the sound of your serenade from the open window.
Thursday, July 13, 2006
you know sometimes when you go through some tough spot in life . when God puts soo many bitches and morons in your life . and you dont know why . i guess God is like possing me a challenge . you know . see how strong i'll be . lifes been pretty bad this pass few weeks . with the whole new term and stuff . i feel totally alienated from this world . like schools been a drag . i just walk through it without much caring . and now i've learnt there really is no TRUSTWORTHY friend out there . like everyone is suddenly backstabbing me . right in front of my face . couldn't they have more decency ? sharks . man im in such a pessismistic mood . but at least family's still the same . nagging and scoldings . my lifes just this whole mess . and now i feel so OUT with my class . dont know why . plus my soo called "good pals" been so distant nowadays . we hardly talk . and its like really sad . maybe that WILL be my life from now on . just dragging it through life . i really can't seem to be bothered anymore . i want to just concentrate on my studies and go home every day . cos when i concentrate on my studies . i wont have to think of other stuff . then i can go home and lock myself in the room . and just space and dream . sometimes i just feel like staying in my room forever you know ? then i wont have to go out to face the cold and cruel world . or maybe i should start that project my mums been nagging me about . then it will distract me from other stuff huh . anyways the new projects about me going to lots of classes . design jewellry . or shoes o . or clothes . then selling it on the web . but of cos we still need to create the website . which is probably gonna take time and money . which come to think of it is good . then i'll earn money . and not have time to think about those bitches and morons . sighs . im such a failure . sharkses .
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