hot guy alert!



ive come to realised.
that im gonna come out of this incident a very ugly person.
not that i was much of a sight before.
but you know.
uglier.
BECAUSE.
not only will i be scarred.
i will also be pimplefied.
cos the freaking wound is in the middle of my face
and i freaking cant wash my face.
cos well.
it hurts like hell.
conclusion.
im gonna look like hell on monday.
gawd save their eyes.

K I L L E R HEADACHE
GAWD

i think i hit the back of my head too or something. cos theres this one aching sore spot. AH. shit life sucks.

okay. been quite awhile since i last posted... this weeks been like a total whirlwind. plus schools started. sadly. but its not like ive been to school much. abit bout that later... hms how do i even start. okay saturday was like kinda busy. cos had to get up early and zoom to church to help with the heartfriends 10 anniversary deco. but it was still kinda fun. than after that zoomed to piano. was supposed to meet joyce nico and kitty after that for project work... but they finished already. i feel soo bad. cause i didnt do anything. GAWH. sorry guys!(: no wait. i did contribute. ONE word. hahas. like for the tittle. ohwells. but if we DO get picked i promise to do my part! REALLY! (: after that went for the heartfriends concert. guess who i met there. NICHOLAS. like emo, porn drawer NIC. yeah XD i think he never EVER expected i be'd there. samehere samehere. apparently he used to be in heartfriends. i never knew man o.0 ohwells. talked to him alittle. hahas. hes wierd man. seriously. no wait. i know that already. maybe its been too long since i last talked to him. HAH. takes time getting used to XD. okay than on sunday dad made us wake super duper early to cook curry chicken. cos we were supposed to go picnic with his family. the curry was okay. could have been better. ohwells(: next time! so it was like a lazy afternoon(: well for me and mi. the adults were having their 'conversation' i knew there was a ulterior motive. some family problem AGAIN. ohwells. after that came down with fever. HAH. so monday and tuesday was absent. kinda wanted to go to school. ohwells. i have soo much to catch up! ah. like seriously. and a math test to retake! darn. than wednesday went school. didnt even know there was history homework to be done. it totally sucks being the only one from class who takes history. im like super loner forever man. hms... ohwells. i should have taken lit! gwah. and after that like at the end of choir fainted. i soo thought i would be over the whole fainting thing. cos like the last time i fainted was like in secondary 2? but apparently not. shit. it was kinda embarrassing. i think i fell into the chairs in front of me. so like half my head was bashed up. but now its better. only my nose is like this bloody mess. and i think im like the first one to faint in choir. i mean. who faints in CHOIR. gawd. im seriously some ridicule joke. luckily it was only sectionals and only with the J1s. plus it was almost towards the end of choir. so that was good. but oh so embarrassing. so today im not in school again. for safety precautions. but im gonna die tmr. cos i missed history test today. so tmr need to retake math and history. but i hope not. hms... plus need to finish art by tmr. im a little confused. like im stuck halfway with art. i seriously do not know how to continue. ohgawd. i need to like regain my passion for art or something. i like seriously suck at it now. cos like i didnt draw ever after o'level. so now im rusty or something. like im the worst in the class now. GAWD. i think i just need to love art again. ohplease. sigh. got back econs test yesterday. didnt do to well. but at least i passed. but i thought i would do pretty okay with it. ohwells. and since i didnt come on monday and tuesday. im like lost in econs. which sucks. cos i actually like econs. ohwells. gotta go catch up now. life seriously sucks right now. shit.

hahas(: just took an interesting quiz. here are the answers and "who i really am" o.0

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

GAWD. am i seriously like that. hahXD

dramamama should smile more
and be less emo

WAIT
than cannot be dramamama anymore
SHARKS
confusing

"youre a very good choir BUT yadayadayadityda..."
case in point: we still suck

darn tired today. woke up late today so cabbed to school. hah. friggin expensive. and guess what we did for art. paint walls. HAH. it was darn tiring. cause it was like so hot and stuffy. plus the paint stank nuts. but it was sorta fun. a little. cause some people were being all wacky. i kinda like my art class(: cos we're like alittle family. hahas(: maybe its cos we all have to suffer together so the bonds greater XD. after that went off to choir. had to go to vjc for performance. i think we did okay. like we sucked okay. ohwells at least it sounded pleasant. all the rest were like GAWD. and we're like so SO DOWN there. totally got to buck up. plus our choir was like the friggin smallest. the rest were like TWICE ours. sheesh. but i amazingly didnt feel like nervous or anything. AND i didnt fall down. like when climbing the steps or whatever. i so thought i would fall. plus im in like the last row. thats more steps to climb man. i totally thought i would feel nervous and all but i didnt. i guess its cos my eyes were fixed on the conductoress. so you like dont see anything else? i dunno. but YAY i didnt fall. hms. saw SHORTY pants dramamama. HAH. dumbass blackface couldnt recognise me. HAH. ohwells. maybe too short cannot see. XD ohwells. but we got a huge trashing afterwards though. but we sorta deserve it i guess. she kept giving us the potential bullshit though. sarks. hms. AHS. its the last day of hols. like AHS. havent done ANY homework yet. totally doomed. looks like im not gonna be sleeping during the weekends. GAWD.

secret valentine

We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

cause if you jump i will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue

Skyway Avenue - We The Kings


She said let's change our luck
this night is all we've got
drive fast until we crash
this dead end life
sweet dreams that won't come true
i'd leave it all for you
brick walls keep closing in
let's make a run tonight

blinded by the lights
hold you through forever
never let you go

cause if you jump i will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue

she said don't change your mind
let's leave this town behind
we'll race right off the cliff
they will remember this
it all got so mundane
with you I'm back again
just take me by the hand
we're close to the edge

blinded by the lights
hold you through forever
never let you go

cause if you jump i will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue

where are your guts to fly
soaring through, through the night
and if you take that last step
i'll follow you
leave the edge and fly
we're finally alive

cause if you jump i will jump too
we will fall together
from the building's ledge
never looking back at what we've done
we'll say it was love
cause I would die for you
on skyway avenue
so what's left to prove
we have made it through

sleep oh sleep...
please dont desert me just yet.

okay. got load LOADS to write. lets start with tuesday(:
THANKYOU LOVEYS<3 my darlings suprised me with a birthday thingy at seoul garden. well it was like one MONTH early but its the thought that counts right. okay i'll admit. i was alittle suprised. cmon its like one MONTH early. who would have expected it. by the way thankyou for your prezzies. though it was a pretty bad day to pick. hah. i dunno. tuesday was like my emo (sorta) day. so i couldnt really feel anything. but i still love you guys!
wednesday
had class gathering. a FAILED class gathering at that. like less than half the class turned up. plus the CM who was sorta one of the ones who suggested it and planned it didnt come. FAIL dude FAIL. TSK. okay i was late and like practically all the girls already left. so when i reached there was only me, nico, jane, vashon, xianyao and bertram. kitkat came later. we watched like 3 movies?! okay it was 2 and a half for me. but it was kinda fun and okay. like in a totally chilled and relaxed kinda way. after that kitkat dragged us to go play tennis. well it was more like WATCH him play tennis. which by the way he sucks at XD. anyways ate loads at nicos house. cause well... there really wasnt much else to do. so there. after that went home with kitkat jane and xianyao. OH YES. let me tell you about nicos AWESOME directional instructions. heres me: "how do i get to your house?" and nico: "you go to bb mrt. take 173 UP a slope. than DOWN a slope. and than you PRESS THE BELL." awesome eh. like DUDE. yeah i know its literally up and down. but do you know how many slopes there were. i was like should i press the bell now should i not the whole trip. geez. oh and i have come to realised something. the guys in our class are quite nice to talk to. contrary to believe. like they talk ALOT. and RANDOMLY. hah. ohwells. makes great conversation starters eh. plus xy is like the one stop guy for gossip man. love that guy. he knows so much random stuff. and best of all... he tells it. whoots. (:
thursday TODAY
just got back from kunming bbq. well technically its just came back from jeyuns house. (: xiang wanted to go see her. and he sorta forced me to go. but it all ended up good(: cos i love jeyun. and i got to see her. YAY. plus i got a seashell. whee. hahas(: but it was still kinda awkward. like in the middle of the night we go knocking on her house. plus we were sorta stuck outside the house cos SOMEONE refused to ring the bell. whatever. i still loved seeing yun-y. even though she was like so EAGER to chase us out of her house. hahas. the bbq was OKAY. the food totally stank though. sorry kimchi but seriously. not enough food. but i loved playing with your itouch though. i should totally get one. no wait. i shall totally go out with you more often. YEAH. thats a more cost efficient method. HAH. im like super mesmerised with it. like i said. im simple minded. im happy with the simplest of things. nico go put games into your iphone! than i can get my dosage of retarded fun. XD before that went to make passport. cos it got damaged. by guess what. the big scary monster : the washing machine. it came out in shreds so DUH i had to make a new one. after that went lingerie shopping with mum. hahas. mi just sat in a corner trying to ignore all the hanging bras around him. HAH. after that went yumcha for dinner. i just love chinatown man. i know its all tourisy and all but seriously. if you like look outside of the tourisy stuff, its pretty awesome. like the food and the bargains. whoo. i miss shopping. sighs. okays need to serious snooze now. tmr have to reach school by 8 for art. GAWD. plus after that choir performance. GAWD GWAD. totally gonna die tmr. shit.

愛的宣言 - 大嘴巴 Da Mouth


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ho baby 愛的宣言 我們大聲的說 手hold著手
這星球 讓我們 用笑聲來推動
ho baby 愛的宣言我們大聲的說 你搭著我
每一天 讓我們 用力愛來感動

oh 愛 不是擺在眼前 乖乖待在那邊
好多藏起來的角落等著你去發現
有沒有三兩三 是不是上梁山
是不是忘了自己怎麼順利走到了今天
oh 你曾經說過我跟家裡很不熟 hey
你曾經說過我朋友不太多 hey
家裡默默挺你走 朋友愛你在尊重
靜下來回個头 看看愛在你的左右
你眼神看著天邊 手放口袋裡面 好像 u don't care
噗通噗通 左邊 1234567 又浪費了時間
now whachu gonna say ?
愛就要趕快表現 先跨第一步 兩邊有了愛的引線
一起點燃的兩邊 用力擁抱愛的感覺 adadadadadada
我唱了老半天 你手機撥了沒?

REPEAT *

oh 愛 不是那麼膚淺 打破框架界線
反而長大了變得自我而且敷衍
自己在搧涼扇 不如一起搧涼扇
是不是忘了大家都共同生活在這愛的世界
你曾經說過 耶? 誰跟我不太合 hey
你曾經說我又看不順眼誰 hey
被自私打昏了頭 看看他們的心中
靜下來回個頭 發現大家愛的溫柔
你只愛自己身邊不容不同的臉 好像 u the one
留下飛翼空間 1234567 屬屬無限世界
now whachu gotta do is
用心讓愛感覺 踢掉暴戾成見
尊重愛的每面 享受這個饗宴 adadadadadada
你听了老半天 心門打開了沒?

REPEAT * *

永遠在身邊 - 大嘴巴 Da Mouth


*
Baby boy
永遠永遠手牽手 一步兩步一起走
永遠永遠要記得 我們要一起生活
不管晴天的時候 不管下雨的時候
不放開手到永久 我們要一起生活

眼淚她為你流過 也為自己掉過
對於你們的愛 她總是抱著堅強的笑容
錯過那些時間 謝謝她的守候
是時候緊緊牽她的手 帶她到你的城堡裡

最近還好嗎 想念的心開不了口
枯想著妳有沒有好好過 擔心著妳每天生活
你好嗎最近如何 照顧身體工作加油
我一個人也會勇敢好好過 不讓你擔心多一秒

想念著 每天每秒我們故事 每天每秒說好的事
兩個人一起散步 是最浪漫的事
你是我的天使 給我力量能夠堅持

那些關心問候 翅膀一樣的雙手 是我最幸福的所有
心裡面有你建的角落 脆弱時我能夠躲一躲
妳愛我像翅膀一樣溫柔的手 我要抱著妳不要再錯過
你的愛是最藍那片天空 cuz baby girl I'm coming back home

REPEAT *

幸福少了妳在身邊不會完整
人潮中朝你走來那張可愛微笑的臉孔
這份愛 不是悸動 守護一輩子的感動
這段路踏著幸福的每一步一起牽著手

心疼妳會睡不好 總是縮在床的一角
我要回來給妳依靠 哄妳看妳笑著睡著
照片裡你的微笑 我們甜蜜得打鬧
好希望微風把思念 代替我親吻你嘴角

想念著 每天每秒我們故事 每天每秒說好的事
約定好去看的風景 愛譜成了詩
你就是我的天使 給我力量能夠堅持

陽光燦爛午後 我又在街上走 你的影子不再寂寞
想到你的身邊到不了 像個路人般看熱鬧
經過那個屬於我們的轉角 走過兩個人曾經逛的街
那些店還有熟悉的畫面 oh baby girl I'm coming back home

REPEAT *

沒有辦法想像 那畫面
一個孤獨的背影走在 小公園
一顆心 需要暖 一雙手 需要牽
故事要有美好結局 需要兩雙手來寫

永遠 不是只出現在童話裡的夢
在身邊 眼淚加了蜜糖甜
這句點 要完美畫在無名指上
承諾的開始 戀人們 要一起珍藏

sometimes i just get tired of all the pretending...
but the show must go on...

bimbo doesnt exactly mean stupidity
its just the stupid actions and words that come out from you.

should i change because circumstances tell me to?
should i hate because society tells me to?
should i love because im supposed to?

so many questions that rise from within me.
so many questions left unanswered.
so many questions that have no answers.

what should i do to save myself?
what should i do to save the ones i love?
what should i do to save those whom are lost?

this heavy burden lies in my heart.
it causes me to think and wonder.
and yet no solution can i ponder.
oh how this heavy heart yearns to slumber.

i realised that going to pioneer has like widened my perspectives or something. cos like when i was in fairfield it was like i dunno... protected or something? i mean i know that things happen. i mean protected doesnt mean i was like some idiot baby or something. but it never was such a reality. cos like it didnt happen anywhere close to 'home' or at least i didnt know. or pretended not to know. well i did know. its just that maybe the situations werent close to me or something. i dunno. like now i have 'different' friends. its actually kinda cool. and i know people who do 'stuff'. but that doesnt make them bad or something. everyones cool. its just that i think ive matured. which is a good thing. but its like theres now this heavy burden. cos you now see things that you used to be blind too? ah. ive no idea what im talking bout now... this is so confusing.

YAY. finally choir camp is over. it was like SUPER tiring. we sang for more than 6 hours yesterday. but today was sorta better. it was like 4 hours? plus 1 hour with the clienition. or however you spell it. the 1 hour we sang was probably like the best we ever sang since the who knows how many practices. gosh. (:but it was overall quite fun. but still super tiring. gotta know my choir people better(: hms lets see. now i know that vienna and hilary are truly bimbos. plus vienna is like a techno-idiot. like seriously. the girl doesnt know how to use a camera. oh wait. she does. sorta. like how to on the camera and snap the photo. basically. and hilary can really natter non-stop. like NONSTOP. and than she'll break into uncontrolable embarrasing laughter. and debby, amanda and eleanor are just plain retarded. okay this is like just plain knowledge. but whatever. and weiqin(wendy OR stacy. whatever. we havent made up our minds on what to call her yet.) is my STRONG pillar of support. like the only SANE one. hms. and i got to know mila better. we think the same babe! plus i got to speak to people i previously never really spoke to. so yay! ohOH. and i found out that someone likes someone and the same someone likes that someone back. COMPLICATED. but theyre the irritating kinda couple who are SO obviously fit for one another but just refuse to be together. like our art couple! shwester sighting today! hee(: they are like soo cute together its intolerable. and i think she likes him too... hms. she never DENIED it. so theres something up. yeah. okays gonna go snooze. we like slept at 1230-130 last night? cos it was movie night! happy feet. whee. and we woke up at 645 or something. ohwells. hms. actually im not say really tired. but my eyebags are needing tender care. ohwells. mask day!

self reminder: BUY SHOES!!! by FRIDAY! ahs. performance! ahs. nervous breakdown. gawd.


AHH. adam lambert is GAY!!
heart shatter.
joycelyn is gonna be soo depressed... (:

I Will Be - Leona Lewis


There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said
goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

[Bridge:]
I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

[Chorus:]
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

[Verse 2:]
I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause
you're here with me

[Bridge:]
[ Find more Lyrics on www.mp3lyrics.org/ar8 ]
And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

[Chorus:]
I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

[Ending bridge:]
Without you I cant breathe,
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

And without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

[Chorus:]
And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll
be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

[Chorus:]
I will be (I'll be), all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

And all my life, you know I'll
be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

The Fear - Lily Allen


I want to be rich and I want lots of money
I don’t care about clever I don’t care about funny
I want loads of clothes and fuckloads of diamonds
I heard people die while they are trying to find them

I’ll take my clothes off and it will be shameless
‘Cuz everyone knows that’s how you get famous
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah I’m on to a winner

[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

Life’s about film stars and less about mothers
It’s all about fast cars concussing each other
But it doesn’t matter cause I’m packing plastic
and that’s what makes my life so fucking fantastic

And I am a weapon of massive consumption
and its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function
I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror
I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner

Chorus
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cuz I’m being taken over by The Fear

[Bridge]
Forget about guns and forget ammunition
Cause I’m killing them all on my own little mission
Now I’m not a saint but I’m not a sinner
Now everything's cool as long as I’m getting thinner

[Chorus]
I don’t know what’s right and what’s real anymore
I don’t know how I’m meant to feel anymore
When do you think it will all become clear?
‘Cause I’m being taken over by fear

Fingerprints - Katy Perry


Voted most likely
To end up on the back of a milk box drink
Looks like I'm letting 'em down
'Cause $7.75
Isn't worth an hour of my hard work and time
When you can't afford half the shit they advertise
Oh I'm worth more than an ex
More than a toe-tagged generation full of regrets
Ohh I won't settle no oh
Oh I can't settle

I wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air
I'm not going down with out a fight

(Chorus)
It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints on you

Representing you and me
Don't you wanna go down in history
Rather than end up
Begging on the streets
Trading undertable favors
For a place to sleep
'Cause I'm worth more than this
So stop writing prescriptions for more Ritalin
I can focus my attention

I wanna break the mold
Wanna break the stereotype
Fist in the air
I'm not going down with out a fight

(Chorus)
It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints

Don't give up
Don't give in
Build your house on the rock
Oh not in the sand, in the sand, in the sand, in the sand

(Chorus)
It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me

It's my life
And I'm not sitting on the sidelines watching it
Pass me by
I'm leaving you my legacy
I gotta make my mark
I gotta run it hard
I want you to remember me
'Cause I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints
I'm leaving my fingerprints in the END

Thinking Of You - Katy Perry


Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You said move on
Where do I go
I guess second best
Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer
In the middle of winter
Like a hard candy
With a surprise center
How do I get better
Once I've had the best
You said there's
Tons of fish in the water
So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips
I taste your mouth
He pulled me in
I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into...

You're the best
And yes I do regret
How I could let myself
Let you go
Now the lesson's learned
I touched it I was burned
Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
What you would do if
You were the one
Who was spending the night
Oh I wish that I
Was looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Looking into your eyes
Oh won't you walk through
And bust in the door
And take me away
Oh no more mistakes
Cause in your eyes I'd like to stay...

WHOOTS. (: yesterday went for band(age) with stef. its was kinda awesome. hahas. mi's band didnt win. DUH. but at least they weren't the WORST. hee(: met loads of people there. like grace, alcinda marcus and huizhen. oh. and the mg bimbos. hahas(: joan, kim, hannah... it was kinda fun. whee. oh yesterday finally took my theory exam. and i met simon mag there! hahas(: she was also taking the same grade paper. how coincidinc man. hms. gonna go for choir camp later. feeling lazy to leave out of the house. but ahs. there no choice. ohwells.

The Climb - Miley Cyrus


I can almost see it
That dream I'm dreaming but
There's a voice inside my head sayin,
You'll never reach it,
Every step I'm taking,
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking but I
Got to keep trying
Got to keep my head held high

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what?s waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing,
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes they knock me down but
No I'm not breaking
I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm going to remember most yeah
Just got to keep going
And I,
I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on, cause

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes I'm going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

There's always going to be another mountain
I'm always going to want to make it move
Always going to be an uphill battle,
Sometimes you going to have to lose,
Ain't about how fast I get there,
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

Keep on moving
Keep climbing
Keep the faith baby
It's all about
It's all about
The climb
Keep the faith
Keep your faith

Home Sweet Home - Carrie Underwood


You Know I'm A Dreamer
But My Heart's Of Gold
I Had To Run Away High
So I Wouldn't Come Home Low

Just When Things Went Right
It Doesn't Mean They Were
Always Wrong
Just Take This Song And You'll
Never Feel
Left All Alone

Take Me To Your Heart
Feel Me In Your Bones
Just One More Night
And I'm Comin' Off This
Long & Winding Road

I'm On My Way
Well, I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home
Tonight Tonight
I'm On My Way
I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home

You Know That I Seem
To Make Romantic Dreams
Up In Lights, Fallin' Off
The Silver Screen

My Hearts Like An Open Book
For The Whole World To Read
Sometimes Nothing-
Keeps Me Together
At The Seams

I'm On My Way
Well, I'm On My Way
Home Sweet Home
Tonight Tonight
I'm On My Way
Just Set Me Free
Home Sweet Home

lifes a bitch
so just live and let leave.

Lollipop - MIKA


What's the big idea?
Yo, Mika!
I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
I said sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Loves gonna get you down.

I went walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
'Cause loves gonna get you down.
Take a look at the girl next door
She's a player and a downright bore
Jesus loves her but she wants more
Oh, bad girls get you down.

Sing it!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down.
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down.

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.
Take a look at a boy like me
Never stood on my own two feet
Now I'm blue as I can be
Oh, love only got me down.

Sing it!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh loves gonna get you down.

I was walking with my momma one day
When she warned me what people say
Live your life until love is found
Or loves gonna get you down.

Sing it!
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down
Say love, say love
Oh, loves gonna get you down.

Mama told me what I should know
Too much candy gonna rot your soul
If she loves you let her go
'Cause love only gets you down.

Waa-oh waa-oh waa-oh lollipop
Waa-oh waa-oh waa-oh lollipop
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh loves gonna get you down
Sucking too hard on your lollipop
oh loves gonna get you down
[REPEAT TILL END OF SONG]

Love Today - MIKA


Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today.
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today.
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

I've been crying for so long,
Fighting tears just to carry on,
But now, but now, it's gone away.

Hey girl why can't you carry on,
Is it 'cause you're just like your mother,
A little tight, like to tease for fun,
Well you ain't gonna tease no other,
Gonna make you a lover.

Everybody's gonna love today,
love today, love today.
Everybody's gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.
Girl in the blue with the big bust on,
Big bust on, big bust on.
Wait till your mother and your papa's gone,
Papa's gone
Momma, momma papa, shock shock me,
Shock shock me, shock shock.

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
I said,
Everybody's gonna love today, gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Carolina sits on ninety five
Give her a dollar and she'll make you smile.

Hook her, book her, nook her, walk away!

Girl dresses like a kid for fun,
Licks her lips like they're something other,
Tries to tell you life has just begun,
But you know she's getting something other
Than the love from her mother

Everybody's gonna love today,
Love today, love today
Everybody's gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Girl in the blue with the big bust on,
Big bust on, big bust on.
Wait till your mother and your papa's gone,
Papa's gone
Momma, momma papa, shock shock me,
Shock shock me, shock shock.

I said,
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
I said,
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di.....

Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today, gonna love today
Everybody's gonna love today,
Gonna love today,
Anyway you want to, anyway you've got to,
Love love me, love love me, love love.

Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di Doom da da di da di.....

oh and to add to the wierd things that have been going on today... joyce was being wierd. like wierder than usual. she was dancing in pe. in the middle of the field. in the hot sun. thats like worse than my javelin tango. and i think i do dance better than her.

im in a emo sensitive state of mind.
please dont piss me off.

gawd i hate it when im like that.
pms.pms.pms.

picturetime!

the lovely cake we bought and designed for fizah -from the icing room




awkwardAWKWARDawkward. something totally awkward happened today. but im not gonna be like going into detail. ohgawd. and those 2 were there again. they just make awkward things even more awkward. gees. okay thinking away now. hms. had dinner with stef again. (:kimchi soup. it was really coincidental. seeing i was supposed to have choir. but it got cancelled. and she was like wanna meet. so yay. its fate babe. totally. oh and today i was like super late for school. when i reached school it was like 815-830. i woke up at 730. and my dad had to send me. ah. and today was super tiring. had pe. with the stupid blazing sun. but at least we did shot put. and not some stupid run or whatever. but he did make us run warm up lap WITH the shot put ball. which is freaking heavy. gawd. and after that walked with fizah from school to lot1. than walked the whole of lot1 like how many times with steffi. than after dinner still had time so me and stef walked from lot1 to school. cos she wanted to see the school and like where it was and all. and than walked BACK to lot1. gawd. there was like so much walking man. today was like a burn calorie day or something... HEE. march holidays are coming! whoots. cant wait. dude the sleepins are just making me drool.

NICOLE has officially established herself as resident bimbo. HAHS. i hope youre seeing this bimbo. like seriously. when i asked shawn to help me buy food he was like anything in the cafe also can... except bimbo meat(or something)... that one must buy from nicole. HAHS. hee(: okay. done suaning. whoo~ hms. today had econs test. it was pretty okay. not that tough. considering i didnt study much. but it helped that we just went through the tutorial in class. (:helped loads i say. also tried out the choir gowns today. its not too bad. cept for the itchy lacey jackety thingy. its like a white tube gown. with a maroon sash at the waist. it reminds me of like a wedding gown or something. or the bridesmaid. hms. anyways holidays are coming up. so much stuff to do in the holls. sharks. supriseSUPRISEsuprise. whoots. so exciting. i just love celebrating birthdays. whee~

fairs fair. you ignore me. i ignore you. you deserve that jerk.

a random hilarious thing i just thought of;
kimchi doesnt eat kimchi
HAH!

ever since i started wearing the shoelace bracelet everyones been like DUDE ARE YOU WEARING SHOE. LACES. !! gawd. whats wrong with wearing shoelaces. its not like its wierd. well at least not to me. sheesh. i was like almost this close to asking them to like go read my blog to know why. but i didnt. whee. since i made that stupid comment about asking people to read their blogs as being stupid. gawd im not gonna make the same stupid mistake. im no hypocrite dude. sigh(: hms today during choir the teacher was like suddenly the school wants you to get gold. dont you wanna go to prague. and hilary was like OMG PRAGUE. (shes funny. im not gonna say shes a bimbo. but yeah shes funny. ) anyway. its like shouldnt they have mentioned it earlier or something. all they told us was like hongkong. dude theres a huge difference. i think we have finally found the motivation we needed. WHOOTS. yay. okay now i gotta go study maths. theres another stupid maths quiz tmr and im like SUPER behind. like behind behind. everyones at chapter 3 and i havent completed chapter 1. so dead. soso dead...

i got dumped by bridget
AGAIN
babe is this gonna go on forever
BAH

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANGEETA LOVEY!
i stink! hahas(: just got back from a bbq. the food was good man. there was steak, lamb, squid, prawns, salmon. GAWD it was good. its the red wine kinda bbq. was my godbrothers dads birthday(: well sorta. the right month wrong day. but whatever. im feeling totally refreshed today. cos yesterday i slept more than 12 hours. when i got back i got a 1-2 hour nap. than i got up and bathed. than slept from 8-next morn 11(: and got up to go for piano. hee(: but still feeling kinda tired. ohwells. THEORY EXAM IS NEXT WEEK. ah. i have this im totally gonna fail it feeling. hms. dont wanna spoil my happy mood so im not gonna emo over it. YEAH. bought stickers and a cool pen that has like 8 colours in 1 pen. so cool. plus i bought betty boop stickers. shes like so hot man. hahas. plus pooh and stitch! hahas. i totally love flea markets man. i got like 4 stacks of stickers for 2 bucks. lovely. the syf songs have been playing in my head like the whole day. actually it started yesterday. during art. when we were 'playing' with cling wrap. after i realised i was like WHOA. where did that come from. hahas(: ohwells. whee.

the lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalas~







hee(: thats the clique 'identity' i came up with(: its actually shoelaces. DUH. but thats not the main idea. cos like everyones been oh i miss you guys. i wish you were here with me and all. so i came up with this. the first plan was like a charm bracelet. but thats gonna be mitey ex. so this is the cheaper version(: YAY. you know how people tie knots on strings to remember stuff. yeah you tie knots to remember people. or ribbons. well whatever works. yups. so you'll look at it and be all yeah i remember you. and it sorta feels like theyre right there. like for example i tied 7 knots on the lace(: but dont go talking to the laces or something. (:plus it looks pretty cool yeah. they can be worn as a bracelet or a bag charm or whatever. pretty smart eh! hee(: everyone must wear okay? ohhappyday.

Secret Valentine - We The Kings


Soft kiss and wine what a pretty friend of mine
we're finally intertwined
nervous and shy for the moment we will come
alive tonight

secret valentine

We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

lay down be still
don't worry talk they will
i'll be loving you until
morning's first light
breaks tomorrow
i'll take care of you tonight

secret valentine

We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

when guilt fills your head
brush off rise up from the dead
this is the moment that we
will come alive
brace yourself for love
sweet love, secret love.

We'll write a song
that turns out the lights
when both boy and girl start suddenly shaking inside
don't waste your time
speed up your breathing
just close your eyes
we'll hope it's not for nothing at all

AHH! i have eye bags. damn. okays. staying up to do project work now. which sucks. ohwells. hms. today was pretty slack. and kinda fun. hee(: only had like 4 subjects today. history, gp, pw, chinese. oh and plus pe. chinese was super duper slack. but kinda fun. cos the teacher didnt come and havoc just reigned king man. like seriously. everyone was like playing music. someone was singing. (luckily he never sing for council elect... there wouldn't have been the slightest chance of him getting in than) and i realised that guys in class are bitchier than us girls. GAWD. seriously. hah. but i do agree with them on some terms. go valerie! go xavior! go susan! HAH. who knew they would unite us. whoots. hahas(: pe was crazy fun too. we did javelin and me and fizah were dancing the tango with our poles. (: cos she kept insisting on using this ONE stick with a crack in it. and whenever we go retrieve the poles she would look for the cracked one. and ONLY the cracked one. so i started singing only you... and than she started dancing with it. and whoots. with have pole tango. the classier not so slutty version of pole dancing thank you. after that had pw group. and choir. which was kinda tiring but still okay. we're learning a german song. how cool is that. i can tell people i know how to sing a german song. but the pronounciations an ass though. how we're ever going to memorise will be a miracle. yay. hms. ohOH. me and xin sort of thought up of a cool game in korean class yesterday. hahas. which sadly was the last korean class. i got my cert! whoots. i'll probably only continue in december or something. like when i have more time. and AFTER i really learn everything. like after the whole thing i still cant read any korean words lar. okay maybe a FEW. like really really few. hms. anyways. the game. cos i have this huge obsession with huge flat circle lollipops. plus xin gave out lollipops that day. so this is not some random im wierd thing. and when i told her about the lollipop she was like gawd its so big two people can lick it. one on each side. so i was like hey thats like the hotdog game. like 2 people eat ends of a hotdog till they meet in the center. yeah. and so the lollipop game was born. hee(: like two people lick the FLAT lollipop till they meet in the center and MUACKS. hey. i know. I KNOW. this could be an orientation/camp game. but instead of using lollipops which would take ages to finish. they could use the rice? biscuit thing. the flat flat circular one. that turns soggy once it touches water. and theyre usually rainbow hued. like red and greens or something. cool man. hms... im so gonna be a ogl next year. NEW GAME. hee(: kay its late. gotta finish homework and stuff. tatas.

pain is easier to endure when ignored...

im not wierd.
and i only 'talk' to myself cos noone replies me.
plus its normal.
isint it.

had piano today. AHS. i cant stand the new place lar. it makes me feel claustraphobic man. i mean the pianos are already so big. and they made the rooms smaller. DUDE. wheres the logic in that. anyways theory exam is in like TWO weeks. im totally gonna die for it. cos ive rarely practised. or done much of the papers. GAWD. so dead. hms... today didnt have art(: so yay. but still didnt get to go home early. so whatever. but yay we sorta did pw. but wahtever cos we didnt finish much of it. okay i need to stop this whole yay whatever thing. hms. ohOH. wait. i cant remember what i wanted to say. hms. i think going to pjc has made me bimbo-er than ever. as in like blur, stupid and steff PLUS bridget like. OH. plus belle too. gawd. that makes me SUPER BIMBO. or something. okay whatever. im gonna do pw now and be a good GOOD girl. yeah right.

first strike...
dearies im trying my bestest

close ups will just magnify my flaws and make me understand why im not good enough for you.

life is totally not fair.
i mean youre penicl thin skinny, have flawless skin, humourous, and nice.
DUDE youre a freaking guy.
yet youre have better 'qualifications' than me.
sheesh.
some guys are just girls man.

ive just begun building up a reputation for being responsible and trustworthy
as in: i. can. keep. secrets.
please dont bloody spoil it.

i think im a guy,
with boobs and long hair,
and a dickless crotch.

like seriously
im rough, untidy, uncouth, vulgur, sick, dirty, stinky and hungry.
i see girls in school eat cupcakes with SPOONS.
im definitely not one of them.

omg. now i totally KINDA regret totally wasting my weekends. im like drowning in work now. this sucks man... hms. today was a pretty long day. got back home at like 9 plus. cos there was choir and all. i think we really pissed of the conductor-ess. cos she like didnt come today and all. ohwells. today we practised extra hard though. sorta making up i guess. and yes vienna i know i have like a black face. its not like i can really help it. its like my when im not thinking or concentrating really hard face. ohwells. i'll TRY to smile or something. no promises though. its my normal face babe. theres nothing much i can do about it. except maybe go for plastic for something. but thats really not an alternative now. considering im broke and all. so well. its me and my black face throughout. DEAL. hms. i passed the maths test. but like half the class got like full marks... so it isnt really that much of and achievement i guess. ohwells. ive come to realised that he has loads of similarities to ric. like i met them both in the first week of school. bonded over unfortunate boring talks. both commented on my handwriting. both are extremely aneroxically skinny. both have pretty cool hair. and small eyes. both like to act cool. GAWD i think its a cycle repeating itself. its like a RECYCLE. hah. ohwells. got loads of work to do. gotta stop STOP obssessing over it. whatever. ohgawd. ART. no.

the world is a stage;
where we are just actors who go about our businesses

i was DUMPED yesterday... by bridget. HERH.

BABES(:
lovelies lets meet up during the march holidays kay
maybe at xins house...
cause i WANT and HAVENT YET learn how to play mahjong
plus can we be total bimbos and do non stop camwhoring
cause ive realised i dont have much pictures
plus im not fully making use of my camera
which means its just totally rotting in one corner
gosh lets meet!(:

Island In The Sun - Emma Roberts (Aquamarine)


Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip

When you're on a holiday
You can't find the words to say
All the things that come to you
And I wanna feel it too

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

Hip hip
Hip hip

When you're on a golden sea
You don't need no memory
Just a place to call your own
As we drift into the zone

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

Hip hip
Hip hip
Hip hip

On an island in the sun
We'll be playing and having fun
And it makes me feel so fine
I can't control my brain

We'll run away together
We'll spend some time forever
We'll never feel bad anymore

Hip hip

We'll never feel bad anymore
No no
We'll never feel bad anymore
No no

OH MY FREAKING GOSH. mi's band got into the finals for band(age). im so proud of them. :D anyone who wants to buy tickets can contact me. its on 14march and tickets are going for 15 bucks. MUST SUPPORT(: fairfield band man. hahas(: today finally went to fix my specs. i was wearing it crooked for like practially the whole week. sucks i tell ya. the whole week i was seeing stuff crooked. totally non-comfortable. eating sushi today. LOVE. homemade sushi(: by me duh. okays got loads of work to rush today. jc like is like totally stressing. and totally sucks. but im beginning to get a hang of my class. LOVE. yay.

Hear You Me (May Angels Lead You In) - Jimmy Eat World


There's no one in town I know
You gave us some place to go.
I never said thank you for that.
I thought I might get one more chance.

What would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

So what would you think of me now,
so lucky, so strong, so proud?
I never said thank you for that,
now I'll never have a chance.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.
May angels lead you in.

And if you were with me tonight,
I'd sing to you just one more time.
A song for a heart so big,
god wouldn't let it live.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

May angels lead you in.
Hear you me my friends.
On sleepless roads the sleepless go.
May angels lead you in.

May angels lead you in.

how do i ask for it without seeming desperate to have it...
sometimes i think i should just give up.

the first person i saw when i stepped into school was you



sometimes i think of what could have been. and about the decisions i made. sometimes i regret making those decisions because i think of what could have been. if i didnt do this if i didnt say that. if i didnt take it. things might have been different. i wouldnt have to go through what ive been going through. but than i think of the decisions ive made. and sometimes i feel like maybe i did the right thing after all...

oh gosh. its finally the weekend. like FINALLY dude. had to rush over to dental today. i was like half an hour late. paiseh man. (:today was pretty slack. but theres like loads of homework to do during the weekend though. i heard a sickeningly sweet 'love story' today. wooo~ i kept grinning to myself cos it was just so sweet.(: hee. plus it was from a guys point of view. i never thought a guy would ever be that sweet. he was like love at first sight or something. gawd. im so happy for him. i hope she likes him back. i think she does anyway. hahas(: ohwells. todays been a so-so day. gotta go to sleep soon. ive been having eyebags the last few days lar. snores.

bitches of a feather flock together
-stef

famous sayings by nicole;

1. we were leaving class and she said this to classmate daniel: bye daniel! hello kitty! as in hello kittys boyfried is daniel. get it.

2. we were running for p.e. and she said this to classmate jane: faster jane! faster! tarzan is waiting for you at the finish line! tarzan jane. DUH.

3. we were in the canteen and classmate hengli bought a drink and sat down at our table, she said this to classmate hengli: hengli! why you never buy HL milk? Heng Li = H L. yeah i know shes lame... but wait theres more.

4. i was saying this guy was cute and she said this to me: jasmine! how could you do this to aladdin? disney = aladdin and jasmine.

yeah. thats about it for now. gotta go collect somemore. you can totally tell how my next 2 years in pj is gonna be like. whee.

xin was right.
im like totally influenced.

i had dinner with my LOVE. whatever. it was just stef. my beloved twin. hahas. it was kinda nice of her to have dinner with me(: afterall today i end at 7plus - 8? yeah. hee(: happyday. had newyork newyork again. i think im falling in love with their crepe or something. hms. had a long LONG talk with her. anyways. today school was pretty okay. overall at least. since there werent any lessons or whatever. anyway those dont really count as LESSONS lessons. so yeah. and we suprise fizah today too! happy birthday dearie. it was quite cool. cos we did it was a class. i know 4d does like tons of it and youre like so what dude. but yeah its a first step in class bonding man. we're getting there. yay. hms. and it rained today! so pe was kinda slack. just the way i like it. whee. after that helped kangkiat with his student council thing. im quite proud of what i came up with. 'take a break, take a kangkiat' hahas. lame i know. but its kinda smart too. you think. okay i like kept metioning after that. like im so proud of it. self reminder; stop haolianing about it. after that was choir. we finally learned our last song. vienna was being an ass as usual. seriously. that girls mouth is so big its never closed. but shes nice. as is hilary. and all the choir people. im kinda glad i joined choir. yay. but we sorta pissed off the conductor today(: ohwells. things happen. need to catch some snooze. theres... GAWD. maths lecture tmr. i need to totally stay awake man. kays nights(:

sh and es together forever(:
put them together and you get SHES. (pronounced shas)
WHOOTS.

gosh wednesdays are like one of the worst days ever. i was totally tired today. i almost slept through the econs lecture... and thats like alot for me. cos i like econs and its something i usually find interesting and NON sleeping. so yeah today sucks. gawd. its such a depressing day. i have discovered something else today. like everyday i discover something. its really fun. hee(: hms. next week is like the last korean lesson! gosh its so fast. i dunno if im feeling sad or relieved. hms... cos its seriously hard to cope with both it and school. so i dunno. im like probably the dumbest person there. cos i dont know anything and i cant read anything. ohwells. hms had choir today too. it was kinda tiring. oh heck. the whole of wednesday is tiring. im just so depressed now...

i will choose to be a happy person

i have just convinced myself that i shall no longer talk about you. nor obsess about you. because it always makes me depressed...

dude you cant ignore/neglect/avoid me forever...

its gonna be 2 long years...

today i saw a rainbow
it was big and beautiful
it made me smile

today i saw a rainbow
i believe its a sign
that tomorrow be'd better

Amsterdam - Coldplay


Come on, my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
If i, if I'd only waited
I'd not be stuck here in this hole
Come here my star is fading
And I swerve out of control
And I swear I waited and waited
I've got to get out of this hole

But time is on your side
Its on your side now
Not pushing you down and all around
It's no cause for concern

Come on, oh my star is fading
And I see no chance of release
And I know I'm dead on the surface
But I am screaming underneath

And time is on your side
Its on your side now
Not pushing you down
And all around, no
It's no cause for concern

Stuck on the end of this ball and chain
And I'm on my way back down again
Stood on a bridge, tied to the noose
Sick to the stomach
You can say what you mean
But it won't change a thing
I'm sick of the secrets
Stood on the edge, tied to a noose
You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose
You came along and you cut me loose.

all those in favour of another clique outing say AYE.
its gonna be march babes.
its time again(:

i think that people who ask me to read thier blogs are wierd. like seriously... it just feels i dunno. WIERD. not that its wrong or whatever. but its like asking them to read in my brain or something. especially if youre both like in the same room or something. than theyll ask you to come read their blog and theyre like standing next to you. either staring or reading with you. thats just wierd man. i mean sure i dont mind reading blogs and all. but i prefer to do it when im alone. if not it feels like im invading their privacy and thier inviting me to invade thier privacy...
ohwells. i think im just being sensitive or something again. sheesh(:

sick.
and its not purposely or whatever kay. its really sick. ohwells
tmr there like 2 tests. so im gonna officially die tmr. whee. wells in the morning went to see doctor. than in the afternoon had a nap. just finished tidying my notes. dont really feel like studying. totally dying. ah. and its only the first day of the week. i can totally tell this week is gonna suck. oh boy. i feel like im chanting or something. whatever. read part of my new book today too. empress orchid. its pretty okay. but some parts are kinda lengthy. ohwells. i finally reigned in my email today too. its a wild forest there man. hms... dunno what else to say. think i'll just go study. or at least try to... this is such a depressing blue day. sighs.

7 things i can learn from my friends;
1. like ARABELLE i could learn the art of being mysterious
eg. getting loads of guys and then turning all of them down(:

2. like BRIDGET i could learn the art of laughing at ones' self
eg. falling down and laughing hysterically even though no one understands why(:

3. like JEYUN i could learn the art of hiding one's true self
eg. say go to pjc together than pangseh me go ngee ann(: (jk)

4. like KIMBERLY i could learn the art of whining
eg. wait this doesn't need an example(: (nk)

5. like MUNIRAH i could learn the art of selective hearing
eg. she only hears the 'juicy' stuff and shuts off the rest. including her phone(:

6. like STEFFI i could learn the art of not caring what other people think
eg. doing stupid things. duh. no further elaboration(:

7. like WEIXIN i could learn the art of being nonchalent
eg. being a guy(:

when you look me in the eyes
and tell me that you love me
everythings alright
when youre right here by me side

when you look me in the eyes
i catch a glimpse of heaven
i find my paradise
when you look me in the eyes

SORRY blas! ahs(: its been ages since i last checked my mail... so sorry!
ahhs... ive been such a wreck lately. its been like busy busy busy. plus my music theory exam is like coming up in TWO weeks or something. and im totally NOT prepared. and i have tons of homework due tmr. and im not even halfway through it man. gawd this is so tiring. hms... yesterday was PLANNING to do it... but there was seriously no time. cos went to buy new uniforms. hee. got them already. well its kinda stupid cos we went to the teck whye one first. but they were like have to order and wait ages. so me and my mum went to the shaw centre one. which awesomely had stock. WHOOTS. plus everyone was like theres no more stock. but well youre wrong dudes. (: after that had sakae for dinner. awesome man. i totally love sakae. bought a new book from borders too. (: wanted to get my sketchbook from there too... but sadly couldnt find any. BUT i did find the grid notebook that i was finding for WHOOTS. hee. i was searching for it for ages lar. who knew it was actually sold at borders. GAWD. so far yet so near. totally understand that now. (: today after cell went to eat at jenny's parents korean restaurant. its calle dOUR FOOD STORY rice cup its near doby gaut. or how ever you spell it. the kimchis pretty good. and the prices are amazingly affordable. hahas. im like advertising for her or something man. anyways its at
8 Wilkie Road,
#01-18 Wilkie Edge,
Singapore 228095,
TEL: 6884-4620
Buisness Time 11:00 AM ~ 9:30 PM
well (: okays now im gonna TRY to finish my homework. (: ohwells... i predict i have a 80% chance of falling sick tmr. hee~

i told myself at the beginning of this year i wouldnt have regrets...
and i intend to fufill that...
no matter how hard it maybe...

im like totally confused now. im stuck between two possibilities;
one who was totally ignoring me but now is totally friendly
the other was was totally friendly but now is totally ignoring me
...
such a sad life i live

we passed by the hallway and refused to acknowledge one another;
its getting from bad to worse

im just gonna be normal, calm and collected.
and im gonna just think of stupid ass friends who never grew up,
but of whom i still love.

OMG i do NOT like him kay. i just think hes sorta cute and nice. i SO do not like him. gawd. like random people kept coming up to me and asking if i liked him. AHS. okay im like stressed. D. O. E. anyways its the third week of school and im ALREADY dying. its just so darn tiring. goshes. plus started choir this week. whoots. yay. hee(: its kinda fun. although i like cant really sing and all. hahas. im just croaking to what everyone else is singing. WHATEVER(: today was a good and bad day. gawd. i dunno what to say. yesterday sucked though. i was like in a bad mood the whole day. hahas. i think my old habits are playing up and all. becoming emo and self indulgent. (: hms... learnt something else today(: whee. been 'learning' alot lately. and i seriously think i DO have a sixth sense. or at least its been super accurate ever since i came to pjc. hee(: im gooood. hms today was a calling day too. called loads of people. or at least TRIED to call. muni always refuses to answer my calls. im pissed at her. hahas. i realised that ever since pjc ive been actually USING my phone loads. hahas. wow right. i guess its cos you know. last time everyone was at school and all and seriously theres nothing much to call and all. but know we're like all seperate. hahas. its kinda sad but i dunno... new? whatever. i realised i DO like talking on the phone... i think this is a realising post man. like so many i realised...s... ohwells. bushed out. gonna seriously sleep. whee~ nights.

im happy to see that youve moved on
but it sucks to see that im no longer a part of you..

Smile - Lily Allen


When you first left me I was wanting more
But you were fucking that girl next door, what cha do that for (what cha do that for)
When you first left me I didn't know what to say
I never been on my own that way, just sat by myself all day

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

Whenever you see me you say that you want me back
And I tell you it don't mean jack, no it don't mean jack
I couldn't stop laughing, no I just couldn't help myself
See you messed up my mental health I was quite unwell

I was so lost back then
But with a little help from my friends
I found a light in the tunnel at the end
Now you're calling me up on the phone
So you can have a little whine and a moan
And it's only because you're feeling alone

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala lalala

At first when I see you cry,
yeah it makes me smile, yeah it makes my smile
At worst I feel bad for a while,
but then I just smile I go ahead and smile

lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala

Littlest Things - Lily Allen


Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too.

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things are reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
There's no one in the world that could replace you

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you feel the same way too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

i have FINALLY finally changed my skin
WHOOTS
(: aint it preetty

i am seriously such a bitch. i know i should stop calling myself that and all. cos you know the whole self prophecy thing. but seriously. ahs. i know i shouldnt be so judgemental and all but sometimes i really cant help it ya know.... AHHH

she has girls school written all over her

im being ignored on vday...

it rocks being trusted and told stuff. hees(:
it sorta sucks that i cant tell anyone but i WONT anyways.
im resposible.
ohyeah man.
but im gonna say some stuff here anyway
and if it doesnt make much sense
ignore me
AS USUAL
kay im already not making sense...

#1; my dear dont ever let go kays. both of you are just precious. and dont feel pressurised just cos you think theyre all better than you. theyre NOT. you rock kay. and hold on tight. tell the others to just piss off. love you always. and if he ever EVER betrays you or whatever. tell me and i'll bash him for you

#2; if you dont like dont like him. you cant just lead him on cos you feel bad and hes pathetic. we must totally be honest kay. and believe in GOD. yeah man. love you loads. DO THE RIGHT THING! and follow your heart. not his pathetic im so pathetic face/look. you can ALWAYS confide in me. no matter what babe(:

#3; try to aim for below 10 babe. alalala lalalala. hao ma? whoa. that was pretty good eh. haha. betcha no one would catch that. plus i totally support the lalas. love ya. whee~

kays im about done. the rest is like totally personal i cant even say a speck. sharks. and im not wierd... im eccentric(:

Lets Get Loud - Jennifer Lopez


HEE(: i think this has officially become the pjc song man. WHOOTS. anyways...
HAPPY VALENTINES DAY! whee~
loveydovey loveydovey.
hahas. dunno why im whee happy today. i mean its not like i have a date. and SOMEONE is freaking ignoring me today. but maybe its the whole love atmosphere yeah. hee. anyways today went for BREAKOUT. freaking awesome man. and the bods., gawd. awe-some. went with mi. hahas. i was like make sure you get that kinda bod in the future man. and he was like lets run tmr. hahs. like he'll ever do it. xD after that went to newyork newyork. the crepe was yum-my. plus it was totally stuffing. the portions are HUGE man. (:
okays now i'll talk about school(:
orientationn was pretty awesome. (self reminder; i need to stop using the word awesome) last night was super crazy and all. plus totally tiring. but in a good way(: i think i lost hell load of calories last night man. what with all the jumping and shouting. but i think i put them all back today anyway. and my class IS a science class. 09S29 (: its a pretty awesome class. i just dont get the i take arts but im in a science class thing. totally doesnt make sense. plus we're like the second last class. so if the do the whole first class first serve thing you can imagine where we are. anyways as i was saying. i guess my class is okay. i mean we're not tight TIGHT. but we'll get there(: ohwells. whee~
lalalalala~
after orientation gathered with the girls to take pics. i think im gonna miss them; kay, illya, shanthini, serene, chiew kei. sighs. well technically i cant call them my og girls. cos well not all of them are from my og. cos chiew kei is illyas friend and serene is kays friend. hahas. its pretty amazing huh. how we all got together. and even though weve known each other for like what 2 weeks? it just clicks ya know XD but ohwells. we're all not gonna be in the same class so we'll probably see each other lesser. SADLY. ohwells. DARS. love you guys. whee~

okay now i officially love jimmy eat world. and its one of the few bands of whom which mi recommended that i actually like. the rest are like screaming and LOUD. i'd get deaf other ONE song. plus he was like its not loud. when i jam its ten times louder. okay mi. get it. youre deaf too. neways love jimmy eat world. plus their songs are easy to sing. whee~ im gonna go force mi to take songs from his mates. hee.

Work - Jimmy Eat World


If you only once would let me
Only just one time
Then be happy with the consequence
With whatever's gonna happen tonight
Don't think we're not serious
When's it ever not
The love we make is give and it's take
I'm game to play along

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time

oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh oh oh

All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Yeah - We still have time

oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)

Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
We still have time

oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh

AH. i hate myself for being such a whiny hypocritical bitch shit. if i could turn back time. i would go back and slap myself silly. gosh sometimes i really hate myself. well at least im honest bout it yeah...

my music man
artist friend

mi burned his lips. and now theyre like angelina jolie sexy. but seriously. how he even BURNED them in the first place is a mystery. neways today was kinda slack. whee~ lunched with kay, illya, shantini and chiew kei. it was kinda fun(: yay. after that went back to school to buy uniforms. when we left for lunch the queue was like SUPER long. retartedly long. and when me and illya went back... we still had to queue for like 20 mins. met xiang there. he had been queueing even longer than us. HAH. and when we reached the desk. they were freaking out of stock. they didnt even have SAMPLE sizes. which sucked. but managed to buy ONE shirt at least. so it was somewhat fruitful but still ultimately useless. got our classes today. dont know ANYONE inside at all. sharks. cept bertram i guess. but still. tmrs orientation! ah. cant wait. hee~ hope the class is nice. oh pleaase! hms. munis my calling buddy this week. hahas. shes like super busybody and cant wait for school to start lar. my dear ENJOY your holidays while you can. hms. oh and i got into choir! yay. they called to tell me i passed the auditions which i thought was pretty nice. hee~ i was super worried i couldnt get in lar. since i wasnt from choir and all. plus i only signed up for one cca. but YAY. one less thing to worry bout. today also spent time with michelle. i think both she and her guy are like soo cute together. i feel kinda bad cos i kept tagging her and she couldnt spend quality time with her guy. hahas(: hms. i learnt something today. but i cant say a speck bout it. which sucks. ohwells. im determined to study today. or at least TOUCH my notes. everyone is like studying and im like study what. gawd. motivation! i need MOTIVATION. yeah right(:

yay todays a happy day. went out with the girls today. GAWD i miss you guys so much(: aww. hee. and i bought couple pens (i will ALWAYS think of you my dear. whether you like it anot. because my pen misses your pencil. HAH) and discovered this awesome shop that is from now onwards gonna be called my notebook store. im gonna be getting ALL my notebooks from there. seriously it is just that great. hms had salmon sushi. YAY. hadnt had it for ages man. it tasted goood. yums. hms. the whole week had been super duper hectic. and tiring. like i come home i sleep. i get up go school than come home sleep. like got no life lar. geez. thats why i couldnt blog and all. cos i was THAT tired. i have no idea how i'll keep this up as the year progresses with all the homework and cca and stuff. ohyeah i have officially decided to join choir. well i was the only cca i signed up for. so there isnt really a choice. anyway i went for auditions and it was okay. so i think i'll get in. hms. yesterday had 'thildas bday party. she gets cuter and cuter each day. like DUH. she follows me. hahas(: shopped super long for her present. i practically walked round the whole of lot1 TWICE. which come to think of it is really stupid. because the first thing i went into was minitoons and the last was still minitoons where i ended up BUYING it. so really all the time in between is wasted. anyway i bought her this really cute white stuffed dog. and stickers. cos shes in the whole sticker faze now. but hey i havent gotten out of the faze yet. (: so whatever. and guess what her dad gave her. a psp. like seriously. shes only 6. how the hell would she even know how to on the thing. i bet he just bought it in HER name but HES using it. hahas. hms. oh i got my subjects already. i cant believe im taking art again. gawd. you would think i'd learn my lesson but nooo. so ohwells. im taking h2 math econ art and h1 history. im pretty sad about dropping lit for art though. i mean i love art and all. but the lit teacher is super fun and the so are the people in the class. ohwells. what to do. they wont let me take both. hahs. plus they subject label/combi they put me under is like mpe. which is a science class i think. kay i know im making this into this ultra big fuss. but im seriously like huh. and not too happy about it. but what to do. (: neways gotta go snooze in afew. jc life is really tiring me out. and its only the first week. God save me.

My Life Would Suck Without You - Kelly Clarkson


Guess this means you’re sorry
You’re standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you’d never come back
But here you are again

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin’ to pick a fight
I know that I’ve got issues
But you’re pretty messed up too
Eitherway, I found out I’m nothing without you

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Being with you is so dysfunctional
I really shouldn’t miss you, but I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

Cuz we belong together now
Forever united here somehow
You got a piece of me
And honestly
My life would suck without you

Sorry Seems To Be The Hardest Word - Blue, Elton John


What I gotta do to make you love me?
What I gotta do to make you care?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
And I wake to find that you're not there?

What I gotta do to make you want me?
What I gotta do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

What do I do to make you want me?
What I gotta do to be heard?
What do I say when it's all over?
Sorry seems to be the hardest word.

It's sad, so sad
It's a sad, sad situation.
And it's getting more and more absurd.
It's sad, so sad
Why can't we talk it over?
Oh it seems to me
That sorry seems to be the hardest word.

Yeh. Sorry

What I gotta do to make you love me?
What I gotta do to be heard?
What do I do when lightning strikes me?
What have I got to do?
What have I got to do?
When sorry seems to be the hardest word.

AH i found out something
CX got into TPJC!
and he got ONE point lesser than me only
stingypokers man
AH stupid shorty!
KIDDING!
okay maybe not

Jasmine C
09.04.1992

i'd run with the wind beneath my wings
but i'd fall

i say the night is young.
you say the night is beautiful.
what does the night say?


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