suddenly feel like watching death note. AHHS.

Matchbox 20 How Far We've Come Lyrics

I'm waking up at the start of the end of the world,
but its feeling just like every other morning before,
Now I wonder what my life is going to mean if it's gone,

The cars are moving like a half a mile an hour and I
and started staring at the passengers who're waving goodbye
can you tell me what was ever really special about me all this time?

chorus:
But I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

I think it turned ten o'clock but I don't really know
then I can't remember caring for an hour or so
started crying and I couldn't stop myself
I started running but there's no where to run to
I sat down on the street, took a look at myself
said where you going man you know the world is headed for hell
say all goodbyes if you've got someone you can say goodbye to

I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come (right now)
let's see how far we've come

Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, I guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Its gone gone baby its all gone
there is no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you
well its gone gone baby its all gone
there's no one on the corner and there's no one at home
well it was cool cool, it was just all cool
now it's over for me and it's over for you

I believe the world is burning to the ground
oh well I guess we're gonna find out
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
Well I, believe, it all, is coming to an end
oh well, i guess, we're gonna pretend,
let's see how far we've come, again
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come
let's see how far we've come

Alicia Keys No One Lyrics

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better

You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together

Through the days and nights

I don't worry 'cuz
Everything's going to be alright
People keep talking they can say what they like
But all i know is everything's going to be alright

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you
Can get in the way of what I feel

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try try to divide something so real
So til the end of time I'm telling you there is no one

No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I'm feeling
No one, no one, no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you, you, you

oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh
oh oh oh oh

i had a dream of you last night.
it was an sweet and lovely dream.
i know it was a dream.
cos it would never have happened in the real world.
and it never must.
i guess i can only love you deep inside.

forbidden fruits always taste the best because it is forbidden

YAYS! i did finish part 2. hahas. but part 2s kinda short huh. i wanted to continue but you know. creative juices are expensive nowadays. went to heartbeat today. sort of. came in in time for the offertory song and closing song. hahas. i wok up early lar. its just that the rest didnt. and cos it was sorta orientation day today. the rents went to. hahas. kinda wierd. but it was actually filled up ya know. the audi i mean. but loads of them were parents so owells. signed up for youth camp afterall. i guess thats a good time to go back to God and all that. hope it works. man. about two and a half weeks till shanghai. cant wait. YEAHS. x). hms. random thoughts now. hahas. listening to eternal summer OST. its really short with five songs and and two videos. one songs an intro so i dont think its counted. its short but SOO good i tell ya. it has this soothing effect. and that doesnt mean its like ballads and stuff. theres some soft rock i think. especially the first song. OOO. im soo gonna go on a cd spree in shanghai. felt like doing so in singapore. but then was thinking. since im going to shanghai shouldnt i do it there. hahas. afterall itll be much cheaper so i'd be able to buy more. works both ways i guess. ohyeah. my lion made it to the top 100. im pretty amazed lar. i felt it sucked and i didnt put my best effort into it. it was like some last minute slipshot crapped shit. ohwells. maybe people like shit. or i could be that not loads joined. or that my shit was like the better shit among the rest of the shit. hahas. ok now my words are getting all shitty. STOP. xp

leading footsteps
[part2]

sarah
class 1.4
register number 27

jonathan
class 1.1
register number 18

orientation week.
1st day:-
introduction
2nd day:-
campus tour
3rd day:-
team building
4th day:-
team building
5th day:-
camp fire

camp fire night.
air filled with smoke and laughter.
music, games, action.
"OK PEOPLE! listen up. its time for the camp fire dance yeah. now. jumble yourselves and make sure the person you stand next to is of the OPPOSITE gender. when the music starts, hold hands and lets start our primative tribal dance! if you're not sure which gender you belong to. gender confirmation services are provided up in front. now move it people!"

she gets lost in the crowd,
soaking up the atmoshpere.
"it had been a fun week,
loads of new friends and lovely classmates.
this might be quite a good two years here.

'hey this is a good time to check out the babes'
'yeah keep a lookout and we'll tally up later huh'
'haha. you guys are so desperate man.'
as his friends moved off,
he stands alone in the crowd.
"i seriously can't believe that i'm doing this.
ohwell. guess i just have to go along with them.
it could actually be fun. yeah right.

he walks into the crowd
she walks amongst the crowd
unknowingly.
as fate would have had it.
they begin walking towards one another.
their distance shortening as the music begin playing.

theres so many things running through my mind. so much i want to do. so many new plans popping out every second. yet i never really get down to it. it always left there hanging in midair. my heart is taking control of my mind. making me do things i do not want to. preventing me from doing things i want to. it tells me things otherwise. save me.

lost in love.

AHH. ever since the holidays started its been total hell. man its not s'pose to be turn out this way. SUCKS

i just cant do it.
im not you.

been like super long since i last blogger man. hahas. its now the holidays. YEAH. one more month till shanghai. need somewhere to crash though. familys a bitch. so is school. i need a place to dissapear for awhile. AHHS.still got so much homework left to crash. its gonna be one hell of a holiday

i'll keep you in prayer.

fudge cookies.
caramel candy.
maple syrup.

METAL RODS.

AHHS. the exams are over. and the results are out and damn am i feeling wretched. freaking shit. did totally bad lar. cant even believe it. well sorta expected it. but when it hits. it hurts. AHHS. ohyeah. bought my new camera. like FINALLY. still in debt though. AHHS. probably gonna put the pictures up on my wretch album. if i can still remember my username and password. ohyeah. just made my first earing. hahas. with the hook and all. yeah man. feeling this sense of pride man. x) now to finish the other side. this sure beats making pancakes. ;)

happy moments during sad days.

freaking dogs.

its the last lap. YEAH MAN i can do this. x)

AHHS. im totally stressed right now. theres still like one more week of exams left. and how can they put my two worst subjects in the same week. this is like soo unfair i tell ya. totally unfair. i havent even finished studying anything. plus i only did one page for my art. which is like the easiest part. the team definition and artist research. AHHS. im like SOO dead. damn. furthermore the past week has been horrible. TOTALLY AND COMPLETELY TERRIBLE. arhs. all the subjects were like specially-made-for-students-to-die kinda thing. this is so not going well. darndarndarn.

fudge cookies the escaped fugutive.

its a good day (:

muddled and moody.

High School Musical 2 - Gotta Go My Own Way


this is officially a countdown to the exams. only one more week left! ahhs. i still cant get any info into my head. this is so pissing man. it feels like im really gonna fail. AHHS.

please God bless me.

AHHS. two more weeks till end of year exams. AHHS. mental breakdown man. BISH. the teachers are like totally cranking down on us now lar. its stiffling me man. its like soo much work to do. and soo much stiff to learn and revise. my brains stressing. hms.

just did part1. hahas my own story ok. as in i came up with it lar. just bored yeahs. hahas. will continue it when i have the time. owells. its late. and gosh. i have to get ready to 'die' tomorrow again. i should really learn my lesson and do my homeworks. owells. xD

leading footsteps
[part1]

Sarah.
Jonathan.
people of two different worlds,
two totally different backgrounds.
the thing that brought them together?
fate.

it was 6a.m. in the morning,
the first day of the new term.
she was getting ready for school.
it was going to be her first day in a new school.
nervous yet excited,
thoughts all running amok.
"would the students be nice?"
"would the teachers be kind?"
he was dreading school.
it was just another day, spent in another school.
dreadfully bored,
waiting for the day to end
"why do i have to go?"
"when will it all end?"

hi.
my name is Sarah.
16 turning 17 on the 9th of march.
in my family theres only me, my older brother and my drunkard dad.
though we aren't as rich as we dream to be,
we have enough to eat and a place to sleep.
and thats good enough for me.

hey.
names' Jonathan.
17 on the 3rd of june.
family? dad, mum and me.
i guess you could call us rich.
we stay in a big house and i can have anything i want.
as long as i continue being 'me'.

30 beach avenue bus stop.
she sits down.
waiting for the bus to arrive.
bus arrives.
he arrives.
they board the same bus.
eyes barely glancing one another.

sighs. its back to school again. plus exams are like round the corner. all the pressure is piling up man. AHHS.

carbon copy.


js 《杀破狼》仙剑奇侠传主题曲

沉睡了千年的身体
从腐枝枯叶里苏醒
是夜莺凄凉的叹息
解开咒语

遗忘的剑被谁封印
追随着箫声和马蹄
找到你

最光荣的牺牲
是武士的宿命
挥刀的瞬间心却在哭泣

生是为了证明
爱存在的痕迹
火燃烧后更伟大的生命

杀是为了歌颂
破灭前的壮丽
夜是狼深邃眼睛
孤独等待黎明

看不见未来和过去
分不清生死的差异
不带走喜悦或遗憾
离开这里

破晓和月牙在交替
我穿越过几个世纪
只为你

樱花瓣在飘零
这悲凉的风景
长袖挥不去一生刀光剑影

生是为了证明
爱存在的痕迹
火燃烧后更伟大的生命

杀是为了歌颂
破灭前的壮丽
夜是狼深邃眼睛
孤独等待黎明

我是否已经注定
这流离的宿命
我残破的羽翼
直到你
是你让我找回自己

生是为了证明
爱存在的痕迹
火燃烧后更伟大的生命

杀是为了歌颂
破灭前的壮丽
夜是狼深邃眼睛
孤独等待黎明

blubber.
flubber.
glubber.




aren't they both the sweetest. AHHS. soo cute. this pictures were taken from a chinese drama serial called 'Chinese Paladin'. they aren't the main characters but they still rock. xD.

YEAH. its like finally THE holidays. feels good man. xD. just went to school to collect my books from the locker. now my locker is practically empty. a miricle i say. x). tomorrow its one whole day of hanging out with the family. then its back to school, tuition and the harsh reality called life. i have no idea why they actually call this a holiday. its back to school most of the time. plus they give us extra homework cause its the 'holiday'. holiday? yeah right. AHHS. everythings in like total havoc now. AHHS. gotta go sort out ALL the JUNK i brought back from the locker now. SHEESH.

life is the continuety of living.

Carrie Underwood - So Small

Yeah, Yeah

What you got if you ain't got love
The kind that you just want to give away
It's ok to open up
Go ahead and let the light shine through
I know it's hard on a rainy day
You wanna shut the world out and just be left alone
But don't run out on your faith

Cause sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small

It's so easy to get lost inside
A problem that seems so big at the time
It's like a river that's so wide it swallows you whole
While you're sitting around thinking about what you can't change

And worrying about all the wrong things
Time's flying by, moving so fast
You better make it count cause you can't get it back
Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've been out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
Oh, and when you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else seem
So small, yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah

Sometimes that mountain you've been climbing
Is just a grain of sand
And what you've out there searching for forever
Is in your hands
And then you figure out love is all that matters after all
It sure makes everything else
Oh, it sure makes everything else seem
So small

Yeah, yeah

i must learn to forget.

You Are The Music In Me - High School Musical 2

Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me
You know the words
"Once Upon A Time"
Make you listen?
There's a reason.
When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter
or happy ever after
yeah harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head
A single voice (Single voice)
Above the noise
And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
[You Are The Music In Me Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com]
(Na na na na)
You are the music in me
It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)
Can't explain it (Ohh ohh)
There's no name for it (No name for it)
I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy (So easy)
Because you see the real me (I see)
As I amYou understand
And that's more than I've ever known
To hear your voice (Hear your voice)
Above the noise (Ohh ohh)
And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)
You are the music in me
It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)
We got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)
Connected and real
Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me (In me)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me
When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)
I know that we belong (We belong)
You are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because (Here because)
You are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me (Yeah)

YAYS! its the ninth week already! one more week. HOOTS. xP

YEAH! ive finally changed my skin. not bad ehs. x). ive good taste. hahas. now im back in the addiction-to-drama-serial game. x). currently watching corner with love. and still havent watch finish summer X summer. im like DAMN slow. ohrights. havent finish exchange love either. thats the problem man. i get bored halfway. if i watch. must watch altogether. as in like straight. if not i'll get lazy. hahas. plus excahnge love is on youtube. not like the rest dvd. so its like must wait for it to load and then watch. and then wait. and then watch. see my point. sheesh. hahas. wanna go watch secret! it seems like a sweet chick flick. just how i like it. hahas. hms. xP. gotta go study amaths. sucks man. xP.

Fort Minor - Remember The Name

You ready? Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you that want to know what we're all about
It's like this y'all c'mon

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

Mike
He doesn't need his name up in lights
He just wants to be heard whether it's the beat or the mic
He feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know him
But fuck em'
He knows the code
It's not about the salary
It's about reality and makin' some noise
Makin' the story
Makin' sure his clique stays up
That means when he puts it down Tak's pickin' it up

Who the hell is he anyway?
He never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin' them star struck
Humbled through opportunities given to him despite the fact
That many misjudge him because he makes a livin' from writin raps
Put it together himself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, to get some respect
He's only focused on what he wrote, his will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of an artist

It's just twenty percent skill
Eighty percent fear
Be one hundred percent clear 'cause Ryu is ill
Who would've thought that he'd be the one to set the west in flames
And I heard him wreckin' with The Crystal Method, Name Of The Game
Came back dropped Megadef, took 'em to church
I'm like 'bleach, man, why you have the stupidest verse?'
This dude is the truth, now everybody be givin' him guest spots
His stock's through the roof I heard he fuckin' with S-Dot!

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

They call him Ryu the sick
And he's spittin fire at Mike
Got him out the dryer he's hot
Found him in Fort Minor with Tak
Been a fuckin' annihilist porcupine
He's a prick, he's a cock
The type woman want to be with
And rappers hope he get shot
Eight years in the makin'
Patiently waitin to blow
Now the record with Shinoda's takin' over the globe
He's got a partner in crime his shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

Tak
He's not your everyday on the block
He knows how to work with what he's got
Makin' his way to the top
People think its a common owners name
People keep askin him was it given at birth
Or does it stand for an acronym?
No he's livin' proof
Got him rockin' the booth
He'll get you buzzin' quicker than a shot of vodka with juice
Him and his crew are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they doin give a hundred percent

Forget Mike
Nobody really knows how or why he works so hard
It seems like he's never got time
Because he writes every note and he writes every line
And I've seen him at work when that light goes on in his mind
It's like a design is written in his head every time
Before he even touches a key or speaks in a rhyme
And those motherfuckers he runs with, those kids that he signed
Ridiculous, without even tryin', how do they do it?

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

It's just ten percent luck
Twenty percent skill
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will
Five percent pleasure
Fifty percent pain
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name

Yeah
Fort Minor, M. Shinoda
Styles of Beyond, Ryu, Takbir
Machine Shop

its an on/off kinda thing.

i must seriously get my blogskin done up. ohshits. anyone wanna help? hahas. got picked for the darn R and D thing lar. i feel happy but. why shouldnt i feel happy. people thing we're GOOD man. thats something to be happy bout. cept that. AHHS. i dont want to present the darn thing in front of everybody. well at least its not the whole level. but 4 classes is still loads of people! ahhs. im all confused now. this is soo not a good week. and its only monday. i dont think i'll survive the week. OHMANS. im totally letting it out man. its all GUSHING out. ohyes. not to forget. theres like what. oh nothing. just 3 tests this week. one after another. im seriously telling you. those people are trying to kill us. its practically murder ok. and this is NO laughing matter. gosh. and those people are on my back again. SHITS. i seriously hate them. and it. i rather not go for it. in fact i rather die. ok. maybe not soo far as to die. maybe just break my legs or arm. hmms. then i wont have to go. WHEE. but i havent broken anything. YET. darn. i mean its ok if you like totally love it or whatever. but i dont. i have no idea why i chose it in the first place. im soo regreting now. damnit. its just labour. hard labour. AHHS. i dont want it. seriously dreading it. but what can i do. AHHS. like sucks man. x(. now im just gonna sit on my bed and sulk. watch me die.

Woke up today thinking of you
Another night that I made my way through
So many dreams still left in my mind
But they can never come true
I press rewind and remember when
I close my eyes and I’m with you again
But in the end I can still feel the pain every time I hear your name

The sun won’t shine since you went away
Seems like the rain’s falling every day
There’s just one heart, where there once was two
But that’s the way it’s gotta be,
'til I get over you…

Walked through the park, in the evening air
I heard a voice and I thought you were there
I run away but I just can’t escape
Memories of you everywhere
They say that time will dry the tears
But true love burns for a thousand years
Give my tomorrows for one yesterday
Just to know that I could have you here

When will this river of tears stop fallin’
Where can I run so I won’t feel alone
Can’t walk away when the pain keeps callin’
I’ve just gotta take it from here on my own
But it’s so hard to let go

until i get over you - christina milian

i LOVE my dearest FUDGE cookies. x)
next comes HONEY and LATTE of course.
i have a SWEET tooth. <3
and theres nothing you can do about it. x)

if
one day
i were to go back to the past
go right back to the begining
would you realise anything

if
one day
i were to leave you
not knowing when we meet again
would you have heard me say goodbye

when your eyes light up with bliss
when you drink soda
when you make noise
i just want you to be happy
you never ever realise
i miss you
i miss you
this could be my chant

when you tell me your troubles
when you can't sleep at night
i just want to tell you
but i'm scared it'll all seem wrong
i really like you
don't you know that

if
one day
all our dreams could come true
memories frozen in time
would you still remember this day

if
one day
we all come to realise
that actually anything is possible
would we still remain here

maybe
the atmosphere's making me crazy
maybe
i should be on my way back
in our dreams we'll meet
there'd be no hesitations
with a loud voice i'd say
i would just say

ok. its been ages since i last blogged lar. xP. trying to resurrect my mp3 now. hahas. its died for who knows how long. xD. went to chinatown today. ate dim sum. YAYS. hahas. yums man. been ages since i had them. hms. its like august now. theres like what. two more months till finals? so dead lar. actually not say really lar. my history is improving. so is the languages. if only my maths and science could catch up man. i'd be in study heaven. hahas. AHHS. kinda feeling sickly lately. so usual. i realised im ALWAYS sick around national day. since like secondary one. this must be like some national day curse or something. sheesh. having a killer headache now. so im gonna try to catch a snooze. god bless me. AHHS.

happy belated birthday my dearest friend

you caught my eye

you caught my eye

please lord
help me find myself again.

yesterday dad came back. bought loads of stuff. hahas. now can start selling the shawl. any takers. went swimming yesterday too. felt good man. we went from 5 to 6. so it was pretty much empty. swam 6 laps then played the water games. finally got to try out the dive sticks. damn fun lar. the games was like soo much more tiring then the laps. which is kinda wierd but true. cos we kept throwing the dive sticks around and racing for it. so it was sorta like doing laps. race time. hmms. their holding this sailing workshop in september. feel like joining. but scared to go alone. it looks kinda fun still. hmms.

scared to go to school
scared to go home
no where else to go

a chance for renewal
thats all i want

i feel like death is creeping up against me.
like the worlds become a sudden gray.
like nothing ever matters anymore.

won't let you fall - fergie

[Verse:]
I’ll never let you go
So, never let me go
I will be your journey
And you will be my road
Down the stormy path
Love will never come to pass
It will be an anchor
Although the winds may blow

[Pre-Chorus:]
And through the depths of high and low
Wherever you will go, I’ll follow
To the end, back again
You know

[Chorus:]
Won’t let you fall
Fall out of love
‘Cause together we’ll be holding on
‘Cause all we have is us
Won’t let you go
Go away again
Because life don’t mean nothing at all
If I don’t have your love
[Won't Let You Fall lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]


[Verse:]
I will dry your tears
Take away your fears
Let me be your shelter
Your heart is safe in here
So beautiful and pure
There’s nothing I would not endure
Oh, love as got me blinded
I see it all so clear

[Pre-Chorus (1x)]
[Chorus (1x)]

[Bridge:]
I’m down for you for whatever
Anything you going through
What’s mine is yours
Every little thing
I got you
Even when winds will change
Come smashing down and crashing on you

[Chorus]




I GOT MY BRACES! hahas. it feels totally wierd lar. didnt go to school today. had diarohea in the morning. PLUS stomach cramps. life is soo not good man. my mums moved on to goong S. hahas. xP. shes like watching dramas at super fast speed lar. practically 24hours. she can finish one serial in 5 days. that says something eh. and goong S is nice to watch. hahas. it has the same feel as goong lar. hahas. ohyar. on the way back from dental. i was in the mrt and there was this group of people in from of me. probably university students from china. it was quite obvious. the china part. cos they had the accent and all. there was this girl among them. at first look she was not too bad. as in well dressed. smooth skin. typical china beauty. then she put her hand on her hips and OMG. cos she was wearing this short sleeved blouse. you know. those REALLY short short sleeved kind. and damn it was hairy. kinda disgusting lar. it totally ruined the image. owells. hahas. feeling totally tired lately. maybe its the weather. its been really hot the past few days lar. AHHS. im melting. xD

Listen - Beyonce

Listen to the sound from deep within
Its only beginning to find release

Ohh the time has come for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own, all 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

There was someone here inside
Someone I thought had died
So long ago
Oh I'm screaming out
And my dreams will be heard
They will not be pushed Aside or turned
Into your own
[ Listen lyrics found on http://www.completealbumlyrics.com ]
All 'cause you won't listen

[chorus]
Listen
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home in my own home
And I've tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what
You've made of me
I followed the voice, you gave to me
But now I've gotta find my own
You should have listened

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't, if you won't

Listen to the song here in my heart
A melody I start, but I will complete

Now I am done believing you
You don't know not what I am feeling
I'm more than what you've made of me
I followed the voice you think you gave to me

But now I got to find my own - my own

累

真的好累

一直想好好休息

忘记全世界

寂寞地活着

im sorry. its all my fault. i shouldnt have done it. open my mouth. and do the deed. i tried yet failed. sorry.

endless nights.

crying myself to sleep.
no where esle to hide.
suppresing all the pain.
right here inside.
theres no one who knows.
no one who suspect.
yet the hidden memories.
still hurt me every night.

jasmine.

FIRST DAY BACK AT SCHOOL!
you know something. it wasnt as bad as i expected it to be. for starters i actually remembered to bring my report book AND sign it. THANKYOU weixin. its a first time ya know. in my WHOLE secondary school life. and we started with english. and its like lucks shining on me or something but we actually got a NEW teacher. which means my old debts do not have to be paid. isint that like totally amazing or what. not like i dont like my old english teacher. okay. who am i kidding. i hate her. but shes a good teacher. so pity that. and all the elearning stuff was actually postponed. thats like totally amazing. then it was emaths. and i actually understood what the maths teacher was teaching. thats good. cos it means im not a total maths idiot. then it was english again. breeze man. then it was art. and AGAIN holiday homework was postponed to wednesday. and then it was class contact. todays turning out to be one of the best days EVER man. ohyar. THANKYOU MUNIRAH AND WEIXIN! for my birthday gift. it was totally awesome. though afew months belated. but whatever. so todays totally wonderful man. cept that my teeth hurt and cant eat anything. blahs. but tmrs soo not gonna be good. i can predict it man. lifes just like that. especially my life. things like this only come once in awhile. better cherish it man. YEAH. hms. tmr must finish art homework and gosh. all my maths tuition homework. ohshits. i totally forgot bout them. that old hags SOO gonna kill me. diedieDEAD. gees.

you wanna know something totally crazy. me and my bro are watching dvds NOW. at 1 in the morning. cept that hes on the tv and im on the com. cos earlier we were sorta watching then my mum went like totally berserk and ruined everything. not much difference it makes. after she slept we continued our own seperate dvd watching ways. my family runs a rebellious streak man. xP

went to the ortho today. got my brackets done. WHOOTS. its aching like hell now lar. damn it. wells. im back in singapore. sadly. you know something. when coming back from the airport. in the taxi nearing home. i felt this dreading feeling. that bad man. anyways. it was totally amazing we actually managed to fit everything into the luggage and bring it back. really amazing. wells. shanghai is great i tell ya. love thier fashion. as in theres loads of all these small boutiques along the road side. and some of them are really cheap. yet its still beautiful. awesome. pity bout the air though. its like really polluted there. as in air and the streets sorta. but that cant be helped i guess. since it IS a city. with like millions of people. but i still love it. xD. really want to go back there again. and NOT just because of the dvds. oyar.

ADVERTISMENT : im selling 30% silk, 70% pashmina wrap-arounds for $30. any takers?

went to hangzhou for a weekend too. its really beautiful there. as in all the scenery and stuff. we went to xihu then later longjingshan. xihu is like TOTALLY beautiful man. and its not as polluted as shanghai. as in the air. maybe thats cos we were at the lakeside/mountainside whatever. hms. still havent completed like 50% of the homework. actually im not even sure what i did. cos i did bits here and bits there. so its all kinda jumbled up and all. shit. im soo dead. and im dead shag. all because of HER. made me wake up at 8. sheesh. and i slept at like what 1? youre depriving me of my sleep WOMAN. damn it.

GUYS ARE ALL SLUTS

its back to an unending nightmare

a countdown to reality

小薰&阿本 - 甜甜圈MV (18禁不禁片尾曲)



lesson learnt:
japanese high school guys are totally cute

i had a BUBBLE BATH yesterday. YAYS. hahas. damn shuang lar. hmms one more week till im back in singapore. cant bear to leave this place man. ive grown attatched. AH.

been watching 林宇中 MVs on youtube. and OHMYGOSH. i just realised something. at certain angles he looks like gino from kone. especially hes eyes. has that look man. especially in hes 淋雨中 MV. AHH. totally love him now. hahas. hes voice is really good. and so is hes songs. damn. xP. just started on the art homework. but its tough man. i cant do the easier ones cos i dont have any paint. so i can only do the sketches. but still. need to copy from the laptop lar. AHHS.

theres a problem man. i cant get into my blog. SHIT. seriously dont know whats wrong. i just cant get in. which is wierd cos i can get into blogger but cant get into my blog. something is SERIOUSLY wrong. AHH. anyways finally bought some dvds and cds. only bougt 4 dvds. and theyre the movie kind. and bought 2 cds. SHE. and Rynn Lin. LOVE rynn. hes album is SOO good ok. as in totally. sighs. hahas. x).

祝你生日快乐，

祝你生日快乐，

祝你生日快乐～

祝你生日快乐。

MAN. i keep having these cravings for cold desert. especially mango pudding or anything with coconut. YUMS. ahh.

12thDAY; 5juneTUESDAY
1.got up at 8.30am!
2.took a cab to 南京西路站
3.then took the subway to 上海科技馆-Shanghai Science and Technology Museum
4.ate lunch there-unagi bento set
5.EXPLORED-bought a plasma ball-the zz one xP
6.went back by sub and cab
7.ate sushi snack at the sub-Dogoos-3yuan!
8.walked like half a mile to get to this indian restuarant to eat dinner
9.played with my plasma ball!

WIFEY LOVES ORANGES!
plus fishys.
MY WIFEY IS WIERD.

AHH. you know something. i still have my bites from OBS. AHHS. x(

5thDAY; 29mayTUESDAY
1.STUDY
2.grocery-mymall
3.swim xD
4.japanese dinner-all you can eat style!

6thDAY; 30mayWEDNESDAY
1.beef ramen for lunch
2.fruit juice-mymall
3.on the way to 古镇(old town) met a uni student; long interesting talks
4.reached to 古镇-1hour ride!
5.bought 5 pashmina wraps
6.had seafood dinner with the factory people

7thDAY; 31mayTHURSDAY
1.STUDY STUDY STUDY
2.shanghai circus city 上海马戏城-the show was GOOD man. totally awesome
3.went to four point; for a drink-ORANGE SHERBET. yumms
4.uncle surdah goes off tomorrow-sold him the pashmina wraps. sobs

8thDAY; 1juneFRIDAY
1.visit to the shanghai school for the disabled
2.gym
3,steamboat dinner!－火锅

9thDAY; 2juneSATURDAY
1.got up at 7.30am!; oatmeal brecs
2.followed dad to work
3.did some chemistry homework at the factory
4.had a stroll round the garden; the dogs are CUTE!xP
5.lunch-prawns, jellyfish, longbeans, tofu soup, fried fish... drools
6.tried the massage chair-爽!
7.went to the old town again-kali jie drove us there!
8.bought 10 pashmina wraps this time-at a cheaper price too xD
9.walked around and bought LOADS more goodies
10.kali jie gave me 2 necklaces; conclusion-shes NICE.hahas.
11.seafood dinner with the factory people-played murderer(a DIFFERENT version. xP)
12.lingjia ge drove us home
13.DEAD tired

10thDAY; 3juneSUNDAY
1.slept in!
2.had brecs at 11
3.went to church hungry-didnt have lunch
4.had indian dinner with unc weishan and aunt julie-loved the green curry!
5.took the MRT to zhaojiabang; PC WORLD!
6.loads of electronic goods
7.went back and watched 'the mistress of spices'

YEAH!i made it through one week in shanghai man. hahas. today went to the shanghai school for the blind and disabled. some charity visit organised by the hotel. the children there are really bright and CUTE. hahas. theres this girl that was our 'guide'. well so called guide. cos we sat next to her and we talked and stuff. shes really cute lar. this year 12. forgot her name though hahas. zhang chen qing i think. shes looks like one of those olden day china actresses. really sweet features and all. OHMAN. pity that shes partially blind. but i bet shes gonna be somebody when she grows up. anyways. after that came back then went to the gym. stayed there for about one hour. hahas. unbelivable. but it was kind of fun. and miah fell off the treadmill. hahas. he tried to do something funny and he totally flew off. serves him right. but it was such a sight i tell ya. xP. hmms getting hungry now. gotta go find some munchys. hahas. xD

cyndi wang - 当你


does anyone know what sorts of games are like totally hot now? hmms. here they sell it DIRT cheap i tell ya. my brother bought 4 gameboy advance sp cartridges for like 100rmb. and thats like 20 singapore dollars. and thats like 5sing for 1.

TELL THE WORLD THAT JESUS LIVES!whoots.



Cyndi wang - 明天见

雨下了 又停了 泪流了 又干了你走多久 多远了
我还在这 你说的 你忘了 可是我 还记得手心里
紧握着 已不属于我的亲热 爱怎会输给了时间
我的耳边 再听不见我以为永远不会变 最习惯的明天见
放手了 该回到原点 心会受伤
也能复原我会学着自己走出从前 祝福明天

man. the internet connection here is WIERD i tell you. WIERD. its like on off on off. BAHS.

YAY. 4th day in shanghai. its not too bad. hahas. since i couldnt get online earlier to post let me list the latest happenings. OHYEAH.





im going to shanghai tmr! AHHS. im having a nervous breakdown now. hahas. xP. still havent packed everything yet lar. im such a muddlehead. BAHS. but kinda excited bout going too. the place has a pool! yays. so will be able to swim everyday. SHUANG. but then there need to do 4 hours of studying too. well not really need. more like FORCED. but what can i say. owells. need to sleep early. tmr need to get up at 5.30am. uhuh. that early.

youve grown up.
ive grown up.
we're no longer who we used to be.
no more innocent laughter.
no more infectious smiles.
we've all left our happyness behind.
and walked towards the future.

man. the internet connection here is WIERD i tell you. WIERD. its like on off on off. BAHS.

IM BEING EATEN ALIVE!
as in literally.
by insects.
and damn do the bites itch.
go to hell you insects.
go stick yourselves up.
sorry. im on a colour spree. XP


ONLY ONE MORE DAY LEFT TO ELEARNING! ahh. damn happy. but damn stressed too. hahas. cos that means everything needs to be handed up today! ahhs. hahas. two more days till shanghai man. havent started packing yet lar. gonna be totally flustered tmr. hahas. AHHS. gotta.

XL ORANGES!


我们的苹果树

another 3 more days till shanghai! yeah man. but then id be missing loads of events man. like the global day of prayer. i was soo longing to go to that one. the last one was totally awesome lar. and be missing all the remedials and all. not like theyre great or what. but its good for studies right. sharks. my eyes are like swollen and damn does my back hurt. its all elearnings fault lar. somemore must wake up early for tuition. and sleep late to complete elearning. im gonna collaspe soon man. sharks.

its blissfully raining.




HEY MR XL PANTS!WHOOTS.




GOOD MORNING. well technically it is. its all those teachers fault. set what elearning day. its all part of this evil plan to make us appreciate school more man. its because of them im still up this late and still cant figure how to log into the damn maths portal. im so screwed. but at least i know im not the only one. damn are teachers scheming giving us all these wierd wierd stuff to figure out. and some keeps sending me stuff for a subject that im not taking. i cant even delete it lar. this is so confusing me. AHH. i betcha in the whole of singapore the majority of those awake are probably from the same school as me. sharks. i take school anytime man. its like SOO much better. plus dont these high ones know that sitting in front of the computer all day makes our eyes go bad. so they should stop these kind of stuff man. its all blinding me. plus my fingers and shoulders are aching. man. how much of this can anyone take.

im bored STIFF.

Artist: Avril Lavigne
Song: Innocence

Waking up I see that everything is ok
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliance
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliance
Please don't go away
Cus I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

i saw you down the aisle.
your back was facing me.
trying to get a response.
but im still the invisible tree.

save me.

I SURVIVED. through obs lar. i so thought i was gonna die. come to think of it. it was actually kinda fun lor. i dont mind going back. hahas. especially loved the sea stuff. what can i say. im addicted to water. the group leaves lesser to be desired lar. but altogether it was an OK experiance. hahas. after obs it was total bliss lar. maybe my parents felt bad about sending me to obs or something. when i came home. which was about 3. bathed. ate. and slept from 4 to the next day 10. nice. lar. noone actually disturbed me lar. then for lunch had kuay chap. and since we had to got to ecp for lessons. got to eat a seafood dinner man. hahas. oyar. i finished my level 1 inline skating. YEAH. i feel this sense of acomplishment lar. too bad it only lasted one day. by sunday everyone was back to their same annoying irritating nagging selves. not exactly in that sequence but yar. i keep having this floating holidayish feeling. like havent come back down to the world yet. but its hitting soon. we're being hit by what some call technology plus homework. but what i personally call an advanced torturing device. owells. call it as you please. been feeling really hungry and tired lately. maybe its an obs side effect or something. gotta get back to work. no way am i letting it down again.

dead tired.

ahhs. its OBS tmr. its confirmed man. im totally going. almost done packing. x]. BAHS. going to shanghai from 25 may to 20 june. there goes all my remedials and free time. plus all the project work stuff. AHHS. theyre never going to forgive me. had rollerblading lessons yesterday again. found out theres altogether 5 levels. im determined to go to the last level man. xD. yeah! today went to lunch at ghim moh. yums. heard the touching k one song again. its soo nice man. when i get back from obs im so gonna buy that cd. xp. mums in a frenzy again. shes too free at home. gets her all cranky and screaming. SHARKS. please oh let miah finally study so she can go back to work. i cant imagine my whole june holidays with her in a foreign land. SHIT. god save me.

ohman. just watched Kone-如果沒有明天 MV it is SOO touching. if you read the lyrics its like super touching ok. and its totally meaningful. could happen to anybody. and ahh. i'll post the mv here. let you see for yourself. besides. its been ages since i last posted a video. YAYS.

Kone-如果沒有明天 MV


如果沒有明天 - k one

你說　什麼都別說
噓　你靜靜躺在我胸口
緊握著你的手 我多麼的不捨
因為我們愛過

抱緊一些　如果看不見
(再抱緊一些　如果看不見)
我的明天　要怎麼永遠
I don't wanna lose You

你每個笑臉　我都看得見
那麼絕對　那麼的完美
如果沒有明天
(我們沒有明天)

心痛　是因為太愛我　Hu~
命運卻逼得我低頭 You know
我心裡的不捨 我永遠都記得
你會永遠愛我

我想輕輕對你說
絕不會忘記你
在我心中　還有個角落
裝著相愛的記憶

我無法改變　我又能怪誰
一滴眼淚　讓人都心碎
我們沒有明天

YAYS. the exams are over. but im so regreting not going for my art paper. i like did all the prep stuff. and i made into this simple but. hmms. strong? piece. like the message is there. plus im sure i'd be able to complete it in time. AHHS. x[. i should have just gone and do it lar. but that morning really felt totally sick. AHH. this is gonna be one of the moments i look back at and totally regret man. ahhs. anyway. still sick now. have this flu thing plus some throat infection. its getting better but not totally good yet. looks like i might not be going for obs. you know i kept saying that i dont want to go to obs and stuff. now that i might actually not get to go. i feel like going. sorta anyway. xp. i really want to go for the water sports and stuff. after all i did pay money. hmms. so how? oyar now i pretty hooked up on kone. maybe its cos ive suddenly sparked and interest in dancing and kone IS a dancing group. hahas. really want to go and buy their album. one of their songs 如果沒有明天 is really nice. its like totally touching. ohmygosh. and so is the mv. its like romeo and juliet. sort of. hahas. oyar. yesterday went to see the orthodentist. got a checkup. but probably gonna make the braces only after june holls. actually supposed to go make during the june holls. but its confirmed. i'll be spending my WHOLE june holls in shanghai. so there. sighs. at least i THINK its confirmed. after all theyre already applying for visa. and my dads getting the tickets tonight. then he goes to shanghai for ONE day and takes the night flight tmr and comes back on friday. isint that cool. next time when i get a job. really hope its a travelling job. well not ALWAYS travelling. but occasionally would be great. its like getting to see the world while earning money. xp. yeah man. hahas. owells. tmr theres school. gotta sleep early. its the day where we get out exam scripts back. its gonna be hell. xD.

damn is that little old man funny. wierd. totally wierd. but really funny. she says he has this toilet habit. well theres 3 toilets and he takes turn going round using them. she says its an obession. i say its an obsession AND a bladder problem. where the hell does he get so much sush to sush out. one of humankinds mystery. and he calls the car keys hes handphone. really. ok enough about wacky old man. hmms. ONE MORE EXAM PAPER LEFT. and thats art. havent really started preparing. SO DEAD. wells i did my research already. just havent started sketching. which is like the most crucial. OWELLS. then its two days holidays. then get back the scripts. oh the HORROR. and BRACES. ahh. then its obs. sucks man. planning to get out of it. but see how it goes first. then three days elearnning and meet the parents and JUNE HOLIDAYS. oh what a lovely word that is. it has such a nice ring to it. hms. actually kinda falling sick now. my throat is AWFUL. its like theres sand there ok. i can barely swallow lar. x[. ok. enough dallying. im gonna get seriously serious and do my art. YEAH right.

i totally hate my mum lar. just now i went to pay the delivary man money. then she ask why 50 bucks was missing. then i say how i know. then she scold me lar. say what why i screaming try to recall. like if someone maligns you you wont shout back in protest man. and how the hell can i recall when i never even see the 50 bucks. damn it lar. shes determined that i accidently gave the delivary man extra 50. does she suspect my brother no. does she suspect the wind no. does she suspect the STRANGER OUTSIDER cleaning helper. NO. what she does. suspect me. like i have anything to do with it. and now shes saying i took it. damn it. i hate her.

everythings piling up.

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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