the sound of your serenade from the open window.
Monday, September 25, 2006
damn . ive just been so stressed lately . and if i dont show it out i doesnt mean im not ok . like i tell pple im stressed and they just laugh it off . like hell . and if i just you keep quiet . pple are like all . whats wrong with you today . cant a person have an off day . damn im pissed . with like the exams nearing and everything . ahhs . why is everything so darn complicated . why cant we just be like the stone ages . you know . just hunting eating and sleeping . instead of studying so damn hard . just to what ? show pple youre smart ? loads of pple say that its to earn more money . but whats the use of soo much money huh . its just to show off in the end right . duh . why do you think nobody wants to become a cleaner ? they earn money too . its just lesser . damnit . yeah and theres another problem too . everybody seems to be getting closer to God . even that big flirting asshole . hes now singing praises to God . but how do you get closer to him ? ive tried . but ive never been able to actually connect . in my whole life . ive only felt his presence once . and that was at the camp . the race . that was one heck of a spiritual camp . but after that it kind of . i dont know . cooled down ? like now i dont even want to go to church . im actually dreading it . man . whats happening to me .
you have no idea how many nights ive cried myself to sleep. saying to myself that tmr it will be a better day. but it never is. and looks like it never will be.
words spilled @ 3:34 PM /
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