. bwahhs. but cant. bads. or a night cycle might be nice to. hahas. owells. this is gonna be a short post. my dads been nagging like hell. I CANT STAND IT. kakas. what to do. cant wait till i go out to live on my own. AUSTRALIA WAIT FOR ME! xPpP.

eternal summer OST - ming bai

ni shuo ni gan jue bu dui
xin qing hen huai
wo wu fa kong zhi
lei shui liu xia lai
mo ming de nan guo
shi qing xu zuo sui
mei you shui cuo shui dui
xu yao an wei
bu neng li kai

wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
chu le ni
wo de ai wo ke qu dai
wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
mei you ren
rang wo ru ci de yi lai

ni shou ni gan jue bu dui
xin qing hen huai
wo wu fa kong zhi
lei shui liu xia lai
mo ming de nan guo
shi qing xu zuo sui
mei you shui cuo shui dui
xu yao an wei
bu neng li kai

wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
chu le ni
wo de ai wo ke qu dai
wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
mei you ren
rang wo ru ci de yi lai

wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
chu le ni
wo de ai wo ke qu dai
wo zhi shi yao ni ming bai
ming bai wo dui ni de ai
mei you ren
rang wo ru ci de yi lai

yin wei ni
wo de ai
yong yuan cun zai

yays. hahas. just finished watching tokyo juliet. it was totally great lar. hahas. ariel lin is really such a great actress. shes also in the "good friend" mv by SHOW. hahas. AWESOOME. cut my hair today too. bahs. not much difference though. hahas. you know what now then i realise the guy who acted "jonathan" in eternal summer is the same guy who acted as "ah si" in tokyo juliet. wakaka. hes SOO CUTE. xP. didnt watch eternal summer though. anyways its a movie bout this guy called jonathan (bryant chang) who likes his good friend, shane(joseph chang). and theres this new girl, carrie(kate yeung) who likes jonathan. then shane likes her. and she sorta likes shane. and its all totally confusing. blahblahblah. but the soundtrack is REALLY good. that i heard. so its kinda a gay movie. the morals arent there but the acting is good. hahas. i WANT to watch. bwahhs. hahas. so now i got another soundtrack to buy. only heard snips of it. hahas. but its still GOOD. bahs. man my list gets longer and longer. hahas. lovely. hms. right. my dads going off to china again in jan next year. YAYS. freedom again. this time heard its gona be quite long. cos hes going to china taiwan and korea. hahas. cool huh. i want to go too. would totally love to go travelling all around the world. see the different sights and sounds! hahas. hmms. yesterday went to the doctors again. he gave me ANOTHER mc. untill 23rd december. yays. x))). but i feel bad about not going for training. xP. but i was never good in it anyway. kakas. if i were to do a sport i would definetly pick some water sport. not sure why but i totally love the water. and my parents feel that im good in the water too. so thats good. hahas. but i dont really like competing in the water. it sorta defies the concept of being in water ya know. waters about peace. xP. hahas. i sound kinda deep there right. cant believe i actually said that too. BWAHSSS. hahas. hmms i was watching the mv for eternal summer (search it in youtube) then there was this small boy. i think he looks like the small liang from tokyo juliet. hms. hahas. could be. kakakss. totally blanked now. xPpP

yays. finally watch ISWAK finish. soo proud of myself. hmph. x)). hahas. im writing christmas cards now. i ve already written 11. hahas. my hands are all achy breaky. bahs. christmas cards are so much better then ecards. well thats what i feel. when you write something for someone its cos you care. and I CARE. hahas. owells. bahs. right now im hooked up on tokyo juliet. chuns acting was soso lar. but ariels getting really good. hahas. shes the best! bahs. but who cares chun can sing! hahas. yups. fahrenheits pretty good actually. hahas. hmms. anyways. tokyo juliets all about these fashion designers and their troubles blahblahblah. hahas. but its a really nice show though. x)). makes me think bout what i want to be in the future. xP. definitely not some office job. i want a job thats totally fun and creative. maybe fashion. but its a hard place to survive. :(. hms. or maybe an air stewardess. i ll get to fly all over. awesome. hms. still sick now though. bahs. anyways nights! need to sleep early to recover! hahas.

Fei Ni Mo Shu - Ariel Lin (tokyo juliet OST)

dong de rang wo wei xiao de ren
zai mei you shei bi ni you tian fen
qing yi chuang jin wo de xin men
ming tian de mei meng ni wan cheng

zheng ge yu zhou hao han wu bian de jin tou
mei ke miao xiao xing qiu quan dou rao zhe ni zou

ai wo fei ni mo shu
wo zhi yuan shou hu you ni gei wo de xing fu
ai wo fei ni mo shu
ye xu hui xiao zhe ku dan na ren shi ni suo yi bu pa ku

dong de rang wo liu lei de ren
gei de gan dong yi ding shi zui shen
zai wo xin zhong liu xia shang hen
ni tong shi dian liang le xing chen

zheng ge yu zhou hao han wu bian de jin tou
mei ke miao xiao xing qiu quan dou rao zhe ni zou

ai wo fei ni mo shu
wo zhi yuan shou hu you ni gei wo de xing fu
ai wo fei ni mo shu
ye xu hui xiao zhe ku dan na ren shi ni suo yi bu pa ku

kan na me duo xiang yu
pian pian zhi he ni tian zao di she ban chan sheng qi ji
wo wo xin de feng xi
wo xiang chu le ni ren shei ye wu fa tian bu zhe kong xu

ai wo fei ni mo shu
wo zhi yuan shou hu you ni gei wo de xing fu
ai wo fei ni mo shu
ye xu hui xiao zhe ku dan na ren shi ni suo yi bu pa ku

dan na ren shi ni suo yi bu pa ku

Zhi Dui Ni You Gan Jue - Fahrenheit and Hebe (tokyo juliet OST)

wu jie de yan shen xin xiang hai di zhen
guang shi cai ce wo shi yu bu zhen
you dian fan ren yo you dian mi ren

lan man mei tian fen fan ying you ci dun
bu gou jin shen hua tiao cuo yan se
dan hen mao dun xi huan ni de ben

wei xiao zai mei zai tian bu shi ni de dou bu te bie
yan lei zai ku zai xian you ni an wei you shi qing tian
gao de zai jin zai tie shao le yong bao jiu suan tai yuan
quan shi jie zhi dui ni you gan jue

wan de zai feng zai ye ni deng yi yan wo jiu shou lian
ma lu zai kuan zai yuan zhi yao ni qian jiu hen an quan
wo hui you guai you nian wen rou ti tie jue bu fu yan
wo zhi due ni you gan jue

ti tie que nian ren ai ku que wen shun
you shi tian zhen you shi hen xie e
dui ni shua hen jiu shi she bu de

qing xi shou yang fen rang nao dai ping heng
yao ni xian shen dong zuo man tun tun
zhe me cheng ren wo fei ni bu ke

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English Translation
I Only Have Feeling For You - Fahrenheit & Hebe

the eyes show no explanation the heart is like needles under the sea
just a guess i can't eat
it's a bit annoying and a bit mesmerizing

hopeless romantics have a slow reaction
aren't careful enough and pick the wrong colored flower
but they're really fickle and like your silliness anyway

no matter how beautiful and sweet your smile, if it's not yours, it is not special at all
no matter how bitter and salty my tears, if you are the one consoling me, it's a bright day
no matter how close are you to me, without hugs, it still seems far away
i only have feelings for you in this world

no matter how playful i am i'll be good if you stare at me
no matter how far or wide the road if you're holding my hand, it'll be safe
i'll be good and be close to you i'll be gentle and caring, without even thinking about it
I only have feelings for you

concerned but close to you likes to cry but obeying
sometimes naive sometimes evil but i just cannot be cruel to you
please have more nutrients so your brain can be balanced
i want you to appear but your actions are slow
how am i supposed to admit that i want you and no one else

Ni Feng - Garden Sister (tokyo juliet OST)

yong du te de guan jian zi yan
wo sou xun zhe shi jie
zhi xiang zao dao yi ge kong jian
bu zhi wo de xuan yan

meng xiang yi cun fang xu duo
bu zai hu bei shei tou zou
wo zhi you yi ge gan shou
wo zhen de zhen de wo zhen de shou shang guo

hei ye ni feng xi yu
meng xiang re qing he wo
tong ku que you tian mi
Why should I care at all?
At all...

wo bu quan bie ren de kan fa
que you xiang bei ren kan qian
ni zhong shi shuo chu le mang dian
you shi hou zhen shi tao yan

xin xin yi cun fang le xu duo
ni bu zai que bu hao guo
wo zhi you yi ge gan shou
ni zhen de zhen de ni zhen de gou ai wo

hei ye ni feng xi yu
meng xiang re qing he wo
tong ku que you tian mi
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

mei ge xuan ze lu kou
wo jiu tiao nan de lu zou
mei ci ni fang qi wo
wo tu ran hui tou ni que hai gen zhe wo

hei ye ni feng xi yu
meng xiang re qing he wo
tong ku que you tian mi
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

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english translation
Upwind - Garden Sister


Using a unique keyword
I search the world
I want to find a space
To decorate my announcement



There are a lot of stored dreams
Don't care if someone steals them
I only feel one thing
I'm really, really, really hurt



The dark night, the upwind, the drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care at all?
At all...



I don't care what others think
But at the same time, I want to be seen
You always point out the blindspot
Sometimes, it's really annoying



There are a lot of stored confidence
Don't feel good if you are not here
I only feel one thing
You really, really, really love me



The dark night, the upwind, the drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...



At every crossroad
I always choose the most difficult path
Everytime you give up on me
When I look back you are still behind me



The dark night, the upwind, the drizzling rain
The dream, the passion, and me
Painful, yet sweet
Why should I care, Why should I care,
Why should I care at all? At all...

you make me want to fall in love - F.I.R

Hanyu Pinyin
wo yuan yong wo you xian de yong yuan
jiao huan cen jing kuai le de lei shui
chuan yue bu an di dai chuan yue suo you wei xian
lai dao ni sheng bian

wo you shi hou xiang xin mei li de yu yan
que you bu xiang ru ci xin gan qing yuan
zhi dao ni de chu xian cai liao jie zhe yi qie
yin wei ni er gai bian

you make me want to fall in love jiu zai zhe yi ke
ye bu guan ming tian hui ru he
zhi yao jin sheng you ni zuo you
pei zhe wo bu zai ji mo

you make me want to fall in love jiu zai zhe yi ke
shui jian ye ke yi shi yong hu
zhi yao mei ge ji mo shi hou
ai de hui yi liu zai wo xin zhong

jiu shuan sui yue dai ni zou
jiu shuan ju li yan mei wo
hai shi yi zhi shou hou zhe
wo hui yong yuan wei le ni chun zai

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English Translation
I'm willing to exchange my limited eternity
for my past tears of happiness
going through warzones and all dangers
to be by your side

Sometimes I believe in beautiful prophecies
yet I don't want to be satisfied with just that
It wasn't until you came into my life that I understood everything
I changed because of you

You make me want to fall in love right at this very moment,
no matter what happens tomorrow
as long as in this life you are with me
accompanying me so I will never be lonely again

You make me want to fall in love right at this very moment,
a moment can be an eternity
as long as whenever I feel lonely
the memories of love remain within my heart

Even if you drift away as the years go by
even if the distance drowns me
I will still wait for you
I will exist solely for you forever

yi yan wan nian - S.H.E (tian wai fei xian OST)

Hanyu Pinyin
lei you dian xian you dian tian
ni de xiong tang wen zhe wo de ce lian
hui tou kan ta guo de xue
man man rong hua cheng cao yuan
er wo jiu xiang ni mei you yi miao ceng hou hui

ai na me mian na me nian
guan ming yun she ding yao shei li bie
hai an xian yue rang ren liu lian
zong shi mei de yue wan yan
wo men tai jue qiang lian tian dou bu ren zai fan dui

shen qing yi yan zhi ai wan nian
ji du lun hui lian lian bu mie
ba sui yue pu cheng hong tan
jian zheng wo men de ji xian

xin teng yi ju zhen cang wan nian
shi yan jiu gai bi yong yuan geng yuan
yao bu shi cang hai sang tian
zhen ai zen me hui fu xian

bai du guo xie feng leng yu chun nuan zai yan qian

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English Translation
Tears are a bit salty, a bit sweet
Your chest kisses the side of my face
Look back at the snow we tread
slowly melting into grasslands
I'm just like you, never regretting, not even for a second

Love is that continuous, that lasting
When it comes to our destiny, who will bid farewell?
The shoreline makes people keep wandering
always beautiful, meandering more
We're too stubborn, even the heavens don't have the heart to oppose

The kindness of one glance, the sincere love of eternity
How many degrees of reincarnation without love being extinguished
can cover the years with a red carpet, a testimony to our limits

The phrase "Loving dearly" encompasses eternity
The oath should be longer than forever
If it weren't for the changes brought about by time,
how would true love appear?

The ferry crosses heavy winds and cold rain, the warmth of spring is here now

E Zuo Ju - Wang Lan Yin
wo zhao bu dao hen hao de yuan yin
qu zu dang zhe yi qie de qing yi
zhe gan jue tai qi yi
wo bao qian bu neng shuo ming


wo xiang xin zhe ai qing de ding yi
qi ji hui fa sheng ye bu yi ding
feng wen rou de qing xi ye xu piao lai hao xiao xi


yi qie xin xian you dian mao xian
qing gao su wo zen me zou dao zhong dian
mei you ren liao jie mei you ren xiang wo
he mo sheng ren de ai lian


wo xiang wo hui kai shi xiang nian ni
ke shi wo gang gang cai yu jian le ni
wo huai yi zhe qi yu zhi shi ge e zuo ju


wo xiang wo yi man man xi huan ni
yin wei wo yong you ai qing de yong qi
wo ren xing tou ru ni gei de e zuo ju
ni gei de e zuo ju


wo zhao bu dao hen hao de yuan yin
qu zu dang zhe yi qie de qing yi
zhe gan jue tai qi yi
wo bao qian bu neng shuo ming


wo xiang xin zhe ai qing de ding yi
qi ji hui fa sheng ye bu yi ding
feng wen rou de qing xi ye xu piao lai hao xiao xi


wo cai fa xian ni hen yao yan
qing rang wo zai qiao qiao ni de shuang yan
mei you ren liao jie mei you ren xiang wo
he mo sheng ren de ai lian


wo xiang wo hui kai shi xiang nian ni
ke shi wo gang gang cai yu jian le ni
wo huai yi zhe qi yu zhi shi ge e zuo ju


wo xiang wo yi man man xi huan ni
yin wei wo yong you ai qing de yong qi
wo ren xing tou ru ni gei de e zuo ju
ni gei de e zuo ju

by the way if youre wondering both this song and the previous are from the taiwanese drama "it started with a kiss"


Kao Jin Yi Dian Dian - Lara
Me me zai ni de sheng hou shou hu de wo
duo xiang kan ni bu jing yi de xiao rong
huo xu wo de xin ni bu dong
wo hui nu li rang ni gan dong
zai ni yan zhong duo me ben zuo de wo
jue bu fang qi zhui zu ni de zhi zhuo
zhi yao ni neng duo xie hui ying wo
yi ge xiao huo dian tou quan dou jie shou


neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian
da sheng shuo chu ni suo you gan jue
bie zai jin jin guan zai zhi you zi ji de shi jie
wen nuan tai yang wei ni ying jie
neng bu neng kao jing yi dian dian
neng bu neng zai yong gan yi dian dian
jiu shuan rang wo zhi dao
wo yong yuan zi shi dan lian
wo ye hui chang zhe gan xie
xiao zhe he ni shuo zai jian

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Come near a little closer - Lara
I silently wait behind you
Really want to see your accidental smile
May be you do not understand my heart
I will try to flatter you
I'm the clumsy one in your eyes
I will not give up my will to follow you
I just need you to give me some response
I will accept a smile or a nod.


Can I come near a little closer
Confess my feeling to you loudly
Don't shut yourself in your own world anymore
The warm sun welcomes you
Can I come near a little closer
Can I be braver a little bit
Even if I knew
it's always a one way love
I will still keep my gratitude
Smilling to you and say goodbye.

i tried putting chinese but it never comes out right. owells. hahas.

YAYS! ive finally posted. hahas. been totally long. bahs. hahas. still sick now. hees. x) been sick for like almost a month. tee. hmms. two weeks since ive been back from hong kong. hahas. the trip was totally great. the shopping and the scene. totally awesome. hahas. bought lotsa dvds. the drama serial stuff. theres "it started with a kiss" "tree of heaven" "silence" "tokyo juliet" and "jumong". hahas. jumong is driving my mum nuts. cause we needed to buy this part one and a part two. then when she watched the last tape she realized it hadnt finished. hahas. theres supposed to be a part three i think. bahs. and in the part one package one of the disc was missing. bahs. anyways. also bought lotsa new junk. hahas. and i bought a pair of BOOTS. have no idea what to do with it now. in hk loads of people were wearing them. but in singapore. dont really see them around. and its kinda stuffy in them. owellss. hahas. x). hmms. christmas is coming! but dont really feel the christmas spirit. actually dont really feel anything. been locked up in the house most of the time! hahas. needa so get out. needa but my cds. the longer i wait the longer the list gets. kaaa. fraid i wont have much money left. bahhs. JM QUICK BRING ME SHOPPING! hahas. yups. still needa go wx house to learn the art of jewellry making. hahas. i seriously want to learn lor. ahh. but always too lazy. i also want to go see my lil cousins. hahas. been pretty long since i visited them. the last time i went he was SOO CUTE. he walks like a frog. hahas. (by the way hes one. so its not like a ten year old walking like a frog. its a one year old walking like a frog. whatever) hahas. and sary. oyar. we gotta SOO meet up. hahas. hmms. right. i think im going to 3d next year. hahas. go take my art! yays. hahas. oyar. fei lun hais jiro can REALLY draw. hahas. i think he was an art student or something. so cool. hes cute. can act. can sing. can draw. can be a total romantic. but funny and carefree at the same time. sorta like a serious joker. (if that is actually possible. hahas.) its like my dream guy! hahas. jk. this post is pretty long huh. well ive got two weeks to stuff in here. bahs. hahas. oright. im really into asian pop right now. hahas. i find that some of the songs (those i have listened to at least) have loads of meaning. hahas. yups. some of them are really touching. totally. and some of them seem to speak exactly what i feel. hahas. its a connection man. and some of the singers are really cute. hahas. nowadays everyone likes western bands. though yar theyre nice and all but their sorta further. like. if thier asian theres these closer bond or something. its not like a far away dream ya know. its sorta closer. wierd thinking huh. owells. thats what i feel. IM WEIRD! bahs. hmms. what else is there. oyar. my dad really wants me to take up a water sport. hms. im for that too. but sports involve hard work. and i dont like hard work. actually any work for that matter. BAHS. stressful. and hes thinking of sending us for some mindchamps thing. it works for studys but the prices are sorta steep. argh. hahas. less then a month till the new year. YEAR 2007! im coming. hahas. watch out. okies. nights. i need to take a rest. if not i ll never get. well. AHH.

小丑魚 (羅志祥)

我在你身邊 游來游去 我不敢出聲 看著他親吻你 眼不能閉
看你的唇印 還在那裡 你隔著玻璃 所以聽不見 我在嘆息
說不出口的秘密 永遠活在小小的世界裡
僅存一點稀薄的氧氣 是否夠我繼續撐下去

這件脫不下來的外衣 還是你喜歡的橘
我不能確定 是否你曾經注意 我的眼淚留在透明的水裡

LADY LADY ONE MORE TRY 再試著了解我的愛
發不出聲音的感慨 選擇作朋友的無奈
LADY LADY ONE MORE TRY 提醒我何時該走開
只要你偶爾想起來 我就住在那片海 (那片海)

等我轉過身 看妳眼神 才知道自己 想得太過天真 傷得太深
愛來的時候 劃破沉悶 我早該知道 妳終究不是我 該愛的人
黑暗中兩眼無神 夜裡不再為我開盞燈
始終不敢將愛說出口 當然沒有資格去競爭

戀愛和失戀同時發生 怪自己枉費青春
我輸得徹底 把臉深埋在水裡面 卻還要演好這一場戲

那片海 眼看就要 讓我愈來愈遠 回不來
從此 你的不愉快 那麼遙遠 誰聽你埋怨
再說一遍 說一遍 YA... 我在你身邊
給你一點點愉快就 會心甘情願回到大海

something amazing happened today. i actually went for training. bah. the first part was gruelling. had to run 1.2 then my knee started hurting again. xP. but i finished. then had to do the cheonging thing. up and down the netball court. but after that it was better. xP. picked loads of balls. then spiked. then match. and coached put me in. i felt like kicking him lar. AHH. of course we lost. duh. i was playing. i think theyre all like mad at me or something. but i guess its kinda my fault too. hahas. since i never go training. note that its not never EVER. which means i do go. OCCASIONALLY. hahas. bahs. but i determined to go. holidays and next year onwards. if not my cca points are so gonna suffer. oyeah! i determined man. hahas. hmms. im thinking of doing something this holls. bahs. oyar. i realized something. my class have no electives. only 7 subjects. BWAHH. i want my ART! not fair. herhs. wehhhh.

the previous post is what people do when thier bored. anyways. YAYS. im gonna be in 3ao7! hahas. its gonna be good no matter what. (x. dads kinda dissapointed that i didnt get into triple. but i dont mind. the class looks nice. hahas. as in the people. duh. bah. i expected i get into doubles anyway. cos my science and maths got b3. bahs. hahas. (x.



Lee Soo Young Bimil (secret) Lyrics - translated

It was you who made my heart dizzy
You are very bad to me
Our love no one knew about,
The one ever she didn’t know about
You made it into nothing
I watched you under my breath
The day you smiled warmly at me
No matter how much I try to forget you
No matter how much I tell myself it’s not love
I can’t erase that warm smile
If we can’t bring back the love that is locked up
It will be a secret between you and me
I hide behind you
And I cry behind you
I wanted to say this in a way no one can understand
That we are in love
Look at me I am behind you
Now tell her everything
No matter how much I cry of pain,
Even if you say you’ll come to me,
I can’t stand your confused eyes
Hurt her, make me happy and just love me
So I won’t be hurt behind you anymore
I’m sorry to her that we couldn’t keep our secret
No matter how much I try to forget
No matter how much I tell myself it’s not love
I can’t erase that warm smile
If we can’t bring back the love that is locked up
It will be a secret between you and me
You are very bad to me

Lee Soo Young Bimil (Secret) Lyrics
Baro gudejyo ne mamul ojirobge manduldon
negen namun nappun gudejyo
amudo narul moruge gudeui gu maljocha moruge
to uriga saranghan gudewaui irun obdon godchorom
sumjugimyo gude barabodon na
tasuhage misojidon gunarihu

Borigo boryodo tolchyonedo sarang anira mironedo
gunal narul boda narul miso jiul su obso
idero gamchyoborin sarangul doryoneryo hedo halsu obdamyon
igon gudewa naui bimiringojyo

Gudedwieso gamanhi gude dwie sumoso
najimaghi nunmul hullijyo
saranghe norul saranghe moduga uishimobnun soriro
marhago shiphojyo uri saranghago issumul
narul bwayo gude dwie issoyo
ije guman toronwayo gunyoege

Aphugo aphaso sorichyodo ijen nege oran marhedo
momchwo mangsorinun gude nunbid gyondilsu obso
gunyorul aphugehe ne maumul
hengboghage hejun noman saranghe
donun gude dwieso aphuji anhge hejwo

Gunyoege mian urimane bimirul
kuthkaji jikhiji mothe

Borigo boryodo tolchyonedo sarang anira mironedo
gunal narul boda narul miso jiul su obso
idero gamchyoborin sarangul doryoneryo hedo halsu obdamyon
igon gudewa naui bimirijyo negen
namun nappun gude

ok. second week of holidays! hahas. still havent really done much of anything. bah. anyways ive watched finish my girl. YAYS. hahas. its quite ok lar. but only the later parts then nicer. bleah. xP . hahas. but who cares. both the male leads were cute! hahas. lee jun ki is really pretty! hahas. and i just love his hair man. sorta like joo ji hun's hair in goong. hahas. anyways theres this really nice mv. lee soo young - grace. its actually a story. and theres like 3 parts. first one is lee soo young - grace. but thats like the preview. then theres lee soo young - grace (part two). thats like more in depth. then the last one is lee soo young - secret. the number 2 one is told by the girlfriend. how she sorta shows grace. and the last one is told by the other girl. how she loves the guy and stuff. like a love triangle of sorts. but its quite nice. can see it on youtube. find for the subbed one. then its easier to understand. i like the last one better. secret. hahas. the lyrics for that one are nicer too. yays. hahas. go see it. its kinda sweet. bahs. im bored. its always like that. everytime the holidays come everything sorta slows down. not that i dont like it. its just kinda gets bored sometimes. bah. anyways dads going to china again. from 12 to 16. then we're going to hong kong from 19 to 24. yups. im saving up already! hahas. ive actually saved up more then 400. uhuh. amazing huh. im impressed with myself too. x). but i had to totally scrimp and save. i had to eat cereal from home for some weeks. and i didnt buy food out. shows how determined i am huh! hahas. x). hmms. havent gone to training yet. been a week already. at least the first two days got reason. i was injured. but then the third and today. hmms. but then its competition now. so i go also mei li you. i mean what do i do there. its not like im actually gonna play. im just gonna watch how good they are and remind myself how much i suck. talk about rubbing salt in the wound. sheesh. sighs. soo im just gonna wait till the compete finish then go. how bout that. sounds good. hahas. and nowadays im learning new languages from the web. hahas. right now its korean and cantonese. bleahs. xP. its not like im actually retaining anything in my brain. but after long it will. right now im just aimlessly compying everything down. hahas. hopeless. ok. i cant stand it anymore. tmr im totally going out. and noones stoping me! yes. hahas. x). im a total basket case.

Our Love Will Always Last (English Version) - Edward Chun
Save the last dance for me OST

As we walk this land
Side by side, hand in hand
I know that some clouds may pass
But if we hold on tight
And love with all our might
Then the thorns in our life will never last
And the roads may sometimes be unpaved
You may think that our love can not be saved
Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

See the sunrise in the sky
Kiss the sunset as we lie
At night, I’ll never leave your side
But I know someday
I’ll be gone, and you’ll be gray
Oh, darling, wish that I could heal your pain…

Though the world out there
May be cold to all we share
I have you, to take me through the night
And if we hold on tight
And stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last…

And if we hold on tight, stay true to all that’s right
Then baby, our love will always last

Give My Love (English Version) - Edward Chun
* Track 1 of Save the Last Dance for Me OST

When I look in your eyes I can see that you
Want to be with me but you’re so scared
And I don’t know what to say or do
But the tears keep falling from your eyes
And I know that
Times won’t change my love
And I can’t do nothing to keep you

Oh, I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

As the hours pass away
You think that love ain’t here to stay
Feel a beat from your chest
But you don’t give doubt a moment’s rest
You dream the future and all you see is dark
Listen to your heart, baby, the truth will set sparks

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

Now I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love through kisses oh so bright
And you know that time won’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

I’ll give my love oh when I hold you tight
Give my love, through kisses oh so bright
And you know that I can’t change my love
Take my love all through the night…

Jeremiah 29 : 13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.

SARANG HAE YO ( I LOVE YOU) - KIM HYUNG SUP

Ee jeu meh suh nal sa rang heh doh dweh ni ah joo jo geu meh ni poom eh suh
nal nam gyuh doo go duh na gan da myun neh mam ah peun guh ja ral ja na...
*sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yo him deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh oo ri sa rang eun jung heh jyuh buh rin oon myung in gul*
nul him deul geh han noon mool ga ji doh ee jen neh ga jun boo ga peul geh yo
neh ga gi beun gun nuh eh geu oo seu mi ji geum nal dal ma it da neun guh
*REPEAT*
ji geum chuh rum man...sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yohim deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh mo deun guh rit go heng bo ga geh man heh jool geh
sa rang heh yo da shi shi ja geh yo him deul geh man het dun geu deh ji man
I LOVE MY FRIEND
nuh ah ni myun ahn dweh oo ri sa rang eun jung heh jyuh buh rin oon myung ee ya...

HAENG BOK HA GIL BA RAE - LIM HYUNG JOO
Geu noon so geh suh nuh neun doh da reun go seul bo myuh oo ruh suh
geu ruh neun ni ga nuh moo mi wuh suh na doh da ra oh ruh suh
*geu ri wuh nan ni ga nuh moo jit gi doh rok na ah pa dohna joo guh suh doh neh sa rang eu roh nuh heng bo ga gil ba reh*ahh~
hi mi deu ruh doh ra bo myun na guh gi eh neu ri neun gun
geu go seh da nam gyuh doo go on ni noon mool deh moo neh
nah duh nan ja ri eh nuh reun ja dool soo ub suh ee suh dun geh
ee jeh neun nul nuh moo sa rang heh gal soo ub neun ee yoo dweh suh
*REPEAT*

if you guys want to listen to the OST for my sassy girl chun hyang go to this webby :

url: http://www.mjgraphix.com/korean/KDRAMA/CHUNHYANG/chunhyang.htm

(its really nicex) )

ok. now that i have put triple science as my first choice. i have officially ruined my life. but. its kinda wierd you know. i mean. ive been striving to go to triple science. but now when it comes to making the choice. i somehow have this wierd feeling. i dont actually want to go. wierd huh. sighs. anyways. now its like a fifty fifty chance. i know my parents really want me to go to triple science. they keep making all "you know its your choice" but in their hearts they really want me to go. like when i told them i put that as my first choice they were all smiles and goods. i guess i kinda understand. all the cousins and whatever relatives are all like from prestigious schools. they keep coming top in everything. and every family gathering. they'll be like "my sons in raffles. my daughters going there next year too. which school do your children go to?" "oh. my children are in fms." "ohh. really. thats good. wait. what school again?" i guess itd be nice to show them up for abit. make them eat their words. hahas. and i guess the extra education wouldnt be too bad. but then i probably wont be able to do what i want. i want to be an artist. or something like that. something that uses my hands. or creativity. thatd be fun. but rents say it wont earn loads of money unless i become totally good at it. so i think they sorta object. i think they want me to do some really high job or something. hmms. i guess the big question now is whether i want my future planned out for me or do i want to carve out something myself. hmms. ANYWAYS. yays. i watched finish my sassy girl chun hyang. ok so i watched it before. now im just watching it to remember everything hahas. its really REALLY good. a little like goong alittle like full house. hahas. pity it never quite made it to singapore. not many people here know about it. hmms. but its just sooo SWEET. myong rong and chun hyang. AHHS. and jae hee. the guy who played myong rongs quite cute too. hahas. that doesnt hurt now does it. the soundtracks pretty nice too. been listening to it the past few days. hahas. IM GETTING HOOKED. hahas.

my future lies ahead.

ok i really have to thank you sonn. you have REVIVED my sense of humour. and i thought i lost it forever. didnt anyone notice that most of my later posts were all well. BORING. sighs. everybodys growing up. theres noone to talk sick and talk crap to. (besides steff that is. and she says ive been teaching her! well if thats the case. damn im a gd teacher.) people nowadays are getting all mature and sensible. its not fun anymore. hahas. its good to know there are still sick horny people around.

hes forgotton.
i thought we were getting closer.
werent we?
how did we end up in this pathetic state?
where there is no free flow of words,
where the conversation is restrained,
where all signs of emotion is taken away.
noone is comfortable with the other,
noone wants to talk,
noone even wants to meet.
have we wasted all those years?
the bonds?
the togetherness?
whats the use of saying all this.
its still ending.
all tied up in a knot.



life sucks. totally and completely. it either ruins you. or let you enjoy for abit then ruin you. its still the same. all the way round. owells. not gonna dwell on misdwellings anymore. anyways the exams are over. but i havent talked about the post exam activities. they totally rock. ok so far wx been to my hse for a goong marathon. and ywah! we completed it in like 2 days. we totally rawk. uhuh. and there was a slight problem. and we(me actually) being such a smart pig solved it. hahas. i can be a technician or something! blah. anyways now thats over. but i got her hooked unto something else! my sassy girl chun hyun. yeah! i watched it halfway already. its back to sleepless nights. MENG LONG IS SOO CUTE! blah. hahas. oyups. we had a rocking get together-ing. hahas. me muni wx and sary. yups. it was uber duber fun. we kept doing poses and taking photos. hahas. wild wacky and random. ilorve. (x. yups and then gave sary a make over. 3 totally different looks. but all incredibily nice. auwws. yays. ers. then today wx came over and we worked on our 'secret' project. its soo nice. i betcha shed be suprised. (:. hahas. blah. anyway i right now sorta running a short circuit. totally blank. dont feel like thinking of anything. dont feel like doing anything. sighs. 2 more days of school then itll be the holidays. then the new year. im pretty freaked out about the new year. sorta excited but more freaked out then ever. im soo wierd. sighs. but hope i go to doubles. my dads sorta wanting me to take nine subjects. so that i can become an architect. some sort of wierd thing about me designing and building houses. wierd. guess thats where i inherited my wierd-ness from. hahas. oyups. i gonna learn how to make jewellry. yups. im determined. then im gonna dagong. like "chunxiang" hahas. im gonna make loads and loads of money! then i can go overseas to study. then can go with berng. hahas. and we can go share an apartment! yeah man! hahas. blah. im slowing to a crawl now. cya pokes tmr. when we go collect our death sentences from the teachers. hahas. x)

ahh. yays. all the exams are over! whoots! i still cant believe it lar. im 3rd in class and 38th in level. im such a smart pig! hahas. yups . which means i can actually go to triple science. like wow right? hahas. hmms. but im relly confused right now. cos now that i can actually go to triple science. i dunno if i should go to double or triple science. ahh. if i go to trip i'll probably be like the dumbest there. and i'll have to work like super duper hard. and that is not possible. sharks. but if go to double. i might have to work really hard to. but i get to take art! uhuh. so im all flustered up! ahh.

my technolatte likes someone ELSE!

ok . ive made it through 3 days of exams . allhaill ME ! x) hahas . yays like 2 more days till the goong marathon . yups . hahas . im not really all that geared up but someone is ! hahas . owells . just feel like catching up on some snooze nowadays . just feeling so beat man . blah . ahh . sharkshes . hahas . so far for all the papers its been pretty okay lar . yups . was actually able to finish all the papers . so thats good . uhuh . was actually suprised i could finish it . cos ive been totally slacking and crashing last minute . but i guess the crashing does work ! yays . big thanks to muni and steff . hahas . they were the ones who helped me cramp everything (although steff kept heating everything out!) hahas . bleahs . ahh . shes such a butter in . i wasnt even asking her ok . i wasnt even talking to her . and then she kept answering everything and nagging . like what the hell . was i even talking to her . i dont think so . durse .

daniel bedingfield - if you're not the one

If youre not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If youre not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I dont need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I dont need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If youre not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If youre not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I dont know why youre so far away
But I know that this much is true
Well make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in youre the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
cause I love you, whether its wrong or right
And though I cant be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I dont want to run away but I cant take it, I dont understand
If Im not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that i can stay in your arms?

man . the exams are like tmr ! ahh . nervour breakdown ! yeah . and i still havent finished studying finished yet . sarks . its not that i dont wanna study too ok . its just that my brain says study my body doesnt react . wierd huh ? hahas . ok . nack to studying ! i'll try really hard too ! xiao zhu and xiao gui rawks man ! ahh . chao shuai !

hanaretakunai.
zutto issho-ni itai.
anata-nashi-ja ikiteke-nai.
anata-no-koto wasure-nai.
itsumo anata-o omotteru
aishiteru.
itsumo suki.

<3

throwing darts.
shooting daggers.

Cascada Everytime We Touch Lyrics

I still hear your voice,
When you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch,
in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness,
But I dont know why,
Without you it's hard to survive

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel estatic,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

Your arms are my castle,
Your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry (I cry)
The good and the bad times,
We've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall..

(chorus)
'Cause every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side
'Cause every time we touch,
I feel the static,
And every time we kiss,
I reach for the sky,
Can't you hear my heart beat slow
I can't let you go,
Want you in my life.

'every time we touch,
I get this feeling
And every time we kiss,
I swear I can fly,
Can't you feel my heart beat fast,
I want this to last,
Need you by my side

Delirious -- i will offer up my life

i will offer up my life in spirit and truth,
pouring out the oil of love as my worship to You.
in surrender i must give my every part,
Lord, receive the sacrifice of a broken heart.

Jesus, what can i give? what can i bring?
to so faithful a Friend, to so loving a King!
Saviour, what can be said? what can be sung,
as a praise of Your name for the things You have done?
oh my words could not tell, not even in part
of the debt of love that is owed
by this thankful heart.

You deserve my every breath for You've paid the great cost:
giving up Your life to death, even death on a cross.
You took all my shame away, there defeated my sin.
opened up the gates of Heaven, and have beckoned me in.

Jesus, what can i give? what can i bring?
to so faithful a Friend, to so loving a King!
Saviour, what can be said? what can be sung,
as a praise of Your name for the things You have done?
oh my words could not tell, not even in part
of the debt of love that is owed
by this thankful heart.

what can i give?
what can i bring?
what can i sing as an offering, Lord?

what can i give to You? to You?

how to save a life - the fray

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life
How to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

How to save a life

Kelly Clarkson Behind These Hazel Eyes Lyrics

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here i am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...(anymore)

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

you know whats the scariest things about school ? its not the schoolwork or exams . nor isit the teachers . its the students . i dunno why . i just feel this way . its like . you dont really know who are your friends . or whos backstabbing you . on the surface everyone is nice . but you never know whats underneath . its kinda scary that way . you dont know who to actually trust or who to beware . and you dunno if those people are whispering about you . it just kind of freaks me out . especially nowadays . you keep seeing people gossiping about one another . and backstabbing each other . and i admit i did it to . but its just wierd . i dont really feel safe anymore for some reason . sighs . if only he was here . he'd be able to cheer me up . he always does that . finds the silver linning . hahas .

oh my gosh . its like two days till exams . arhhhh . total panic meltdown ! 3 2 1 . splosh . i havent revised finished yet ! i know . im like totally SLOW . gotta hurry it up man . sharks . hahas . ok now my prince has a nick name ! techno-latte . wierd huh . i know . cos it was wx who came up with it . hahas . jk . ok today had to cancel maths tuition cos needed to do the home ec sewing thing . damn was she pissed . just called up and spoke to my mum . didnt sound good . anyway i think she mostly complained about di . so thats good . now my mums trashing him out . hahas . x) . lorveit . actually the tt is kinda BLUR . she keeps complaining that di never do his homework . and i never do it too . its just that i seem to be able to answer the questions she ask . hahas . so thats good ! yays . ok . blah . anyway . im soo proud of myself . i sewed finish the pencil case today x) . and its not too bad if i say so myself . hahas . but now my fingertips are all sore . hahas . poked myself with the needle quite a couple of times . damn that needle . owells . needa get back to studying . yes i am hardworkng . xP

i believe in love - tata young
I feel the heat around me
I feel the beat surrounds me
Could this be for real, I wonder
No need for hesitation
It's time for celebration
Will this be the night I've waited for

When angels fall in love
Heaven knows, does it show, oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus]
I believe, I believe in love
And like the stars above
They shine, let it shine over me
Set me free I believe in you
And that our love is true
Oh I believe, I believe

I see that people dancing
Boys and girls romancing
They want this to last forever

Cause underneath the moonlight
Everything is alright
We're reaching our hands up in the air

To where the souls alive
Heaven knows, that it shows oh
If this love, will last for eternity
Set me on fire

[Chorus]

How could I doubt, what was meant to be
Everything I needed was in front of me
Your healing touch, will lift me up in the sky, so high

[Chorus]

man . i didnt go to school again ! whoots . ok i really shouldnt be happy . but im just cant help it . yays . anyways i'll probably be going to school tmr . so owells . at least today i put the time to good use . i did a little revising . then my bro came home . and he on the movie . so its not my fault ok . i was tempted . uhuh . watched "just my luck" . it was pretty good . anyways . i dont think hes going to school tmr . he STOLE my flu . its like my mums asking him to sit away from me but instead he come nearer . thats pretty obvious right ? hahas . so . then i went to do some more revising . damn am i a hardworking girl . hahas . yups . then gramps came over and gave me 30 bucks . I LOVE YOU GRAMPS ! yeahs . now im richer . hees . x))) . so now here i am . its all pretty boring . but its laid back . sighs . seems like tmr im going back to school . its gonna be hectic ! ahh . xP

talked to him today . he seems so damn distant you know . like hes avoiding me or something . keeps making small talk . sharks . its always sad when i think about it . we used to be soo darn close and now ? we hardly make time for each other . heck . we hardly talk . this is the first time ive actually havent a (short as it is) conversation with him for about a year . really missing those times . sighs . bff . bull .

LOVE starts with a SMILE
Grows with a KISS
and ends with a TEAR.
DON'T cry over anyone who won't cry over you.
Good FRIENDS are hard to find, harder to leave,
and impossible to forget.
You can only go as far as you push.
ACTIONS speak louder than words.
The HARDEST thing to do is watch the one you love,
love somebody else.
DON'T let the past hold you back,
you're missing the good stuff.
LIFE'S SHORT.
If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it.
A BEST FRIEND is like a four leaf clover,
HARD TO FIND and LUCKY TO HAVE.
Some people make the world SPECIAL
just by being in it.
BEST FRIENDS are the siblings
God forgot to give us.
When it HURTS to look back,
and you're SCARED to look ahead,
you can look beside you and
your BEST FRIEND will be there.
TRUE FRIENDSHIP "NEVER" ENDS.
Friends are FOREVER.
Good friends are like STARS
You don't always see them,
but you know they are ALWAYS THERE.
DON'T frown.
You never know who is falling in love with your smile.
What do you do when the only person
who can make you stop crying
is the person who made you cry
Nobody is perfect until
you fall in love with them.
Everything is okay in the end.
If it's not okay, then it's not the end.
Most people walk in and out of your life,
but only FRIENDS leave footprints in your heart.
Have you ever wondered which hurts the most?
Saying something and wishing you hadn't, or
Saying nothing and wishing you had
I guess the most important things
are the hardest things to say.
Don't be afraid to tell someone you love them.
If you do, they might break your heart...
if you don't, you might break theirs.
Your heart decides whom it likes and
whom it doesn't.
You can't tell your heart what to do.
It does it on its own....
when you least suspect it,
or even when you don't want it to.
Have you ever wanted to love someone
with everything you had,
but that other person was too afraid to let you?
Too many of us stay walled up because
we are too afraid to care too much...
for fear that the other person does not care as much,
or even at all.
Have you ever denied your feelings for someone
because your fear of rejection was too hard to handle?
Life is all about risks and it requires you to jump
People live, but people die.
And I want to tell you that you are a friend.
If you died tomorrow (God Forbid),
you would be in my heart.
Would I be in yours?
If you care about me as much as I care about you,
you will send this back
You might be best friends one year,
pretty good friends the next year,
don't talk that often the next,
and don't want to talk at all the year after that.
So, I just wanted to say, e
ven if I never talk to you again in my life,
you are special to me and you have made a difference in my life,
My Wish For You
I wish....
You happiness on a cloudy day.
Blue skies to chase your cares away.
A breath of fresh air when you are feeling down.
Anything to get rid of that frown.
A sprinkle of rain,
And a life free of pain.
I wish you warmth from the rays of the sun
And a lifetime of joy and fun.
Just keep your eyes to the sky.
And know I am always nearby.

loads of thanks to the one who sent me this. it shows me you care. x)

a glimpse of hope.

dear lord,
i know ive done wrong.
ive been avoiding you,
neglecting you
even running away from you.
right now,
in my our of need.
im asking you
to help me find
the right path.
help me to find
the way back into your arms.
please grant me strength
and courage,
for me to suceed
give me the knowledge
to tell from the right
and the wrong.
please give me peace
in my heart.
here i am,
kneeling before you,
begging for forgiveness.
please lord,
forgive me.

damn . ive just been so stressed lately . and if i dont show it out i doesnt mean im not ok . like i tell pple im stressed and they just laugh it off . like hell . and if i just you keep quiet . pple are like all . whats wrong with you today . cant a person have an off day . damn im pissed . with like the exams nearing and everything . ahhs . why is everything so darn complicated . why cant we just be like the stone ages . you know . just hunting eating and sleeping . instead of studying so damn hard . just to what ? show pple youre smart ? loads of pple say that its to earn more money . but whats the use of soo much money huh . its just to show off in the end right . duh . why do you think nobody wants to become a cleaner ? they earn money too . its just lesser . damnit . yeah and theres another problem too . everybody seems to be getting closer to God . even that big flirting asshole . hes now singing praises to God . but how do you get closer to him ? ive tried . but ive never been able to actually connect . in my whole life . ive only felt his presence once . and that was at the camp . the race . that was one heck of a spiritual camp . but after that it kind of . i dont know . cooled down ? like now i dont even want to go to church . im actually dreading it . man . whats happening to me .

you have no idea how many nights ive cried myself to sleep. saying to myself that tmr it will be a better day. but it never is. and looks like it never will be.

ok . hah . im right now sick as shit . ok not shit shit . but cha get it . like my voice is totally GONE . now i really sound like a frog . (towhomitmayconcern: imnotafroggie!wherethehelldidjagetthatideafrom?) yups . just came back from the docs . you know whats really freaky ? i was actually dreading to come to school today . cos you know . the scrapbook deadline is today . and ive done zilt about it . so then i fell ill and couldnt come today . its not like i even purposely fell ill like the other time . this time it was pure FATE . i just love that . yays . and the next lit lesson is like on thurs x) . which means i'll get like 1 to 2 more days . yays . well the downside is that i'll have to eat ginger porridge . and i HATE ginger ok . owells . some of the things we have to live with . oyeah . and my dad bought a new plasma ! whoots . a 32 inch . yeah man . the old tv is like almost the same age as me . most likely a few years older . its about time . whoots . if youre happy and you know it clap your hands CLAP CLAP .

dont look at me that way. as if you know me you have no idea what ive been through. so dont think youre all that. when youre actually nothing.

Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes,
They're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Artist: Savage Garden
Song: Truly Madly Deeply

I'll be your dream, I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love be everything that you need.
I love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do..
I will be strong I will be faithful 'cause I'm counting on a new beginning.
A reason for living. A deeper meaning. Yeah..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me.

And when the stars are shining brightly in the velvet sky,
I'll make a wish send it to heaven then make you want to cry..
The tears of joy for all the pleasure and the certainty.
That we're surrounded by the comfort and protection of..
The highest powers. In lonely hours. The tears devour you..

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

Oh can you see it baby?
You don't have to close your eyes 'cause it's standing right before you.
All that you need will surely come...

I'll be your dream I'll be your wish I'll be your fantasy.
I'll be your hope, I'll be your love, be everything that you need.
I'll love you more with every breath truly madly deeply do...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna lay like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

I wanna stand with you on a mountain,
I wanna bathe with you in the sea.
I wanna live like this forever,
Until the sky falls down over me...

yays ! hahas . x) now im in school . did i ever tell you how much home econs rocks ? hahas . cos we never have to do anything~ . BLAH . oyes . i found out that my darling a sonny . loves steve IRWIN . wow huh . hahas . x) . yays . im happy today XD . bleah . ok . just too bad its back to school again . and like 3 more weeks till exams . OMG . hahas . i soo need help ok ? anyone interested in giving me free tuition ? yays . bleah . but the holls were pretty good . (: the first three days were at quantan . uhuh . we drived the 8 hours there . most of the whole trip was just driving there and all around . so it was like being in the car the whole time . and it was pretty boring . but kind of fun too . did loads of silly wacky things in the car with didi . yays . took loads of wacky pictures too (: . hahas . yeah . and the beach there was great too . really clean and white and clear . though the tide was pretty strong . yeah . so couldnt really swim there . pity . but the night walk was great . the first night me and my dad took our torch lights and went to the beach . it was pretty dark . so it was kinda spooky . but really exciting too . x) . and we picked loads of shells . we even saw a real live crab ok . hahas . that was pretty cool . cos we were going around with sticks digging at all the crab holes . and boy were there loads of holes . hahas . then suddenly we saw the crab . it was just lying there . pretty freaky . at first we thought it was dead . but when we wanted to pick it up . it suddenly run away . hahas . x) . but it was still pretty cool . hahas . yays . i cant wait for the next trip . uhuh . it'll probably be in nov . to hong kong ! yays . shopping ! AHH! hahas . though its not confirmed yet . but LETS ALL HOPE !

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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